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Comment on 2025 Nobel Prize – This year's Nobel Prize announcements will take place between 6th - 13th October 2025 in ~science
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Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games
Raspcoffee LinkHades 2. Needless to say, it's absolutely fantastic. I've managed to finish the main story. As tempting as it is to talk about it, the only thing I'll say is that it did not disappoint. :) I'm...Hades 2. Needless to say, it's absolutely fantastic. I've managed to finish the main story. As tempting as it is to talk about it, the only thing I'll say is that it did not disappoint. :)
I'm sure that there are others here either playing or looking forward to playing it, and I can tell you to look forward to it. Like the previous entry, it is a masterpiece.
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Comment on Fitness Weekly Discussion in ~health
Raspcoffee LinkBeen working out less recently, though I fortunately cycle to and from work so my stamina is still good. But its been a bit difficult to keep things up. Partially due to lots of things happening...Been working out less recently, though I fortunately cycle to and from work so my stamina is still good. But its been a bit difficult to keep things up. Partially due to lots of things happening in my life, but also have been given myself more slack than I'd like.
As some of you may now I've been working on recently acquired self-love and while it's far easier to take care of myself it's also a bit different in some ways. Though I did use my weights yesterday again after putting it off for a bit, so I'm confident I can reinstate the good habits.
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (October 2025) in ~health.mental
Raspcoffee LinkIn today's episode of 'RaspCoffee is learning how to deal with radical self-love' we present to you: regulating positive emotions. What? Positive emotions? Really? But they're good right? Well, as...In today's episode of 'RaspCoffee is learning how to deal with radical self-love' we present to you: regulating positive emotions.
What? Positive emotions? Really? But they're good right? Well, as it turns out. Not necessarily. For one thing, my brain really isn't used to so many of them which is tiring to learn. But also, I noticed that unregulated it can lead to judgement, arrogance, and a few other things that, while it's not really happening as of yet because I catch it in advance, it's tiring to learn in your early 30s. Some of them are, I think, things people learn to regulate as a kid or teenager.
Paired with the occasional mourning of my previous 'life'(which happens much less now but still does from time to time), this has also caused a few emotional waves. Not quite like mood swings, but still, I'm less stable again. Oh, and I failed my drivers exam yesterday. Blergh.
Then there is one more thing. sigh I'm pretty sure I'm developing a crush on someone when I'm not sure yet whether it'd be even a good idea if we'd ever become a couple. I also recently learned that my last date(it didn't become a relationship but pretty close) affected me more negatively than I thought it did.
Fortunately I have a therapy session next week. While I was hoping for some EMDR I think I have enough on my plate for some other things because, man.
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (October 2025) in ~health.mental
Raspcoffee Link ParentNot in the context of questions. But after gaining radical self-love last summer I've had a whole lot of horrid realizations myself. So yeah, I feel you there. It's really hard to learn that..."oh no this probably isn't normal...."
Not in the context of questions. But after gaining radical self-love last summer I've had a whole lot of horrid realizations myself. So yeah, I feel you there. It's really hard to learn that you've been struggling for far more for far longer than you thought.
No matter what the outcome, I wish you best of luck with processing that. Just the emotional blow of recognizing you have more problems than you thought you had is something to process at times.
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Comment on How many valid JSON strings are there? in ~comp
Raspcoffee Link ParentPersonally, I like these sort of 'thought experiments' with lack of better term because of how absurd the scale of these are. A bit like the amount of possible Go games, or solvable Sudoku's, it's...Personally, I like these sort of 'thought experiments' with lack of better term because of how absurd the scale of these are. A bit like the amount of possible Go games, or solvable Sudoku's, it's absurd. I like statistical mechanics when I was still a student of physics for that reason too, which is one of those fields that are always even more difficult than you think. Even if you think you got it nailed down there are always ways things can get even more complicated, fast.
And this then kind of shows another reason someone might want to do things like this: you learn how to approach problems like that. Even getting a close estimate can be useful if you need to tackle a problem in order to get a sense of scale should you work with computing, thermodynamics, or something else that deals with a lot of possibilities.
