12 votes

my therapist won't return my calls (lmfao fuck me)

tw: self-harm; suicide; lost love.

i hit my cigarette

like an abuser hits her wife

because i'm a fucking coward

to afraid to take his life

i've felt love before

i beg it through the strife

but i only find a heart

at the wrong side of a blunt and useless knife

.

and it's only mine

at least there's proof

that i can feel

when blood protrudes.

but that's not "work appropriate"

so i get tattoos

what a shame i can't get paid to die.

4 comments

  1. [3]
    Bishop
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    i remember waking up after driving my car into the side of the highway writhing in hosptial "my, my, my, god it hurts!" why why why wasn't it worse? i could've died, died, died, gone home in a...

    i remember waking up after driving my car into the side of the highway

    writhing in hosptial "my, my, my,

    god it hurts!"

    why why why

    wasn't it worse?

    i could've died, died, died,

    gone home in a hearse.

    and my poor old mother

    would be lost for words.
    .

    .

    .

    i thought the medicine would work.

    .

    not a single one checks on me now.

    scarce see a post

    of mine as they browse

    they'll send a text

    "you still around?"

    i beg of you, come hold me now,

    .

    but you won't, you have a point

    in the morning, work

    or just had a joint

    and you don't feel like you can drive

    but i want to die

    don't let me die.

    please give a call

    and say my name

    please rub my chest,

    "it won't be the same"

    tell me it'll change

    tell me it'll change

    i've gone insane

    i've gone insane.

    i don't need love

    i just need care

    one single comebody there

    to kiss my cheek

    to pet my hair

    and say they swear

    i'll be safe, there, thare.

    6 votes
    1. [2]
      Bishop
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      god, bless you fuck you i love you, i envy you normal people.

      god, bless you

      fuck you

      i love you,

      i envy you

      normal people.

      6 votes
  2. Nivlak
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    I dig it man. Keep it coming.

    I dig it man. Keep it coming.

    2 votes