normal.
hey this is tildes so i should talk about code.
i dont type each >
for the markdown individually.
got a tiny function i wrote that does it for me: https://repl.it/repls/HonoredRubberyProfessional
so there's that for anyone who wants an easier time formatting their thing.
stuff at the bottom. not necessarily inspo. just.
yeah
i just
want to go back
to normal.
normal like in 2016
when i had a little cash
and spent it all
on books, coffee, clothes, teenage shit
i was nineteen
we had yet to meet
back to normal
like the centuries
where i would never be
from the dawn of the earth
up to the nineties.
back to normal
back to friends
back to hobbies and dreams
back to having endless things
that i found exciting
back to normal
when i'd stay up a little late
and fall asleep, be up at 8
and make my coffee
not living in the night,
sleeping in the morning.
.
but the meds are all a hex,
cyanide with side effects
take this pill if you're depressed
now youre a narcoleptic wreck
and your car's a crumpled mess
so momma drives you to your check-
ups full of shit you never said
like how you wanna quit - dead.
because you say something she think
is wrong you end up in the shrink
with all the people with the bigger problems
thrashing as they shriek
and you wake up on a table
see the warden of the clink
shoving hands into your mouth
tryna feed you what they think
'll fix your fucking problems.
hooked - benzodiazepines.
and now you're mellow, now you're numb
for now your skin'll cease to bleed
and still you look around in envy
pretty people - normalcy.
.
i gotta get out this house
get back to normal
maybe she can't find me there.
maybe i can get a text
or get some coffee
breathe, not even care
'bout if i'll turn a cursed corner
see her curly golden hair,
and have a flashback to the nights
spend crying lonely in despair
as she would sit, a room away
sipping vodka in here chair
taking snaps and scrolling insta
for her modelling career
and i would wail my soul would bleed
praying that her heart would hear
and she would get up, come and hold me
stroke my hair like "mama's here."
and i could breathe
our love immortal
i want nothing but a world
where i am back in full control
through death or breath
just make me normal.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NB7RBZ1yGY
I like the poem. Without any details, I can relate to a lot of it.
You should know that if you have a long block of text that is a quote, you can just use
<blockquote>
.