I can definitely relate to this. One of the ways I can tell when I'm really burning out at my job is when I stay on my phone past bedtime. It's a way of procrastinating waking up. Going to sleep...
I can definitely relate to this. One of the ways I can tell when I'm really burning out at my job is when I stay on my phone past bedtime. It's a way of procrastinating waking up. Going to sleep means the next work day will be here (what feels like) immediately, but staying up makes it feel like it's further away.
I can tell when I'm really low when I start seeking out something to facilitate the procrastination -- usually some form of idle/clicker game. I know they're not fun, I know they're exploitative, yet when I'm down in the depths of the dumps, I'll install one and run it for hours, each night, when I should be sleeping.
The good news is that I'm aware that this is how I function, so despite being at a relative low point in my career right now, I'm a lot better about using positive coping strategies rather than maladaptive ones. The bad news is that it took me a long time to get here.
In my case, Lisdexamfetamine (ADHD medication) is crazy effective. Things become clearer, I'm suddenly able to prioritize and can perform even the dullest tasks. This sometimes won't work for...
In my case, Lisdexamfetamine (ADHD medication) is crazy effective. Things become clearer, I'm suddenly able to prioritize and can perform even the dullest tasks.
This sometimes won't work for tasks that are overly long or doesn't play to any of my strengths. I agree with the premise of the article: when anxiety settles, I'm paralyzed. This makes it hard to learn new things or undertake entirely new enterprises. I'd be happy to just do the things I'm good already at, but life doesn't work that way.
Currently on those meds and while they help, it feels like it just unplugs the brain and runs you on zombie mode so you don't get distracted. Huge tradeoff.
Currently on those meds and while they help, it feels like it just unplugs the brain and runs you on zombie mode so you don't get distracted. Huge tradeoff.
The only medication that gave me the zombie feels was topiramate, an anticonvulsant that is sometimes prescribed for ADHD. Lisdexamfetamine does make me very focused but it doesn't make me feel...
The only medication that gave me the zombie feels was topiramate, an anticonvulsant that is sometimes prescribed for ADHD.
Lisdexamfetamine does make me very focused but it doesn't make me feel bad. I believe the feeling is at least partially subjective and philosophical. I gave up on the notion that I have anything resembling a brain-independent identity a long time ago.
Besides, it lasts 10 to 12 hours and I'm "myself" after that. And I don't take it every day, just when I need to work.
I have the same stuff under a different brand name, and I definitely notice the "rebound" effect about 7-8 hours (when it's presumably losing effects); rebound includes depression and fatigue. I...
I have the same stuff under a different brand name, and I definitely notice the "rebound" effect about 7-8 hours (when it's presumably losing effects); rebound includes depression and fatigue. I know it's not "real" and that it's just a side effect, but not taking my meds to resolve the rebound effect can seriously mess up my day.
Also, on the stuff, I have a noticeably slow response time(especially in FPS games lol) and generally don't have much emotional intensity at all.
Then again, I've been using this for the past half year at a fairly high dose (3x 10mg/day) and it's getting a lot better with a slightly lower dose.
Side effects are definitely real, it's the "zombie" interpretation that I think can be subjective/philosophical. I don't get any emotional side effects from this substance. And my dosage is higher...
Side effects are definitely real, it's the "zombie" interpretation that I think can be subjective/philosophical.
I don't get any emotional side effects from this substance. And my dosage is higher than yours. But I also use an antidepressant and mood stabilizer (two diagnostics).
But the fatigue is there. So I make sure to do everything I need before crashing.
I was gifted as a child, and suspect that I have some attention issues considering I got pneumonia when I started taking Advanced Placement classes in high school from all night session, and when...
I was gifted as a child, and suspect that I have some attention issues considering I got pneumonia when I started taking Advanced Placement classes in high school from all night session, and when I did go to college, I couldn't really get it together now that I didn't have to be there and would just no show on classes until I went on probation and eventually just dropped out/never re-uped, and even when I showed up on another campus to ask questions, I went into some sort of panic attack or a hard barrier on my actions where I just didn't want to subject myself to that again.
Long story short, I was on Adderall for a bit and it didn't do a whole lot for me, and I'm haven't seen a doctor about this in a while since nothing really changed the last time I saw one. I have a bit of the same reservations as @asoftbird on medding up again, and am weighing in on whether I should just make piece with trying again and becoming a productive automaton, or if I'm good enough as is as an unproductive lump.
