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  1. Comment on What are you doing this weekend? in ~talk

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    Moonsorrow 14LP boxset just arrived in the mail. It wasn't cheap but it's enormous and top notch audio quality. Probably going to spend a few days listening to it :')

    Moonsorrow 14LP boxset just arrived in the mail. It wasn't cheap but it's enormous and top notch audio quality. Probably going to spend a few days listening to it :')

    2 votes
  2. Comment on What are your thoughts on Minecraft? in ~games

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    Something people often seem to forget is Nether rails; since traveling 2 chunks in there corresponds to 16 kn the overworld, rails can be made much shorter to get to the desired place.

    The best way to go long distances is with minecarts with redstone tracks, but those are extremely resource-intensive, making them a less than ideal solution.

    Something people often seem to forget is Nether rails; since traveling 2 chunks in there corresponds to 16 kn the overworld, rails can be made much shorter to get to the desired place.

    6 votes
  3. Comment on What are your thoughts on Minecraft? in ~games

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    I've been playing it since late 2009 and I've loved it long time. The best experience was when I played on a multiplayer server with an 18+ crowd, built huge cities and overall had a lot of fun...

    I've been playing it since late 2009 and I've loved it long time.

    The best experience was when I played on a multiplayer server with an 18+ crowd, built huge cities and overall had a lot of fun time. Still pretty sad that it's activity declined and it disbanded, but such is life I suppose.

    In a way it also has helped me with my career choices; when I started doing textures at some point and helping out with mods (I'm an easter egg in Chisel2!) and while playing them I realized I liked design and engineering, and now am doing an industrial product design course @ uni partially due to that. It's very fun and while I may not play it continuously, I'll always play on a server with friends at least once a year for a few weeks.

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  4. Comment on What are you doing this weekend? in ~talk

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    I'm very new to linux (centos) and server management and have little experience programming, but l'm working on building my own website, mostly on the backend side and using a CMS for the main...

    I'm very new to linux (centos) and server management and have little experience programming, but l'm working on building my own website, mostly on the backend side and using a CMS for the main page(no idea which one yet). So far l know basic navigational commands, how to exit vim and how to get nginx and php-fpm to spit out the right pages at me at the right time.
    It's a remote server so everything is done with ssh and a little scp on the side, but no physical access to the thing.

    I'm also running a Mediawiki instance on a subpage, and l've been trying to install a visual editor NodeJS program on it so editing is easier. Since l'm not entirely sure on how to handle access control, l gave it access to the MW api file but it still spits out permission errors and just doesn't want to work, so if anyone has any idea how to get this going please tell me!

    When this does work l'll probably start off making a list of things l want to do (thanks @euphoria066 for the suggestion) and prioritize things l want to work on first, instead of doing everything at once and losing interest fast.

    1 vote
  5. Comment on Epic Games Store - Mega Sale - Up to 75% off and $10 off every game $14.99+ in ~games

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    Some Epic games work without the launcher. You can deinstall it and it'll work just fine.

    Some Epic games work without the launcher. You can deinstall it and it'll work just fine.

  6. Comment on Epic Games Store - Mega Sale - Up to 75% off and $10 off every game $14.99+ in ~games

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    I bought Below Zero on steam a week ago or so; the campaign is far from finished and provides 1-2 hours of playtime at most if you're familiar with the mechanics. I suggest you wait until it's...

    I bought Below Zero on steam a week ago or so; the campaign is far from finished and provides 1-2 hours of playtime at most if you're familiar with the mechanics.

    I suggest you wait until it's closer to finished.

    2 votes
  7. Comment on What's missing from your life? in ~life

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    Put some thought into this and while doing that my meds (ritalin) wore off. Suddently, anxiety nearly completely gone. I'm beginning to suspect that stuff for actually causing the majority of it,...

    Put some thought into this and while doing that my meds (ritalin) wore off. Suddently, anxiety nearly completely gone. I'm beginning to suspect that stuff for actually causing the majority of it, and I either need to switch to something better or just not use it constantly.

