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Comment on Tell me about your favorite Minecraft mods! in ~games
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Comment on Time for a new mouse? in ~comp
Jambo LinkThere's a good chance your mouse is 'double clicking' when you release the button, the switches under the mouse buttons may need to be cleaned or lubed or replaced. It happens to my Logitech mice...There's a good chance your mouse is 'double clicking' when you release the button, the switches under the mouse buttons may need to be cleaned or lubed or replaced. It happens to my Logitech mice from time to time. I don't recommend this but giving it a good smack against the desk sometimes fixes it for me temporarily.
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Comment on 2024 Spotify Wrapped thread in ~music
Jambo LinkLots of Alina Baraz at the beginning of the year, she hit a calming kinda vibe while I was stressing out at work. Lately not so much but still somewhat often. Artists: Alina Baraz Sabrina Claudio...Lots of Alina Baraz at the beginning of the year, she hit a calming kinda vibe while I was stressing out at work. Lately not so much but still somewhat often.
Artists:
- Alina Baraz
- Sabrina Claudio
- Sleep Token
- Bad Omens
- Galimatias
Songs:
- Alina Baraz - To Me
- Bad Omens ('So Wylie Patch') - Death Of Peace Of Mind
- Sleep Token - Granite
- Alina Baraz - Feels Right
- Alina Baraz - Alone With You
Honorable Mentions:
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Comment on 2024 Spotify Wrapped thread in ~music
Jambo Link ParentI will listen to Le Sserafim's 'Easy' on repeat, love the energy of that songI will listen to Le Sserafim's 'Easy' on repeat, love the energy of that song
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Comment on 2024 Spotify Wrapped thread in ~music
Jambo (edited )Link ParentAlicebanD is absolutely not a name I thought I'd see in the wild! I found her via a random YouTube recommendation for 'Home' and I loved it but never ended up trying to explore her catalog...AlicebanD is absolutely not a name I thought I'd see in the wild! I found her via a random YouTube recommendation for 'Home' and I loved it but never ended up trying to explore her catalog afterwards.
Edit: she has way more streams than I was expecting, clearly a bigger deal than I thought!
I'll have to give her catalog a listen soon.
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Comment on Raspberry Pi Pico 2 W on sale now at $7 in ~comp
Jambo LinkI wish I still lived near a microcenter, the shipping on these things doubles the cost for me unfortunatelyI wish I still lived near a microcenter, the shipping on these things doubles the cost for me unfortunately
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Comment on Is anyone planning to play Path of Exile 2? in ~games
Jambo Link ParentSo if there was some kind of fog of war or something to cover up all but the first like 10 nodes or so, would that have changed your opinion? The tree is zoomed in by default and the user has to...So if there was some kind of fog of war or something to cover up all but the first like 10 nodes or so, would that have changed your opinion? The tree is zoomed in by default and the user has to zoom out and scroll around to see the tree, does it change things if they just restricted you from doing that at first?
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Comment on Is anyone planning to play Path of Exile 2? in ~games
Jambo Link ParentYou can, if you are playing alone or if everyone in your party pauses.You can, if you are playing alone or if everyone in your party pauses.
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Comment on Is anyone planning to play Path of Exile 2? in ~games
Jambo LinkPoE is my favorite game of all time. Just in steam, I have over 15,000 hours (though some percentage of that is afk time surely). Those hours don't represent the years I played before the steam...PoE is my favorite game of all time. Just in steam, I have over 15,000 hours (though some percentage of that is afk time surely). Those hours don't represent the years I played before the steam client was a thing. I've played a lot of PoE.
I will be playing as much as is reasonable for me in my current state of life. It won't be like it was when I found this game over a decade ago, but it'll still be a fair bit.
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Comment on How do you learn to recognize your own emotions? in ~health.mental
Jambo LinkI'm also a very introspective person, and I also mask my actual feelings/emotions with an 'alternate' persona. I know I play 'chameleon' when I interact with other people. I get along with...I'm also a very introspective person, and I also mask my actual feelings/emotions with an 'alternate' persona. I know I play 'chameleon' when I interact with other people. I get along with everyone on a surface level because I match others' emotions or expressions. The upside is that I have never really had any issues with anyone because I have never been one to be confrontational. The downside is I don't actually have any real friends (except for a couple of online ones, whom I've never met). I've had work acquaintances over the years but right now, if I had to call someone to save me from some dire situation, I genuinely don't know who I'd call. Frankly, I probably wouldn't call anyone, but I'll get into that in a moment.
I also struggle with my mental health but in kind of the opposite that you have. My upbringing was, for the most part, fine. I didn't have abusive parents. They're still together. I had no real issues in school (a lot to do with my sentiment above), I wasn't ever left hungry. We were by no means well-off, financial issues were the one crux for my parents that still haunts them now, but overall, I had it ok. I had it pretty good by most standards. Now that I'm grown, I have a house, 2 kids, wonderful wife, good job. Basically about what you'd want out of a life.
