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  1. Comment on How to find purpose in life? in ~life

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    Yeah, I have a tendency to have high expectations of myself. My self-compassion is definitely in the works as it was not great before (still isn't now really haha). I appreciate your insight and...

    Yeah, I have a tendency to have high expectations of myself. My self-compassion is definitely in the works as it was not great before (still isn't now really haha).

    I appreciate your insight and kind words as you really hit the nail on some things (like my expectations and beating myself up over things). I guess I just haven't given myself time to properly grieve (both the past and honestly what it entails for my future) after receiving both diagnoses. Sometimes I get exhausted after working/fighting so hard against the challenges and struggles that come with these diagnoses, but it is encouraging to know that things get better with time (and hopefully easier!) and that it pays off. Thank you for taking the time to write out this response.

    I'm wishing you well too kind stranger.

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  2. Comment on How to find purpose in life? in ~life

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    Thank you, your response helped me to remember to be patient and compassionate with myself. Interestingly enough I have one of the books you mentioned (The Bhagavad Gita translated by Eknath...

    Thank you, your response helped me to remember to be patient and compassionate with myself. Interestingly enough I have one of the books you mentioned (The Bhagavad Gita translated by Eknath Easwaran) and I really enjoy Camus' absurdist perspective/take, but never quite got around to reading his books so I'll probably start with those two in terms of books you suggested (though I am curious as to what order you recommend I go through these books).
    As for everything else, I will definitely look at making changes to my diet overtime, drink more water and pick up my (now lost) habit of doing yoga in the mornings. I really do appreciate the time you took to create this response and I've already found myself coming back to it multiple times for guidance of sorts so once again, thank you.

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  3. How to find purpose in life?

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    I often think about the purpose and/or meaning of life and I've been struggling to work through these thoughts lately. As I teen I've had these thoughts often, but after experiencing my first...

    I often think about the purpose and/or meaning of life and I've been struggling to work through these thoughts lately. As I teen I've had these thoughts often, but after experiencing my first manic episode (that led to psychosis) back in August 2022, the question of "What's the point?" pops into my head quite frequently.

    Alongside this I've been struggling to come to terms with my new diagnosis of 'Bipolar Type I with psychotic features' as I've already been diagnosed with ADHD back in 2017 and I realize that both of these are life-long diagnoses. I know I just have to learn how to live with them, but that's been a tough pill to swallow.

    I should mention that I'm not suicidal or anything, but rather I feel hollow and numb inside as I am very unfulfilled with life. Some days are okay and I'm still functioning and taking care of myself (so it's not like a full-blown depression), but as I mentioned before, I just don't see the point in all of this and don't find many things to be worthwhile or enjoyable anymore.

    Basically I feel like a shell of my former self after my episode and have found much difficulty in enjoying the things I liked before from hobbies, to music and even food (I was a highly food-driven person). It's definitely much better than it was immediately after my episode, but it's as though life has been sucked out of me and I'm just going through the motions of living because it's what I'm supposed to do. I know recovery takes time, but it's been nearly 2 years since my episode and I thought this feeling would go away by now...

    (I've also been seeing a counselor and OT and am doing things such as CBT and ACT which helped a bit, but not enough as I am here asking questions on an online forum seeking help).

    If you have any advice on how to work through this it would be appreciated.

    EDIT (12/6/24): I wanted to say thank you to all the responses and advice given. I may not have replied to everyone, but just know that I have been reading the comments and I do appreciate them :)

    46 votes

  4. What Is A Secure Note-Taking App?

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    I've been using Google's Keep Notes for all my note-taking, but I would like to shift away from that and use an app that is more secure. I've heard of Notion and Evernote but I'm not sure about...

    I've been using Google's Keep Notes for all my note-taking, but I would like to shift away from that and use an app that is more secure. I've heard of Notion and Evernote but I'm not sure about their level of security/encryption. Any suggestions?

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  5. Comment on Tildes Book Club - Check in Feb 8 2024 - How are things going? in ~books

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    I put the book on hold at the library and it's now ready for pick-up. I intend to grab it tomorrow and start reading :)

    I put the book on hold at the library and it's now ready for pick-up. I intend to grab it tomorrow and start reading :)

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  6. Comment on What are you reading these days? in ~books

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    Recently, I finished I Know Why the Caged Birds Sing by Maya Angelou and Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury. The books were interesting reads and I enjoyed the storytelling of both authors. (I'm...

    Recently, I finished I Know Why the Caged Birds Sing by Maya Angelou and Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury. The books were interesting reads and I enjoyed the storytelling of both authors. (I'm actually thinking of starting a blog for fun where I review/discuss/analyze the books that I've read, but I'm still trying to work out the details of that.)

