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  1. Comment on Afsky - Stormfulde Hav (2023) in ~music

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    Afsky's great, oddly enough their acoustic album (I Stilhed) has got the most plays from me. All their output is so beautiful.

    Afsky's great, oddly enough their acoustic album (I Stilhed) has got the most plays from me. All their output is so beautiful.

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  2. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    Inscryption is really amazing! Played it on my ROG Ally. No spoilers, but I loved act 1 the most. The sound design of the prospector boss fight is genuinely so good. Act 3 was difficult for me to...

    Inscryption is really amazing! Played it on my ROG Ally. No spoilers, but I loved act 1 the most. The sound design of the prospector boss fight is genuinely so good. Act 3 was difficult for me to get through, though.

    The narrative was really interesting, and I think it's worth seeing to the end.

    3 votes

  3. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    Good review! I'm currently playing through GAMMA. Holding off on Stalker 2 until they fix the glaring "anomalies". But wow, from what I've seen so far the game looks GORGEOUS. Can't wait to get on...

    Good review! I'm currently playing through GAMMA. Holding off on Stalker 2 until they fix the glaring "anomalies". But wow, from what I've seen so far the game looks GORGEOUS. Can't wait to get on it!

    And while I'm here maybe I'll give my 2 cents on GAMMA, since it's my first time playing this modpack. I'm half enjoying and half hating the extreme difficulty - each encounter is immensely rewarding to survive through, but given the TERRIBLE economy of the game if I feel like I've used too much resources I'd reload the encounter. Also the dogs end me every single time. Hate them.

    A bunch of things seem arbitrarily annoying to do. Artifacts are basically worthless unless you can get them up to a good condition.... by finding more artifacts. A good amount of them are radioactive, so if you want more artifacts you've got to either tank that radiation or buy expensive and heavy lead containers.

    I'm actually okay with the guns from looted enemies being basically worthless, and I somewhat like the scavenging-for-parts system. However, I HATE that I could have all the parts I need to make a nice AK-47 but I can't make it because I'm lacking the toolkit.

    I need a type C weapon repair kit to swap out the barrel on my AK-47 (what?). For that I need an advanced toolkit. I don't even have a basic toolkit, and I've been searching stashes as much as I can.

    The crafting system is a mess. I thought I'd like it, but it's the hands-down worst thing about the mod.

    Other than that, what Grok and the modding community was able to do with Stalker is downright amazing. But the patchwork nature of the mods definitely show.

    I'm still going to continue playing because I'm a sucker for pain.

  4. Comment on What have you been listening to this week? in ~music

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    Sunrot / Body Void Split - This got quite a few plays from me. I prefer the Sunrot side, but Body Void kills in this as well. That power electronics intro was a nice surprise too. New Age of...

    Sunrot / Body Void Split - This got quite a few plays from me. I prefer the Sunrot side, but Body Void kills in this as well. That power electronics intro was a nice surprise too.

    New Age of Judgement - Disfigure - Crusty punky black metal goodness. The way the vocals were mixed was certainly a choice. Very interesting and raw.

    Assymetrics - meth./see you next thursday - Boy, this is CHAOTIC. Grind? Noise? Screamo? I don't know, but inject it into my veins please.

    School of Death - Coakira - Not normally what I'd listen to, but I just needed something with a high BPM to power through studying. Found it through RYM browsing gabber, and me like. On the third track there's a section with drums that I REALLY liked, thought it sounded great. (Sometimes I just need high BPM music. Lil texas, anyone?)

    1 vote

  5. Comment on In Retrograde - Two Lovers (2023) in ~music

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    Such an interesting sound! It's got the black metal guitars, but the drums are more rock than metal. I love the vocal delivery too - it reminds me of Cold Cave, but that's probably because I...

    Such an interesting sound!

    It's got the black metal guitars, but the drums are more rock than metal. I love the vocal delivery too - it reminds me of Cold Cave, but that's probably because I haven't listened to much goth/darkwave stuff.

    Does anyone know anything else that sounds like this? I'd be curious to hear!

    2 votes

  7. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    I'd want to start with something dark and then maybe onto more colourful stuff. I do have several stash spots, and they're big enough that I'm not really worried. By the way to clarify, for that...

    I'd want to start with something dark and then maybe onto more colourful stuff.

    I do have several stash spots, and they're big enough that I'm not really worried.

    By the way to clarify, for that micellar water trick are you saying to dampen it beforehand and just keep it in there? Like would it remain moist the whole day 😅?

    Thanks!!! Going to do some shopping soon!

    (Also, i feel like this is getting kind of off topic from the original post... would it be more tildes-appropriate to DM or create a new topic?)

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  8. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Thanks for offering to help, I truly appreciate it. I know I really should make more queer friends, but oof, I find it pretty hard to make new friends. But I know ultimately i've got to step out...

    Thanks for offering to help, I truly appreciate it.

    I know I really should make more queer friends, but oof, I find it pretty hard to make new friends. But I know ultimately i've got to step out of my comfort zone and do it. Thanks

    2 votes

  9. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Wow, thanks! I can probably google this but hey since you're willing, have any tips for eye shadow? Been wanting to get into it too, but it seems super difficult to hide.

    Wow, thanks! I can probably google this but hey since you're willing, have any tips for eye shadow? Been wanting to get into it too, but it seems super difficult to hide.

    4 votes

  10. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    I'm not sure if grad school might be for me, but I'll definitely think about it. Thanks.

