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How do you get through a moment?
I hear people saying to suicidal people that its easier to get through life if you just try to get through the next moment, but tbh for me its at a point where depending on my mood i can't get through one moment, and i have used drugs much more frequently and made 3 attempts in the past week as a result (though they were all when cptsd and psychosis was bad so i wasn't thinking at all rationally, and i didn't completely expect them to work).
For me "getting through the moment" is just continuing to exist, or just trying to distract myself/take drugs.
So does anyone know of any ways to keep going without drugs if things are really severe?
As an opioid addict with psychosis and past suicidal tendencies, I get where you're at. It isn't great, but I still use drugs as a crutch at times to get from one moment to the next.
I found a therapist that was a great fit. They've been a good part of my support network, there when everything else fails, and able to provide more of an outsider's perspective.
I underwent ketamine treatments (at a proper clinic, achieving therapeutic doses isn't so easy to self administer). This really destroyed a lot of the hardest parts of my depression, but it isn't a silver bullet and doesn't really work in a vacuum (for me).
But the really important one has been love. Love for family, for friends, for partners, even for strangers, and all of their reciprocal love. It may be hard to see or feel, but it's there somewhere. Perhaps reconnect with folks from your past, or try to meet new folks. Engaging with a hobby on its own is healthy, but it also gives the opportunity to meet folks over a shared interest. I may struggle to talk myself out of it for my sake, but I know people love me and would be devastated, and because I love them, I won't do that. Reflecting on those moments of shared happiness and love are what really push me through a tough moment.
Sorry to hear that you’re going through this.
Don’t take this the wrong way, but I do hope you’re seeking professional help? A trained therapist could probably offer better guidance than any of us.
That being said… I would like to recommend any of the books by thich nhat hanh. I have found his books about breathing and meditation to be really helpful. I particularly enjoy walking meditation.
Lol yeah i don't take offense or anything, I am going to see a psychiatrist at some point in the following weeks i believe.
Also i have heard of Thich nhat hahn, i haven't read any of his books but i might check them out at some point
I've had depression but probably not anything like what you're experiencing. What helped me was, when I was miserable, helping other people. Doing something nice for my friends, donating to charity, cleaning up some public area.
I was gonna have a bad time no matter what, so in a way it was sort of liberating to at least use this shitty time to make other people's lives better. And if I couldn't feel good about myself, at least I could feel good about what I did. Something I could point to to say "that wouldn't have happened if I didn't do that". It was grounding, and a nice distraction from being stuck in my own head. Definitely not a "cure" that suddenly made everything better, but it got me through rough times, if anything in a strictly physical sense.
Definitely second talking to a professional though, that was the first step I took to actually feel better.