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  1. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    So, like @Akir, I also (finally) got my steam deck, which I think is just going to be my "gaming PC"? I don't need super hi-res anything, I just wanted to play Outer Wilds without my 2012 mac mini...

    So, like @Akir, I also (finally) got my steam deck, which I think is just going to be my "gaming PC"? I don't need super hi-res anything, I just wanted to play Outer Wilds without my 2012 mac mini gasping for air. So, with, that, holy goodness this game is lovely. I've been wanting to play it for a while after all the recommendations from The Witness, and I've been really trying hard to not spoil anything, and somehow I've mostly succeeded!

    Details, with spoilers I think I'm comfortably mid-game at this point? I feel like each planet has a thing that I'm not quite sure how to progress beyond: getting to the Southern Observatory on Brittle to figure out Giant's Deep, getting into the Black Hole Forge, getting all the way into the comet without dying to ghost matter, getting to The Vessel in Dark Bramble without getting eaten (anglerfish are definitely headphones off, play before dark for me), getting to the sun station without dying. But, unlike The Witness, it seems like some part of the game is just "can you do this 3-D platformer/climbing challenge", which I'm ok with, it's just a different form of challenge. But wow, this game's so fun. Why can't more people make amazing concept games where the only thing you gain is knowledge? /s
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  2. Comment on Everything Everywhere All at Once in ~movies

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    even more There's an example below, though your interpretation makes much more sense. When I think about the neurodivergent parts of me, I feel like I see the world from this gorgeous perspective...
    even more There's an example below, though your interpretation makes much more sense. When I think about the neurodivergent parts of me, I feel like I see the world from this gorgeous perspective that I spend a good bit of my time offering to other people.Thanks for your perspective :)

    https://www.reddit.com/r/AutismTranslated/comments/q4m47b/today_i_learned_if_i_put_googly_eyes_on_my_stuff/

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  3. Comment on Everything Everywhere All at Once in ~movies

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    Ah, there's a thing I wanted to talk about here: Spoiler I'm wondering if anyone else connected the googly eyes to neurodivergence/autism? I've seen plenty of folks who put them on knives and...

    Ah, there's a thing I wanted to talk about here:

    Spoiler I'm wondering if anyone else connected the googly eyes to neurodivergence/autism? I've seen plenty of folks who put them on knives and whatnots to make them seem less scary or to give objects a face that they can talk to. It seemed pretty conscious to me, especially with the whole "googly eye as third eye" thing at the end of the movie, but I was wondering if other folks resonated with it that way. Between queer family acceptance and accepting neurodivergence, I was absolutely sobbing*
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  4. Comment on AlbumLove: a new social music discovery series on Tildes in ~music

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    Maybe add a "if you haven't heard this and you want to get a taste, try this song, here's a link"? It's lovely listening to albums all the way through, and I've enjoyed having a way of checking...

    Maybe add a "if you haven't heard this and you want to get a taste, try this song, here's a link"? It's lovely listening to albums all the way through, and I've enjoyed having a way of checking something out before diving all the way in.

    6 votes
  5. Comment on What is your favorite game you'll never finish? in ~games

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    Oh geez, I remember this. My ten year old hands were shaking as I tried to press all the right buttons at the right time, yeah, for like 20 minutes. Brutal, honestly. Definitely the RPG feeling of...

    Oh geez, I remember this. My ten year old hands were shaking as I tried to press all the right buttons at the right time, yeah, for like 20 minutes. Brutal, honestly. Definitely the RPG feeling of "ok, this run", like 40 times before the everything actually worked.

    2 votes
  6. Comment on What is your favorite game you'll never finish? in ~games

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    Just to offer, if you're working through feelings that strong, it might be helpful to work with a therapist or counselor? In general, the lay idea of exposure therapy is pretty different than what...

    Just to offer, if you're working through feelings that strong, it might be helpful to work with a therapist or counselor? In general, the lay idea of exposure therapy is pretty different than what the term means in a therapeutic context.

    2 votes
  7. Comment on <deleted topic> in ~talk

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    I can try! I used to have a really good handle on what worked for my body...and then I started HRT and literally everything was different. So. Kushes don't really work for me, or anything that's...

    I can try! I used to have a really good handle on what worked for my body...and then I started HRT and literally everything was different. So.

    Kushes don't really work for me, or anything that's skunky; for me, most "classic stoner weed" makes me feel dumber, in a way that I really don't enjoy. My hypothesis is that Kushes are part of why so many folks have a bad first experience -- if you're smoking whatever your "stoner friend" (or whatever) has on hand, it might be great for them and pretty terrible for you. Some sort of Kush in the lineage is prevalent in most strains, mostly I just look for things that are balanced out with something else (i.e. GSC is great, Durban Poison balances the Kush parent pretty well.

