Congratulations! Remember this feeling. In fact, you should write a journal entry, and then on your anniversary you can show it to her. Girls love sappy things like that. ;)
Congratulations! Remember this feeling. In fact, you should write a journal entry, and then on your anniversary you can show it to her. Girls love sappy things like that. ;)
Mine was ok, my supervisor is away so I mostly just wrote up reports and polished our results. Everything was a bit gloomy because I'm going to go visit my parents in my hometown next week for a...
Mine was ok, my supervisor is away so I mostly just wrote up reports and polished our results. Everything was a bit gloomy because I'm going to go visit my parents in my hometown next week for a while. There's not much to do there and there are some people I'd rather not see–a difficult task in a small town. I also started working through my backlog of photos, editing them up and posting them online. It's good fun.
I'm remote and have to visit my physical office, and by extension my hometown since it's reasonably close, twice a year, so I definitely feel you there. It's one of those things that I put off and...
I'm remote and have to visit my physical office, and by extension my hometown since it's reasonably close, twice a year, so I definitely feel you there. It's one of those things that I put off and put off until I can't possibly avoid it, and then actually do enjoy the time there, but will again put off the next time it comes around. Did you move to a larger city for work?
Spent the past three days caring for my grandma at her house (and driving out twice earlier in the week). It's challenging. She's a strange person, definitely not an easy person to be around even...
Spent the past three days caring for my grandma at her house (and driving out twice earlier in the week). It's challenging. She's a strange person, definitely not an easy person to be around even before she started going senile. In a way it's easier now than it was a few months ago since there are fewer instances where she seems normal, so I'm less likely to express frustration in front of her since I am less likely to forget she's basically mentally ill. The fact that I'm not there for multiple weeks-long stints now probably also helps.
I felt like I needed to vent the other day to maintain my sanity and started drafting up a post to put on notabug.io about it, but when I started listing off all of the things about the situation that frustrated me I decided that my situation was nowhere near as bad as what I imagine many other people are dealing with. Everyone's got crappy things going on in their lives. If people can survive literal torture, drug addiction, abuse, etc. etc., I can surely adapt to a crazy old grouch and the hallmark channel.
Hey man, it's good that you're putting stuff in perspective, but you can still reach out regularly. Like you said, everyone has their struggles, so even if others have more existential problems...
Hey man, it's good that you're putting stuff in perspective, but you can still reach out regularly. Like you said, everyone has their struggles, so even if others have more existential problems that doesn't make your struggles unimportant.
Struggles, pain, suffering, and the like are all relative. People are capable of adjust to mind boggling extremes, but as @Gyrfalcon also said, it doesn't diminish your own experiences. Someone...
Struggles, pain, suffering, and the like are all relative. People are capable of adjust to mind boggling extremes, but as @Gyrfalcon also said, it doesn't diminish your own experiences. Someone out there winning the lottery shouldn't diminish, say, my appreciation for a morning cup of coffee, just as someone else experiencing horrific pain doesn't lessen the struggle of taking care of the health of an aging family member. It can be emotionally draining like almost nothing else.
And there's not a whole lot that should stop you from talking about it if you think it would help. I understand not wanting to talk to people about certain problems I have, but it can be one of the most effective way for me to cope with a lot of different things. I can internalize and compartmentalize an awful lot of crap emotions, but it can make a huge difference to let go of some of that weight from time to time. Biggest thing for me is making sure that I do it in constructive ways instead of waiting for it to manifest as emotional fits that are more difficult to control, or wind up in a prolonged depressive episode.
That's my experience though. What works for me might not for you. But regardless, I wish you the best with that situation. Sorry for going on a bit of a tangent, it just kinda hit close to home for me.
Not great. I think I have ambition and want to work on projects, but I feel burned out about absolutely everything, even entertainment like video games and TV/movies. I feel too tired to do...
Not great. I think I have ambition and want to work on projects, but I feel burned out about absolutely everything, even entertainment like video games and TV/movies. I feel too tired to do anything productive, a lot of sitting around watching random crap on YouTube and Twitch. It’s not really enjoyable even, just feels like a way to make time move forward.
Have you tried sleeping it off? I've felt that way some days recently, and just sleeping felt really good. It didn't suddenly give me a magical burst of motivation, but it felt loads better than...