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Comment on Dark patterns killed my wife's Windows 11 installation in ~tech
Raspcoffee LinkFunny this pops up today. I'm actually going to install Linux on my home PC today. What finally pushed me over the edge was an experience at work though. It forced me to update from Windows 10 to...Funny this pops up today. I'm actually going to install Linux on my home PC today. What finally pushed me over the edge was an experience at work though. It forced me to update from Windows 10 to 11 but in a very weird way:
- First of, Windows locked the main monitor on my PC, telling me that it was going to update. And that it was going to happen. This happened without any warnings in advance.
- What is weird about this is that my other monitors were not locked. (as a result I'm not even sure whether to call it a hard or a soft lock) If this did not happen, I wouldn't have been able to save what I was working on. Now, the tools I use most likely would've saved an emergency copy of my work, but imagine if a) that wasn't the case and b) I wouldn't have been able to save my work. Even better, imagine this happening with someone who works in say, finance or something.
- Needless to say, I used my other monitors to very quickly save whatever I could. While this happened, unprompted, my PC decided it was time to restart to perform the update.
Now, to be fair, there are enough reasons to hard force an update on users. But this experience was just badly thrown together that I struggled to believe this happened with an update like that. The (soft/hard)lock was weirdly thrown together. If I was away for even a moment I wouldn't have been able to save my work. Hell, if I didn't have multiple monitors I wouldn't have been able to save my work. And I also had no option to delay whatsoever. If I had delayed the updates, especially multiple times, whatever. That would have been on me.
This isn't the reason I'm switching to Linux at home. I could vent about all other ways I've grown tired of Windows all day but that'd be preaching for the choir. The weird update experience just ended up being the last push.
I'd rather not see my work gone over something like this.
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Comment on ChatGPT is blowing up marriages as spouses use AI to attack their partners in ~tech
Raspcoffee LinkI'm really afraid of children also growing up with LLM-driven parental advice regardless of how sound the advice. People have been using LLMs for things that it's clearly not suited to do so and...I'm really afraid of children also growing up with LLM-driven parental advice regardless of how sound the advice. People have been using LLMs for things that it's clearly not suited to do so and its basically impossible to tell what the long term consequences of it is going to be? Back when I nuked my Reddit account that was involved in mental health subreddits I did so in part because I figured it would result in unhealthy, toxic therapy-esque conversations. Despite having been correct about that, it seems like I may have actually underestimated just how bad it could get.
Recently I was at a conference. That particular conference was one I had been there before, one year ago. Since LLMs are a hot topic too(as it involved supportive software engineering), I was secretly hoping that my views on LLMs and other forms of what we call genAI(a term I dislike, but that's a story for another time) was more of an outlier than I thought. That I was surrounding myself in online bubbles and needed to address that instead.
Turns out, that was not the case - and some also brough up concerns that I hadn't heard of before but sounded valid to me. I really did not like that as many of the people there were better educated on the topic and also have been more directly involved in some of these negative consequences. It kind of indicates my opinion is more grounded than I like it to be.
This might be a bit of self-centered vent around the topic. Still, I really need to led this out. Given that I play Go I've followed machine learning on and off since 2016, mental health gets involved and my current field of software engineering is heavily affected by this. Despite not being at the center of it at all I guess it's difficult for me to not experience a lot of feelings about all this.
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Comment on What have you been eating, drinking, and cooking? in ~food
Raspcoffee LinkRecently made one of my favourite, originals: Mushroom and coconut risotto Shared this with a good friend who loves both mushrooms and coconut and needless to say they were a bit jealous lol. It...Recently made one of my favourite, originals: Mushroom and coconut risotto
Shared this with a good friend who loves both mushrooms and coconut and needless to say they were a bit jealous lol. It has a very nice creamy and deep flavour.
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Comment on Why do you like your job? in ~life
Raspcoffee LinkSoftware engineer - I like how I'm tackling problems and not just writing code, but also thinking about maintenance of the code in the long run. That said, I do think that eventually I'd prefer to...Software engineer - I like how I'm tackling problems and not just writing code, but also thinking about maintenance of the code in the long run. That said, I do think that eventually I'd prefer to do something like this in a more scientific setting (research software engineer, or even R&D with some coding), but for now I'm more than content.
