Karma

smoontjes
2024-08-12T21:32:09Z

Content warning: child sexual abuse, death

I hadn't even hit puberty when you did those things to me. My friend concisely called them unacceptable and we can leave it at that.

When you got your girlfriend pregnant, I had to pretend to be happy.

But were you going to do the same things to him that you did to me?

It was going to be my fault if you did, because I could have spoken up and prevented it, but I'm not sure I was going to.

I'm not sure I'm even all that traumatized, so you can just live your life and be happy.

I mean yeah I've been in therapy ever since and my ex broke up because of it and I don't really function.

But who knows if that's your fault, maybe it was the bullying or the neglect or the isolation or the dysphoria.

So who am I to blow up the whole family with accusations?

I brought it up that one time and hinted at it but you said you didn't know what I was talking about.

Who would even believe me after all these years?

The boy was born six weeks early and there was wires and tubes and water in the lungs.

A week later they said he wasn't going to make it.

Now your baby is dead and I have to pretend to care.

Maybe I'm a bad person.

But the first thing I thought was "karma".

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