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Comment on The Bazaar is now in Open Beta in ~games
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Comment on Should I self-host my blog? in ~tech
Jambo LinkOne thing to note is it may be against your isp's TOS to self host, whether they will actually notice or do anything about it is probably pretty low though. I've been hosting a Minecraft server...One thing to note is it may be against your isp's TOS to self host, whether they will actually notice or do anything about it is probably pretty low though. I've been hosting a Minecraft server for ages and mine hasn't come after me, though it is in their TOS
Of course I have like 4 people connecting to me, if your blog is massive then it might be easier to spot
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Comment on Nintendo Switch release reactions in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI almost bought one for my wife but it was solely for animal crossing at the time and when we found out your world is per switch and you can't make more than 1 profile/world without buying a...I almost bought one for my wife but it was solely for animal crossing at the time and when we found out your world is per switch and you can't make more than 1 profile/world without buying a second switch, we abandoned the thought of it
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Comment on Never have outdated footer dates again in ~comp
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Comment on Pinterest alternatives in ~tech
Jambo LinkI was going to say OneNote but they removed their Firefox extension (annoying). Evernote and notion have Firefox extensions but they aren't the highest rated things in the world. I'd still...I was going to say OneNote but they removed their Firefox extension (annoying). Evernote and notion have Firefox extensions but they aren't the highest rated things in the world.
I'd still consider OneNote and just use the desktop version while on PC instead of an extension. Not sure how inconvenient that would be for you though.
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Comment on Steam: Best of 2024 in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI've been obsessed with the game since it came out, currently trying to get hcssf up and running, just died a few hours ago, we go again tomorrow after work :)I've been obsessed with the game since it came out, currently trying to get hcssf up and running, just died a few hours ago, we go again tomorrow after work :)
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Comment on Tell me about your favorite Minecraft mods! in ~games
Jambo LinkI think the create mod and all it's add-ons is a product of genius. If I build a server for friends to join, it's always a requirement, everyone loves it.I think the create mod and all it's add-ons is a product of genius. If I build a server for friends to join, it's always a requirement, everyone loves it.
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Comment on Time for a new mouse? in ~comp
Jambo LinkThere's a good chance your mouse is 'double clicking' when you release the button, the switches under the mouse buttons may need to be cleaned or lubed or replaced. It happens to my Logitech mice...There's a good chance your mouse is 'double clicking' when you release the button, the switches under the mouse buttons may need to be cleaned or lubed or replaced. It happens to my Logitech mice from time to time. I don't recommend this but giving it a good smack against the desk sometimes fixes it for me temporarily.
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Comment on 2024 Spotify Wrapped thread in ~music
Jambo LinkLots of Alina Baraz at the beginning of the year, she hit a calming kinda vibe while I was stressing out at work. Lately not so much but still somewhat often. Artists: Alina Baraz Sabrina Claudio...Lots of Alina Baraz at the beginning of the year, she hit a calming kinda vibe while I was stressing out at work. Lately not so much but still somewhat often.
Artists:
- Alina Baraz
- Sabrina Claudio
- Sleep Token
- Bad Omens
- Galimatias
Songs:
- Alina Baraz - To Me
- Bad Omens ('So Wylie Patch') - Death Of Peace Of Mind
- Sleep Token - Granite
- Alina Baraz - Feels Right
- Alina Baraz - Alone With You
Honorable Mentions:
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Comment on 2024 Spotify Wrapped thread in ~music
Jambo Link ParentI will listen to Le Sserafim's 'Easy' on repeat, love the energy of that songI will listen to Le Sserafim's 'Easy' on repeat, love the energy of that song
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Comment on 2024 Spotify Wrapped thread in ~music
Jambo (edited )Link ParentAlicebanD is absolutely not a name I thought I'd see in the wild! I found her via a random YouTube recommendation for 'Home' and I loved it but never ended up trying to explore her catalog...AlicebanD is absolutely not a name I thought I'd see in the wild! I found her via a random YouTube recommendation for 'Home' and I loved it but never ended up trying to explore her catalog afterwards.
Edit: she has way more streams than I was expecting, clearly a bigger deal than I thought!
I'll have to give her catalog a listen soon.