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Comment on An AI social coach is teaching empathy to people with autism in ~health.mental
Raspcoffee Link ParentReally, you've nailed it here. That kind of second-hand cringe used to be unbearable for me. As an adult it's a whole lot easier but in the past, man. I feel very uncomfortable with at least the...The closest comparison I can make, and I'm allistic so this isn't my experience please feel free to correct me autistic folks, is to take the "cringe" feeling of watching the UK Office (or Scott's Tots from the US version) or watching someone do a big flash mob proposal and get rejected, or other second hand embarrassment and think of how that feeling is strong enough a lot of people stop watching the inciting media. Maybe it even makes you a little nauseated as you imagine yourself in that position, or you recall a similar situation that happened to you. But copy/paste that onto other emotions and imagine the difficulty of responding empathetically when experiencing whole body emotions, ones that may overwhelm your sensory limits.
Really, you've nailed it here. That kind of second-hand cringe used to be unbearable for me. As an adult it's a whole lot easier but in the past, man.
I feel very uncomfortable with at least the marketing of this research, teaching ND kids on what responses are considered better to NT kids may help them somewhat in a social setting but well, as you said, that's not teaching empathy. And I'm not convinced it won't cause other issues in the long run. I was effectively taught to behave more NT and it has been extremely damaging for me, and that's unfortunately not common. If people will begin using this to make NT kids 'more empathetic' it may actually do the opposite as they learn to just reply in certain circumstances, even if the tool may be useful.
Reading over the paper itself, they fortunately decided to not make it openly accessible and explicitly mention hallucinations caused by other LLMs which I'm very relieved about. We don't need more 'development' without any breaks. They also asked about the comfort in entering/exiting conversations though, I don't think they asked for how much they'd recommend this tool themselves, which I think is more important. (also, the gender imbalance is really high... 13/2)
I don't want to exclude the possibility of teaching ND kids or adults social appropriate responses(because that can help a lot) through bots if it really helps. Though the research for this tool makes me feel like we're continuing the same trend of trying to teach autistic boys to 'behave'. I know that that sounds harsh, but it's what I keep seeing: attempts to change behaviour with a high gender imbalance.
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Comment on Therapists are secretly using ChatGPT in ~health.mental
Raspcoffee Link ParentI'd also be concerned about culture tbh. LLMs have already shown to have a cultural bias (defining cultures is difficult and I'm aware of flaws of these kind of research, but still). With how LLMs...I'd also be concerned about culture tbh. LLMs have already shown to have a cultural bias (defining cultures is difficult and I'm aware of flaws of these kind of research, but still). With how LLMs are designed to (usually) give an answer that sounds satisfying, I could see it resulting in projecting issues in a culturally incompatible way? Feel free to correct me, but it sounds to me like a recipe for issues with ethnic minorities.
I don't want to rule out LLMs never being useful - but I wouldn't trust one with this anytime soon given the issues around mental health that keep popping up.
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (September 2025) in ~health.mental
Raspcoffee LinkYesterday I had a very intense therapy session of EMDR. Some old memories resurfaced after my recently acquired self-love and the way it had a titanic collision with some toxic parts of me. It...Yesterday I had a very intense therapy session of EMDR. Some old memories resurfaced after my recently acquired self-love and the way it had a titanic collision with some toxic parts of me. It ended up being a complex web of memories giving my early puberty a really nasty experience in a way I did not expect, although it did explain a lot...
I'll have to do another session or two for sure. But my head feels much lighter already. And I understand my own life better and better as this experience goes on.
In another note... I've been struggling with the state of the world but in an unusual way. I'm not directly at threat of any of it, at least in the near future. But a lot of people I know are, and there are some things that are difficult for me not to take personally, or I understand the consequences of some very specific "policies" a bit better than other people. And it's strangely isolating. Like I'm not the victim in a lot of different cases. Which, I could handle if it was just a few things. But when stacked together it's something else.
Paired with how much my own life improves and, well, it's not exactly survivor guilt. But it's not not that either. It's a strange dichotomic feeling that is difficult to put in words.
