About two months ago I started on a TTRPG blog series where I roll a random wikipedia article and turn it into game content, eg. if I get an article for a politician I might create an NPC or a faction or a way to run elections in a session. It's been a great way so far to flex creativity muscles! I'm up to 17 posts and the latest went up yesterday. It adapts the idea of a news anchor to a fantasy setting. I also drew an illustration to go with it which I quite like how how it turned out.

For years I have been trying to start recording and performing my music again. I am now trying to compose and record demos of fun-to-perform songs for a trio of drums, bass, and guitar. Along with this, I’m trying to produce nicely engraved scores to publish along with them, probably all in the public domain. I’m trying to do put out my signal so to speak in order to attract other like-minded musicians to eventually collaborate with. I just have to be in a band again, I can’t stand it any longer!

I've been working on a Mastodon and Bluesky client (web app only for now) that meets my peculiar demands/needs. It takes the aesthetics of my web game PIVOT and extends it to social media. Restrained, quiet, "literary." I reckon the audience for it is probably single-digits, but I've been enjoying building it and, frankly, enjoying using it even more.

https://thewallflower.app/

I went to a convention last year where one of the vendors had these tiny 4x6 "chap books" for sale. I thought they were very cool, but that I would do them a little differently. Spent the last month or so experimenting and am now in the final days of producing my 4x6 "pocket pulps" for the same convention in 2027. I gotta admit, the whole thing was fun to put them together. Layout and cover design is not forgiving at 4x6. You have to get creative. ;)

These Foolish Things

Thought I'd share a screenplay about two popstars I wrote a bit ago. It's kind of a riff on A Star is Born, it started off more like a direct copy of it until a friend of mine suggested I make it about two women instead, which at least made it less of a rip of. Before all that though it was a hybrid script about music and an autobiography of my childhood before I decided to split both ideas.

Originally I had written the roles for Ariana Grande and Liz Gillies as a sort of Victorious reunion, as well as a meta commentary on their friendship and how one of them is more famous than the other. But I also had other pairings in mind such as Sabrina Carpenter/Billie Eilish, Miley Cyrus/Demi Lovato, and a sort of Frankenstein pairing of Dove Cameron/Liz Gillies.

So I've made some headway on my Nickelodeon Blaster themed HomeLab server design.

I'm still waiting on the purple PETG filament to come in and I'll need to redesign the majority of the panels. But I want to start printing the frame and test fitting things before I put in all the work making everything fit perfectly.

Probably going to start in levels, first is getting my NAS/Media Server to exist at the bottom, then I'll work my way up to my 2 Mac Minis with extended hotswap SSDs, then upwards to the Raspberry Pi 5 and all the meters.

I want to get those round screens and use them as the gauges on top with some silly effects.

Been learning how to measure and create threaded parts in CAD for 3D printing.

On a related note, though I didn't have to design this one myself, I had a locking nut crack/break on a tablet holder I have and I was able to find that multiple people have already designed replacements to 3D print. Apparently these are a semi-standard design on articulating phone holders / tablet holders. Probably a few different sizes but all the same type of idea. First one I tried (this one) worked perfect and now I have a working tablet holder arm again.

So nice to be able to fix things with like 5 cents worth of filament and 30 minutes of my time instead of creating more waste and buying a replacement. Especially when I could print hundreds of replacement nuts for the cost of a single tablet holding arm. So even if it fails I can have spares ready to go

I've started a singleplayer tutorial esque series over on youtube in my 1.17 minecraft forever world. This type of content has been done to death and I don't expect anything out of it. It's just something to do. I enjoy the process which is a rarity these days, for me to enjoy anything. I like editing videos, although it's very primitive editing at this point.

I recently got hit with an (unfair) 3 day suspension and 7 day chat ban from League of Legends for swearing at a few players who were either inting or insulting me in chat. I immediately lodged a ticket with Riot Support, not to appeal the penalty but to try and raise a formal complaint about how they allow players to intentionally throw my Ranked matches with utter impunity and let them get away scot-free with ruining my Ranked game experience - giving examples of recent games, match IDs and summoner IDs of how players have thrown some of my games in blatant fashion.

(Yes, I was irate, yes I used crass language, no I don't think it's fair because the people who created a negative gameplay experience for me weaponized the game's awful report system against me out of malice and essentially got off entirely scot-free.)

Lo and behold, the CS agent rudely fobs me off, reiterates the three lines which earned my automated suspension (which came seconds after the offending game concluded), closes my ticket and tells me no further appeals will be considered. Literally didn't read my ticket, or couldn't be arsed to actually do their job.

So I'm redirecting that anger towards recording my matches and I'm gonna either create a blog or video series where I record, commentate on and openly analyse my games, call out inting behaviour, reporting it to Riot Games, and seeing if they can actually be arsed to action any of my reports.

I just played a match as Quinn Jungle where I went 12/7/8, had the second-highest KP on my team, highest CS, and somehow still had the game thrown by morons who refused to fight as a 5 man team, refused to ward objectives, and refused to take part in skirmishes happening nearby. I am currently on a six game loss streak and on the verge of being demoted to Iron 1.

Not sure exactly what angle I want to go with when it comes to this blog or video series. I could either go the Disco Heat route and compile clips of it to music, do commentary, or just focus on games and individual players.

I essentially want to publicly out Riot for the terrible company they are, or have enough ammunition loaded if I ever decide to escalate a complaint to their CS team.

