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Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (February 2026) in ~health.mental
kornywayz LinkI’ve been reading a lot about ADHD this past week, and so much of it has been resonating with me. It’s starting to put things in perspective for things I’ve struggled with my entire life. Things...I’ve been reading a lot about ADHD this past week, and so much of it has been resonating with me. It’s starting to put things in perspective for things I’ve struggled with my entire life. Things I’ve often seen as personal flaws, and which have led to a lot of self-blame and self-loathing.
Thinking clearly can be difficult for me, because my thoughts often overlap or jump tracks before one is finished, then circle back again. It can feel like my mind operates in layers, with traces that are bridged between layers.
Growing up, I was always told I was always told how smart I was. But doing any work outside of school felt nearly impossible, and my grades reflected that. My brain has always been very “out of sight, out of mind.” Things improved only when I was forced into a structured study hall, where the environment itself supported getting work done. That same pattern has followed me into adulthood, and it’s also affected my ability to maintain friendships. I can be very present and engaged when I’m with people, but once we’re apart, I struggle with consistency and follow-through.
My parents didn’t really help with this when I was younger. I was often mocked for being forgetful, or told that if I didn’t remember something, it must mean I didn’t care. That framing stuck with me more than I realized.
There’s a lot more as well, but all of this has led me to consider getting evaluated. At the same time, I’m unsure. I’m nearly 40, and I’ve lived this way for as long as I can remember. Part of me wonders whether it’s worth pursuing now, and part of me worries about what medication might change, or whether I’m ready for that.
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Comment on What's something you've moved on from? in ~talk
kornywayz LinkI've moved on from having friends. I was always really bad at maintaining the relationship, I'm not one to text or call someone to make plans, so things just never really happened for me. It...I've moved on from having friends. I was always really bad at maintaining the relationship, I'm not one to text or call someone to make plans, so things just never really happened for me.
It sounds kind of harsh, but I never liked the effort of maintaining the friendship. But I always have fun when hanging out with people I like. But, to a lot of people, that seems cold and distant. I'm very much an out of sight, out of mind type of person, unless there is something specific that pulls me back into it.
I've lost a couple of close friendships because of it, before I was more aware of the way I can come across, and have just given up on maintaining friendships like that. I pretty much stick to my family now or spend time alone.
Finally started playing Cyberpunk 2077 on PC. I'm maybe 15 hours in so far, and I like the story! I didn't expect the twist with your companion at the beginning of the game. I really like the art style of the game and the attention to detail has been really cool. I have been following interesting NPCs around to see how they interact with the world. I like to get food as well just to appreciate the textures.
Weapon upgrades feel good as well, and I like the vast skill trees in the game as well. Makes it seem like there are a lot of different play styles this game can accommodate.
My major gripe with the game is driving, I am having such a hard time getting the hang of it. Generally, I am pretty good at adapting to the driving style in these types of games, but this feels impossible! Seems like there is a lot of over and under steer at the same time. Everywhere I look for tweaks, there's someone saying to "get good or use a controller." I guess I'll just stick to fast traveling