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Famuna LinkAs a young kid I did (around 8-10), as an adult only philosophically. As a kid life was boring. We moved a lot so I didn't have friends, I had ADHD that my parents didn't believe in or tell me...As a young kid I did (around 8-10), as an adult only philosophically.
As a kid life was boring. We moved a lot so I didn't have friends, I had ADHD that my parents didn't believe in or tell me about so school was a struggle, I got in fights at school then got in trouble for that at home despite not starting them. I didn't consider it too seriously because I was afraid of the consequences as they had taught me about hell for suicides and I was afraid of how badly they'd beat me if I failed but I did fantasize about it quite a bit.
I found a couple ways of escape around then luckily. Mostly just reading books 24/7 and also just completely detaching myself emotionally from everything else. Probably extremely unhealthy but it's worked for me, though I still find it impossible to care about most things now (e.g. successes in life, the rat race, companionship, etc).
As an adult I've thought about it philosophically. I think about it as the ultimate inalienable right, but also worry that it might not be possible given Quantum/Subjective immortality. I picked up the skill of picking up hobbies and still find a lot of pleasure in reading and my shitty memory means I can reread the same book again and again so I no longer feel any desire to do it right now but if I lost these pleasures and could find nothing to stave off the perpetual boredom I'd probably book an appointment with Dignitas.
I've heard very good things about the Remarkable e-ink writing tablet and it can read drm-free ePubs and pdfs so it could be a good choice if you don't mind using something like Calibre to convert books. Pretty expensive though.
You may want to consider the Moon+ Reader Pro app though or other similar options too if you're on android as it has features that let you dial in it's theme to exactly whatever look/brightness you're looking for and has text to speech if you really want to avoid screens. I tried the amazon kindle a while back and honestly it was just a chore and the e-ink's slowness made it frustrating to use.