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  1. Comment on I have severe and persistent mental illness. I now work as a public mental health professional. Ask me anything. in ~health.mental

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    Not a question, more of a boast. I haven't told anyone this yet because of years of disappointments. I'm 44 and struggle with mdd, PTSD, agoraphobia, social anxiety, and addiction. Probably some...

    Not a question, more of a boast. I haven't told anyone this yet because of years of disappointments. I'm 44 and struggle with mdd, PTSD, agoraphobia, social anxiety, and addiction. Probably some more letter things I'm forgetting since my memory is horrendously.

    I was diagnosed with manic depression at 13 and that was the beginning. Through med changes, hospitals, self medication, etc, I've been fighting the battle ever since. It has been ROUGH. Especially the last five years. I had something happen to me that pulled the rug out from underneath me and set back what little progress I had ever made. It felt like I was a baby learning to do things all over again. Drive, public, conversations, hygiene, to name a few. I had been having ideations for the last 6 months or so, but felt like I couldn't say anything to my doctor because I never knew who that would be. Since COVID started there's been a revolving door of doctors either quitting or staying at their home offices, leaving me with a phone, Skype, or in person session. Who knows what it is this month. It was pretty hard on me, but I was thankful to have access to these services so I shut it.

    Enter new doctor a month ago. I already like him because he's personable and I can physical sit in an office to talk. We discussed my current meds, which were wrong in my notes (surprise surprise). He immediate took me down to my original dose of Wellbutrin, which was 600mg a day. I had continued taking this dose even though I told the doctor that I was seeing shadow people. As a meth addict, I know what I'm talking about. He also added abilify to my current cocktail. I. Am. Blown. Away. The change happened in a week. I can do things. I can talk to people. I even went to the store by myself yesterday.

    I know that this may change in the future as psyc meds are gonna psyc med, but I'm pretty optimistic. I've never had such a drastic swing in my mood, in a good way. So I'm going to shout from the (tildes, I'm not ready for the world yet) rooftop that I'm DOING OK! And ok is pretty good for me. I appreciate what you and everyone in your field does for people with mental illnesses. It can be a thankless job. I know. I've been thankless for years, probably undeservedly.

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  2. Comment on Any jeepers make it over here from Reddit? in ~transport

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    '08 Commander. But everyone poopoos at it because it's not a "real" joop.

    '08 Commander. But everyone poopoos at it because it's not a "real" joop.

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  3. Comment on Psychologists at the University of Cambridge developed a Misinformation Susceptibility Tests. What's your MIST score? in ~science

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    16/20. But I know that I can be totally gullible at first blush. I usually check and double check information before I take it as truth. I was so tempted to Google some of these headlines to be...

    16/20. But I know that I can be totally gullible at first blush. I usually check and double check information before I take it as truth. I was so tempted to Google some of these headlines to be sure, but that would be cheating.

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  4. Comment on Without saying where you live, where do you live? in ~talk

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    The birthplace of Audrey II. Probably.

    The birthplace of Audrey II. Probably.

  5. Comment on Songs/albums that remind you of someone you lost in ~music

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    My great grandma was the best person ever. I had a rough time growing up, but my one soft place to land was at great grandma's house. My great grandfather died the year before I was born, so it...

    My great grandma was the best person ever. I had a rough time growing up, but my one soft place to land was at great grandma's house. My great grandfather died the year before I was born, so it was always just her. She never wore pants, except for when picking blackberries. Because thorns of course. We once went on a trip to New York City on a Greyhound bus and a train, it was the only way she had ever traveled since she had never driven in her life. I can remember us getting mugged and she swore me to secrecy because I'm sure that would have cause a LOT of issues, but I didn't care because great grandma secrets were the best. She once dug a trench across the dirt road she lived on because people kept flying down it in their trucks and killing her chickens. I learned at a young age that being a woman who lived by herself wasn't a bad thing, and anything can be made from scratch (she lived through the Great Depression). I was a teenager when she died and I had been too wrapped up in my own angst to have written or visited her in a year or so. It killed me. Grandma was a wreck at the funeral, but I held it together pretty well until they played Go Rest High on That Mountain by Vince Gill. I know it's a "popular" funeral song, but I think it embodied great grandma to a t. Simple, soft, and beautiful, it will always put a smile on my face.