    I'll throw out, also, that getting the same strains from two different growers could give pretty different effects. Some folks try to maximize THC content, which (in my experience) tends to lead to a lot more anxiousness/unhappiness, instead of growing something that's well balanced across the spectrum of cannabis and terpenes. For a metaphor, most folks probably prefer balanced tomatoes, rather than super duper acidic tomatoes, even if they primarily use them to add acidity to food. If you can buy legally, strains around 15-20% THC are probably going to feel way better than 25-30%.

    People are really, really different, so I usually suggest that folks go into a shop (or meet a friend, or whatever) and smell as many things as they can, and go with whatever smells best. I used to really enjoy really orangy sativas (durban poison is a prime example), now those are way too much for me and I'll lean more towards tropical fruits (think daytime at a beach mood) or dark fruits (think relaxing in the evening with wine/plum dessert). Getting fancier, caryophyllene dominant strains have been good for me pre/post HRT (Pineapple Express, Mimosa, GSC, Gorilla Glue, Purple Punch), though we really have no idea how terpenes work because we basically know nothing about weed. My partner and I both think of Girl Scout Cookies (and many derivatives) as journaling weed --- I can notice more of the connections between my thoughts and ask questions about those connections.

    It's rough in spaces that aren't legal, but if you're excited to find out what works for you, just try a bunch of things, go really slow (especially if it's been a while) and jot down a few notes about what you like and what you don't like. Comparative tasting is pretty hard with cannabis (effects are 3-4 hours with smoking, which is long enough to forget how things felt specifically), but the granularity can be pretty broad, maybe just "I'm having a lot of negative self-talk" or "I feel like my focus is all over the place" or "my heart's feeling calm". Buy grams, just try lots of things out! Also, feel free to message if you want to talk more, I readily joke that weed made me trans, but only because I found strains that worked for me and had space to explore what was coming up.

    2 votes
  8. Comment on <deleted topic> in ~talk

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    Yeah, this definitely matches the experiences of some friends with ADHD; for me my neurodiverse traits tend to come out more because it's harder to mask when the brain-snowglobe gets shaken up....

    Yeah, this definitely matches the experiences of some friends with ADHD; for me my neurodiverse traits tend to come out more because it's harder to mask when the brain-snowglobe gets shaken up. That said, some strains of cannabis make this so so much worse than others, and that there's a nice space of strains that help me find a really compassionate space about my brain and help bring some focus into interactions with others. But, obviously, set/setting/person makes things different.

    I've thought of it metaphorically; weed makes me feel more like a teenager (maybe like 11 years old). I'm a bit out of it, I'm more self-centered, but I can meet myself there and learn some lovely things. LSD makes me feel like my memories of being a 5-6 year old. I try to hold that just as "not bad, just different", especially as I'll feel further and further from neurotypical folks, especially strangers. I'd feel the same way if I was 11, or if I was 5.

    8 votes
  9. Comment on What changes are you looking to make in 2022? in ~talk

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    You can also always just paint over your fingertips with superglue, though I don't know if this actually builds calluses underneath

    You can also always just paint over your fingertips with superglue, though I don't know if this actually builds calluses underneath

    3 votes
  10. Comment on What changes are you looking to make in 2022? in ~talk

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    My mom helpfully offered to me that ASD is just a label. Granted, a diagnostic, pathologized label, but a label all the same. You'll still be you, regardless of what comes back. I'm happy to chat...

    My mom helpfully offered to me that ASD is just a label. Granted, a diagnostic, pathologized label, but a label all the same. You'll still be you, regardless of what comes back.
    I'm happy to chat if you want a buddy! That all was kind of a doozy for me, even without going for an official diagnosis. Claiming identity labels is just a bit of a mess.

    7 votes
  11. Comment on Recent wave of transphobic narratives worries trans community in ~lgbt

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    Gently, lovingly, it's more than this. There's an existence threat here; see a very old philosophy tube from before Abigail came out. It's not just clothes, bodies, behavior, it's existence that's...

    Gently, lovingly, it's more than this. There's an existence threat here; see a very old philosophy tube from before Abigail came out. It's not just clothes, bodies, behavior, it's existence that's being threatened.

    8 votes
  12. Comment on Tell your hopes and experiences with cloud gaming in ~games

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    Yeah, I would've been much more inclined to pay anything if I wasn't limited to their exceedingly limited selection and could just point a server to my steam library.

