meatrocket's recent activity

  1. Comment on Chelsea Wolfe: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert in ~music

    meatrocket
    Link
    Chelsea Wolfe performs three songs in her mesmerizing goth-folk-doom style. Her fantastic guitar tone and beautiful voice make Maw, Crazy Love, and Iron Moon sound even better than their studio...

    Chelsea Wolfe performs three songs in her mesmerizing goth-folk-doom style. Her fantastic guitar tone and beautiful voice make Maw, Crazy Love, and Iron Moon sound even better than their studio versions.

    1 vote
  2. Comment on Eleven days in ~talk

    meatrocket
    Link Parent
    That's a really neat sounding job, happy for you.

    That's a really neat sounding job, happy for you.

    2 votes
  3. Comment on Yawning Man - Live at Giant Rock in ~music

    meatrocket
    Link
    Legendary desert/psych outfit Yawning Man's recent live album, recorded May 18th, 2020 in the Mojave desert.

    Legendary desert/psych outfit Yawning Man's recent live album, recorded May 18th, 2020 in the Mojave desert.

    1 vote
  4. Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (December 2020) in ~talk

    meatrocket
    Link Parent
    I can relate to your situation a little bit, although not to the same degree. Any time I come back home from school I’m reminded of why I wanted to leave so badly. I’ve always felt uncomfortable...

    I can relate to your situation a little bit, although not to the same degree. Any time I come back home from school I’m reminded of why I wanted to leave so badly. I’ve always felt uncomfortable around my parents, so I admire your more accepting attitude of the situation you have with your mom.

    I’m really sorry to hear about your pets as well. I know it’s not the biggest consolation, and you have probably heard this already, but you gave them the best lives you possibly could, and I know they love you for it. I can kind of relate here, as well; my dog looks so much older every time I get to see him. He’s got a good while to go, he’s just starting to turn grey and a bit lethargic, but it sucks to see him like that. I remember bringing him home when I was in elementary school. I’m gonna go give him some belly rubs. Thanks for sharing.

    4 votes
  5. Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (December 2020) in ~talk

    meatrocket
    (edited )
    Link
    This is more like the void I've chosen to scream into for the moment than an actual advice request, so don't feel obligated to reply. (Replies are, of course, appreciated, however.) I have a hard...

    This is more like the void I've chosen to scream into for the moment than an actual advice request, so don't feel obligated to reply. (Replies are, of course, appreciated, however.) I have a hard time picking which details need to be included and which do not, so apologies if this ends up a bit long-winded and boring.

    About a month and a half ago, I broke up with my girlfriend of three years. It's been hard, harder than I thought it would be, but things are getting better. I can feel myself being more independent and more "myself" in little ways. It's not like this was my first relationship, but it was the first where I was the one initiating the breakup. Our situation was always weird: we got together really suddenly in Germany, and starting shortly thereafter, we were long distance, seeing each other a handful of days out of the year. It was only this past summer that we were able to see each other with any sort of frequency in the States. The entire three years, there was this nagging feeling that something wasn't right, and I always brushed it off, but that feeling came to a head when she and I had a fight shortly before I went on a trip with my two best friends and a couple friends of theirs (this sounds irresponsible but nobody was put at risk, I won't bore you with the details). That trip was the first time that I felt genuine care and support in a very long time, maybe since I last had a group of friends I could steadily rely on back in high school. It took me feeling that way to understand that she didn't make me feel that way. I feel guilty for what I did to her, because I must admit - she loved me more than I loved her. I feel like I violated her trust and let her down like all of her previous relationship partners did... although I didn't cheat on her like most of them, so I guess I could still be worse. That isn't to say I didn't love her or think highly of her, but we have our own respective mental health issues that we need to figure out ourselves, instead of relying on each other to fix them for our respective selves. I'm upset that I lost a close friend, but I'm now friends with all of the formerly friends-of-friends that I went on the trip with, and I'm closer than ever with those two friends I mentioned. (I think I might be having feelings for one, but I'm worried it's just a rebound, and she deserves more respect than that, and I don't think it's fair to my last girlfriend especially if I'm not over her, but she's been so supportive of me with this situation the entire time we've known each other and I think I do see us being very compatible... it's a whole other can of worms.) I'm grateful to have all of them with me through this, and I really look forward to seeing them more next semester.

    Speaking of semesters... being a student this semester is harder than it has ever been for me. I have no motivation whatsoever, and my professors keep piling on work as if anyone isn't too drained to learn anything from the assignments. It feels like there's an expectation that we can devote all of our time to our education, now that we're learning from home, but each day feels the same, with the same stress day in and day out of some project or test hanging over my head. We've had a lot of our breaks cancelled, to make it worse. I've cheated on most of my finals so far because I've retained almost nothing from this semester. I feel guilty about it, but it also feels like I didn't have a choice. I really did try as hard as I could, but it's been soul-sucking to live with the solitude and burnout of the past six months. You've probably heard things like this from every student this semester. Next semester looks like more of the same.

