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Venting about health

This is gonna be a bit of a low effort vent post. I am sorry to just basically go whine on the internet but I cant fall asleep mostly because I was thinking about stuff and I just need to dump it and get some knowledge if possible from the internet strangers here. Hope it isnt too low effort. Sorry if it is.

So to start off - I am really young - around 25. But I have been getting lots of popping in basically every joint in my body, even some pain sometimes. I think its because of many different stupid things I do. First off - sleeping on my stomach. Please dont do it people. Theres no benefit and apparently it can cause tons of back problems. Secondly - terrible sitting posture. I used to slump and twist into strange shapes so often while using the computer. Why did (still do if i am not paying attention) i do it? It just cant be good for you. Please try to sit properly friends. Thirdly, not enough exercise. So I think this wasnt a problem before corona and might be why I started noticing this so much now.

But probably the main cause is probably me being fuckong dumb. I am so stupid. Whenever I realize I am doing bad things or stuff hurting or whatever why do I not just fix it? Instead I bury my head in the sand and pretend the problems dont exist. Some time ago I posted here about anxiety. I talked about how i should try therapy or something. You guys told me that I should. But I still didnt do it. Please go to therapy if you think if it will help.

Please try to fix problems when you notice them. Dont ignore problems. They wont disappear. They might just get worse. Dont be stupid like me. I am dumb - just 24 and writing about joint problems on the internet. Because I try to ignore problems.

Thank you for reading this. I think just writing this out is good for me. Its hard to admit to myself that i am dumb and irrational. I am trying to work on my posture and stuff. But to be honest I probably still wont succeed in making myself go talk to someone about anxiety. At least I sometimes talk about it on the internet. Still it feels almost like cutting myself.

Thank you again for reading. I am going to try fall asleep again. Probably gonna hate myself when I remember what I wrote here tomorrow.

3 comments

  1. skybrian
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    You might look into physical therapy. I got a referral from my doctor for back and neck problems, and the therapist taught me some good stretches, which help a lot when I remember to do them....

    You might look into physical therapy. I got a referral from my doctor for back and neck problems, and the therapist taught me some good stretches, which help a lot when I remember to do them.

    Also, if you're spending lots of time in front of a computer, pay attention to the ergonomics of how your desk is set up. Things like raising or lowering the monitor, or the desk, can help. Standing some of the time can help.

    Not to mention taking a break and doing something else like going for a walk.

    I don't think these things are solved solely through more willpower, but through figuring out good habits you like enough to stick with, which means trying stuff.

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  2. joplin
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    Maybe reframing that thought a different way would help you get over the inertia of sitting around or give you the motivation to do what needs done? Here's one way you could reframe it: Some small...

    Its hard to admit to myself that i am dumb and irrational.

    Maybe reframing that thought a different way would help you get over the inertia of sitting around or give you the motivation to do what needs done? Here's one way you could reframe it:

    In the past I have made some decisions that adversely affected my health. I can't change what I did in the past, but I can change what I do going forward. I don't have make a big change. I can start small.

    Some small things you could do are to look up some info about anxiety or joint pain. Look up the number of a doctor that could help with those things. Find a friend who can help keep you motivated to do better.

    Good luck!

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  3. Stripey
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    I often find myself going through the same sorts of things. It's frustrating being in a position of knowing what you need to do to take care of yourself but nonetheless you're getting no traction...

    I often find myself going through the same sorts of things. It's frustrating being in a position of knowing what you need to do to take care of yourself but nonetheless you're getting no traction in setting an honest intention to get there. So, you just avoid the thought and distract yourself until you feel bad. Then you think about what you 'should' be doing again, until you do it so many times over you're numb. What sucks the most is, if you've gone through it a few times (especially over the course of a number of years) and you know how you got over it the last time but still just remembering that does nothing to get you going.

    All that is to say, I identify with your post.

    Here's an offering: https://youtu.be/Nnd5Slo02us -Yoga with Adrienne

    I can't really describe in words quite how I feel about yoga with Adrienne so you should check it out and see for yourself.

    Sometimes I find that if all I do is a quick 10 minute video then I've taken the first step towards getting myself together and that can be powerful.

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