Having said all that, I've been (non-clinically) depressed for as long as I can remember. I have never been to therapy, and I do not ask for help because frankly, I feel like it is not for me. I had it better than most people, why am I sad? Why should I be allowed to complain when there are so many others out there that have it so much worse than I do? I feel ashamed that I am not happy. I think about this all the time. My own wife doesn't even know this about me, at least in full - she knows just by her own intuition. She tries to bring it up sometimes but I always mask and pretend everything is fine. She's recently been through cancer treatments, a host of auto-immune disorders, she has struggles with her family, and I just don't want to pile my self-loathing onto her. I want to be her rock, but I don't want to make her sink.
Now, to tie back to 'I don't ask for help' from the previous couple of references to that subject, I think one of the key reasons I have never been able to create strong friendships is because I have an overwhelming need to stay out of other peoples' ways. I think I've mentioned this on another thread a while back, but as an example, if I'm making a left-hand turn into traffic and someone comes up behind me, I will instead turn right (so as not to take as long waiting for traffic both ways) and just make the block instead of waiting my turn. I get very uneasy about 'holding people up' and I just do not ask favors or help. I will offer it to others, but I can't ask for it in return. I feel indebted to them if I do, and I just don't like feeling like a leech or like I'm putting someone out.
However, if you read about what makes long lasting relationships with people, a large part of it is trust and showing that they are needed and that you appreciate them for their help. I have heard "just call me if you need anything" an untold number of times and I have never picked up the phone to do so. If I really need help, I may call my brothers, but it's extremely rare. We aren't very close.
Regarding specifically recognizing my emotions, I feel like I do that fairly well. For example, I had a conversation really recently with my boss where, long story short, he told me the reason I'm working too much is because I'm a people-pleaser and don't know how to say no. My initial reaction was kind of shock, because the people I'm doing work for currently aren't people I have the ability to say no to... they're C-level execs.. my boss is my manager, and he's the one who's brought me these projects so immediately I was taken aback because I don't think it's my place to say whether I am working on a project, he is there to manage me and my time. Afterwards, I felt uneasy. I didn't know what it was, I wasn't angry or nervous or worried, just... off.
I thought about it for the next several hours on and off because I needed to understand what I was feeling, and I determined it was mostly just blind-sidedness and realizing that my boss was referring to a meeting earlier that day where I was meant to take notes on what was needed for the project, but I never brought up timing. I just said yes, yes, yes, I'll look into it, sounds good, etc. I know we're busy and it should have been great priority to understand their expectations on timing and to formalize our availability. After this realization, I felt better. I understood that I made a mistake and I better understand my role and how I should approach this type of thing.
All that to basically say that I feel like I'm rather in tune with my feelings. When I get mad, I really focus on why I am mad, why the event that made me mad happened, if there was any true ill-will or maybe just ignorance or an accident or some other ultimately non-vitriolic reason that it happened, and that typically calms me.
Now, handling or processing those feelings is another expedition entirely. I am the breadwinner of my household, so if I have money problems, I cannot look to anyone but myself to fix them. At work, I'm the lead dev - if there is a difficult problem to fix, there's no one to punt it to - I'm it. I have to do it, period. So if I'm nervous or upset or mad or whatever, all my negative emotions typically sail down 1 river and it arrives at inevitability. My only answer to that inevitability is to just get over it. There's no amount of crying or punching walls or whatever that will make my todo list smaller, it's just me so I just have to keep forging ahead. So instead of processing those emotions, I just ignore them. I put on the mask. I pretend I'm fine. Eventually, I am. I have a quote that pops up every time I go to unlock my phone by Robert Frost that is quite famous - "the best way out is always through" - it helps to ground me in tough times.
So, do I have emotional blindness? Maybe in a forced way. I know that's not healthy. I know I should talk to someone. I do, somewhat, in posts like these - anonymously on the internet, and that is therapeutic to me. This is my version of journaling, I suppose. Therapy just seems fake to me (and I know that's not valid, but it's just how I feel about it). I feel like I'm being profited from for not being better than I am. Ultimately, if the goal is to talk things out until some resolution or understanding appears from introspection (we call this 'rubber ducky debugging' in the tech world), then I will do that on my own. I'm ok, and even when I'm not, that's ok too. I have learned to live with my shortcomings and I've made it this far. Do I have advice? Sorry, none that I would consider healthy or perhaps mature enough to recommend.
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI couldn't figure out what I wanted to put there and found that little island and it felt more in my "style" so I tore the old spot down for the most part.I couldn't figure out what I wanted to put there and found that little island and it felt more in my "style" so I tore the old spot down for the most part.
