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  1. Comment on Don't blame Dostoyevsky - Culture, too, is a casualty of war in ~humanities

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    I honestly thought Tildes would be a bit less hyperbolic and more tolerant of other people's opinions. Reading these comments, it seems like you guys completely want to censor any Russian...

    I honestly thought Tildes would be a bit less hyperbolic and more tolerant of other people's opinions. Reading these comments, it seems like you guys completely want to censor any Russian literature works. That's a big yikes from me.

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  2. Comment on What’s something that deserves more appreciation? in ~talk

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    Showing affection between men is very common and culturally accepted in South Asian societies and cultures. I don't know the exact reason for that, but it does exist, especially among the rural...

    Showing affection between men is very common and culturally accepted in South Asian societies and cultures. I don't know the exact reason for that, but it does exist, especially among the rural folks which I really, really appreciate. Moving from a village to an expensive city at an early age was a huge challenge for me, but the biggest challenge was me not being comfortable in my own skin and making genuine friends was what I struggled with most. When I was small, I did not think much of it. But going from being physically affectionate towards your friends to not being able to connect to your city friends because of economic class difference was a waking lesson for me.

    A few days ago, I met one of my childhood friends who had come to the city for his studies, and I was hoping we'd have such a blast of a time and be comfortable with each other. Maybe it was the distance, maybe it was the age, but man was it hard being comfortable around him and others. He was so comfortable with me and was constantly trying to be close to me, but I couldn't even move an inch without being uncomfortable about touching. I felt so bad for him. You could clearly see who was anxious and who was confident. I miss him so much, I wanted to talk to him so much yet, I couldn't do it. Showing physical affection is what I miss so much, and what I so much appreciate in my society and culture.

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  3. Comment on What did you do this week (and weekend)? in ~talk

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    Thank you, I will definitely check it out. I may play it out online, but I don't think it's doable in the game jam since it is only of 3 hours :( It has an interesting format: 3 speakers (pre...

    there's a site called Board Game Arena which has access to loads of games for free, with good instructions.

    Thank you, I will definitely check it out.

    DnD is fantastic to get into; it's one of those hobbies that kind of lends itself to whatever your budget is. Want to spend $0 and have fun? There's Roll20 and countless other descriptions of the player's handbook and dungeon master's guide online for free, and free tools to play games.

    I may play it out online, but I don't think it's doable in the game jam since it is only of 3 hours :(

    For the public speaking club are you preparing something beforehand and reading it out, or are you given something to read, or... or what is the format? It sounds interesting.

    It has an interesting format: 3 speakers (pre decided, self decided and impromptu) are selected the last week and they have to speak about the topic in front of the club. Then there are commentators for each speakers who offer their speaking and their content critique and feedback, along with time keepers, grammarians (the IRONY), etc. It definitely is a very productive format, I really like it but most people don't really get to speak. You have to attend at least 3 sessions of the club before you can be considered being member of the club, then you can choose your own roles like co-ordinators, managers, etc. It's tons of fun.

    I attended both the club and game jam today. Game Jam was really fun and I was more social today than before, club was fun too but I had an anxiety attack in the break in the cafeteria, which was NOT fun lmao.

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  4. Comment on What did you do this week (and weekend)? in ~talk

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    I actually don't have much experience with board games. We played Uno, Mastermind, 4Connect, all of which were tons of fun! I have always wanted to play DnD, and I think we'll be playing Monopoly...

    I actually don't have much experience with board games. We played Uno, Mastermind, 4Connect, all of which were tons of fun! I have always wanted to play DnD, and I think we'll be playing Monopoly this week.

    We did play a little Asphalt on the Switch which was tons of fun. Took some getting used to (I hadn't played on Switch before) and then I quickly became one of the better players.

    The public reading (hah!) club is a lot of fun too, I know one guy in there from the game jam so it isn't as awkward. I even told a joke in the first session which made everyone laugh :)

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  5. Comment on What did you do this week (and weekend)? in ~talk

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    Hey, thank you for replying to my comment, it means a lot :) Thank you so much for this, it makes me feel a little comforting :) It's not a public reading club, it's a public speaking club. I'm...

    Hey, thank you for replying to my comment, it means a lot :)

    You are enough. As is, just the way you are, you are good and deserve good things, just for being you. It can be hard to understand that, but sometimes a random internet stranger can give you some clarity, so maybe I can do that for you. Whether you study for your CS undergrad entrance exam, or join a gym or not, or work out: You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody.

    Thank you so much for this, it makes me feel a little comforting :)

    Personally, I'd love to read more about the public reading club and the game jam - did you make a game?

    It's not a public reading club, it's a public speaking club. I'm just trying to be more social and trying to get out of my comfort zone more so I joined the club. Game Jam is where you come together and play different board games and/or video games, not make a new one. It's really fun and sometimes we do game-a-thons with different teams, our team won last time ;)

    Last week was a little better than other weeks spent rotting in bed.

