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What did you do this week (and weekend)?
As part of a weekly series, these topics are a place for users to casually discuss the things they did — or didn't do — during their week. Did you accomplish any goals? Suffer a failure? Do nothing at all? Tell us about it!
I said no to an unhealthy temptation. I don't feel great about it, but I'm keenly aware how much worse I would feel had I said yes.
Sounds like a win, good for you! I know how hard those things can be.
I spoke too soon.
Well, be easy on yourself. We all do it at some point.
I appreciate the sentiment. It's just all rather pathetic. I'm finally back home, and so happy to be back with my friends and community, but apparently I just had to poison the well by once again sleeping with a person I should definitely not be sleeping with. At least this time I don't feel gut wrenched, I just feel numb.
We are intelligent beings, but we are sexual beings. Working on controlling an impulse like that is understandably difficult, especially when trying to reinforce yourself first. As the others have said, be easy and forgive yourself
Every day is a new one. Culturally, we have this idea of falling off the bandwagon, and that perfection is the correct standard. I think that is incredibly harmful to the people struggling the most.
Tomorrow's page is blank, and maybe you can write something you feel good about it in it. Don't beat yourself up too much.
Thanks for the kind words. Logically sound, but I have the will power the size of a gnat apparently, and the self respect to match. It's such a small fucking town that there's no avoiding each other. I may just have to put myself in house arrest for the foreseeable future. I was a perfectly content sexless person for YEARS, and now my brain breaks at the mear thought of this person. The most fucked up part is that I've enjoyed plenty of casual sex in the past with zero internal conflict, but now I literally have zero interest in anyone else and I'm emotionally comprised. It's disgusting. I thought after two months on the road I'd come home with a thicker skin and better resistance, instead I had one no in me that didn't even last 24hrs.
Best of luck for the future.
Been a hectic week at work since a 3rd backend engineer on my team announced they were leaving the company. This is the 3rd backend engineer on my team to leave in 3 months and 4th engineer to leave in 6 months. Combine that with recent pressures from manager and leadership, work is getting to be no fun. I've been told by friends that this is pretty common in tech once a team has been stable for a few years. One person leaves, which rocks the boat, so a few more people leave until the boat stabilizes. This engineer and the last engineer that left both worked closely with me and I always went to them when I needed help so it sucks that they're both gone but I wish them the best. In their place, we have another senior engineer from elsewhere in my org that joined us and it's been great working with them for the last month or so. I've asked my manager and this new engineer if we could set up a formal mentorship as I've kinda just been wandering aimlessly by myself for the last year.
On a more positive note, my team will be doing an on-site next week which I look forward to. Working in a remote first company, these on-sites have been great fun as its still nice to meet your team face-to-face and just hang out for a few days. We've had two so far and they've both been great fun. I am a bit curious how this one will feel as since the last one we had, we're down 4 engineers.
I've also sorta started a formal apartment search. I've been wanting to move out of my parents home since I graduated college a few years ago but had random mental blocks that sort of stopped me from committing to it. When my little brother left for college over a month ago, I reclaimed my larger bedroom that I gave up when I left for college a few years ago. I assumed this would scratch that "new place to live" itch but it really hasn't. So, I've started looking at apartments again. I've got a pretty decent budget and I've got a decent list of apartments noted down. I'm planning on touring these areas and buildings in the coming weeks and creating a short list. A lot of places have pretty generous move-in deals that give anywhere from 1 week to 8 weeks of free rent which has made the prices a bit more palatable.
Started Lexapro, first time taking an antidepressant. Here's hoping!
Wishing you happiness and more. Twice in the past I've needed medication to help get out of the grey fog of depression, and both times (I took paxil) it worked and life picked up. I was in my 40s the first time, and 50s the second, briefer time; I'm 80 now. Peace to you!
Unrelated, I think you may be one of the oldest folks here on Tildes!
I can remember when I started Lexapro (in my case, for anxiety) and several weeks later walking down the street to a novel experience that normally would have made me seriously anxious, and just feeling... neutral? It was a marvel. I hope it works as well for you as it did for me at that time.
I'm doing political volunteer work.
Helped my wife's parents deal with the flooded cellar.
This week, I joined a kayak/canoe club for the first time in my life, which is really exciting! I'm a pretty shy person, so this is a big step for me. I decided to take the plunge after doing two basic sea kayak courses earlier this year.
In case this is actually a survey, where data is useful: this week I did almost nothing, having been horizontal for most of it thanks to a respiratory virus (which isn't covid, according to a test).
I hope to recover soon to resume and hopefully complete repairing my roof before the rains begin.
I've rented an e-bike and went on a 50km trip through mountains with friends. Weather was extremely nice, very sunny but not hot. I rode up and down, laid in the grass, listened to deer roar and had a pleasant pit stop with beer and pizza towards the end.
Panicked about the consequences of following the rules during an incident at work. I reported what I knew on my side, but if for some strange reason it does evolve, my names on the paperwork and I’m going to be answering the questions.
Also got up to date on my flu and Covid. Work didn’t cover Covid but the government did, yay medicine.