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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (June 2023) in ~health.mental
cornslop Link ParentI was diagnosed a few years ago. I went to a clinical neuropsychiatrist, who gave me a battery of tests (mostly attention- and memory-related). I forget what that battery of tests was called, but...I was diagnosed a few years ago. I went to a clinical neuropsychiatrist, who gave me a battery of tests (mostly attention- and memory-related). I forget what that battery of tests was called, but it seemed like a good diagnostic tool, and the report I got back was very detailed and interesting. I'd suggest seeing if your therapist is familiar with this, or can point you in the right direction.
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (June 2023) in ~health.mental
cornslop LinkNot great! I had to spend a couple of months off my meds (ADHD) because of supply issues. I fell behind on my work, the stress was destroying me, I had a bit of a meltdown and left my main client...Not great! I had to spend a couple of months off my meds (ADHD) because of supply issues. I fell behind on my work, the stress was destroying me, I had a bit of a meltdown and left my main client of almost a decade.
That was back in March. I've been back on my meds since April, but unsuccessful in finding enough work to replace my lost income. I do voice-over work, and after a very long time with just a couple of clients, I'm not very practiced at finding clients. I spent a while getting my website back up and running, recording new demo reels, making changes to both those things based on feedback, and email blasting potential clients without much luck.
At this point, I can't afford to pay my credit card bills, I owe my roommate most of two months' rent, and it's starting to feel hopeless. I've been looking for other work to fill in the gaps, but after a successful interview the other day, I realized the great job offer I'd gotten was most likely an identity theft scam.
I went crawling back to my ex-main client last night, leaving a long message in Slack explaining why I had behaved so out-of-character in just caving to internal pressures, and asked if he would take me back on in some capacity. No response yet.
So, yeah. Not feeling great! I've been in much worse mental states though, not fully surrendering to hopelessness quite yet.
Something that's helpful for me in times of great stress, fear and pain is the concept of Newton's third law. This is a concept I've leaned on for a long time now (wrote a song about it almost a decade ago). Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Applied to happiness, in short, we're only capable of feeling the low lows because we've experienced the high highs. Emotion doesn't exist within a vacuum, and there's always the possibility of seeing the flip-side of that coin again.
That framework has kept me optimistic when I have no reason to be. I've been wanting to get an Isaac Newton tattoo for years, gotta get on that when I've got money coming in again.
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Comment on What are you reading these days? in ~books
cornslop LinkI've been reading loads of nonfiction, mostly focused on US intelligence agencies. Copying from my comment on this thread, I've gotten through all of these in the last couple of months....I've been reading loads of nonfiction, mostly focused on US intelligence agencies. Copying from my comment on this thread, I've gotten through all of these in the last couple of months.
Confessions of an Economic Hitman -- Exploring the American global empire (how it came to be, how it's maintained, and the repercussions of it), as told by a former economic hitman. (From the synopsis - "EHMs are highly paid professionals who use development loans to saddle countries with huge debts and force them to serve US interests.")
Chaos: Charles Manson, the CIA, and the Secret History of the Sixties -- A well-researched counter to the official narrative surrounding Charles Manson, written by a journalist who kept digging for twenty years rather than turn in an unfinished story. Explores corruption (both governmental and personal), culture, the propagation and acceptance of a plainly false narrative, and CIA mind control experiments. The aim of this book isn't to find out exactly what happened, but to present mountains of evidence that is counter to the official narrative, and it does a damned fine job of it.
Poisoner in Chief: Sidney Gottlieb and the CIA Search for Mind Control -- This one's pretty self-explanatory, but is incredibly thorough.
Blowback: The Costs and Consequences of American Empire -- A look at the consequences of the American empire's foreign policy. This book originally came out shortly before 9/11, but has been updated since. It looks at the consequences of American foreign policy from around the globe, but focuses a good bit on Asia. Lots of interesting info I hadn't heard before.
I'm currently on The Jakarta Method, which details the global anti-communist crusade lead by the US during and after the cold war.
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentHell yeah! I went through your profile and found Daytona -- this shit rules. Super technically proficient and well-mixed. It almost feels like heresy to listen without headphones.Hell yeah! I went through your profile and found Daytona -- this shit rules. Super technically proficient and well-mixed. It almost feels like heresy to listen without headphones.
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentI'm stoked to see it change, but I really enjoyed the naivete of a group of players who were mostly unfamiliar with reality game shows and the social mechanics. People fretting over the morality...I'm stoked to see it change, but I really enjoyed the naivete of a group of players who were mostly unfamiliar with reality game shows and the social mechanics. People fretting over the morality of alliances and blindly feeling their way through was entertaining as hell.