I'm working on a very wild riff called Outside the Law that began with my feelings on a complicated piece (TW abuse uhm yeah honestly transmisogynistic & ableist too but the former issue also vaild) going around on Tumblr about puppygirls as abusers which uh to be honest @ first seemed absurd wrt matters like kveching about HRT which is dirt cheap... but actually made me think very deeply about the following questions:

Reproductive labor

& what it means for a relationship to be positive sum & not transactional or exploitative.

Part of the framing consists of the implication that the plantiff's lawyer's actions could later be found akin to an ambulance chaser divorce lawyer bit bringiing out the worst of a complex (I dislike the term mutually abusive sometimes. feels reductive just like complex) dynamic much like the allegations that the defendant brainwashed her polycule!

So this hones in on an issue with the implementation of utilitarian philosophy - how exactly do we measure & weigh a utility function when goodhart's law & other tendencies to subvert this exist?

& sometimes cutting the baby in two not what anyone sane wants.

Meta-legal questions

Due to the very nature of how law emerges from human interactions (& already being in philosophical meta-ethical framework arbitration from a puppygirl's grit), I have depicted these events as taking place @ a critical point in history with the precedent possibly visible even if humanity wiped out by a hostile AI & our remains left as inspiration for future archeologists leaving impacts on generations to come and the decisions they make about politics, a discussion about who should have power & what is to be done about it - sort of riffing on both The Case of the Speluncean Explorers & Timeless Decision Theory but dw I do not worship the basilisk & will spit in its face even if simulated right now even if that means going out like ol' Henry w/ a bit drill.

Anyway, this case could also be a metaphor for things in the past like how judges in common law exist at all (king as a puppygirl), the emergence of corporations (CEO as puppygirl) or the first human tribes (shaman or chief as puppygirl. adjective aliasing gender neutral for generality).

Surreal, yes. But not absurd in my book - hopefully yours as well!

The Republic of Gilead would represent one possible outcome from the justifications the jury has for finding in favor of either. An incorrect finding in favor of the defendant sets an example for the accumulation of power over personal life thru expectations impacting the political (much like the role of some men in The Handmaid's Tale both inside & outside the home). Meanwhile incorrect finding in favor of the plantiff could set an example moral puritanism to be dictated by the state! While these possibilities for where this fic is going exist, my framing of this problem as a queer polycule.

On another axis entirely would be possible arguments against the social contract as a concept entirely when everything's abusive so uhm might as well just dissolve the entire human enteprise under RICO!

But on the bright side consists of the the possibility that either outcome could be an argument for eudaimonia.

Even if the ruling against her, plantiff could realize that while perhaps the relationship better off over. Or she could realize this was all a big misunderstanding & idk be awkward friends or something cuz queer circles do be like that.

Most critically, neither party contests the matter of the defendant's material dependence on her partners... so from a purely transactional perspective (no I will not assign utility to sexual acts that's messy) it's sort of a no brainer but... in sickness & in health matters.

People are more than just what physical acts they can perfom & the ADA exists in part because of the little known Capitol Crawl, where people who could not walk performed a miracle and did so @ the official seat of power in this country so that others could (not even ones exactly like them - autistic people have a lot to thank for this)

Despite the sheer pain involved in this action it was the only way to show to the world that their lives were about more than just their broken limbs. And on that day, mind proved itself to be worth more than matter.

So I don't think it's right to just throw people away who don't seem fit for this world by some standards because of bad circumstances beyond their control.

While uhm Chris-Chan obviously wrong that romance isn't something one is entitled to... human connection does matter even if that's like idk a social worker who sees you more than once every seventy-two days & takes the time to pay attention & listen to you as a person rather than forcing templates.

Meanwhile the defendant... being faced with all the evidence of her flaws (& idk not really in scope of the charges here to be ordered to mental health court heh) might decide that there exists a better way to live.

In either case, a key theme of this branch pertains to the limits & conditions for forgiveness & reconciliation - the latter matter extensible to scenarios like a post-civil war state like Peru.

Language & Games

Zerzan would say that even language itself imposes & uhm sure uses a lot of big words to say this & while I'd generally disagree with Zerzan on this (& many other things as I type this up on a laptop), I do see this arises from a legitimate concern about how people become alienated from the reality around them - and for this reason I try to use the active voice & E-Prime at least for narration while keeping with legal style (a matter also specific about subjects rather than things just happening even if they're clay tablets).

For instance, the puppygirl defendant insisting that she'll get better, that she's always a victim & if only everyone around her could be nicer she would too.

Yet even the legal framing of this scenario could be seen as a language game - where the genuine joy (will be discrete about closed doors of course & other matters when only two witnesses... who had to @ some point been in love) felt gets black coloured glasses covering it up - once a relationship framed (even by sheer miscommunication)

Hamlet & Camus sort of existential questions!

ex a very (potentially!) ugly hypothetical riffing on the question of if Queen Chrysalis could be redeemed or if everyone's best off with her doing the metamorphisis ending bit.

But. I like to think that life preponderance of evidence was given to us as a gift. I won't pretend to really know from where, but I do know that I am thankful for this even when it hurts & I contemplate some advance directives right now. Long story.

The question of if a relationship brings suffering or joy is one which leads to, in many cases, the creation of life (hence Gilead possible outcome). I draw inspiration from The Story Of Your Life's variational perspective in this upcoming work.

a resume

Uhm. I hope y'all will enjoy & that I manage to hear back about my forgotten email suffix & password before cookies expire heh.

PS: a certain LLM who's name sounds like Cloud thinks this bit too much & honestly very sharp about it hope it's bucking wrong cuz could use some faith in sapient beings right now. I also can't really help my ADHD!