Have you tried sleeping it off? I've felt that way some days recently, and just sleeping felt really good. It didn't suddenly give me a magical burst of motivation, but it felt loads better than wasting time forcing myself to consume entertainment or do work that just wasn't going to get done.
Oof, I hear that. My to-do list is way too long, and my motivation way too lacking. Little workouts help break up the time for me. Nothing overkill, but every time I start feeling antsy and...
Oof, I hear that. My to-do list is way too long, and my motivation way too lacking. Little workouts help break up the time for me. Nothing overkill, but every time I start feeling antsy and restless, I'll roll out a mat and do some stretches, maybe some push-ups and crunches. Other times I'll just push some weights around for a while. I find that the little workouts help to maintain a better baseline for minimal activity. So when I actually do start feeling motivated, I have a decent amount of energy to back it up.
I started off strong on Monday, woke up early, and helped finish off the drywall, sheerwall, and some of the mudding for the bathroom/laundry. Long day, and I even managed to handle the heat well...
I started off strong on Monday, woke up early, and helped finish off the drywall, sheerwall, and some of the mudding for the bathroom/laundry. Long day, and I even managed to handle the heat well which is unusual for me.
But everything else since then feels like it's been a total wash. Feel very unproductive and unmotivated. I have a huge list of projects that a big part of me wants to work on, but I just don't have the energy level that I feel like I need to get them done. Also, the heat doesn't help. Did I mention I don't like the heat? Summer is the worst for me.
I did manage to get a little bit more done on the bathroom last night though. Even set up the camera and made of timelapse of it (33 seconds, no audio). I'm hoping that in the next 15 minutes I can talk myself into going out for a video shoot so I can start working on my next episode, but knowing me I'm going to put it off til tomorrow. (Trying to use some reverse psychology on myself right now.)
Pretty good. I'm enjoying my new job. A bit of a drive distance wise (38 miles one way), but it's about the same amount of time "on the road" as my last job. I drove 7 miles to a bus stop,...
Pretty good. I'm enjoying my new job. A bit of a drive distance wise (38 miles one way), but it's about the same amount of time "on the road" as my last job. I drove 7 miles to a bus stop, waited/rode a shuttle bus to near my main office, then walked to that so about 45 minutes all said and done. This long drive takes about that too.
No stress at the new job, no ahole Systems Engineer, no on-call, no getting escalation calls even though I wasn't the escalation person, 40 hours a week no if ands or buts and a bit over a 30% increase in pay. It's been 8 weeks and I still stop and think "how did I get so lucky to get this job".
How's the winter there been going? I went to visit MOO friends in Sydney when I was a kid. Went when it was summer here, and I remember how much I loved getting off the plane, walking out the...
How's the winter there been going?
I went to visit MOO friends in Sydney when I was a kid. Went when it was summer here, and I remember how much I loved getting off the plane, walking out the airport and straight into a downpour. It was glorious. I also visited Perisher and went snowboarding. (First and last attempt at snowboarding.) If I had the means, I would travel to chase an endless winter of rain and snow, and I would probably end up sick all the time.
Winter is winter. meh Although, I much prefer cold weather to hot weather. I'm not a fan of rain or snow, but a dry fresh cool day is much more comfortable than a humid hot day. You don't have...
Winter is winter. meh Although, I much prefer cold weather to hot weather. I'm not a fan of rain or snow, but a dry fresh cool day is much more comfortable than a humid hot day.
I remember how much I loved getting off the plane, walking out the airport and straight into a downpour. It was glorious.
Amen. Out in what's mostly a desert we're having our few humid days of the year and it's oppressive, but I came from an area where temperatures 90F+ with sky-high humidity were the norm all summer...
a dry fresh cool day is much more comfortable than a humid hot day
Amen. Out in what's mostly a desert we're having our few humid days of the year and it's oppressive, but I came from an area where temperatures 90F+ with sky-high humidity were the norm all summer and just walking from your front door to your car would drown you in sweat. I couldn't wait until it was winter again, but I never really understood just how much humidity affected that. Still prefer winter, but even a dry hot day isn't all that bad.
I'm not even a fan of dry heat. "Hot" = "bad" in my vocabulary. I found out earlier this year that I even associate heat with stress: when I get stressed, my body heats up; when I feel heat, I...