I have no input on medication or attention issues, considering how both are complicated, personal topics where shared experience may not work for two different people. I just want you to know that...
I have no input on medication or attention issues, considering how both are complicated, personal topics where shared experience may not work for two different people.
I just want you to know that an Internet stranger wishes you the best and hopes that whatever choice you end up making leads you to a better life.
I am pretty sure I read a similar article (same idea: "procrastination is about managing emotions not time" in 2019.. It was also massively shared back then.
I am pretty sure I read a similar article (same idea: "procrastination is about managing emotions not time" in 2019.. It was also massively shared back then.
I can definitely relate to this. One of the ways I can tell when I'm really burning out at my job is when I stay on my phone past bedtime. It's a way of procrastinating waking up. Going to sleep means the next work day will be here (what feels like) immediately, but staying up makes it feel like it's further away.
I can tell when I'm really low when I start seeking out something to facilitate the procrastination -- usually some form of idle/clicker game. I know they're not fun, I know they're exploitative, yet when I'm down in the depths of the dumps, I'll install one and run it for hours, each night, when I should be sleeping.
The good news is that I'm aware that this is how I function, so despite being at a relative low point in my career right now, I'm a lot better about using positive coping strategies rather than maladaptive ones. The bad news is that it took me a long time to get here.
In my case, Lisdexamfetamine (ADHD medication) is crazy effective. Things become clearer, I'm suddenly able to prioritize and can perform even the dullest tasks.
This sometimes won't work for tasks that are overly long or doesn't play to any of my strengths. I agree with the premise of the article: when anxiety settles, I'm paralyzed. This makes it hard to learn new things or undertake entirely new enterprises. I'd be happy to just do the things I'm good already at, but life doesn't work that way.
Currently on those meds and while they help, it feels like it just unplugs the brain and runs you on zombie mode so you don't get distracted. Huge tradeoff.
The only medication that gave me the zombie feels was topiramate, an anticonvulsant that is sometimes prescribed for ADHD.
Lisdexamfetamine does make me very focused but it doesn't make me feel bad. I believe the feeling is at least partially subjective and philosophical. I gave up on the notion that I have anything resembling a brain-independent identity a long time ago.
Besides, it lasts 10 to 12 hours and I'm "myself" after that. And I don't take it every day, just when I need to work.
I have the same stuff under a different brand name, and I definitely notice the "rebound" effect about 7-8 hours (when it's presumably losing effects); rebound includes depression and fatigue. I know it's not "real" and that it's just a side effect, but not taking my meds to resolve the rebound effect can seriously mess up my day.
Also, on the stuff, I have a noticeably slow response time(especially in FPS games lol) and generally don't have much emotional intensity at all.
Then again, I've been using this for the past half year at a fairly high dose (3x 10mg/day) and it's getting a lot better with a slightly lower dose.
Side effects are definitely real, it's the "zombie" interpretation that I think can be subjective/philosophical.
I don't get any emotional side effects from this substance. And my dosage is higher than yours. But I also use an antidepressant and mood stabilizer (two diagnostics).
But the fatigue is there. So I make sure to do everything I need before crashing.
I was gifted as a child, and suspect that I have some attention issues considering I got pneumonia when I started taking Advanced Placement classes in high school from all night session, and when I did go to college, I couldn't really get it together now that I didn't have to be there and would just no show on classes until I went on probation and eventually just dropped out/never re-uped, and even when I showed up on another campus to ask questions, I went into some sort of panic attack or a hard barrier on my actions where I just didn't want to subject myself to that again.
Long story short, I was on Adderall for a bit and it didn't do a whole lot for me, and I'm haven't seen a doctor about this in a while since nothing really changed the last time I saw one. I have a bit of the same reservations as @asoftbird on medding up again, and am weighing in on whether I should just make piece with trying again and becoming a productive automaton, or if I'm good enough as is as an unproductive lump.
I have no input on medication or attention issues, considering how both are complicated, personal topics where shared experience may not work for two different people.
I just want you to know that an Internet stranger wishes you the best and hopes that whatever choice you end up making leads you to a better life.
I am pretty sure I read a similar article (same idea: "procrastination is about managing emotions not time" in 2019.. It was also massively shared back then.
Is it this one?