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    It was years ago so I can't remember precisely but we were just friends online at the time. We both frequented a forum and knew each other pretty well. Then at some point a a tulpa discussion...

    It was years ago so I can't remember precisely but we were just friends online at the time. We both frequented a forum and knew each other pretty well. Then at some point a a tulpa discussion cropped up and that's when I got into it. My BF was reading the thread and that's how he came to know about mine. It was later on that we started dating.

    So I guess overall his reaction was "hmmm, interesting".

  2. Comment on Anyone who has a Tulpa? in ~talk

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    Yo, not the person you're talking to but I guess I have relevant answers to that question so I'll contribute. My boyfriend knows of my tulpa. He's singular and accepting of it, sometimes he'll...

    Yo, not the person you're talking to but I guess I have relevant answers to that question so I'll contribute.

    My boyfriend knows of my tulpa. He's singular and accepting of it, sometimes he'll make playful jokes about it. Although my tulpa and him don't really ever interact directly. I'd be scared telling anyone in the future though for pretty obvious reasons.

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    I've had a tulpa for a number of years now. I would say overall it's been a positive experience and force in my life. He was created at a very dark time in my life and I needed an anchor of sorts,...

    I've had a tulpa for a number of years now. I would say overall it's been a positive experience and force in my life. He was created at a very dark time in my life and I needed an anchor of sorts, and I'd say he did a decent job at it. He pulled me out of a number of panic attacks and depressive episodes. I understand that these things were likely possible without a tulpa. However, I've always been one who is bad at listening to myself, and tend to respond better to other people telling me what to do (like getting my brain off of a death spiral). My breakdowns almost always happened when I was alone, where the only person available to break myself out of it was myself. So always having someone, or at least what seems like someone else, to pull me out was valuable. I'd say tulpas are ultimately unnecessary though, and from my experiences talking with tulpas and their hosts I would advise against anyone creating tulpas as many things can go wrong. That said, overall I am very glad to be plural.

    EDIT: I'd like to mention that I'm no longer in that dark part of my life anymore. I haven't had a depressive episodes, attacks, or any thoughts of self-harm in years. I'd say my life is pretty great and happy now. My tulpa is still around as him being here doesn't seem to interfere with my life much and we're pretty attached at this point.

    As for what I think tulpas even are, I tend to have a pretty secular view on it and approach it with a high level of detached irony. My conception of it is that the brain has thoughts, and then these thoughts are assigned (or maybe a better word would be "attributed") to a personality of sorts. In most systems there is only one personality, so all thoughts are dumped onto them. But I think it's possible to train one's mind to sort of cordon off certain thoughts and not attribute it to the original personality. Essentially when I created my tulpa what I did was take the part of my thoughts that often ran in opposition to my other thoughts, the part of my psyche that often asked myself questions or played devil's advocate and tried to give it a consistent voice and personality. Eventually those thoughts became very different from my own.

    So I wouldn't say tulpas and hosts are independently thinking from one another, but rather I'd say thought is something not specific to either and is then assigned to them accordingly. I view tulpas and hosts as being the same things in principle, they're just personalities we attribute thoughts to, a host is merely a personality that's been around longer.

    Of course this is merely my conception of it, and there is zero evidence to support any of it, purely hypothetical.

    I'll answer any questions anyone has to the best of my ability.

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