  8. Comment on What's missing from your life? in ~life

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    Hi, thanks a lot. I'm not really chatty right now due to a particularly bad case of the Mehs but l'll try to remember to poke you sometime. I had sort of drawn the same conclusion on my own in the...

    Hi, thanks a lot. I'm not really chatty right now due to a particularly bad case of the Mehs but l'll try to remember to poke you sometime.

    I had sort of drawn the same conclusion on my own in the meantime; it definitely seems to be anxiety because even thinking of doing things raises heart rate and triggers adrenalin release. Things like "do laundry" or "get up to drink water" or the lot. Things that rationally are no effort and will benefit me in the future.

    l now know what it is that l feel, thanks.

    In an odd way, you want the bad things in your life because you know what they are, so you can rely on them to be just as bad, and never worse, at all times.

    Funny that you mention it, that's why l drive a semi-broken car; it's better than a new one because l know all it's defects and would probably be worse off with a new third-hand car.

    I suppose this applies to me as well, just more subconsciously. I should really get talking at the psych again, now l know what's bothering me.

    1 vote
  9. Comment on What's missing from your life? in ~life

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    Do you have a link to this specific podcast?

    A podcast I listen to on time management suggested to make a physical list of 100 goals, and then to work towards them.

    Do you have a link to this specific podcast?

    1 vote
  10. Comment on What's missing from your life? in ~life

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    I haven't really figured out yet; I have a feeling I want to make things that make life easier, perform certain tasks, as well as reinventing the wheel for many things just to learn how they work....

    You said "creation". That's a good start. I figured out some time ago I like "crafting", in a broad sense: creating, yes, but specifically turn ideas into observable things. What's your kind of creation about?

    I haven't really figured out yet; I have a feeling I want to make things that make life easier, perform certain tasks, as well as reinventing the wheel for many things just to learn how they work. I realize it's not the end result that matters but the process, just how I like driving or cycling purely for fun, not really to get anywhere at all, other than traveling forward in time of course.

    I'm thinking about this and many things come up: I want to do woodcrafting and cut animal figures from sticks, or I want to draw, paint and note down things I imagine, I want to make machines, mechanisms, like tiny steam engines or something that automatically turns on the coffee machine with the flick of a switch while not at home.

    Yet when I think of these things specifically, I don't feel any desire or urgency to make anything. It all stays as ideas, and everything that I try to push myself to execute those ideas is met with a wall of apathy. It feels like I just don't care for anything. Even if I make a dishwasher that does my clothes and cleans the house for me, which surely would be an improvement vs. me forgetting to do those things all the time, I don't feel any desire to act upon those ideas.

    It's not that I don't like dishwashing or doing the laundry; it's a chore but I don't mind chores. I just cannot do anything if it's not interesting to me. If there is nothing interesting or there's a smidge of effort in the way, it's near impossible.

    Like right now: I can set up my laptop and spend the evening 3D modeling which I am learning and would consider as something I enjoy (right now), it will take a long time to get started just because my laptop is in a bag and it takes three damn movements to get it up and running. It's almost as if I'm allergic to effort. In laymans terms: I'm incomprehensibly lazy. And I hate it. And I'd like to get rid of it. But the problem here is: If I'm lazy, and everything is too much effort, how can I get better at putting effort into things?

    I think the Internet is both a blessing and a burden; it allows for access to all the knowledge and everything, but since there's so much out there, I can't focus. I spent the whole afternoon reading up on philosophy and finding goals and meaning, inspired by this thread. I liked it and might read more into that topic. But now I have another hobby, and I already had too many. Internet has made it really simple to lose track of what I'm doing and find another, just slightly more interesting thing than what I was doing at the time.

    But, I can't just disconnect- I have friends on here and I would not want to lose them. Speaking from a purely utilitarian standpoint: what do internet friends mean to me? Do they gain me anything? Would they notice and care if I disappeared? Would they miss anything? Would I miss anything?