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (September 2025) in ~health.mental
Raspcoffee Link ParentSometimes it do be like that. Where you can only really express bits and pieces due to being tired, or being unstable, etc. I hope you can have at least some rest soon, despite(or perhaps...Not sure how to post about it, especially the incomplete bits or the ones that are mostly sketches.
Sometimes it do be like that. Where you can only really express bits and pieces due to being tired, or being unstable, etc.
I hope you can have at least some rest soon, despite(or perhaps especially because) of the chronic fatigue.
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Comment on Hi, how are you? Mental health support and discussion thread (September 2025) in ~health.mental
Raspcoffee Link ParentI'm sorry. I can't even pretend to understand what it must be like but still, I'm sorry.I'm sorry. I can't even pretend to understand what it must be like but still, I'm sorry.
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Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games
Raspcoffee LinkI've recently started I Was A Teenage Exocolonist and so far I love it. I'm still early in my first run but I really enjoy the atmosphere, storytelling and gameplay. And it's probably going to get...I've recently started I Was A Teenage Exocolonist and so far I love it. I'm still early in my first run but I really enjoy the atmosphere, storytelling and gameplay. And it's probably going to get a whole lot more messed up given what I know so far story wise, which is something I look forward too(well until my favorite characters end up dying of course).
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Comment on Weekly US politics news and updates thread - week of August 25 in ~society
Raspcoffee Link ParentI'm oddly glad both that the director is resisting and that others are resigning in a way. It's drawing a lot of attention and creating turmoil what would otherwise have been a 'clean takeover'....I'm oddly glad both that the director is resisting and that others are resigning in a way. It's drawing a lot of attention and creating turmoil what would otherwise have been a 'clean takeover'. I've seen so many instances where the policies will absolutely, 100% kill people and there being enough attention for it. Quality control of foodstuff being an example.
I really hope the next wave of long covid won't be too bad for the people but man, the fact that this is paired with blatant eugenics at times is horrifying.
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Comment on What have you been watching / reading this week? (Anime/Manga) in ~anime
Raspcoffee LinkI finished the manga Houseki no Kuni/Land of the Lustrous yesterday. Man. So many thoughts. The story is well made, and the developments are insane. Personally I think the ending is very...I finished the manga Houseki no Kuni/Land of the Lustrous yesterday.
Man. So many thoughts. The story is well made, and the developments are insane. Personally I think the ending is very beautiful. I assume that many dislike it, but I really appreciate the uniqueness of it all.
I don't want to provide any major spoilers even in text boxs, though in the entire series there's one thing I just can't get over.
Minor spoilerish
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Comment on <deleted topic> in ~society
Raspcoffee LinkSome years ago, I was searching for something completely unrelated on the Internet. I don't even remember what anymore, but eventually I came across something that looked like a very old...Some years ago, I was searching for something completely unrelated on the Internet. I don't even remember what anymore, but eventually I came across something that looked like a very old restaurant menu. At least, the format resembled it.
I looked a bit closer and saw that it rather was a card of people to be sold. Their characterises, gender, age... and the initial auction price for their lives. Just like food on a menu on a restaurant, that's what it was. Selling objects. Just a business to be performed, I guess. For all I know some of the children, which were on the lower part of the 'menu', were the children of the mother on that same piece of paper higher up.
I don't think I'll ever forget that picture. Despite it not being the most graphic, or emotional 'testimony' of the horrors of slavery, it really showed to me in a deeper way how people were treated as an object.
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Comment on Weekly US politics news and updates thread - week of August 18 in ~society
Raspcoffee LinkRFK Jr demanded a vaccine study be retracted — the journal said no - Nature. The fact that I'm posting an article from Nature here alone is unusual. And yes, the context is autism of course....RFK Jr demanded a vaccine study be retracted — the journal said no - Nature.
The fact that I'm posting an article from Nature here alone is unusual. And yes, the context is autism of course. Paired with the autism database and the concentration camps I really fear for my fellow people on the spectrum across the Atlantic.
If you're one of them, I'm sorry. Please do your best to stay safe. This is terrifying.
The official page from the site of the nobel prizes has a bit more information on the matter.