I'm not even a fan of dry heat. "Hot" = "bad" in my vocabulary. I found out earlier this year that I even associate heat with stress: when I get stressed, my body heats up; when I feel heat, I react with stress.
I just like cooler weather.
A friend of mine asked me recently, when I was wearing a T-shirt on a cool day, whether I can even feel the cold. "I do feel it. I just don't dislike it."
^^ This speaks to my soul. Glory be unto thee, cold winter haze! For now I simmer in heat With deranged mirage visions And pray for a cloud to darken my days.
^^ This speaks to my soul.
Glory be unto thee, cold winter haze! For now I simmer in heat With deranged mirage visions And pray for a cloud to darken my days.
Not a whole lot. In January, we had a multitude of forest fires. We did get a few systems with a little rain though so it wasn't all hellfire and scorched Earth. It actually snowed once where I...
You don't have rain or Winter where you live? :O
Not a whole lot. In January, we had a multitude of forest fires. We did get a few systems with a little rain though so it wasn't all hellfire and scorched Earth. It actually snowed once where I live about 30 years ago. And about 10 years ago there was a bit of snow on some of the mountains around here. We've been in a state of drought pretty much ever since then though.
What on Earth is a "MOO friend"?
I don't know if you were ever into MOOs/MUDs/MUCKs/MUSHes, but they were around a lot more back when the web was strictly text based. I probably had more friends in other countries than I had in real life when I was growing up. But I also had the good fortune to meet quite a few of them.
Sister visited me last weekend, saw cousins I had not seen for 30 years later in the week, work went well... all great! Now I’m watching a movie called The Devil’s Doorway and it’s scaring the...
Sister visited me last weekend, saw cousins I had not seen for 30 years later in the week, work went well... all great!
Now I’m watching a movie called The Devil’s Doorway and it’s scaring the crap out of me, so I’m responding to this. :)
It's been going alright, had a few quizzes this week leading up to my finals shortly. Work has been the same, can't complain as they are very flexible with my student schedule. My registration for...
It's been going alright, had a few quizzes this week leading up to my finals shortly. Work has been the same, can't complain as they are very flexible with my student schedule.
My registration for next semester opened up and I'm honestly not looking forward to it, especially with all the waitlisted courses on the courses I need my pre-requisites for.
Spending my evening like I usually do with a trip to the gym shortly.
I'm starting feel a good amount of regret now. This year I decided to take a summer course besides the usual spring and fall ones, but now I am regretting it. Mostly because I don't enjoy having...
I'm starting feel a good amount of regret now. This year I decided to take a summer course besides the usual spring and fall ones, but now I am regretting it.
Mostly because I don't enjoy having the feeling of due dates looming over me and the fact that I have been procrastinating doing my work for the course and turning everything in last minute. I originally took the course to learn more about the subject but now I feel like it's just a chore.
My week has been a bit of a mixed bag. On one hand, I have the most intensive part of the code I have for work ported over to GPU computing, and it's very fast. On the other hand, the results that...
My week has been a bit of a mixed bag. On one hand, I have the most intensive part of the code I have for work ported over to GPU computing, and it's very fast. On the other hand, the results that come out are noisy to the point of being useless, especially in comparison to the half decent, if very slow, CPU computed results.
Outside of work, I watched Thor Ragnorak yesterday, which was pretty good, and I played a really neat board game called Gloomhaven earlier in the week.
Thank you @rodya for starting the topic! It feels good to express ourselves. I got my bicycle fixed (finally) and I'm on wheeeeels again. Suddenly it runs so smoothly. The doctor adjusted the...
Thank you @rodya for starting the topic! It feels good to express ourselves.
I got my bicycle fixed (finally) and I'm on wheeeeels again. Suddenly it runs so smoothly.
The doctor adjusted the dosage of my meds and I'm getting my body and mind adjusted to the adjustment. It can feel weird at times, but overall I feel more hopeful about recovery than before.
An article of ours got published, so that's yay I guess. Next we'll sort out the financials, so I'm bracing for red tape. The work was perhaps too specialized in my working field to be of general interest, but I'm thinking about writing a "blog-ready" version if I can dig out the bits that may appeal to a winder audience.
There's way too much of my emotional life invested in work, and I've had a wild ride this week. The MVP on my team had his last day yesterday. He's a co-worker who's been with the company as long...