    I'm finally ready to get some real help with my mental health. I want to make an appointment with a psychiatrist and get medicated, but I'm not sure where to start. I did some therapy at the start of this year, and it was helpful, but the short duration of and long time between the sessions didn't help, so perhaps a combination of medication and therapy. I'm not sure, but it took a long time for me to get to this step, and I'm proud of that. (Although... the help would of course be better than the pride.)

    10 votes
  6. Comment on What's something you don't understand the appeal of? in ~talk

    meatrocket
    Link Parent
    For me, harsher vocals can serve different purposes depending on their style in a particular track - it might be for emotional effect (Chlorine & Wine - Baroness), atmospheric effect (Canary...

    For me, harsher vocals can serve different purposes depending on their style in a particular track - it might be for emotional effect (Chlorine & Wine - Baroness), atmospheric effect (Canary Yellow - Deafheaven), or to simply match the intensity of the instrumentation and/or production.

    1 vote
  7. Comment on Trump/Biden 2020 Presidential Debate #2 Discussion Thread in ~talk

    meatrocket
    Link Parent
    Personally, I’ll probably drink a slightly irresponsible but not too irresponsible amount. If that’s your kind of thing, I suppose it seems like the night.

    I don't know what I'll do on election night.

    Personally, I’ll probably drink a slightly irresponsible but not too irresponsible amount. If that’s your kind of thing, I suppose it seems like the night.

    5 votes
  8. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

    meatrocket
    Link
    I've been teaching myself to shuffle cards, and I learned to play Solitaire. I always carry a deck of cards with me, but until a couple of weeks ago, I didn't even know a single game to play with...

    I've been teaching myself to shuffle cards, and I learned to play Solitaire. I always carry a deck of cards with me, but until a couple of weeks ago, I didn't even know a single game to play with them or how to shuffle them.

    2 votes
  9. Comment on All Them Witches - Rats in Ruin in ~music

    meatrocket
    Link
    One of my favorite tracks from the new album. ATW has always known how to use quiet moments to take the atmosphere and emotion to new heights. This song almost borders on ambient until midway...

    One of my favorite tracks from the new album. ATW has always known how to use quiet moments to take the atmosphere and emotion to new heights. This song almost borders on ambient until midway through, but its strength really is in its subtlety. The same goes for Everest, an instrumental guitar piece early on the album. These guys make some great music.

    1 vote
  10. Comment on What are your thoughts on the next gen consoles from Xbox and Playstation? in ~games

    meatrocket
    Link Parent
    I'm in a similar spot as you. I'm hopeful about both desktop Zen 3 and the RTX 3060. My 4690K will rest some day. :) As for suspend/resume, I think about how when you put a PC in sleep mode, the...

    I'm in a similar spot as you. I'm hopeful about both desktop Zen 3 and the RTX 3060. My 4690K will rest some day. :)

    As for suspend/resume, I think about how when you put a PC in sleep mode, the current system state gets stored in memory while the PC is in a low power mode. Maybe someone could mirror that with a game? Duplicate the game state in memory, or write it to disk for a longer term suspension? I'm certainly no senior dev, but to my understanding, that's more or less how save states in emulators work. Obviously the memory requirement for doing that on a SNES ROM is orders of magnitude lower than any game from this century - but Microsoft pays some pretty smart people to do some pretty smart stuff. I'd wonder how such a feature would work on PC with older games not made with such a feature in mind.

    3 votes
  11. Comment on What are your thoughts on the next gen consoles from Xbox and Playstation? in ~games

    meatrocket
    Link
    I'm not exactly responding to the actual questions of your post, but I just wanted to mention how this upcoming console generation actually has me excited as a PC gamer. The last generation was...

    I'm not exactly responding to the actual questions of your post, but I just wanted to mention how this upcoming console generation actually has me excited as a PC gamer. The last generation was really needed after the PS3/360 lasted for so long, but they didn't actually have all that much power, and they needed up-specced refreshes well into their lifecycles to keep up.

    This generation is advertising features like hardware accelerated raytracing, 3D audio, high refresh rate, even fundamental changes to game engine design thanks to their standard NVMe storage. The actual hardware specs are impressive to me, too - 8C/16T Zen 3, much bigger GPUs than last gen, and actual attempts at letting these chips flex their legs (TDPs are roughly double last gen, IIRC). These specs, for the price point, can't be beat with a new PC, at least not without looking for used parts. I'm excited for the normalization of this kind of performance and technology - especially 3D audio and high refresh rate gaming - and their eventual impact on the rest of the tech space. Maybe a wider consumer base for high refresh rate displays will make them more affordable. Maybe PC component manufacturers will drop prices of their mainstream offerings to compete with this console generation's performance per dollar (looking at the inflation of GPU prices the past few years).