    As for my following reads, I was considering Gather Together in My Name, also by Maya Angelou, as it's the second book in her autobiography series. Then there's the Tildes Book Club book, Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell. It's the first book to be discussed (in early March) so I think I'll be reading that as well.

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  7. Comment on Blogging recommendations? in ~tech

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    Thank you, I'll check those guides out! I've heard of GitHub, but I haven't gotten a chance to click around and actually use it. I'm currently working through the Full Stack Engineer path on...

    Thank you, I'll check those guides out!

    I've heard of GitHub, but I haven't gotten a chance to click around and actually use it. I'm currently working through the Full Stack Engineer path on Codecademy and am at the section about 'Developing Websites Locally' and 'Deploying Websites' so I think most of what you talked about will make more sense once I get through that, but I think I get the gist of what you're saying.

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  9. Comment on Blogging recommendations? in ~tech

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    If I struggle to figure out how to host via GitHub I'll definitely check this out! Thank you!

    If I struggle to figure out how to host via GitHub I'll definitely check this out! Thank you!

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  10. Comment on Blogging recommendations? in ~tech

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    Noted, thank you! I'll look more into hosting using GitHub.

    Noted, thank you! I'll look more into hosting using GitHub.

  11. Comment on Blogging recommendations? in ~tech

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    I haven't heard of Jekyll, but I will look into it, thank you! I'm still new to coding so it might be a bit tricky for me, but once I familiarize myself with markdown and/or GitHub is it alright...

    I haven't heard of Jekyll, but I will look into it, thank you!
    I'm still new to coding so it might be a bit tricky for me, but once I familiarize myself with markdown and/or GitHub is it alright if I reach out to get more information about Jekyll/ask questions?

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  12. Comment on Blogging recommendations? in ~tech

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    Awesome thank you! I've actually been learning to code so this is perfect! It never crossed my mind to start a blog via GitHub. Do you have any tips/pointers for getting my blog up and running...

    Awesome thank you! I've actually been learning to code so this is perfect! It never crossed my mind to start a blog via GitHub.
    Do you have any tips/pointers for getting my blog up and running (I'm still relatively new to coding) or direct me somewhere that could answer any questions I have?

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  13. Comment on Tildes Book Club - Spring schedule (Updated Feb 2, 2:19 UTC) in ~books

  15. Comment on Tildes Book Club - Spring schedule (Updated Feb 2, 2:19 UTC) in ~books

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    I know that the titles are unique enough that it's hard to pick up the wrong book, but would you be able to put the authors for each of the books listed just to avoid any mix ups?

    I know that the titles are unique enough that it's hard to pick up the wrong book, but would you be able to put the authors for each of the books listed just to avoid any mix ups?

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  16. Comment on Did the future already happen? - The paradox of time in ~science

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    Just finished watching this video by Kurzgesagt - In a Nutshell and was curious about what people thought. How do you see time?

    Just finished watching this video by Kurzgesagt - In a Nutshell and was curious about what people thought. How do you see time?

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  18. What is something someone has said that stuck with you?

    ~life Ask (survey)
    One time I asked someone what they thought about the phrase "people are temporary" and it ended with them telling me: I don't like saying goodbye to people because I don't know if it's going to be...

    One time I asked someone what they thought about the phrase "people are temporary" and it ended with them telling me:

    I don't like saying goodbye to people because I don't know if it's going to be the last time.

    That just stuck with me and really got me thinking how precious our time is.

    54 votes

  19. What has helped you improve your relationships?

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    Be it books, advice, tips, quotes, movies, activities, etc. Just anything that might've stuck and gave a new perspective on how to approach relationships. Specifically looking for things to help...

    Be it books, advice, tips, quotes, movies, activities, etc. Just anything that might've stuck and gave a new perspective on how to approach relationships.

    Specifically looking for things to help improve relationships with family (parents & siblings), but honestly advice for any relationship is welcome (friends, partners, etc.).

    Also thoughts on how/when to address topics such as mental health, diagnoses and sexuality or if they should be addressed at all.

    Thanks

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  20. What are some good questions for self-reflection?

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    With the year and decade coming to an end, I wanted to do a self interview/reflection. I'm basically looking for questions that address the past, present and future. Questions that help reflect or...

    With the year and decade coming to an end, I wanted to do a self interview/reflection. I'm basically looking for questions that address the past, present and future. Questions that help reflect or set goals are nice, but anything goes really. This was inspired by Vanity Fair's yearly interview with Billie Eilish, but I also love reflecting on the past and need for structure by setting goals for the future. Plus what better time to do this with the new year and decade coming up?

    What I'd like to do is ask myself these questions on a yearly basis, but this one might be longer as I'd put questions that will address things 5 & 10 years from now.

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