There's way too much of my emotional life invested in work, and I've had a wild ride this week.
The MVP on my team had his last day yesterday. He's a co-worker who's been with the company as long as I have, even though I wound up as his boss. He had taken over the technical team lead role, while I moved on to the strategic and architecture work. We had the kind of working relationship that's like telepathy, where we've done things to move each other's project tasks along even before the request was verbalized.
He wasn't looking elsewhere - a much higher-paying opportunity dropped on him through contacts at his old job. I've spent a good chunk of the past two weeks trying to arrange a counter-offer, but knew that realistically, I'd have to prepare both for the departure of a friend and the loss of a key person on the team.
It's flattering that there are people from other teams already knocking on the door for the job, but I just caught wind of organizational politics that are going to move my team under the director that everyone wants to escape.
And yesterday, we just completed our fourth office move in the past 9 months, because no one can figure out where my team fits in the organization.
Rough, paranoia-inducing times, especially with a very busy season ahead. I've stayed with the same company far too long in IT years with a stagnant salary, because I liked the place far better than others I've worked in previously. The culture is changing dramatically, for the worse, and I've made the decision this week that this will be my last year there.
Sounds tempting to follow the MVP to the new company. Might be worth talking to him once he's had time to get a feel for the dynamic there. It seems like such a rare thing to have a good working...
Sounds tempting to follow the MVP to the new company. Might be worth talking to him once he's had time to get a feel for the dynamic there. It seems like such a rare thing to have a good working relationship to that degree.
I would, but I'd like to stay in healthcare IT, and the spouse and I desperately want to move out of the southern U.S. as it's a bad cultural and political fit.
I would, but I'd like to stay in healthcare IT, and the spouse and I desperately want to move out of the southern U.S. as it's a bad cultural and political fit.
Congratulations! Remember this feeling. In fact, you should write a journal entry, and then on your anniversary you can show it to her. Girls love sappy things like that. ;)
Oh god, I now remember a notebook full of horrible things. Even thinking of it causes me existential cringe.
I threw a lot of things that caused me existential cringe into a fire once. It was really cathartic, and it made for good hotdogs afterwards!
Mine was ok, my supervisor is away so I mostly just wrote up reports and polished our results. Everything was a bit gloomy because I'm going to go visit my parents in my hometown next week for a while. There's not much to do there and there are some people I'd rather not see–a difficult task in a small town. I also started working through my backlog of photos, editing them up and posting them online. It's good fun.
I'm remote and have to visit my physical office, and by extension my hometown since it's reasonably close, twice a year, so I definitely feel you there. It's one of those things that I put off and put off until I can't possibly avoid it, and then actually do enjoy the time there, but will again put off the next time it comes around. Did you move to a larger city for work?
Spent the past three days caring for my grandma at her house (and driving out twice earlier in the week). It's challenging. She's a strange person, definitely not an easy person to be around even before she started going senile. In a way it's easier now than it was a few months ago since there are fewer instances where she seems normal, so I'm less likely to express frustration in front of her since I am less likely to forget she's basically mentally ill. The fact that I'm not there for multiple weeks-long stints now probably also helps.
I felt like I needed to vent the other day to maintain my sanity and started drafting up a post to put on notabug.io about it, but when I started listing off all of the things about the situation that frustrated me I decided that my situation was nowhere near as bad as what I imagine many other people are dealing with. Everyone's got crappy things going on in their lives. If people can survive literal torture, drug addiction, abuse, etc. etc., I can surely adapt to a crazy old grouch and the hallmark channel.
Hey man, it's good that you're putting stuff in perspective, but you can still reach out regularly. Like you said, everyone has their struggles, so even if others have more existential problems that doesn't make your struggles unimportant.
Struggles, pain, suffering, and the like are all relative. People are capable of adjust to mind boggling extremes, but as @Gyrfalcon also said, it doesn't diminish your own experiences. Someone out there winning the lottery shouldn't diminish, say, my appreciation for a morning cup of coffee, just as someone else experiencing horrific pain doesn't lessen the struggle of taking care of the health of an aging family member. It can be emotionally draining like almost nothing else.
