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  1. Comment on I made a word game in ~games

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    Fun! There's also something cool about seeing a bunch of Tildes names in a different context but all still together. I like it.

    Fun! There's also something cool about seeing a bunch of Tildes names in a different context but all still together. I like it.

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  2. Comment on Resist and Unsubscribe in ~society

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    FWIW, I've bounced around between Android YouTube clients for a bit and am currently settled on NewPipe, which is great. This is anecdata, but it's extremely rare that I have any issues with it at...

    Sideload Tubular or PipePipe on Android as an alternative Youtube player without ads. Some functionality is broken so it's not a perfect replacement.

    FWIW, I've bounced around between Android YouTube clients for a bit and am currently settled on NewPipe, which is great. This is anecdata, but it's extremely rare that I have any issues with it at all, and when I do, simply closing and re-opening the app often fixes them. IME it's very much "it just works", no fiddling with host selection when one stops responding for whatever reason. And you can customize it to only show you your subscription feed and nothing else.

  3. Comment on No bull: This Austrian cow has learned to use tools in ~science

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    From what I stumbled across on Reddit and Tumblr, it does sound fascinating. And I think I have just enough context to understand what you mean when you say (some of?) the main characters are insane!

    From what I stumbled across on Reddit and Tumblr, it does sound fascinating. And I think I have just enough context to understand what you mean when you say (some of?) the main characters are insane!

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  4. Comment on What new poems have you come across this year? in ~books

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    I have heard that one! It's great, I agree. I didn't know it was Wendy Cope though - I have to admit I unfortunately know nothing about her or her work except that she wrote "The Orange" (and now...

    I have heard that one! It's great, I agree. I didn't know it was Wendy Cope though - I have to admit I unfortunately know nothing about her or her work except that she wrote "The Orange" (and now I know this one is hers as well). Any recommendations?

  5. Comment on No bull: This Austrian cow has learned to use tools in ~science

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    A quick few internet searches tell me that this might be a reference to something called "Nona the Ninth"? I am sorry to report that I am unfamiliar.

    A quick few internet searches tell me that this might be a reference to something called "Nona the Ninth"? I am sorry to report that I am unfamiliar.

  6. Comment on US Medicaid will only pay for costly new sickle cell treatment if it works in ~health

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    Maybe "Drug companies must reimburse Medicaid if new sickle-cell therapy is ineffective"?

    Maybe "Drug companies must reimburse Medicaid if new sickle-cell therapy is ineffective"?

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  7. Comment on US Medicaid will only pay for costly new sickle cell treatment if it works in ~health

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    /meta /noise Should we change the title to match the article? My initial interpretation of the post title was that patients would have to pay for the treatment themselves if it didn't work, not...

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    Should we change the title to match the article? My initial interpretation of the post title was that patients would have to pay for the treatment themselves if it didn't work, not that the drug companies would have to return the money they received from Medicaid. The article title is still a little unclear but I do think it's better.

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  8. Comment on No bull: This Austrian cow has learned to use tools in ~science

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    Wow. As someone who is vegetarian-curious, this might be the push I need to never eat beef again.

    Wow. As someone who is vegetarian-curious, this might be the push I need to never eat beef again.

    12 votes

  9. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    Got it. I appreciate you passing them along. I'll take a look at my local library network and see if I can get my hands on them.

    Got it. I appreciate you passing them along. I'll take a look at my local library network and see if I can get my hands on them.

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  10. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    No rush, trips + time changes can definitely be exhausting. Safe travels!

    No rush, trips + time changes can definitely be exhausting. Safe travels!

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  11. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    Yep, this would definitely help. The assignments might still get done at the last minute a lot of the time, but they would actually get done. Any kind of "accountability partner" at all is useful....

    what a good therapist can bring to the table is giving you structure and (...) perceived deadlines on some of the assignments in the book

    Yep, this would definitely help. The assignments might still get done at the last minute a lot of the time, but they would actually get done. Any kind of "accountability partner" at all is useful. I rarely go out of my way to set up relationships like that, though, likely due to a fear of disappointing the other person and embarrassing myself. I think I also don't want to burden others with the responsibility of compensating for my inability to function. Which I know isn't the correct way to understand the arrangement, but it's how it feels. I'll need to get over that, I guess.

    Thanks for your encouragement!

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  12. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    Autism is another one I've wondered about from time to time, but IMO it's much less likely than something ADHD-adjacent. There's been just enough little things to make me consider it, but overall...

    Autism is another one I've wondered about from time to time, but IMO it's much less likely than something ADHD-adjacent. There's been just enough little things to make me consider it, but overall I don't think it lines up with my experience very well.

    As far as manual vs. automatic, do you just mean something like "intentional choices vs. routines/habits"?

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  13. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    Same (I think). This is why I've never felt like I "check enough boxes" and have continued looking for answers elsewhere. Hmm. That's not a bad way to put it. I have my own variation of the...

    I do not think I meet the criteria for either type of ADHD - I do not have issues with either restlessness or being easily distracted.

    Same (I think). This is why I've never felt like I "check enough boxes" and have continued looking for answers elsewhere.

    The difficulty in switching focus certainly feels similar to other intrusive thoughts

    Hmm. That's not a bad way to put it. I have my own variation of the depression/anxiety cocktail and while my intrusive thoughts aren't always very intense, I'm familiar enough with the experience that your comment made me realize that it does feel like a similar mechanism is at work in the hyperfocus case.