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI think it turned out ok, though it was heavily (heavily) inspired by a youtube builder :) I am still planning on decorating my tower floor and building a little something in town but work took...I think it turned out ok, though it was heavily (heavily) inspired by a youtube builder :) I am still planning on decorating my tower floor and building a little something in town but work took over my whole weekend so maybe I'll have a little time this week sometime.
Edit: here's a neat pic I got of it a while back
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI like the idea of putting a little house inside of town somewhere, I'll take a stroll around tonight to see if I can find a good place to be :)I like the idea of putting a little house inside of town somewhere, I'll take a stroll around tonight to see if I can find a good place to be :)
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
Jambo LinkI've been having a lot of fun, I joined late so practically everything existed prior to my arrival but is there anything the town needs or would find useful? I still have plenty of things I want...I've been having a lot of fun, I joined late so practically everything existed prior to my arrival but is there anything the town needs or would find useful? I still have plenty of things I want to do to my new abode but I feel like I should be contributing in some way to the town.
I'm not great at coming up with a task but if someone has things that need done, could you list them here maybe? The only thing I've noticed so far is the leather/beef farm is not super fast but I think you can just buy leather from traders so it is probably irrelevant (the reason this came up was because I wanted to make bookcases but realized I could just buy those too so...yeah).
Also I prefer not to set up a patreon (just personal preference) but is there a PayPal or venmo etc for a 1-at-a-time contribution?
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Comment on Club Penguin: gone but not forgotten in ~games
Jambo LinkI was just a little too old to ever have found interest in club penguin, but watching this video does still bring me nostalgia for the pre-social-media era of the internet. Those were simpler...I was just a little too old to ever have found interest in club penguin, but watching this video does still bring me nostalgia for the pre-social-media era of the internet. Those were simpler times..
Those images of "the family computer" especially hit home, and reminds me of all the time I'd spend playing Diablo 2 in the middle of the night while everyone was asleep (and getting caught a fair few times by my mom) because the computer was in the middle of the house and also required dialup, so it was the perfect time to play while no one was around to kick me off to make a phone call or tell me to "get off those damn video games" :)
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Comment on The Technical Difficulties are back! — Reverse Trivia 1x01 in ~misc
Jambo Link ParentConsidering I haven't seen and am not aware of any early live content, I'd say it's perfectly in-line 😁 As far as I know they started as a podcast, but I'm unfamiliar with that. I started watching...Considering I haven't seen and am not aware of any early live content, I'd say it's perfectly in-line 😁
As far as I know they started as a podcast, but I'm unfamiliar with that. I started watching during the early days of citation needed.
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Comment on The Technical Difficulties are back! — Reverse Trivia 1x01 in ~misc
Jambo LinkI've been a fan of tech diff for a long time but I fell off when they started doing live shows... For me it ruined the intimacy and it just didn't work for me personally so I stopped watching. I...I've been a fan of tech diff for a long time but I fell off when they started doing live shows... For me it ruined the intimacy and it just didn't work for me personally so I stopped watching. I was ok with the somewhat recent "I did a thing" series (don't remember what they called it, sorry) but I'm glad they went back to their roots with this most recent episode.
I was really hoping we'd get more of these since Tom "retired" from his main channel content, so it was great to see them randomly pop up in my feed the other day!
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Comment on Poppy - they're all around us (2024) in ~music
Jambo LinkI'm really enjoying her recent stuff, especially her collabs with bad omens and knocked loose.I'm really enjoying her recent stuff, especially her collabs with bad omens and knocked loose.
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Comment on Magnus Carlsen beats Hans Niemann, in first match since infamous cheating scandal, at the 2024 Speed Chess Championship in Paris in ~games.tabletop
Jambo Link ParentYou've affirmed we are arguing two separate points. I do not care of the politics of the situation. I was speaking literally only in terms of the integrity of the data. If you go to the original...You've affirmed we are arguing two separate points. I do not care of the politics of the situation. I was speaking literally only in terms of the integrity of the data.
If you go to the original few posts of this thread, it was brought up that Neiman said he cheated only when he was a kid but then chess.com released evidence otherwise. You said you thought it was relevant to mention Magnus' involvement with chess.com.
My question wasn't about the timing of the publication or any motives or politics otherwise, as there was no mention of any of that prior.
Here is where my question came from, in essence:
- Neiman said he cheated as a kid
- Chess.com shows he's cheated since then
- You said Magnus' involvement was being ignored and shouldn't be
In that arc, it sounded to me like you were saying the data is compromised or less valuable due to who published it. So, I asked why, because the data is just games, it's unaltered so it shouldn't matter.
Clearly, you were speaking on another point.
So again, it seems to me we are not speaking on the same plane, making this entire thread chain fairly irrelevant.
I think the create mod and all it's add-ons is a product of genius. If I build a server for friends to join, it's always a requirement, everyone loves it.