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  1. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    Had the luxury of playing this a few times on my cousin's PS4 recently, since the toaster I use for a personal computer couldn't hope to run it, and I agree that having pretty much any past...

    Had the luxury of playing this a few times on my cousin's PS4 recently, since the toaster I use for a personal computer couldn't hope to run it, and I agree that having pretty much any past knowledge of a CoD game will make it immediately appealing if you have some enjoyment of that style of gameplay still in you. I hadn't played a CoD game for something like 5, 6, 7 years or so and I picked this up and it was like putting on old gloves that still fit me. I'm also a fan of the gulag system, and honestly I think I'm just more of a fan of battle royales that implement a respawn system at this point. Mitigation of the whole "search for game -> wait for game to start in lobby -> drop -> die to some off-view bullshit -> queue again" series of events, even if it's one extra life, is a big plus in my book. I've yet to win a standard royale or give Plunder a real shot, but I agree with pretty much everything else you said here. I find it to be a really nice twist to the popcorn shooter gameplay that CoD (is/used to be) one of the most satisfying at doing.

    3 votes
  2. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    I came back to grinding for a higher time on Devil Daggers in the last couple of weeks, and last night I finally managed to get the single achievement after 158 hours recorded in Steam. I took a...

    I came back to grinding for a higher time on Devil Daggers in the last couple of weeks, and last night I finally managed to get the single achievement after 158 hours recorded in Steam. I took a screenshot of the post-game leaderboard after that run, and of another run I did a bit afterward. I don't play on stopping here, I fell in love with this game because of its completely barebones focus on movement, aim, and self-improvement. Nothing ever changed about the game to make it easier or something. I just learned and got better. And that's such a wonderful feeling that I had to be reminded of through something like this game.

    I've also been playing the Steins;Gate VN at a slower pace than what I'd usually play a VN at, because I want to savour it. One thing I admire about it in the ~5 chapters I've played through so far is that the dialogue is very... deja-vu inducing. I've had multiple moments in this where I feel like I've seen almost the exact same conversation happen, and it's right after I boot the game back up for the day. If that pacing is that meticulous on purpose, then I can't wait to get into the later parts as well.

    6 votes
  3. Comment on Are there any fans of the SCP Foundation wiki on Tildes? in ~talk

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    Just sat down and gave this a full read like it deserves, absolutely lovely skip, the twist in the -EX sub-skip got a notable chuckle out of me when I got to it. I think I'm a sucker for -EX skips...

    Just sat down and gave this a full read like it deserves, absolutely lovely skip, the twist in the -EX sub-skip got a notable chuckle out of me when I got to it. I think I'm a sucker for -EX skips at this point, the last time I went on a big SCP binge I ended up finishing off with some of them and they were easily one of my favorite bits of the site that I wish I remembered to check more often. Stuff like the GOI hubs are also up there in things I love when I'm reminded to visit them.

    2 votes
  4. Comment on Are there any fans of the SCP Foundation wiki on Tildes? in ~talk

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    Aaaaah, you'd be correct about 3000. And while we're on the topic of 1000/2000/etc. contest winners, I think it's my favorite out of all of them!

    Aaaaah, you'd be correct about 3000. And while we're on the topic of 1000/2000/etc. contest winners, I think it's my favorite out of all of them!

    2 votes
  5. Comment on Are there any fans of the SCP Foundation wiki on Tildes? in ~talk

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    I love the SCP foundation and I've been reading it on and off roughly for the last 10 or so years! Started a long time ago with stuff like browsing 4chan's /x/ board as a kid (yeah i know),...

    I love the SCP foundation and I've been reading it on and off roughly for the last 10 or so years!

    Started a long time ago with stuff like browsing 4chan's /x/ board as a kid (yeah i know), creepypasta wikis, eventually stumbled upon the site and some of the related fan-games of various kinds. There even used to be an SCP-087 fan game on Roblox! Anyway, I was hooked on the format, the idea of this "single universe" that's not actually singular, the way canon doesn't officially (and never will) exist, the way that you can construct this whole world and shape it to whatever your own personal favorite vision is.... It's so perfect to me. And it's all under a Creative Commons license, to boot. It's such a lovely effort by people who just..... love the idea of the SCP universe. Easily one of my favorite things that is still on the internet today.