And there's not a whole lot that should stop you from talking about it if you think it would help. I understand not wanting to talk to people about certain problems I have, but it can be one of the most effective way for me to cope with a lot of different things. I can internalize and compartmentalize an awful lot of crap emotions, but it can make a huge difference to let go of some of that weight from time to time. Biggest thing for me is making sure that I do it in constructive ways instead of waiting for it to manifest as emotional fits that are more difficult to control, or wind up in a prolonged depressive episode.
That's my experience though. What works for me might not for you. But regardless, I wish you the best with that situation. Sorry for going on a bit of a tangent, it just kinda hit close to home for me.
Not great. I think I have ambition and want to work on projects, but I feel burned out about absolutely everything, even entertainment like video games and TV/movies. I feel too tired to do anything productive, a lot of sitting around watching random crap on YouTube and Twitch. It’s not really enjoyable even, just feels like a way to make time move forward.
i mean me too thanks
Have you tried sleeping it off? I've felt that way some days recently, and just sleeping felt really good. It didn't suddenly give me a magical burst of motivation, but it felt loads better than wasting time forcing myself to consume entertainment or do work that just wasn't going to get done.
That surely doesn't feel great... I hear you.
I hope you'll be feeling better soon. Treat yourself well with good care!
Oof, I hear that. My to-do list is way too long, and my motivation way too lacking. Little workouts help break up the time for me. Nothing overkill, but every time I start feeling antsy and restless, I'll roll out a mat and do some stretches, maybe some push-ups and crunches. Other times I'll just push some weights around for a while. I find that the little workouts help to maintain a better baseline for minimal activity. So when I actually do start feeling motivated, I have a decent amount of energy to back it up.
I started off strong on Monday, woke up early, and helped finish off the drywall, sheerwall, and some of the mudding for the bathroom/laundry. Long day, and I even managed to handle the heat well which is unusual for me.
But everything else since then feels like it's been a total wash. Feel very unproductive and unmotivated. I have a huge list of projects that a big part of me wants to work on, but I just don't have the energy level that I feel like I need to get them done. Also, the heat doesn't help. Did I mention I don't like the heat? Summer is the worst for me.
I did manage to get a little bit more done on the bathroom last night though. Even set up the camera and made of timelapse of it (33 seconds, no audio). I'm hoping that in the next 15 minutes I can talk myself into going out for a video shoot so I can start working on my next episode, but knowing me I'm going to put it off til tomorrow. (Trying to use some reverse psychology on myself right now.)
Pretty good. I'm enjoying my new job. A bit of a drive distance wise (38 miles one way), but it's about the same amount of time "on the road" as my last job. I drove 7 miles to a bus stop, waited/rode a shuttle bus to near my main office, then walked to that so about 45 minutes all said and done. This long drive takes about that too.
No stress at the new job, no ahole Systems Engineer, no on-call, no getting escalation calls even though I wasn't the escalation person, 40 hours a week no if ands or buts and a bit over a 30% increase in pay. It's been 8 weeks and I still stop and think "how did I get so lucky to get this job".
Wife and kids (adult kids) are doing good.
Just had a really good week.
It's Saturday morning here. My week was okay, I suppose. I recovered from the cold I caught last week. But nothing special.
How's the winter there been going?
I went to visit MOO friends in Sydney when I was a kid. Went when it was summer here, and I remember how much I loved getting off the plane, walking out the airport and straight into a downpour. It was glorious. I also visited Perisher and went snowboarding. (First and last attempt at snowboarding.) If I had the means, I would travel to chase an endless winter of rain and snow, and I would probably end up sick all the time.
Winter is winter. meh Although, I much prefer cold weather to hot weather. I'm not a fan of rain or snow, but a dry fresh cool day is much more comfortable than a humid hot day.
You don't have rain or Winter where you live? :O
What on Earth is a "MOO friend"?
Pretty sure by "MOO" they're referring to a text-based online roleplaying game. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MOO
Amen. Out in what's mostly a desert we're having our few humid days of the year and it's oppressive, but I came from an area where temperatures 90F+ with sky-high humidity were the norm all summer and just walking from your front door to your car would drown you in sweat. I couldn't wait until it was winter again, but I never really understood just how much humidity affected that. Still prefer winter, but even a dry hot day isn't all that bad.
I'm not even a fan of dry heat. "Hot" = "bad" in my vocabulary. I found out earlier this year that I even associate heat with stress: when I get stressed, my body heats up; when I feel heat, I react with stress.