    I'm not sure if grad school might be for me, but I'll definitely think about it. Thanks.

  11. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Haha good idea but I'm not sure it'll work. I'm scared of the confrontation anyway.

    Haha good idea but I'm not sure it'll work. I'm scared of the confrontation anyway.

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  12. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Don't be sorry at all! Your comment really resonated with me. The things you say are things I relate to so much. Especially paranoia.

    Don't be sorry at all! Your comment really resonated with me. The things you say are things I relate to so much. Especially paranoia.

    3 votes

  13. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Aww my god your last sentence broke me. Thank you so so much. The fact that you'd show that kindness to a random stranger online tells me you're an awesome person.

    Aww my god your last sentence broke me.

    Thank you so so much. The fact that you'd show that kindness to a random stranger online tells me you're an awesome person.

    5 votes

  14. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    I agree with a lot of your points, thank you. As for 6, I don't think my family is in a position to do that haha. Thanks for showing concern for my mental health. I generally think I'm quite a...

    I agree with a lot of your points, thank you. As for 6, I don't think my family is in a position to do that haha.

    Thanks for showing concern for my mental health. I generally think I'm quite a stoic guy (not in the toxic-male kind of sense), and that I can roll with the punches quite well. So I think I'm ok.

    Much appreciate your response.

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  15. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Well as sparksbet mentioned, I feel like I'd need to get my degree first. There are local LGBTQ+ communities, and I have attended some events. I don't really have queer friends, but there are...

    Well as sparksbet mentioned, I feel like I'd need to get my degree first. There are local LGBTQ+ communities, and I have attended some events. I don't really have queer friends, but there are queer people I know through work and the like.

    But, ultimately, I just don't feel accepted in this society. To get government-subsidised housing in this country, you need to be married, and same-sex marriage is not recognized. If not, you need to wait till you're 35 years old. That's just not an option.

    And wow, thank you so much for offering to help me. I could use some help, yes. I've been partial about Canada, because that's somewhere my family was thinking of moving to before that plan fell apart for other reasons. But the thought of actually moving terrifies me as well. I've lived in the same house my whole life. Moving to somewhere with no friends, family, or anyone I know seems daunting. I don't know how I'm actually going to do that.

    Thank you so much for your input and questions. It got me thinking of things I should be thinking about.

    4 votes

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    Thank you for this. Forming an exit plan should be something I really get on, I don't see a future with myself in this country anyway. The details are much appreciated. As for calling my parents...

    Thank you for this. Forming an exit plan should be something I really get on, I don't see a future with myself in this country anyway. The details are much appreciated.

    As for calling my parents abusers, I have very mixed feelings about that. I love my mum very much - she's an inspiration to me in many ways. I just believe that she has too much of an "Asian" mindset, something that's maybe too hard to un-learn. Man, I don't know.

    5 votes

  18. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Hahaha this is great! I've known about press-ons but for some reason I didn't really consider them. I'll def look into this, thank you!

    Hahaha this is great! I've known about press-ons but for some reason I didn't really consider them. I'll def look into this, thank you!

    4 votes

  19. Comment on Balancing self-expression and parents in ~life

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    Absolutely. It's a conclusion I came to my own as well but I was just wondering if anyone else had experience navigating this and what did they do. Thanks for the reply!

    Absolutely. It's a conclusion I came to my own as well but I was just wondering if anyone else had experience navigating this and what did they do. Thanks for the reply!

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  20. Balancing self-expression and parents

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    Apologies if this comes off as rambly or even entitled. Also for the title, didn't quite know what to put there. So firstly some context. I live in an Asian country where it's normal AND expected...

    Apologies if this comes off as rambly or even entitled. Also for the title, didn't quite know what to put there.

    So firstly some context. I live in an Asian country where it's normal AND expected to live with your family past 20. Housing is expensive, and you're really only expected to move out once you're married. Also, I'm 21M.

    I really enjoy expressing myself with things more traditionally associated with femininity, like makeup, nail polish and fem clothing sometimes (side note, definitely don't think I'm trans).

    But as they say, god gives the gayest children to the most homophobic parents. My parents have told me multiple times that if I was gay I'd be kicked out of the house. My dad for some reason follows American politics (and by that I mean right wing grifters) despite having no link whatsoever to America. In fact, I think he'd be hatecrime'd if he went there. So yea I'm inclined to believe their homophobia.

    One incident in particular which made me genuinely angry was when I bought something pink and I was sat down and talked to like I commited some crime.

    Anyway, that's all just to say how do I keep up this balancing act? I do my nail polish then sneak out the door. Before I come back, I remove it somewhere quiet. I feel like a fugitive, and it's so damn exhausting. I want to express myself. But it's not the end of the world if I don't (I feel somewhat entitled that I'm even asking this when LGBTQ+ people in some places of the world are in actual danger).

    If I tell my parents, I don't think they would accept me. And worse, I might get kicked out - they'd probably think I'm gay.

    Being kicked out would be terrible. Renting is still prohibitively expensive for me, I'd have to get a full time job and effectively stop my studies. I don't think I'd be able to survive in this country like that, where it's expected for you to have a degree.

    Eventually I'd like to move to another country where I'd be more accepted, but that's years down the line and I don't even know where to start with that. Do I just keep my head down and just be satisfied with the status quo?

    Thanks for reading, any input would be appreciated.

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