Would you recommend going through every season, or are there some you would skip?
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentI shared some here. In short, absurdist funk/rap fusion lately, but I'm planning on mixing some other genres in. How about you?I shared some here. In short, absurdist funk/rap fusion lately, but I'm planning on mixing some other genres in.
How about you?
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentIt's not snarky, it's just a joke. I was being flippant, if you will.It's not snarky, it's just a joke. I was being flippant, if you will.
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentI've thought about it, but I don't think they're a good fit for the layout/size of my place. I could see it getting in the way more often than not. I think that's the same one my parents have,...I've thought about it, but I don't think they're a good fit for the layout/size of my place. I could see it getting in the way more often than not.
I think that's the same one my parents have, though! They love that thing.
Thanks!
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentYou should just go in and bitch about all the changes since the last time you were there.You should just go in and bitch about all the changes since the last time you were there.
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Linkreddit long time now here I play games, make music, and neglect household chores. I do voice-over for a living. I've been freelancing since I was a kid, learning to do things out of curiosity and...reddit long time now here
I play games, make music, and neglect household chores.
I do voice-over for a living. I've been freelancing since I was a kid, learning to do things out of curiosity and then realizing I could make a bit of money. From web design and coding, video editing, writing, I've just always loved making shit and eventually found ways to market the shit I wanted to make at the time. I've been doing voice-over for a bit over 10 years now though, so I'm probably settled in. Maybe.
I just watched the first season of Survivor for the first time. I get why it was a big thing, that shit ruled.
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentSaaaame. Novelty creates memories, otherwise shit just mushes together, like /u/stu2b50 said. I don't travel often, but I would if I could afford it. I always show up to the airport early, so I...I'm one of those insane people who LOVE sudden layovers and random events during trips.
Saaaame. Novelty creates memories, otherwise shit just mushes together, like /u/stu2b50 said.
I don't travel often, but I would if I could afford it. I always show up to the airport early, so I can relax and have a few drinks at the airport bar while the world's going crazy around me. The last time I flew out of Philly, I noticed they've got meditation rooms. Pretty much the essence of calm in a storm.
Shit, I was secretly loving it when a friend almost flipped her car when we were on our way back from a weekend in New York. I mean, it was terrifying and fucked her car up, but we got to like, camp in a gas station parking lot. It sounds miserable, but it was a brand new experience (and it was a 24/7 gas station, so we had food, drinks and bathrooms).
A volcano eruption stranding you on holiday sounds so good, other than the added expense of 3 more days of vacation. But that's what credit cards and poor impulse control are for!
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Comment on Introductions | June 2023, part 1 in ~talk
cornslop Link ParentI was thinking of joining Something Awful now that reddit's going to shit. I kinda miss old forums, and I was real curious about that place when I was a kid and didn't have the five bucks or...I was thinking of joining Something Awful now that reddit's going to shit. I kinda miss old forums, and I was real curious about that place when I was a kid and didn't have the five bucks or whatever it costs to join. Newgrounds was my old-school home.
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Comment on Any recommendations that are on audiobooks.com? in ~books
cornslop Link ParentSame situation here, except I know where I left off. I just don't remember so many of the details that it'd definitely be best to start over when I get around to it. Fuckin lame. Fuckin cool!...I love the Dresden Files, but it's been so long since I last read one... and I can't remember which book I finished last. :( Although it's been so long that I probably forgot most of the story anyways, so maybe I should just start over anyways. :P
Same situation here, except I know where I left off. I just don't remember so many of the details that it'd definitely be best to start over when I get around to it.
p.s. The Storm Front (the first Dresden Files book) audiobook looks to be an audible exclusive.
Fuckin lame.
But the publisher also advertised it as being available on Overdrive/Libby too... so for anyone in the US & Canada with a library card, they can probably get it there. I just checked, and it was available to be borrowed on Libby from my local library.
Fuckin cool! Libby is the bomb.
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Comment on What creative projects have you been working on? in ~creative
cornslop Link ParentThat sounds like a super difficult balance to strike with a TTRPG, but it would be awesome to see! My friends and I have kinda done that with D&D/Pathfinder, as I'm sure many groups have, just by...Really trying to focus on making it as streamlined as possible, as I've found that I prefer complexity to present itself gradually as you get familiar with a game rather than having it all be frontloaded. Easy to learn, hard to master, etc. It's a good challenge!