    3 votes
  6. Comment on What did you do this week (and weekend)? in ~talk

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    Hey everyone. I'm not active on Tildes but I do visit and read this site pretty often. These days I'm not doing well. A personal 'heartbreak' and some family problems have started triggering...

    Hey everyone. I'm not active on Tildes but I do visit and read this site pretty often. These days I'm not doing well. A personal 'heartbreak' and some family problems have started triggering anxiety attacks in me again, but I am trying my earnest to fight it since medication and therapy isn't an option for me (I'm from a third world country). I also have to study for the entrance exam for my CS undergrad but I just don't want to study these days. Days are monotonous, friends are going away, some don't care, and it sucks. I was fine with being lonely for 1.5 years but now I've been feeling extremely lonely and apathetic these days. It ranges from me not wanting to talk about anything to me whoring myself out to strangers on the Internet (not in a sexual way) just so that I could have someone to talk to distract myself from my current problems.

    I'm feeling like a freeloader for my parents so I'm also searching for a tutor job these days to not depend upon them so much. I'll be joining gym from tomorrow. I hope things get better. One good thing that has been happening is that I'm going outside more than I normally do. I attended a public speaking club and a game jam today, both were extremely fun. It's still hard for me to make good friends tho. There's this looming loneliness in my heart that I can't seem to get rid of. Let's see what the coming weeks hold. I hope I start getting better.

    How was your week? I hope it went well :)

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  7. Comment on What childhood beliefs or misconceptions took you an embarrassing time to figure out? in ~talk

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    They'd probably realize after they enter their teenage I guess? You interact with other people and they'll probably be confused why you are calling apple blue. They'd believe it in their childhood...

    They'd probably realize after they enter their teenage I guess? You interact with other people and they'll probably be confused why you are calling apple blue. They'd believe it in their childhood tho.

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  8. Comment on What childhood beliefs or misconceptions took you an embarrassing time to figure out? in ~talk

  9. Comment on What childhood beliefs or misconceptions took you an embarrassing time to figure out? in ~talk

  10. Comment on What childhood beliefs or misconceptions took you an embarrassing time to figure out? in ~talk

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    I used to think that people in the past used to LIVE in black and white, and that colors somehow magically appeared out of nowhere in the last 30 years. I think I was 9 when I realized that that...

    I used to think that people in the past used to LIVE in black and white, and that colors somehow magically appeared out of nowhere in the last 30 years. I think I was 9 when I realized that that wasn't true.

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  11. Comment on Microsoft trying to kill HDD boot drives by 2023: Report in ~comp

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    I am a 19 year old and I have a 12 year old PC, and I have replaced the CPU once in these 12 years. I only have 518GB HDD, and it still works perfectly, no problem. I would love to have a SSD too...

    I am a 19 year old and I have a 12 year old PC, and I have replaced the CPU once in these 12 years. I only have 518GB HDD, and it still works perfectly, no problem. I would love to have a SSD too but this PC is really a temporary measure for now, although I don't know for how long......

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  12. Comment on What programming/technical projects have you been working on? in ~comp

  13. Comment on What programming/technical projects have you been working on? in ~comp

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    Wow. How did you manage to do it on just 3 weeks of studying Python? I was still struggling with recursion and looping while learning in in ~2 weeks.

    Wow. How did you manage to do it on just 3 weeks of studying Python? I was still struggling with recursion and looping while learning in in ~2 weeks.

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  14. Comment on Any good non-fiction recommendations? in ~books

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    I will have to check if it's available. Thanks for the recommendation!

    I will have to check if it's available. Thanks for the recommendation!

  15. Comment on Any good non-fiction recommendations? in ~books

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    I'm also interested a lot in trains and rails and such. So, I think I'll like this book!

    I'm also interested a lot in trains and rails and such. So, I think I'll like this book!

  16. Comment on Any good non-fiction recommendations? in ~books

  17. Comment on Any good non-fiction recommendations? in ~books

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    This is a very comprehensive and thorough recommendation, thank you so much. I have also been meaning to read meditations but sadly, online reading doesn't really do it for me, I much more prefer...

    This is a very comprehensive and thorough recommendation, thank you so much. I have also been meaning to read meditations but sadly, online reading doesn't really do it for me, I much more prefer to be things in my hand. The Selfish Gene and The Dictator's Handbook definitely seem much more interesting so I'll have to check if those books are available. Thanks a lot!

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  18. Comment on Any good non-fiction recommendations? in ~books

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    I gotta admit, I'm not too familiar with philosophy so this definitely looks a lot more accessible than other 'philosophy' books.

    I gotta admit, I'm not too familiar with philosophy so this definitely looks a lot more accessible than other 'philosophy' books.

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  19. Comment on Any good non-fiction recommendations? in ~books

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    The latter one definitely looks more interesting but I'll have to check if that's available in my country (since I'm not from the US). Actually, many of the books recommended here will be hard to...

    The latter one definitely looks more interesting but I'll have to check if that's available in my country (since I'm not from the US). Actually, many of the books recommended here will be hard to find for me :')

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