    Yeah, I would've been much more inclined to pay anything if I wasn't limited to their exceedingly limited selection and could just point a server to my steam library.

    1 vote
  13. Comment on Tell your hopes and experiences with cloud gaming in ~games

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    If you're ok with taking a pause from gaming after about an hour, I'd check out GeForce's free tier. You'll have to queue up (which has only taken under 2 minutes, in my experience), and re-queue...

    If you're ok with taking a pause from gaming after about an hour, I'd check out GeForce's free tier. You'll have to queue up (which has only taken under 2 minutes, in my experience), and re-queue after an hour of playing (which, for me, is a helpful cue to stand up and move around), but the experience is pretty solid and entirely free for now? My partner and I have been using it to run the new Life is Strange on pretty high graphics a couple times a month; no complaints yet.

    Edit: I should clarify that we don't games that require quick reactions or key combos, input lag might be more of an issue for others.

    5 votes
  14. Comment on What's something you're into that you wish you could share with someone? in ~talk

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    So, I'm not sure if this is helpful or not, but I identify as autistic, in part because I end up empathizing so much more than most others that I interact with. The stereotype is that aspies tend...

    So, I'm not sure if this is helpful or not, but I identify as autistic, in part because I end up empathizing so much more than most others that I interact with. The stereotype is that aspies tend to be lacking empathy, but as research on neurodivergent people has progressed (and the neurodivergent label's gained traction) the opposite might be true as well. Similarly with other stereotypes of autism, some folks are non-verbal, some are hyper-verbal, both land outside "neurotypical" experiences.

    I didn't have healthy ways of relating to this aspect of myself for a while, so I ended up just shutting all my emotions down, becoming extremely numb, depressed, disassociative, etc. and ended up with some pretty unhealthy coping mechanisms. Since I've found some better ways to manage the swings (through ~10 years of on-and-off therapy and some medication to raise the floor a bit), I've been much more open to allowing myself to feel everything that I'm going to feel. Which, for me at least, is just so fucking beautiful I wouldn't think to change it.

    5 votes
  15. Comment on <deleted topic> in ~tildes

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    Also, algorithmic radicalization has been pointed to as a source for quite some time. We don't have that problem here, which is nice :)

    Also, algorithmic radicalization has been pointed to as a source for quite some time. We don't have that problem here, which is nice :)

    5 votes
  16. Comment on Rate my homepage! in ~creative

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    I had never heard of Coolors until I saw it on your site; I've been looking for something like this for like 5 different things and now I have it! Thanks!

    I had never heard of Coolors until I saw it on your site; I've been looking for something like this for like 5 different things and now I have it! Thanks!

    4 votes
  17. Comment on A million students and counting have learned Linux in ~tech

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    This is super awesome and wonderfully cool; a note that the completion rate of MOOCs is usually around 5%, but it's still super cool that ~50k people learned linux!

    This is super awesome and wonderfully cool; a note that the completion rate of MOOCs is usually around 5%, but it's still super cool that ~50k people learned linux!

    2 votes
  18. Comment on To the three people on Tildes using LineageOS: is it worth it? in ~tech

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    I'm using an Essential Phone (I know) that hit EOL a earlier this year. My phone runs totally fine, battery life's great, but the only way that I'll get any updates is through lineage. Also,...

    I'm using an Essential Phone (I know) that hit EOL a earlier this year. My phone runs totally fine, battery life's great, but the only way that I'll get any updates is through lineage. Also, totally worth it if you like to fiddle with settings and lean away from Google.

    I've tried a totally bare bones version (no gapps) and ended up not having some app work (like Lyft) when I needed it, so I'm using the gapps version that includes maps, and hopefully dropping down to less and less at some point. I feel like it's like a native linux install: super configurable, fun to tinker with, once in a blue moon you'll have to wipe and reinstall, but easy to get up and running.

    4 votes
  19. Comment on What's the deal with gemini? in ~comp

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    Hrm, I can get there with amphora and moonlander, but not with bombadillo (which was what I was using), even after purging certificates. Not sure what's going on there, but thanks for the advice!

    Hrm, I can get there with amphora and moonlander, but not with bombadillo (which was what I was using), even after purging certificates. Not sure what's going on there, but thanks for the advice!

  20. Comment on What's the deal with gemini? in ~comp

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    I'm getting hostname/cert errors with these -- tildes isn't stackoverflow, but do you have an idea what might be going wrong? Is someone's server just off?

    I'm getting hostname/cert errors with these -- tildes isn't stackoverflow, but do you have an idea what might be going wrong? Is someone's server just off?