    Some favorites:

    Captain Kirby's 001 proposal: O5-13

    Lily's 001 Proposal: The World's Gone Beautiful

    SCP-2316: Field Trip

    SCP-990: Dream Man

    SCP-1384: Taker of Turns

    SCP-1230: A Hero is Born

    SCP-001-EX: A Good Boy

    SCP-8900-EX: Sky Blue Sky

    SCP-2935: O, Death

    SCP-3009: Hi, I'm Your Snappelganger!

    SCP-3001: Red Reality

    SCP-3480: Olympus Mons

    SCP-4000

    SCP-4376: Have you tried just smiling more?

    SCP-4999: Someone to Watch Over Us

    By no means a definitive favorites list, but some classics and some that people might not have ever seen before. Definitely forgetting some incredible ones like the kids trapped in a very well known FPS game server, the one where the Foundation severely mistreats a low-threat anomalous person & is a commentary on therapists who don't do their job, the one about the submarine, the one about the massive eel creature, the one about the two living boats.... There's just too many.

    11 votes
  6. Comment on What have you been watching / reading this week? (Anime/Manga) in ~anime

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    Oh yeah, I was by no means intending to bash Togashi for the hiatus, I just like to warn anyone who shows interest in the manga that it is not complete & has history of long hiatus. I love Togashi...

    Oh yeah, I was by no means intending to bash Togashi for the hiatus, I just like to warn anyone who shows interest in the manga that it is not complete & has history of long hiatus.

    I love Togashi and it sucks that he seems to be having an incredibly rough time in recent years. Whatever it takes him to be happy & healthy is what he should do, even if that means it ends in him retiring. Would be absolutely awful if he's actually developed a long-term health condition from the work ethic.

    1 vote
  7. Comment on What have you been watching / reading this week? (Anime/Manga) in ~anime

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    Worth both watching and reading, whichever you'd prefer, I think. The 2011 anime is a lovely adaptation and covers all but the current arc of the manga, which has been on hiatus for a bit over a...

    Worth both watching and reading, whichever you'd prefer, I think. The 2011 anime is a lovely adaptation and covers all but the current arc of the manga, which has been on hiatus for a bit over a year, and could last for who knows how long.

    3 votes
  8. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    Selections from the last couple of times I've spent an afternoon or so looking through itch.io: Last Train Home - 5 to 10 minute horror experience. Simple, though the climax was notable to me...

    Selections from the last couple of times I've spent an afternoon or so looking through itch.io:

    Last Train Home - 5 to 10 minute horror experience. Simple, though the climax was notable to me since I'm a sucker for the kind-of-cliche presentation it had. Decently strong arachnophobia warning for anyone who might be interested in this, though.

    Text and Drive - I may have posted this here before? It's by the same dude who made 2:22 AM, which I've almost certainly posted here on tildes sometime before. Played this again and concept is so spot-on, even if the execution and experience playing it in janky unity web browser mode is.... less than desirable. Still not sure what to make of the final section, though, thematically at least.

    Extra Ordinary - Reminiscent of PS2 Scooby-Doo games rather than NES/SNES horror games, but that might be because I grew up with one instead of either of those. I didn't like it very much but there's probably a few people here who'd get a nice smile on their face from playing this.

    Intercontinental - Also by the same person who did Text and Drive & 2:22 AM. Kind of lovely, in a hopelessly doomed way. Makes me wonder what kind of messages I would send out to everyone I know, should I be facing an imminent death.

    3 votes
  9. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    I'm not any of the previous people who commented, but I hope you really enjoy Celeste. First time I played it, I played up through all A-sides and part of the B-sides before I moved on to other...

    I'm not any of the previous people who commented, but I hope you really enjoy Celeste. First time I played it, I played up through all A-sides and part of the B-sides before I moved on to other things.

    I eventually got the platformer itch back, returned to it and 100%'d (in achievement form, not true 100% everything) it and it was a very very very rewarding experience. I love that game, I hope you love it as well whether you pursue all the extra post-game stuff or not. :)

    3 votes
  10. Comment on What's something you have always wanted to know about being LGBT (but were maybe afraid to ask)? in ~talk

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    Love it. Don't use them myself but love seeing people trying to buck the constraints of binary gender by carving their own path. I use them for whoever prefers them, but mirroring Gaywallet's...

