That's great news, I'm very happy for you! Nothing causes existential angst quite like a health problem - with that gone everything else can start falling into place, it's amazing what you can...
That's great news, I'm very happy for you! Nothing causes existential angst quite like a health problem - with that gone everything else can start falling into place, it's amazing what you can achieve when something isn't taking all of your attention and focus.
I think what really changed me was just the constant looming threat* of death. I live alone, so if I were to pass out in sleep, that would just be the end. No one would have known I was dead for...
I think what really changed me was just the constant looming threat* of death. I live alone, so if I were to pass out in sleep, that would just be the end. No one would have known I was dead for weeks. So many nights I'd eat and eat, and blood sugar would still not even be at 55 mg/dl before sleep. Blood sugar under 50 or so is when neuroglycopenia would set in, and my cognitive skills would greatly decline. I just couldn't think correctly, no matter how I tried. It was such a miserable life. If it didn't kill me, I was going to kill myself. I feel so grateful for whatever days I have now free of that misery. But just wondering if you will die in the night is so shattering in a way. Maybe in a good way, I don't know.
Thank you fnulare. It is certainly the best thing that has ever happened in my life, to get that surgery. I could never receive a better gift. It makes me so grateful for modern medicine in a way...
Thank you fnulare. It is certainly the best thing that has ever happened in my life, to get that surgery. I could never receive a better gift. It makes me so grateful for modern medicine in a way that I was not before. I mean I was always grateful, but damn, it is incredible what is possible, and how complex it all is. Just incredible.
I don't have anything more meaningful/appropriate to say... Who did you put in your will and have you thought about how you can be more active in their life now that they won't get objects or...
I don't have anything more meaningful/appropriate to say...
Who did you put in your will and have you thought about how you can be more active in their life now that they won't get objects or money but rather are stuck with you for a while longer?
I had nothing of value to give away in my will except my art supplies, and I was going to donate them to art4epilepsy. i guess making a will was kind of stupid now that i reflect on it. the little...
I had nothing of value to give away in my will except my art supplies, and I was going to donate them to art4epilepsy. i guess making a will was kind of stupid now that i reflect on it. the little bit else i have i set to give to my mom. she's very relieved that i am alive. this put her through hell, because i told her to prepare for my death, and she helped me to sell the stuff, as i couldn't drive anymore. it really stressed her out, and i felt bad for that. life is just strange. short and strange. now i feel bad to keep the art supplies. but there's so much I want to make with them now.
Keep the art supplies, I'm sure everyone at art4epilepsy would rather you use them but maybe you can get involved in other ways? Donate art to their fundraising auctions, that I'm sure they have,...
Keep the art supplies, I'm sure everyone at art4epilepsy would rather you use them but maybe you can get involved in other ways? Donate art to their fundraising auctions, that I'm sure they have, instead and with your story attached they will bring in the mah-neyz!
Give your mom a hug (or equivalent for your relationship and closeness preferences) from yourself everyday and from me today :)
That's great news, I'm very happy for you! Nothing causes existential angst quite like a health problem - with that gone everything else can start falling into place, it's amazing what you can achieve when something isn't taking all of your attention and focus.
I think what really changed me was just the constant looming threat* of death. I live alone, so if I were to pass out in sleep, that would just be the end. No one would have known I was dead for weeks. So many nights I'd eat and eat, and blood sugar would still not even be at 55 mg/dl before sleep. Blood sugar under 50 or so is when neuroglycopenia would set in, and my cognitive skills would greatly decline. I just couldn't think correctly, no matter how I tried. It was such a miserable life. If it didn't kill me, I was going to kill myself. I feel so grateful for whatever days I have now free of that misery. But just wondering if you will die in the night is so shattering in a way. Maybe in a good way, I don't know.
Big fucking congratulations!
Thank you fnulare. It is certainly the best thing that has ever happened in my life, to get that surgery. I could never receive a better gift. It makes me so grateful for modern medicine in a way that I was not before. I mean I was always grateful, but damn, it is incredible what is possible, and how complex it all is. Just incredible.
I don't have anything more meaningful/appropriate to say...
Who did you put in your will and have you thought about how you can be more active in their life now that they won't get objects or money but rather are stuck with you for a while longer?
I had nothing of value to give away in my will except my art supplies, and I was going to donate them to art4epilepsy. i guess making a will was kind of stupid now that i reflect on it. the little bit else i have i set to give to my mom. she's very relieved that i am alive. this put her through hell, because i told her to prepare for my death, and she helped me to sell the stuff, as i couldn't drive anymore. it really stressed her out, and i felt bad for that. life is just strange. short and strange. now i feel bad to keep the art supplies. but there's so much I want to make with them now.
Keep the art supplies, I'm sure everyone at art4epilepsy would rather you use them but maybe you can get involved in other ways? Donate art to their fundraising auctions, that I'm sure they have, instead and with your story attached they will bring in the mah-neyz!
Give your mom a hug (or equivalent for your relationship and closeness preferences) from yourself everyday and from me today :)