This is gonna be a bit of a low effort vent post. I am sorry to just basically go whine on the internet but I cant fall asleep mostly because I was thinking about stuff and I just need to dump it and get some knowledge if possible from the internet strangers here. Hope it isnt too low effort. Sorry if it is.
So to start off - I am really young - around 25. But I have been getting lots of popping in basically every joint in my body, even some pain sometimes. I think its because of many different stupid things I do. First off - sleeping on my stomach. Please dont do it people. Theres no benefit and apparently it can cause tons of back problems. Secondly - terrible sitting posture. I used to slump and twist into strange shapes so often while using the computer. Why did (still do if i am not paying attention) i do it? It just cant be good for you. Please try to sit properly friends. Thirdly, not enough exercise. So I think this wasnt a problem before corona and might be why I started noticing this so much now.
But probably the main cause is probably me being fuckong dumb. I am so stupid. Whenever I realize I am doing bad things or stuff hurting or whatever why do I not just fix it? Instead I bury my head in the sand and pretend the problems dont exist. Some time ago I posted here about anxiety. I talked about how i should try therapy or something. You guys told me that I should. But I still didnt do it. Please go to therapy if you think if it will help.
Please try to fix problems when you notice them. Dont ignore problems. They wont disappear. They might just get worse. Dont be stupid like me. I am dumb - just 24 and writing about joint problems on the internet. Because I try to ignore problems.
Thank you for reading this. I think just writing this out is good for me. Its hard to admit to myself that i am dumb and irrational. I am trying to work on my posture and stuff. But to be honest I probably still wont succeed in making myself go talk to someone about anxiety. At least I sometimes talk about it on the internet. Still it feels almost like cutting myself.
Thank you again for reading. I am going to try fall asleep again. Probably gonna hate myself when I remember what I wrote here tomorrow.