This is actually something I haven't felt in a very long time. When I was younger I had thoughts occasionally about ventures not taken. But the person I am today has built upon the experiences and...
This is actually something I haven't felt in a very long time. When I was younger I had thoughts occasionally about ventures not taken. But the person I am today has built upon the experiences and failures of the past and it's really hard for me to look back and think about what I would change.
For example, who's to say that if I didn't spend a decade with my ex that I would truly understand now why I need to communicate better and more openly in relationships to ensure resentment doesn't build? Who's to say a different choice of school or career would have prevented me from the exposure that helped me to unlearn the brainwashing of privilege and better understand all that I have been afforded in my life? Would I ever have had the time to critically examine myself and understand my needs if I had pushed harder to further my career? There are too many possible paths with no clear understanding of ramifications.
That's not to say I'm perfect - I have problems, sure, but who doesn't? I can say, however, that I've become an excellent communicator, I've done a pretty good job building up my compassion and I've found a good medium in my life where I'm starting to feel like I'm able to make some changes for good and advocate for many who can't. I'm pretty satisfied with the way things turned out... Why would I put that in jeopardy?
This is actually something I haven't felt in a very long time. When I was younger I had thoughts occasionally about ventures not taken. But the person I am today has built upon the experiences and failures of the past and it's really hard for me to look back and think about what I would change.
For example, who's to say that if I didn't spend a decade with my ex that I would truly understand now why I need to communicate better and more openly in relationships to ensure resentment doesn't build? Who's to say a different choice of school or career would have prevented me from the exposure that helped me to unlearn the brainwashing of privilege and better understand all that I have been afforded in my life? Would I ever have had the time to critically examine myself and understand my needs if I had pushed harder to further my career? There are too many possible paths with no clear understanding of ramifications.
That's not to say I'm perfect - I have problems, sure, but who doesn't? I can say, however, that I've become an excellent communicator, I've done a pretty good job building up my compassion and I've found a good medium in my life where I'm starting to feel like I'm able to make some changes for good and advocate for many who can't. I'm pretty satisfied with the way things turned out... Why would I put that in jeopardy?