    Love it. Don't use them myself but love seeing people trying to buck the constraints of binary gender by carving their own path. I use them for whoever prefers them, but mirroring Gaywallet's experience, I've never met someone who also doesn't have a they/them or other traditional pronoun that they're also fine with people using.

    Does it make a difference? I think it does. Lots of people love to throw the concept of it under the bus of "oh it's just a fashion statement" or "oh it's just a zany snowflake label", but I like how it's a relatively quick filter you can inquire someone about. I know other queer people who don't like neo-pronouns and still default to they/them or whatever secondary preference the person has, but I rarely run into someone who has a strong hate for them that isn't also queerphobic in some other ways. YMMV of course, my experience.

    Will they stand the test of time? I'm not an expert enough to say so. I hope they do, but I would not be surprised if they don't.

    7 votes
  11. Comment on What's something you have always wanted to know about being LGBT (but were maybe afraid to ask)? in ~talk

    Cleb
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    Thank you, I let the self-hate bleed out a bit too much in that reply and that was a bit of a mistake. I'm constantly working on loving myself more and being a better person and I know that it...

    Thank you, I let the self-hate bleed out a bit too much in that reply and that was a bit of a mistake. I'm constantly working on loving myself more and being a better person and I know that it will all be okay in the end. <3

    4 votes
  12. Comment on Tildes' Valentine's Day Game Giveaway: Gaming Blind Dates! in ~games

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    I'll go ahead and sign up as a gift receiver. Was going to give one as well, but I'm running short on time and there seems to be a saturation of givers in comparison to receivers. Edit: I picked...

    I'll go ahead and sign up as a gift receiver. Was going to give one as well, but I'm running short on time and there seems to be a saturation of givers in comparison to receivers.

    Edit: I picked #13 and got Assault Android Cactus!

    3 votes
  13. Comment on What's something you have always wanted to know about being LGBT (but were maybe afraid to ask)? in ~talk

    Cleb
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    I connected with my non-queer friends and all, but I never had anyone I could really talk to about things about sexuality or gender or mental health or stuff like that. None of those friendships...

    How did you feel in relation to your non-LGBT peers? Did you feel significantly different because of your sexual orientation or gender?

    I connected with my non-queer friends and all, but I never had anyone I could really talk to about things about sexuality or gender or mental health or stuff like that. None of those friendships were ever anything beyond surface level and I don't talk to anyone from high school anymore. There were a few people who were out about being trans or gay in high school, but they were often on the receiving end of notable amounts of harassment. That scared me deeply, added onto the fact that I knew my parents and other family wouldn't even begin to try and understand being anything other than cishet. So I was one of the cowards who stayed in the closet and unconsciously built a wall around myself.

    How does your sexual orientation or gender affect your daily activities that you feel is different from cis-/hetero folks don't experience?

    I don't talk to people in real life much, and the express reason for that is that I don't really want to build up any relationships of friendship with people when the odds are massively stacked in favor that they'll drop me, or potentially be malicious and out me to people I'd rather not have know about my identity. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a rude person. I can make casual conversation and I'm not a total bumbling idiot when I open my mouth, but people often describe me as "quiet" or "shy", which I'm indifferent to hearing. I just don't really see much of a reason to try and connect with people here when the majority of them are likely to slot me into the "freak" category in their head and stop talking to me. I don't think cishets really have to be afraid of that, at least from an identity perspective. In the future where I'm no longer in deeply conservative rural backwoods America, I hope I won't have to be so isolationist to feel safe.

    6 votes
  14. Comment on What's something you have always wanted to know about being LGBT (but were maybe afraid to ask)? in ~talk

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    In my experience growing up where I did in America at least, being a man who shows interest in another man is something that generally attracts more outright hostility than for women. There's a...

    In my experience growing up where I did in America at least, being a man who shows interest in another man is something that generally attracts more outright hostility than for women. There's a lot of internalized homophobia and toxic masculinity that gets hammered into your brain as a child and teen. Church sermons, passive "jokes" that your friends learned from their parents or somewhere else that are just "haha you did (thing), you're gay", derision at men who do things seen as a "gay thing" ie: having a lisp, walking with a different gait, liking traditionally feminine things like perfume or nailcare, growing your hair past a certain length. Men here are also very much not affectionate or compliment-friendly, it is often seen as a weird thing to tell your other guy friend that you like the stuff he's wearing today or you think his hair looks nice or you ask if you can have a hug. This all ends up playing into a development of a fear of expressing any kind of positive feeling for fellow men in a way that could be perceived as romantic or sexual attraction. I'd imagine that a lot of guys who believe themselves to be completely straight have a degree of internalized homophobia from experiences growing up and they carry that into adulthood. Hell, I still catch myself hesitating and having gross feelings bubble up when I read a question like "do you believe gay people should be able to be married?" and I've been out as queer to my friends on the internet for several years at this point. This stuff runs deep.