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  6. Comment on Could we share some uplifting news? in ~talk

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    I was super bummed that I killed my elephant ear. All of my other plants are in full swing, so I was fixing to go buy another one and plant it in the same spot this weekend. This morning I went...

    I was super bummed that I killed my elephant ear. All of my other plants are in full swing, so I was fixing to go buy another one and plant it in the same spot this weekend. This morning I went out to water my veggies and it had sprung up overnight!

    I did a happy walk all day today.

    20 votes
  7. Comment on It's July 1st, my third party app still works to visit Reddit? in ~tech

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    Rif is still working for me. It signed me out so I can't comment or anything, but I can still browse with it. I clicked on it just to see. Last night I got the error code.

    Rif is still working for me. It signed me out so I can't comment or anything, but I can still browse with it. I clicked on it just to see. Last night I got the error code.

    8 votes
  8. Comment on Reddit is Fun, Apollo, BaconReader, and other third-party Reddit apps have officially shut down in ~tech

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    I did the same thing. Muscle memory takes way longer than I'm willing to wait for to forget.

    I did the same thing. Muscle memory takes way longer than I'm willing to wait for to forget.

  9. Comment on Reddit is Fun, Apollo, BaconReader, and other third-party Reddit apps have officially shut down in ~tech

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    I just found an obscure social media site I joined in 2008. I almost evaporated from embarrassment.

    I just found an obscure social media site I joined in 2008. I almost evaporated from embarrassment.

    9 votes
  10. Comment on Twitter is now forcing us to create an account. Here's another way of viewing tweets without an account. in ~tech

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    I have an account I set up a forever ago and haven't used it. Y'all can use it to look at stuff.

    I have an account I set up a forever ago and haven't used it. Y'all can use it to look at stuff.

  11. Comment on I'm working on a mobile app for Tildes: Three Cheers for Tildes! in ~tildes

  12. Comment on What types of content do you want to see on Tildes? in ~tildes

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    I am brand spanking new here, do forgive me if some of these already exist. I'm slow at feeling things out so it will take me a minute. I'd love to see some women's spaces. Places like r/menopause...

    I am brand spanking new here, do forgive me if some of these already exist. I'm slow at feeling things out so it will take me a minute.

    I'd love to see some women's spaces. Places like r/menopause and r/abrathatfits for example. The bigger subs were just too much and turned super toxic. Smaller, specific spaces are more palatable to me. r/nosleep was also a fave. I could get lost for hours in that sub. Important places like r/auntienetwork for support too.

    9 votes
  13. Comment on What is the oldest TV show you actually enjoy? in ~tv

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    Golden Girls is my go to. I watch it all the way through, then start it again.

    Golden Girls is my go to. I watch it all the way through, then start it again.

  14. Comment on I'm working on a mobile app for Tildes: Three Cheers for Tildes! in ~tildes

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    Stoked to switch my rif app to tif!

    Stoked to switch my rif app to tif!

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  15. Comment on What little thing has stuck with you? in ~talk

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    16 years ago I called my grandma and asked if I could come home. No questions asked, she booked me a plane ticket to fly home and picked me up from the airport. Now, this is a very grandma thing...

    16 years ago I called my grandma and asked if I could come home. No questions asked, she booked me a plane ticket to fly home and picked me up from the airport. Now, this is a very grandma thing to do and I spent a lot of time with her and grandpa throughout my life. What she didn't know is that I was desperately needing a change of scenery. I was addicted to meth and very close to killing myself. It had to be obvious when they picked me up, I'm 5'11 woman who weighed probably 100 lbs at the time. I think I slept for two whole months. I never heard a word from them about what was happening to me. Grandma asked if I wanted to go to the doctor, made me soup, bought a TV for my room. Basically it was the same soft place to land it had been since I was born. Zero judgement. I probably could have left and gone back to using and she would have done it all over again. But I didn't. I'm still clean. It was a small thing for grandma. She would look at you like your head was on backwards if you asked her why she would do anything like that for a junkie. She volunteered for every social program available in the county, so it wasn't just me. God I miss that woman and I hope one day to be a fraction of the person she was.

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