Coming to terms with my coming to terms with post
I've posted about my mental health issues on Tildes before, 1st post 2nd post.
I reread my other 2 posts before writing this, and I definitely cringed a bit at them. I was not doing good and did not have a real sense of what to include and not. However, I really needed to feel seen and heard, so I also don't regret either of them. I didn't have anyone to open up to in my real life.
I've gotten a much better understanding of what I went through as a kid over the past year. My sister physically and emotional abused me since before I can remember until she left for college, and my parents always ignored it. That's fucked up, and there's nothing wrong with me for being so damaged because of it.
I moved to Portland, and it was definitely the right choose. I can't imagine living in the suburbs again. I went to my first concert, I got my first tattoo. I tried weed for the first time, and it really helps me gain emotional clarity. For first time in my life, I have some real hope for my future.
As the final note, I'd like to thank all the nice people here again; you really did help a scared, lonely kid more then you think.
Hey! It's good to hear you're overcoming your setbacks. I remember reading your second post and finding it relatable despite probably having a wildly different background compared to yours. (I apologize for not participating in it.)
I don't want to sound patronizing but you should be proud of how articulate you've been about describing your feelings. I find it valuable to express them in one medium or another. Not only does it help you to get it out of your system but you can also never know how much it might help someone you don't even know.
I wish you the best of luck in the future!
No need to apologize. I am curious on how it resonated with you, especially since you come from very different circumstances. No pressure or anything, I just find it interesting to hear about other people's stories.
Thank you for understanding.
I'd rather not get into specifics, but I talked a bit about my feelings here. As you might gather from reading those comments, your feelings about people around you struck a chord with me.
While you might look back at them and cringe, another way to view it is that you've made enough progress in dealing with these issues that you can look back and realize what a dark place you were in. That in and of itself is a major accomplishment.
You're right. And realizing that something that someone else did to you doesn't make you broken or wrong is a very hard lesson to learn. Some people never get that far. I'm glad you're making strides in changing your life for the better.
I hope that as you settle in to your new life, you can find new friends that genuinely care about you the way friends should.