    Can't comment on the reverse side, as I didn't grow up in the girls' spaces. Just noticed more outright bullying and public hostility towards gay and bi men compared to a more passive and objectifying (although still disgusting and abhorrent) treatment of gay and bi women. Like getting beaten up or having a slur sprayed on your locker vs getting catcalled and "Hey baby, I can make you turn straight again." verbal harassment.

    My personal experience, growing up as someone seen as a guy in a conservative + religious area of America. There are probably others here who can phrase things I said here in a better way and go even deeper with it.

    14 votes
  15. Comment on What are your thoughts on how romance is handled in gaming? in ~games

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    I spent a good portion of today wracking my brain to think of an answer, but The Sims is also the only thing I could come up with. One of the only other things I could come up with was Life Is...

    I spent a good portion of today wracking my brain to think of an answer, but The Sims is also the only thing I could come up with. One of the only other things I could come up with was Life Is Strange, and that feels like a wonky answer since it also largely falls into the "walking simulator" area of derision that gets similar flak about whether or not they're games. It also largely just relies on a couple of dialogue answers for whether the romance even occurs, and when it does it's not something that happens with a very blatant presence either. No blatant "hey we're dating now"-type of reaction. Guess my love for that also lies in the character dynamic and the way it's written.

    I did probably overspeak about disliking the gameification, you are absolutely right in the first part of your reply. I've definitely enjoyed gameified romance systems before, even if I'm having trouble calling them to mind now. It does feel a bit silly that I'm saying things like this when the core game experience of romance in many instances is essentially invisible bar filling and dialogue checks.

    1 vote
  16. Comment on What's something you have always wanted to know about being LGBT (but were maybe afraid to ask)? in ~talk

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    Personally, my own ideal for the initialism is to do away with it and introduce another word entirely. I love "queer" but there are many people who are uncomfortable with that label so there's no...

    Personally, my own ideal for the initialism is to do away with it and introduce another word entirely. I love "queer" but there are many people who are uncomfortable with that label so there's no way that it'd feasibly become the most universal term. kfwyre's response about the term "rainbow" is a very good one as well, though I don't think "rainbow" would be my first personal pick, and I have to do some long thinking to come up with my own alternative. Don't get me wrong, I love the rainbow flag and all, but like they said in their post, I don't really feel that same hit of satisfaction from saying "I'm rainbow" vs "I'm queer".

    If we have to stick with an initialism, by far my preferences are for one of the following: LGBTIQ+, LGBTQ+, or LGBT+. It personally feels very important to me to incorporate the + into the initialism because while it can be taken as a sort of "othering" of identities that don't have a lettered spot, I also believe it's important to be recognizable and not overly long. There is a degree of lovely feeling to how upfront the LGBTQQIAAP+ length ones are, but they're also a mouthful and I know very few people who ever go through and type out or enunciate the entire thing. Most often I get "LGBTQ", "LGBT", "queer", or "LGBTQ+" in real conversation. I also would strongly prefer one of the first two I mentioned in this paragraph, but I would settle for LGBT+ if it was something that satisfied most of the other members of the community.

    5 votes
  17. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    Some of my friends and I have been spending a lot of time in the last couple of weeks playing Team Fortress 2 again. First time I've picked this game back up since about 2012 or 2013, and it's...

    Some of my friends and I have been spending a lot of time in the last couple of weeks playing Team Fortress 2 again. First time I've picked this game back up since about 2012 or 2013, and it's still shockingly just as fun as I remembered it being. I loved this when I was a tween/early teen and I still get the same rush that I did then when I get a slick backstab as Spy or a Medic pops a kritzkrieg Uber on me when I'm playing soldier and I wipe 3-5 people trying to push the capture point. There's been some weapons added since that I've been having to learn what they do, but honestly they seem to be largely inferior to most of the weapons that were already in the game and I run into many people running different kinds of stock weapons more than anything, aside from your classics like Demoknight getups and market gardener Soldiers.

