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Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (October 2024)
This is a monthly thread for those who need it. Vent, share your experiences, ask for advice, talk about how you are doing. Let's make this a compassionate space for all who may need one.
So this morning I had a therapy session for my anxiety and depression, that lead me to doing a meditation, and it lead me to something of a "breakthrough" regarding my self-image.
It wouldn't be notable except for my frustration that it happened from listening to Tiana. Yes, that Tiana.
Well, as positive as last month's message was, I'm sadly reporting that my current form of therapy did not fit me and as such I no longer am in group therapy. Everyone in the group seemed to gel really well with each other and I never lost the idea of being a passive bystander who won't amount to anything. They started hugging and doing stuff with each other and I just quietly watched it all unfold until one group member started to call me out on why I was absent a few too many times for, to me, normal reasons. They never remarked on others being absent with their problems but mine apparently was playing into her own mental health. I broke down in a panic attack one morning and I didn't feel safe attending anymore afterwards. Had a phone call with one of the psychologists about some future diagnosis of Auti but that is closing in on two months ago and I'm sorta in the mood where I don't want them to contact me ever again because it will just resurface the pain.
Playing an MMO with a good friend from here who I visited last week and really had a good time but now being back into my own groove it's just more of the same indecisiveness, trouble getting to get anything of the group, overtly being ready for others' wishes and talking myself down about the most menial things.