That sounds like a super difficult balance to strike with a TTRPG, but it would be awesome to see! My friends and I have kinda done that with D&D/Pathfinder, as I'm sure many groups have, just by being lenient with newcomers and not explaining everything until it's necessary so they can get immersed in the world and their character, but having a game built around that concept would be awesome. Good luck!
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Comment on What creative projects have you been working on? in ~creative
cornslop LinkI'm working on an album. I used to make music all the time, but went through a decade-long dry spell of experimentation and abandonment. I wrote very serious music for a long time before then, so...I'm working on an album. I used to make music all the time, but went through a decade-long dry spell of experimentation and abandonment. I wrote very serious music for a long time before then, so now I'm going the opposite direction with some absurdism. It's cathartic, is giving me drive & direction to put what I learned through experimentation to use, and is a fuckin blast.
I've been getting real into funk the last couple of years, so there's a lot of influence there, and I used to make rap so there's a good bit of that too, but I want to explore a variety of genres and styles on the album.
I released my first song on Spotify (Travelers in the Checkout Line) last month, and have a few more in the works. This one's just about finished, but I still gotta tinker.
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Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games
cornslop Link ParentI've been boycotting ActiBlizzard since the Blitzchung incident (reinforced by the reports of sexual abuse), but fuck dude Diablo 4 is so tempting. I grew up on Blizzard games, especially Diablo...I've been boycotting ActiBlizzard since the Blitzchung incident (reinforced by the reports of sexual abuse), but fuck dude Diablo 4 is so tempting. I grew up on Blizzard games, especially Diablo 2. The lord is testing my strength.
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Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games
cornslop Link ParentHoa looks so good! Reminds me of, like, a mix between Ori and Celeste, just based on watching some of the gameplay footage on the Steam store. Easy wishlist.Hoa looks so good! Reminds me of, like, a mix between Ori and Celeste, just based on watching some of the gameplay footage on the Steam store. Easy wishlist.
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Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games
cornslop LinkI've been playing a lot of NHL 23. I was really itching for a hockey game for about a year before I remembered I have a perfectly good PS4. I'd rather play it on my Steam Deck, but PC gets no love...I've been playing a lot of NHL 23. I was really itching for a hockey game for about a year before I remembered I have a perfectly good PS4. I'd rather play it on my Steam Deck, but PC gets no love from NHL.
My audiobook game lately has been VR ping pong (Eleven Table Tennis). This has been one of my favorite VR games since I got a Quest 2, and even after a long absence it just feels natural. Easily one of the most "true to life" VR experiences. It's got some good training modes, bot battles, and online multiplayer. I'll play with my roommate sometimes, but he's been living in Tears of the Kingdom, so I've mostly been playing with an audiobook going.
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Comment on Any recommendations that are on audiobooks.com? in ~books
cornslop LinkConfessions of an Economic Hitman -- Exploring the American global empire (how it came to be, how it's maintained, and the repercussions of it), as told by a former economic hitman. (From the...Confessions of an Economic Hitman -- Exploring the American global empire (how it came to be, how it's maintained, and the repercussions of it), as told by a former economic hitman. (From the synopsis - "EHMs are highly paid professionals who use development loans to saddle countries with huge debts and force them to serve US interests.")
Chaos: Charles Manson, the CIA, and the Secret History of the Sixties -- A well-researched counter to the official narrative surrounding Charles Manson, written by a journalist who kept digging for twenty years rather than turn in an unfinished story. Explores corruption (both governmental and personal), culture, the propagation and acceptance of a plainly false narrative, and CIA mind control experiments. The aim of this book isn't to find out exactly what happened, but to present mountains of evidence that is counter to the official narrative, and it does a damned fine job of it.
Poisoner in Chief: Sidney Gottlieb and the CIA Search for Mind Control -- This one's pretty self-explanatory, but is incredibly thorough.
Blowback: The Costs and Consequences of American Empire -- A look at the consequences of the American empire's foreign policy. This book originally came out shortly before 9/11, but has been updated since. It looks at the consequences of American foreign policy from around the globe, but focuses a good bit on Asia. Lots of interesting info I hadn't heard before.
If On a Winter's Night A Traveler -- Closing out with something a bit different. This is one of the best novels I've read, and I think it's best to go in without expectations so I'll shut up about it.
I've never used audiobooks.com, but was expecting to have some misses based on the smaller library. Every book I wanted to recommend was on there! (Except for, for some reason, the first book in the Dresden Files series. Fuckin awesome urban fantasy series, and it looks like most of them are on there, but not the first.)
Thanks for that! I'll just go in order, then. Even if I followed someone's best seasons list, I'd probably end up going back to fill in the gaps eventually anyway.