    Most of my answers to these questions would be on the order of "No, I don't gain anything and I wouldn't mind", but somewhere back there there's a smidget of the opposite feeling, almost a sense of guilt that I can't just cut off communication, even if I explain why and they understand that I need a little break.

    It's the same for information access: I can't just block out things because blocking my curiosity makes me unhappy.

    Little intermezzo: Damn this is a word wall. I do kind of enjoy self reflection I guess lol.

    Me too. For me, I think some of it is anxiety (I notice that I stop working on a thing if I stumble on something I can't readily rectify), some – a lack of discipline, and some – the disconnect between the notions of a dedicated, prolonged work (what Cal Newport called "deep work") and the result it inevitably produces. I feel like even if I have the discipline, it all seems for naught because in my head, the work does not subsequently imply the result I expect.

    It is the expected result and a lack of patience for the result to get there, for me. And, as mentioned before, the constant flow of new interesting things that are just a little more interesting get the spotlight and I slowly lose interest in a still interesting but not interesting enough thing. It is like walking on the beach: at first, the sand you step on supports your weight, but as you move, it swiftly flows away and you slide and sink away in it, and the next step is more solid. Until the next step, where the cycle repeats.

    I used to juggle projects a lot. It helps remain creative if the projects each lie in a different category, sure, but it also means I'm not inclined to sit down and do the grind for long enough to achieve noticable results without some sort of a promised reward dangling in front of me. (Which is why I like jobs: you do the thing well, and you get paid. It's straightforward, plain, and rhythmical. Freelance gigs are the middle ground between this and the unbridled creative output.)

    Agreed, I'd like to find something I could do as a job.

    What kind of tools? I find myself in awe of stationary. Pens, pencils, stickies, books, notebooks, sheets of paper, markers, rulers, files, documents... I love it. I don't often get to use them, mostly working with digital tools, but I love just being around them.

    Workshop tools, painting equipment, my computer and all it's possibilities in programming, computing, 3d modeling, rendering and hosting websites. My electronics equipment and whatever I can make using that, like designing circuits.

    Maybe the kind of tools you like would help you define what it is you could pursue.

    There are so many that I like that I can't choose what to work on sadly.

    Those are all problems that could be solved. I'm sure you'll figure out a way to make things better for yourself eventually.

    I'm convinced they can be solved, but they do hinder my life a lot right now. I'm trying though.

    I think this general idea ties into how you consider things, as well: "all of it, here, and now", right? It sounds like it's a matter of lacking patience towards your goals – something I still struggle with, though it got way better with time and effort.

    I used to think I need at least a $1 000 rig to be satisfied with it. Quite a high taste, huh? Yeah, I was entitled like nobody's ever had needs but me. And now, I reckon I just need something that wouldn't strain my performance. I have a laptop, and though well-used, it performs well for the needs and the wants that I have, so I'm okay where I am. Eventually, I'd like to upgrade, but, it turned out, I could do it without having the shell out years' worth of gig money on a thing I don't need.

    Familiar feeling. I bought advanced tools for things I wasn't good at, and now find that the tools I had are a lot better than what I got. I realize I don't need the best for what I do, but the magic of "this tool will make you draw 10x better" doesn't actually work however. I think it's a good idea to put some thoughts into things I want and things I actually need.

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  11. Comment on "How to do what you love": An essay on finding goals and discovering what things you really enjoy doing. in ~humanities

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    Inspired by the current top post of "What are you missing in your life right now", l went to look around for philosophic texts to may get some new insights on why l haven't found "my thing" yet. I...

    Inspired by the current top post of "What are you missing in your life right now", l went to look around for philosophic texts to may get some new insights on why l haven't found "my thing" yet. I don't know if it helps, but it was inspiring and thought-provoking so l figured l'd share.

    1 vote
  12. Comment on What's missing from your life? in ~life

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    To be honest, l can't really think of anything other than taking naps and learning new things and having passing interests at all. Correct, it's just that l revolve over a ton of hobbies all the...

    There must be something that you enjoy more than the things you have a passing interest in – something you find yourself drawn to when life doesn't pressure you to go a certain way.