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Comment on Raspberry Pi Pico 2 W on sale now at $7 in ~comp
Jambo LinkI wish I still lived near a microcenter, the shipping on these things doubles the cost for me unfortunatelyI wish I still lived near a microcenter, the shipping on these things doubles the cost for me unfortunately
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Comment on Is anyone planning to play Path of Exile 2? in ~games
Jambo Link ParentSo if there was some kind of fog of war or something to cover up all but the first like 10 nodes or so, would that have changed your opinion? The tree is zoomed in by default and the user has to...So if there was some kind of fog of war or something to cover up all but the first like 10 nodes or so, would that have changed your opinion? The tree is zoomed in by default and the user has to zoom out and scroll around to see the tree, does it change things if they just restricted you from doing that at first?
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Comment on Is anyone planning to play Path of Exile 2? in ~games
Jambo Link ParentYou can, if you are playing alone or if everyone in your party pauses.You can, if you are playing alone or if everyone in your party pauses.
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Comment on Is anyone planning to play Path of Exile 2? in ~games
Jambo LinkPoE is my favorite game of all time. Just in steam, I have over 15,000 hours (though some percentage of that is afk time surely). Those hours don't represent the years I played before the steam...PoE is my favorite game of all time. Just in steam, I have over 15,000 hours (though some percentage of that is afk time surely). Those hours don't represent the years I played before the steam client was a thing. I've played a lot of PoE.
I will be playing as much as is reasonable for me in my current state of life. It won't be like it was when I found this game over a decade ago, but it'll still be a fair bit.
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Comment on How do you learn to recognize your own emotions? in ~health.mental
Jambo LinkI'm also a very introspective person, and I also mask my actual feelings/emotions with an 'alternate' persona. I know I play 'chameleon' when I interact with other people. I get along with...I'm also a very introspective person, and I also mask my actual feelings/emotions with an 'alternate' persona. I know I play 'chameleon' when I interact with other people. I get along with everyone on a surface level because I match others' emotions or expressions. The upside is that I have never really had any issues with anyone because I have never been one to be confrontational. The downside is I don't actually have any real friends (except for a couple of online ones, whom I've never met). I've had work acquaintances over the years but right now, if I had to call someone to save me from some dire situation, I genuinely don't know who I'd call. Frankly, I probably wouldn't call anyone, but I'll get into that in a moment.
I also struggle with my mental health but in kind of the opposite that you have. My upbringing was, for the most part, fine. I didn't have abusive parents. They're still together. I had no real issues in school (a lot to do with my sentiment above), I wasn't ever left hungry. We were by no means well-off, financial issues were the one crux for my parents that still haunts them now, but overall, I had it ok. I had it pretty good by most standards. Now that I'm grown, I have a house, 2 kids, wonderful wife, good job. Basically about what you'd want out of a life.
Having said all that, I've been (non-clinically) depressed for as long as I can remember. I have never been to therapy, and I do not ask for help because frankly, I feel like it is not for me. I had it better than most people, why am I sad? Why should I be allowed to complain when there are so many others out there that have it so much worse than I do? I feel ashamed that I am not happy. I think about this all the time. My own wife doesn't even know this about me, at least in full - she knows just by her own intuition. She tries to bring it up sometimes but I always mask and pretend everything is fine. She's recently been through cancer treatments, a host of auto-immune disorders, she has struggles with her family, and I just don't want to pile my self-loathing onto her. I want to be her rock, but I don't want to make her sink.
Now, to tie back to 'I don't ask for help' from the previous couple of references to that subject, I think one of the key reasons I have never been able to create strong friendships is because I have an overwhelming need to stay out of other peoples' ways. I think I've mentioned this on another thread a while back, but as an example, if I'm making a left-hand turn into traffic and someone comes up behind me, I will instead turn right (so as not to take as long waiting for traffic both ways) and just make the block instead of waiting my turn. I get very uneasy about 'holding people up' and I just do not ask favors or help. I will offer it to others, but I can't ask for it in return. I feel indebted to them if I do, and I just don't like feeling like a leech or like I'm putting someone out.
However, if you read about what makes long lasting relationships with people, a large part of it is trust and showing that they are needed and that you appreciate them for their help. I have heard "just call me if you need anything" an untold number of times and I have never picked up the phone to do so. If I really need help, I may call my brothers, but it's extremely rare. We aren't very close.
Regarding specifically recognizing my emotions, I feel like I do that fairly well. For example, I had a conversation really recently with my boss where, long story short, he told me the reason I'm working too much is because I'm a people-pleaser and don't know how to say no. My initial reaction was kind of shock, because the people I'm doing work for currently aren't people I have the ability to say no to... they're C-level execs.. my boss is my manager, and he's the one who's brought me these projects so immediately I was taken aback because I don't think it's my place to say whether I am working on a project, he is there to manage me and my time. Afterwards, I felt uneasy. I didn't know what it was, I wasn't angry or nervous or worried, just... off.
