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Comment on What creative projects have you been working on? in ~creative
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Comment on Victories and challenges: An A[u]DHD community and support fortnightly thread #1 in ~health.mental
apatheticattitude Link ParentTo be fair, they were only there to deal with ADHD so I'm not really expecting them to help with depression unless I go down that route separately. It would have been nice to have been asked more...To be fair, they were only there to deal with ADHD so I'm not really expecting them to help with depression unless I go down that route separately.
It would have been nice to have been asked more questions about ADHD/autism though, instead of retreading the same depression questions I talk about with every single therapist I've met.
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Comment on Victories and challenges: An A[u]DHD community and support fortnightly thread #1 in ~health.mental
apatheticattitude Link ParentI'm not sure if I should complain or not. They were not wrong that my depression is making it hard for anyone to accurately diagnose anything, and I don't want to keep trying until I get the...I'm not sure if I should complain or not.
They were not wrong that my depression is making it hard for anyone to accurately diagnose anything, and I don't want to keep trying until I get the result I want - it's entirely possible I don't have ADHD and I'm just looking for anything to blame.
I guess that's what a psychologist would help with. Unfortunately, I don't have the time, money or energy to do anything.
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Comment on Victories and challenges: An A[u]DHD community and support fortnightly thread #1 in ~health.mental
apatheticattitude LinkI have long suspected I have some kind of AuDHD which has been a cause of my difficult to treat long-term depression. I finally got an appointment with a psychiatrist to look into ADHD - a process...I have long suspected I have some kind of AuDHD which has been a cause of my difficult to treat long-term depression.
I finally got an appointment with a psychiatrist to look into ADHD - a process that has taken years. They talked to me for an hour and said they couldn't help because I sound too depressed - I should come back in the future when I no longer have depression.
This feels like such a blow. I have no idea where to go from here.
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Comment on Dogma 25: Group of Scandi filmmakers launching refreshed manifesto in ~movies
apatheticattitude LinkI struggled to appreciate the original Dogma 95 and struggle to think Dogma 25 is any better, at least for the type of films or entertainment I want to see. Right at the start of the Manifesto...I struggled to appreciate the original Dogma 95 and struggle to think Dogma 25 is any better, at least for the type of films or entertainment I want to see.
Right at the start of the Manifesto they claim they want to "preserve the originality of cinema" which strikes me as being in direct contrast to the rules, such as number six: "The film must be shot where the narrative takes place". Imagine a world where we couldn't have A Trip to the Moon or the Lord of the Rings Trilogy!
That said, of course some amazing pieces can come out of working under constraints. Pushing back against the current tide and showing it is possible to make films without all the trappings we think we need is important, sure. But I don't think I could ever be inspired to make a film under these conditions myself.
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Comment on Blue Prince | Release trailer in ~games
apatheticattitude LinkI'd never even heard of this game until now. I just grabbed it from PS+ and it seems very promising. So thanks for letting me know! I love puzzle games, so roguelike puzzles seem like the dream!I'd never even heard of this game until now. I just grabbed it from PS+ and it seems very promising. So thanks for letting me know!
I love puzzle games, so roguelike puzzles seem like the dream!
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Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games
apatheticattitude LinkI finally got around to playing Oxenfree. I'm really strugging to enjoy it. For context, I've played up until I find my friends and regroup back at the tower. It's interesting, and I'm enjoying...I finally got around to playing Oxenfree. I'm really strugging to enjoy it. For context, I've played up until I find my friends and regroup back at the tower.
It's interesting, and I'm enjoying the story. But everything else in the game just feels like unnecessary friction. Walking is slow (sometimes Alex runs (great!), sometimes she walks, sometimes she gets stuck on an edge). It feels like there's no reward or benefit to exploring or going off route. All you get it a slow walk back to the next set piece.
I hear the biggest strength of the game is the dialog. But I cannot get my head around it. Sometimes Alex will interrupt, sometimes she will wait - I wish there was a way to know what was going to happen.
I find myself standing still through the conversations because if I accidentally walk over a story trigger Alex will interupt the conversation for some nonsense. I think the conversation is supposed to continue, but it really takes me out of it, and I swear it feels like I miss some parts which is frustrating.
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Comment on What programming/technical projects have you been working on? in ~comp
apatheticattitude Link ParentI probably should write something up for public consumption. It would be a good exercise if nothing else. I did piggy back off of netboot.xyz who provide the initial boot environment and do most...I probably should write something up for public consumption. It would be a good exercise if nothing else.
I did piggy back off of netboot.xyz who provide the initial boot environment and do most of the actual arcane magic. They have good support for customisation and self-hosting which was important to me.
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Comment on What programming/technical projects have you been working on? in ~comp
apatheticattitude LinkI have been working on setting up a PXE server alongside a customised Linux image to boot into over the network. It's been a fun learning experience involving delving into all sorts of different...I have been working on setting up a PXE server alongside a customised Linux image to boot into over the network.
It's been a fun learning experience involving delving into all sorts of different areas. The PXE server uses a wonderful rube goldberg machine of DHCP, TFTP and HTTP to eventually get to where it need to be. The most complex part for me was figuring out how to supply the Linux kernel and small filesystem to load over the network.
It's all working wonderfully as of the start of this week and I've been going over my notes to make sure I know how I would replicate/redo the task but much more efficiently if needed.
This feels like as good a place as any to talk about my latest "project": juggling.club
I've been struggling with mental health issues recently and while this is essentially nothing, it has been fun to focus on something.
I first noticed the domain was available about 5 years ago but didn't manage to get it then, it had been used my some american soccer company. I thought it would be a cool domain to own, although didn't have a plan or need for it. I told a friend about it and they asked "why? What are you planning on doing with it?" I said "I don't know, just put a picture of a juggling club on it"
I would periodically check up on the domain and finally a few months ago I noticed it hadn't been renewed. I set up a small script to monitor and alert me when it became available, which happened last week!
I then got to play around with very gentle, minimal styling and I'm happy with it, particularly how silly and pointless it is.
I'm already having ideas, I could have a collection of pictures that randomly load each time, or when someone clicks/taps the page a little juggling club appears before spinning off screen, or maybe even offering webspace to others who run actual juggling clubs (i.e. juggling societies) but that's a lot of work for me right now.
I don't really have anyone to tell or share it with. But I appreciate being able to share it with the world here.