    Thank you for sharing!

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  14. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    That book looks good too, thanks! The creator recommendations are welcome as well. I've come across plenty of videos related to this before, but mostly never click on them because they tend to...

    That book looks good too, thanks! The creator recommendations are welcome as well. I've come across plenty of videos related to this before, but mostly never click on them because they tend to give me too much of a "do YOU have ADHD?? Are you SPECIAL and quirky???" vibe. Actual good-quality videos would be nice to see.

  15. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    Thanks for the link to your old comment, I think I remember that thread. I'll take a look at the workbook you mentioned and see if anything resonates. This is what I was having such a hard time...

    Thanks for the link to your old comment, I think I remember that thread. I'll take a look at the workbook you mentioned and see if anything resonates.

    What is more important is, are you struggling with the hyper focus and picking up tasks?

    This is what I was having such a hard time articulating in the OP. I don't know. At the moment, it feels like it might be accurate to say that it's not that I can't interrupt myself and change activities if I need to; I can and do daily. But I'm not going to unless there's something that forces me to switch (e.g. a physical or social hard deadline). And there are certain very specific circumstances where the inertia is completely debilitating even when I overcome it. I have degrees in music (bachelor's in education, master's in conducting), and practicing has always been a mixed bag for me. If I get into a flow state, it's fine and progress occurs. If I don't, I fucking hate it and I'm miserable. For example, one method you commonly have to use in the practice room is simply repeating a section of music over and over again (very intentionally) until you've learned it or fixed the problem. Sometimes this is fine for me; if I can figure out a way to "loop" the section so there's little to no break in between reps, I can do reps forever. Otherwise, every time I stop myself at the end of a rep, it feels like I was riding a bike that suddenly came to a dead stop and threw me over the handlebars into the dirt. I have to pick myself back up, brush off the dirt, reset any bones I dislocated, stand the bike up, climb on, and get up to speed again. And even then it's still hard because part of my brain didn't stop when I crashed and instead continued on down the trail. It takes ages to get anywhere like this.

    This isn't always how practicing works for me, but a significant portion of the time, it is. This and other mental and/or physical blocks I encounter have kept me from reaching the level of proficiency I feel I need in order to do my job, and probably played a large role in my worsening depression in recent years and my mostly-settled decision to abandon teaching music. There's a lot more to the job than being able to play your instrument(s), but that's still very important and it honestly feels like my brain is just not well-suited for the work that's required to develop that skill. If that's true, I wish I would have realized it ten years ago.

    That got kind of ramble-y and zoomed in on one very specific case, but it's at least more articulate than anything I tried to write for the OP. Thanks for providing a prompt that nudged my thoughts into a somewhat more useful shape.

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  16. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    Yeah it certainly isn't a lack of attention. The fixations usually last for hours or days as long as there's nothing major to interrupt me. Sometimes the "fixation mode" lasts for weeks, though...

    "a racecar engine with bicycle brakes"

    Yeah it certainly isn't a lack of attention. The fixations usually last for hours or days as long as there's nothing major to interrupt me. Sometimes the "fixation mode" lasts for weeks, though the target usually changes over time.

    RE: Therapists: The mental healthcare system in my area is pretty overwhelmed, but I just found out this morning that I'm finally off the waiting list and have an appointment next week. I've been seeing various therapists for other issues for a while, but I'm hoping to have conversations about the topic of this thread with the new person.

    Thanks for the book recommendations! Those look very good. Are they ones that have helped you specifically? (I can't remember if I've seen you mention having ADHD here on Tildes or not.)

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  17. Comment on Executive (dys)function flavors? in ~talk

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    Yes. Without the tendency to "over-focus", I'd probably just write this off as procrastination and a lack of self-discipline. And maybe that is all that's going on here. I just wonder because some...

    You say you have this "hyperfocus mode", and on other things, you put them off until they become urgent, even if they are important, yes?

    Yes. Without the tendency to "over-focus", I'd probably just write this off as procrastination and a lack of self-discipline. And maybe that is all that's going on here. I just wonder because some of the things I've seen people say about ADHD and the like resonate with me.

    This comment seems random

    Not at all, I immediately knew where you were going with this. I think a lot about my/our intense desire to put things in boxes and give everything a label, and I definitely worry that, due to that desire, I'm seeing signs of some kind of executive dysfunction where there aren't any. I guess part of my goal with this post was to get a reality check of sorts. I appreciate you gently pushing back on this.

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  18. Comment on All about (computer) love in ~tech

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    Thanks for confirming it's not just me! Let us know if you hear back!

    Thanks for confirming it's not just me! Let us know if you hear back!

  19. Comment on All about (computer) love in ~tech

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    Does it still work for you as of today? I'm wondering if there's something up with the content host.

    Does it still work for you as of today? I'm wondering if there's something up with the content host.

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  20. Comment on All about (computer) love in ~tech

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    Did anyone else get lots of errors with the remote content? The text works fine, but based on the errors I'm seeing in the console output, there should be audio files being played too, as well as...

    Did anyone else get lots of errors with the remote content? The text works fine, but based on the errors I'm seeing in the console output, there should be audio files being played too, as well as some other stuff. Lots of "Failed to load resource", "ERR_NAME_NOT_RESOLVED". I started out in Firefox with shields at maximum, then tried some other things including a completely clean profile in Chrome to no avail.

    This seems like it could be very good but I want to experience it fully, not just text!

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