I thought about it for the next several hours on and off because I needed to understand what I was feeling, and I determined it was mostly just blind-sidedness and realizing that my boss was referring to a meeting earlier that day where I was meant to take notes on what was needed for the project, but I never brought up timing. I just said yes, yes, yes, I'll look into it, sounds good, etc. I know we're busy and it should have been great priority to understand their expectations on timing and to formalize our availability. After this realization, I felt better. I understood that I made a mistake and I better understand my role and how I should approach this type of thing.
All that to basically say that I feel like I'm rather in tune with my feelings. When I get mad, I really focus on why I am mad, why the event that made me mad happened, if there was any true ill-will or maybe just ignorance or an accident or some other ultimately non-vitriolic reason that it happened, and that typically calms me.
Now, handling or processing those feelings is another expedition entirely. I am the breadwinner of my household, so if I have money problems, I cannot look to anyone but myself to fix them. At work, I'm the lead dev - if there is a difficult problem to fix, there's no one to punt it to - I'm it. I have to do it, period. So if I'm nervous or upset or mad or whatever, all my negative emotions typically sail down 1 river and it arrives at inevitability. My only answer to that inevitability is to just get over it. There's no amount of crying or punching walls or whatever that will make my todo list smaller, it's just me so I just have to keep forging ahead. So instead of processing those emotions, I just ignore them. I put on the mask. I pretend I'm fine. Eventually, I am. I have a quote that pops up every time I go to unlock my phone by Robert Frost that is quite famous - "the best way out is always through" - it helps to ground me in tough times.
So, do I have emotional blindness? Maybe in a forced way. I know that's not healthy. I know I should talk to someone. I do, somewhat, in posts like these - anonymously on the internet, and that is therapeutic to me. This is my version of journaling, I suppose. Therapy just seems fake to me (and I know that's not valid, but it's just how I feel about it). I feel like I'm being profited from for not being better than I am. Ultimately, if the goal is to talk things out until some resolution or understanding appears from introspection (we call this 'rubber ducky debugging' in the tech world), then I will do that on my own. I'm ok, and even when I'm not, that's ok too. I have learned to live with my shortcomings and I've made it this far. Do I have advice? Sorry, none that I would consider healthy or perhaps mature enough to recommend.
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI couldn't figure out what I wanted to put there and found that little island and it felt more in my "style" so I tore the old spot down for the most part.I couldn't figure out what I wanted to put there and found that little island and it felt more in my "style" so I tore the old spot down for the most part.
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI think it turned out ok, though it was heavily (heavily) inspired by a youtube builder :) I am still planning on decorating my tower floor and building a little something in town but work took...I think it turned out ok, though it was heavily (heavily) inspired by a youtube builder :) I am still planning on decorating my tower floor and building a little something in town but work took over my whole weekend so maybe I'll have a little time this week sometime.
Edit: here's a neat pic I got of it a while back
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
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Comment on Tildes Minecraft Survival Weekly in ~games
Jambo Link ParentI like the idea of putting a little house inside of town somewhere, I'll take a stroll around tonight to see if I can find a good place to be :)I like the idea of putting a little house inside of town somewhere, I'll take a stroll around tonight to see if I can find a good place to be :)
I've been playing for a few months now and generally like the game. I'm not a huge fan of Reynad's opinion on some things but overall they have made a very solid game.
The p2w aspect is yet to be seen but the idea for how it is monetized is not new and is clearly flawed, not only because the packs are not buyable with gems for the first month* but if the new cards coming out aren't overpowered or at least really interesting (tough line to straddle in either case), then there is no incentive to buy the packs, so clearly there is the temptation to give them some power creep to keep the lights on.
We'll just have to see how they do over the next month or 3, in the dev patch note read Reynad said that this is still a beta and that is important to remember, and things will most likely change, including monetization.
In either case, I'm still excited to log in later once the kids go to bed and give the new changes a spin.
* - This will be less impactful after a few months when 8-10 extra cards coming out won't heavily impact the hundred or so that came before it (not even considering the base set and any new cards that come with new characters), unless a card comes out severely broken to the point that everyone uses it to win, else you lose