    To be honest, l can't really think of anything other than taking naps and learning new things and having passing interests at all.

    And, if I may be so brash: you're not good at something just because you're interested in it. Passing expertise is easily-acquirable – I once memorized the Latin verb system in an evening – but proficiency and mastery come with time and practice. Having better than no skill does not make you proficient: simply qualified.

    Correct, it's just that l revolve over a ton of hobbies all the time and slowly but surely get better at them. Yet not "good" but qualified as you said, save for a few that l spent more time on.

    I used to want to do everything, too. Ride a skate, do parkour, use martial arts, write a book, make a video game, be a teacher, design an education system, cook well, make things out of wood and metal, shoot a bow, build electronic devices, survive in the wilderness... My passions turned into skills rather surreptitiously, just 'cause I dabbled in them long enough while having an innate aptitude for them – which I how I learned I enjoy them with a deep, genuine interest.

    Yep. l find it difficult to focus on a thing long enough to properly improve, sadly. Things interest me, but because everything interests me l get nothing done because l can't seem to pick one or two things to do.

    As I'm getting old and grey in my 25th year on Earth, I'm coming to recognize that if I want to excel – or even be proficient – in the things that distinguish me, I have to practice consciously, and focus my attention on things that promise to bear a sweeter fruit than others. I used to see it as abandoning the many passions I have, but now that I'm on the other side of the river, I see that, instead, the few passions I brought across burn brighter.

    I hope to get to this point where l know how to deal with this properly. I'm trying to teach myself that l have plenty of time to do certain things later, which definitely does help. I still find it hard to choose, though.

    I may be way off about you, but the vagueness of your answer tells me that you don't know what you like. That's fine. Or maybe, deep down, you do – but are afraid of doing it because you fear you might fail in the thing you love, so you don't dare touch it. That's fine, too. Even Will Hunting had to look out for things he'd enjoy doing, no matter how many books he had read – and that thing Sean Maguire said to him, you know? "So if I asked you about art, you'd probably give me the skinny on every art book ever written. Michelangelo, you know a lot about him. Life's work, political aspirations, him and the Pope, sexual orientation, the whole works, right? But I'll bet you can't tell me what it smells like in the Sistine Chapel. You've never actually stood there and looked up at that beautiful ceiling. Seen that."

    I think that's mostly correct, yes. I can name a few things but they all share the property of creation: l want to make things. l like methods, tools, techniques, but l just don't know what to make. l'm not excited about end results, but for the bit between the start and the end.

    It took me some time to understand where I want to be. Hell, I'm still learning. (Like, lately it turned that I may be much less of a designer than I thought of myself. Sure, perhaps. I still enjoy designing things, and people who pay me for work praise what I do, so I must be doing something right.) It took me even longer to get comfortable with failure, and with recognizing that I'm not good at a lot of things, even those I want to be good at.

    You're a designer, graphics or product design or something? l'm currently studying the latter and even though it's a very broad field with many different options and directions, it somehow makes it more difficult to figure out what l like(other than realizing that l'm not really a designer either, lol).

    But then, I'd also learned that any aptitude is also a skill, meaning it can improved with practice, which takes time and effort, every day. I'm not very good at practicing yet, but my job forces me to – and I'm so grateful that it does, 'cause that practice, and the things come out of it – wins and failures – make me feel entirely capable about doing the rest of the things I want to do in life. Sure, failures still suck, but it's no longer because I feel like a failure: it's because my experimentation failed to get up to my expectations of it. I tried it; it didn't work. Alright; what else can I do?

    I think that for me, actually working on things would work in terms of getting things done. When people expect things from me, things go a lot easier and the necessity and looming bad consequences create motivation and discipline.

    You have to concentrate on something, dedicate yourself to it.