I just like cooler weather.
A friend of mine asked me recently, when I was wearing a T-shirt on a cool day, whether I can even feel the cold. "I do feel it. I just don't dislike it."
^^ This speaks to my soul.
Glory be unto thee, cold winter haze!
For now I simmer in heat
With deranged mirage visions
And pray for a cloud to darken my days.
Not a whole lot. In January, we had a multitude of forest fires. We did get a few systems with a little rain though so it wasn't all hellfire and scorched Earth. It actually snowed once where I live about 30 years ago. And about 10 years ago there was a bit of snow on some of the mountains around here. We've been in a state of drought pretty much ever since then though.
I don't know if you were ever into MOOs/MUDs/MUCKs/MUSHes, but they were around a lot more back when the web was strictly text based. I probably had more friends in other countries than I had in real life when I was growing up. But I also had the good fortune to meet quite a few of them.
Sister visited me last weekend, saw cousins I had not seen for 30 years later in the week, work went well... all great!
Now I’m watching a movie called The Devil’s Doorway and it’s scaring the crap out of me, so I’m responding to this. :)
It's been going alright, had a few quizzes this week leading up to my finals shortly. Work has been the same, can't complain as they are very flexible with my student schedule.
My registration for next semester opened up and I'm honestly not looking forward to it, especially with all the waitlisted courses on the courses I need my pre-requisites for.
Spending my evening like I usually do with a trip to the gym shortly.
I'm starting feel a good amount of regret now. This year I decided to take a summer course besides the usual spring and fall ones, but now I am regretting it.
Mostly because I don't enjoy having the feeling of due dates looming over me and the fact that I have been procrastinating doing my work for the course and turning everything in last minute. I originally took the course to learn more about the subject but now I feel like it's just a chore.
My week has been a bit of a mixed bag. On one hand, I have the most intensive part of the code I have for work ported over to GPU computing, and it's very fast. On the other hand, the results that come out are noisy to the point of being useless, especially in comparison to the half decent, if very slow, CPU computed results.
Outside of work, I watched Thor Ragnorak yesterday, which was pretty good, and I played a really neat board game called Gloomhaven earlier in the week.
Thank you @rodya for starting the topic! It feels good to express ourselves.
I got my bicycle fixed (finally) and I'm on wheeeeels again. Suddenly it runs so smoothly.
The doctor adjusted the dosage of my meds and I'm getting my body and mind adjusted to the adjustment. It can feel weird at times, but overall I feel more hopeful about recovery than before.
An article of ours got published, so that's yay I guess. Next we'll sort out the financials, so I'm bracing for red tape. The work was perhaps too specialized in my working field to be of general interest, but I'm thinking about writing a "blog-ready" version if I can dig out the bits that may appeal to a winder audience.
There's way too much of my emotional life invested in work, and I've had a wild ride this week.
The MVP on my team had his last day yesterday. He's a co-worker who's been with the company as long as I have, even though I wound up as his boss. He had taken over the technical team lead role, while I moved on to the strategic and architecture work. We had the kind of working relationship that's like telepathy, where we've done things to move each other's project tasks along even before the request was verbalized.
He wasn't looking elsewhere - a much higher-paying opportunity dropped on him through contacts at his old job. I've spent a good chunk of the past two weeks trying to arrange a counter-offer, but knew that realistically, I'd have to prepare both for the departure of a friend and the loss of a key person on the team.
It's flattering that there are people from other teams already knocking on the door for the job, but I just caught wind of organizational politics that are going to move my team under the director that everyone wants to escape.
And yesterday, we just completed our fourth office move in the past 9 months, because no one can figure out where my team fits in the organization.
Rough, paranoia-inducing times, especially with a very busy season ahead. I've stayed with the same company far too long in IT years with a stagnant salary, because I liked the place far better than others I've worked in previously. The culture is changing dramatically, for the worse, and I've made the decision this week that this will be my last year there.
Sounds tempting to follow the MVP to the new company. Might be worth talking to him once he's had time to get a feel for the dynamic there. It seems like such a rare thing to have a good working relationship to that degree.
I would, but I'd like to stay in healthcare IT, and the spouse and I desperately want to move out of the southern U.S. as it's a bad cultural and political fit.