    It's a good time to play video games.

    7 votes
  12. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

    meatrocket
    Link
    Prey is one of the best games I've played in a while. It combines exploration, horror, survival, and role play in a way that I haven't quite experienced. (I've tried to start System Shock a couple...

    Prey is one of the best games I've played in a while. It combines exploration, horror, survival, and role play in a way that I haven't quite experienced. (I've tried to start System Shock a couple times, but that felt like playing an oscilloscope. Bioshock didn't grab me either when I played it several years ago, not sure why.) The level of detail in this game continues to astound me.

    3 votes
  13. Comment on What do you carry with you every day (excluding keys, wallet, and phone)? in ~talk

    meatrocket
    Link
    Once I have enough saved up for a pair of Airpods Pros... Airpods Pros.

    Once I have enough saved up for a pair of Airpods Pros... Airpods Pros.

  14. Comment on Cheap/small alternative to the guitar in ~hobbies

    meatrocket
    Link
    I'm a guitar player, so bear my bias in mind. A smaller guitar shouldn't be too hard to find, and it might fit your needs. A parlor-sized acoustic is a good deal smaller than the dreadnought size...

    I'm a guitar player, so bear my bias in mind. A smaller guitar shouldn't be too hard to find, and it might fit your needs. A parlor-sized acoustic is a good deal smaller than the dreadnought size that you may be more familiar with. Even smaller travel-sized electric guitars are also not uncommon, and an electric setup might also fit suit your desire for "more interesting" because of all the effects possibilities. I'd strongly recommend buying a used guitar over a new one, be it from something like Reverb or from a local shop. You'll get more for your money that way.

    If you do decide on a guitar, I've heard nothing but praise for Justin Guitar's lessons.

    3 votes
  15. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

    meatrocket
    (edited )
    Link
    Yesterday evening, I finished and promptly uninstalled Need for Speed: Undercover. I was a huge fan of the series as a kid, and never got a chance to play Undercover, but it probably should have...

    Yesterday evening, I finished and promptly uninstalled Need for Speed: Undercover. I was a huge fan of the series as a kid, and never got a chance to play Undercover, but it probably should have just stayed in my head as "the one that got away." It's not very good at all. It's the only open world game I've ever played where there is nothing to do in the open world. It's completely empty. You can't find events, garages, other racers, anything.

    Yakuza 0, on the other hand, is not only tons of fun to play, but the story keeps unfolding and drawing me in. Its environments are excellent, too; sometimes I like to just stand in the middle of a crowded Tokyo street and look at the neon, watch people go about their day, listen to the sounds.

    EDIT: I just finished Tacoma as well, which I was excited to try because i thought Gone Home was amazing. Fullbright has a talent for making you care about characters you never get a chance to meet, and that talent shines again in Tacoma. I thought the way that it implements entire conversations into voice recordings (if you could call them voice recordings) was really interesting, and it really allows you to get maximum character development out of as little space as possible - fitting, given the space station setting. I think the grounded setting of Gone Home helped resonate with me more strongly, but I'm glad I played Tacoma.

    5 votes
  16. Comment on What have you been listening to this week? in ~music

    meatrocket
    (edited )
    Link
    I've been on a Black Sabbath streak, especially Master of Reality. Lord of This World might be the heaviest song of the 1970s. (And if it isn't, then it's probably Symptom of the Universe.) Edit:...

    I've been on a Black Sabbath streak, especially Master of Reality. Lord of This World might be the heaviest song of the 1970s. (And if it isn't, then it's probably Symptom of the Universe.)

    Edit: The heaviest song of the 70s is, in fact, Under the Sun (the intro and outro, especially), closely followed by Into the Void. God damn I love Black Sabbath.

    1 vote
  17. Comment on What have you been listening to this week? in ~music

    meatrocket
    Link
    Over the past little bit I've been in a phase of listening to some of my favorite albums from high school. Queens of the Stone Age's self titled, Mastodon's Crack the Skye, Gojira's Terra...

    Over the past little bit I've been in a phase of listening to some of my favorite albums from high school.
    Queens of the Stone Age's self titled, Mastodon's Crack the Skye, Gojira's Terra Incognita, and some others. I think I've been putting too much pressure on myself to keep listening to new stuff all the time, and coming back to all of these things that mean a lot to me has done me some good.

    1 vote