    Don't make the choice lightly. Take your time. When I was at school, I thought I'd be doing translation, 'cause the English language seemed the thing I'm best at. I had no practice otherwise, and the creative impulse of writing had met a plateau which I was unable to cope with at the time. Turned out, the languages were fun, but the education was grossly-boring. I took up web design as a form of relaxed, enjoyable work, and soon enough, I was good enough at it that people were willing to work with me. This is how I got my first gig: by showing proficiency at a topic and taking initiative at leveraging my skills towards some sort of a paid position. (More plainly, I kept explaining to the guy things I know about web design and things around it – I can't shut up about the things I love – and when the guy asked me how to do this or that, I told him I'd do it for him for a few bucks, and he said "Sounds good, here's a few bucks, do it".)

    Feeling lost sucks, but at least you know what where you're lacking, which means you know where to start when you want to improve your conditions. So you don't know where to go. I reckon the next best move is to move. Somewhere. Anywhere.

    Yeah. I think it's also something that has to do with my surroundings; slightly stressful place to live (5 really dumb roommates), something related to physique and mental stability and probably something having to do with not having the more rhythmical daily life of people with jobs.

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  13. Comment on Building a $100,000 Speaker - Meridian Facility Tour in ~tech

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    It sounds like diminishing returns to me, differences becoming smaller with every 0 added. Difference between $100 and $1000 setup? Probably big. $10k and $100k? Eh.

    It sounds like diminishing returns to me, differences becoming smaller with every 0 added. Difference between $100 and $1000 setup? Probably big. $10k and $100k? Eh.

    2 votes
  14. Comment on What's missing from your life? in ~life

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    Things l'm good at: everything, if l'm interested in it. Things l actually enjoy: The thing l'm interested in for that moment. Interests change and l still want to do interesting thing n-1, but...

    Things l'm good at: everything, if l'm interested in it.

    Things l actually enjoy: The thing l'm interested in for that moment. Interests change and l still want to do interesting thing n-1, but when the mood isn't there it will not happen.

    6 votes
  15. Comment on What's missing from your life? in ~life

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    I'll keep it short; A purpose. I honestly don't know my goals.

    I'll keep it short; A purpose. I honestly don't know my goals.

    12 votes
  16. Comment on Recommend me a game that _________. in ~games

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    I bought this game a few hours ago and I love it so far. The physical notebook is going strong as expected. It's like playing Riven or Myst V all over again, finding symbols everywhere and putting...

    I bought this game a few hours ago and I love it so far. The physical notebook is going strong as expected.

    It's like playing Riven or Myst V all over again, finding symbols everywhere and putting them to use somewhere else. Thanks a ton!

    I'm now in an area where there's a reference to the Isle of the Dead painting. That was pretty funny to find on it's own, but puzzles are interesting here as well.

    1 vote
  17. Comment on Recommend me a game that _________. in ~games

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    I know I had it in my library but I hadn't ever played it (as with many games). Just spent the whole afternoon playing that, and it's really fun! It's style and "wait, what?!"-factor really...

    I know I had it in my library but I hadn't ever played it (as with many games). Just spent the whole afternoon playing that, and it's really fun! It's style and "wait, what?!"-factor really reminisce the Witness very well (or probably reverse since Antichamber is older), as well as the moral signs that pop up all over the place. Going to play Quern now, the game mentioned below.

    2 votes
  18. Comment on What are some quality mobile games? in ~games

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    There's a bunch of PC ports that are really good. Rollercoaster Tycoon has a really good port and is the original game minus addons. There's also Terraria, Prison Architect and Stardew Valley that...

    There's a bunch of PC ports that are really good.

    Rollercoaster Tycoon has a really good port and is the original game minus addons.

    There's also Terraria, Prison Architect and Stardew Valley that have mobile ports, all very fun.

    FTL mobile is probably my favorite game.

    11 votes
  19. Comment on Why Tildes is the only place I can actually enjoy discussing politics and other controversial topics now in ~tildes

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    Tildes' equivalent of downvotes just seems to be no votes. So 'bad' comments still appear unless tagged malice or noise, but not at the top.

    Tildes' equivalent of downvotes just seems to be no votes. So 'bad' comments still appear unless tagged malice or noise, but not at the top.

    7 votes