    The TF2 Economy tanked at some point and discovering that was a bizarre feeling. backpack.tf now lists the refined metal price as 4 cents, compared to my memory placing it at at least a dollar or two way back when. Buds now cost ~3 keys instead of the 15-20 that they routinely went for before. Just a weird experience, but it makes sense considering all the money in skins is now in games like CSGO.

    5 votes
  18. Comment on What's something you have always wanted to know about being LGBT (but were maybe afraid to ask)? in ~talk

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    Neutral feelings or uncomfortableness if it's too far. I feel the same for queer couples too, I think PDA in general is cool, holding hands and kissing and whatnot but if you're getting like.......

    What do you feel when you see a straight couple being overtly sexual in public?

    Neutral feelings or uncomfortableness if it's too far. I feel the same for queer couples too, I think PDA in general is cool, holding hands and kissing and whatnot but if you're getting like.... really grindy or something and you're in a mall and not in a nightclub or something, that's not really something I'm a fan of.

    Do you feel offended when someone assumes you are straight?

    Not offended, but I kinda feel weird about the default assumption for me being that I'm a guy/masculine person who likes girls exclusively. I guess that's on me though because I don't really do a lot of outward presentation in the way of looking feminine or gender neutral, but that's more for my own safety than an actual expression choice.

    Is it important for you that everyone knows you're LGBT right away?

    I like to be out to people when possible, right away or not depends on the circumstance. On the internet, I'm far more likely to come out with my gender and sexual identity because it offers a lot more freedom in picking and choosing the people you hang around. I also don't offer much info about my irl life so doxxing isn't a very large worry for me.

    Would you like to play more videogames with LGBT main characters? (and the equivalent for other media)

    Yeah. I would love more media to have rep for all kinds of queer people.

    6 votes
  19. Comment on What's something you have always wanted to know about being LGBT (but were maybe afraid to ask)? in ~talk

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    I grew up in a conservative, Christian family and I stopped going to church sometime around 10 or 11 years old. The kind of church we always went to as a kid was very hellfire & brimstone type...

    I grew up in a conservative, Christian family and I stopped going to church sometime around 10 or 11 years old. The kind of church we always went to as a kid was very hellfire & brimstone type sermon, bone-chilling things to hear as a young kid, it pushes its way into your mind and to this day I have a lot of trouble shaking thoughts about how my being queer is "degenerate" or "going to get me a ticket straight to hell". I quit going because it was not something that I felt like I was gaining anything from, and in real life I have a repulsion to entering Christian churches specifically now because they bring up these awful memories and feelings of confusion + some internalized homophobia that claws its way to the surface every now and then. I'm aware of friends I have on the internet who have found Christian spaces that accept queerness to varying degrees, but I've never managed to find any of these places in my life. As for what I believe now, I align with a more agnostic view now.

    14 votes
  20. Comment on What are your thoughts on how romance is handled in gaming? in ~games

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    Both Kawata Shoujo and eden*'s strengths for me lie in their writing, although with how Katawa Shoujo has multiple writers for its different routes, it achieves varying results. KS to me contains...

    Both Kawata Shoujo and eden*'s strengths for me lie in their writing, although with how Katawa Shoujo has multiple writers for its different routes, it achieves varying results. KS to me contains a very successful "wish fulfillment" route, a route about struggling with self-expression and what it means to make art or be a successful artist, a route about pushing yourself even if you're at a disadvantage because you should do the things you love, and a couple of other routes that I'm not a very big fan of what they are as a whole. All of them are wrapped up in a romantic package, of course, and all routes have some good parts to me, even if I don't think they tie it together or they veer off in a direction that I can't support. eden* spends its time dwelling on limited time, the people you spend it with, and has dashes of questions like "can I still be a good person despite the terrible things I was indoctrinated/conscripted/essentially forced to do?". It's also got the highest production value of all of the three.

    Highway Blossoms is a little different in that I think it's not the highest quality or the most interesting western lesbian romantic game that I've come across, but it's..... maybe the most soulful and relatable? It lies somewhere in the range of being a higher production than single-creator itch.io visual novels (which are awesome by the way, not knocking them at all), but doesn't really get anywhere close to the value that big name novels get like Steins;Gate or Danganronpa. Deals with themes like cracking yourself out of your cynical isolationist shell.

    3 votes