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  1. Comment on What childhood beliefs or misconceptions took you an embarrassing time to figure out? in ~talk

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    I vividly remember being about 9 and realising your birthday was the day you were born.. It honestly blew my mind and I told my friends expecting their minds to be blown also only to find out that...

    I vividly remember being about 9 and realising your birthday was the day you were born.. It honestly blew my mind and I told my friends expecting their minds to be blown also only to find out that nope, thats common knowledge. It's wierd how you go along with things and they just sorta become normal without you ever thinking about them that hard.

    Also writing that out just dredged up a memory of something I hadn't thought about for yonks...So we didnt really do santa, the tooth fairy, or any of those classic childhood things, but my brother managed to convince me that the queen wasnt real. She was just a mascot for the country like how kellogs frosties has tony the tiger, and I cant really remember how he sold me on it initially, but I remember thinking about it and rationalizing it bc she's on all of our money, always at big national events showing support and whatnot, plus our school would do a big event every year for her jubilee or something and put up union jacks everywhere.. And yet I had no idea what she actually did. It just made a lot of sense so I never really questioned it. That was, until I started to learn about the history of the royal family in school and had the silent realisation that I'd been pranked and I shouldn't mention this to anyone ever.

    And this isn't exactly a misconception exactly, more a failing of the british education system but we weren't taught a lot of grammar rules explicitly, you just learnt them by doing and figuring out what "sounded right" and I wound up talking to a norwegian friend online when i was 16/17 and having my mind blown again when I learnt that there was a rule for when to use 'a' and 'an'.. For me it was always whatever rolled off the tongue easier but in reality it was decided by consonant/vowel sounds. I learnt more about the rules of english from my foreign friends than my teachers.

    an aside btw, there are A LOT of accents in the uk so being strict about grammar rules can be sort of pointless anyway. For example - if you drop your consonants a lot, you would say "an headache" out loud but have to write it "a headache" because you cant exactly write "an 'eadache" in a formal setting.
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  2. Comment on What have you been listening to this week? in ~music

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    I've been listening to music from the toki pona community, namely jan usawi and nardi. the former released 2 songs in 7/8 time which i honestly cant get enough of and its started off a little...

    I've been listening to music from the toki pona community, namely jan usawi and nardi. the former released 2 songs in 7/8 time which i honestly cant get enough of and its started off a little obsession with that time signature in general but holy moly, the more I dive into the community the more im falling in love with it. A vast majority of the songs are a bit hit/miss but there's a few artists like those 2who are as talented as they are passionate and it just tickles me pink.

    quirky conlang music aside, i've also been getting back into some atmospheric vaporwave that seems to be similarly niche. actually i'm not sure if you could even call it vaporwave even though i did find it through a vaporwave aggregator channel. There's a band called Elyphant whose stuff doesnt really fit into a single genre imo, some thing are really atmospheric, others are upbeat, theres a few glitchhoppy things, some vocal trance too. I used to put the first album on when i was going to sleep because it was engaging enough to listen to if i couldnt sleep - but not active enough to actually keep me up. I think the fact that they have vocals but no actual lyrics helped keep that active listening part of my brain turned off while it lulled me to sleep

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  3. Comment on Twitter accepts buyout, giving Elon Musk total control of the company in ~tech

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    I might be mistaken but I think on tildes that habit is more about identifying a better primary source vs disliking the outlet for any particular reason. I was always aware that news stories get...

    I might be mistaken but I think on tildes that habit is more about identifying a better primary source vs disliking the outlet for any particular reason.

    I was always aware that news stories get re-reported all the time, but before seeing it get pointed out on tildes I had no idea how much of it is lost in translation.

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  4. Comment on How have you changed recently? in ~talk

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    I had an interesting birthday last weekend. I don't really celebrate them or do anything special usually, but family came down to visit since some of the younguns have birthdays the same week. I...

    I had an interesting birthday last weekend. I don't really celebrate them or do anything special usually, but family came down to visit since some of the younguns have birthdays the same week. I got a few wierd comments about my hair and my skinnyjeans when I got to my mums place, but aside from that we had an unexpectedly nice time watching one of those bruce willis geezer teaser films he's been pumping out lately and made fun of it the entire way through (seriously check his imdb page out sometime) and then spent the rest of the night talking about this film and that, favourite film by that actor, worst films we've seen, rambling back and forth for hours like that.

    I've never really been that close with anyone other than my brother, but it was nice to spend time with them and connect in a casual way like that. I don't think I'm ready to come out to them, especially not the grandparents but moments like that go a long way towards feeling like it wouldnt go terribly. Like, the comments I got about my hair were probably more to do with the fact that its just sooo much longer than the last time they'd seen me and less to do with how i was wearing it.

    That was the saturday and on the sunday I wanted to go to the shops but slept in too late and things were already starting to close, so i walked further into town and had my first instance of someone gendering me correctly through boymode (or at all, even). I didnt even have a mask on at that point and still, some guys doing construction on a house realised their van was taking up the entire path and did the whole "sorry luv", checked the traffic behind, and let me know it was safe to step into the road and around the van. Who would have thought that a random builder would give me such a touching birthday gift, even if unintentional. I'm actually exctatic!

    So this last week has felt kind of surreal. Not as emotionally out of touch with family anymore, and clearly i've changed enough that my boymode is starting to fail. Although I'm still kind of dreading the social part of transitioning.. I'd hoped that I could put it off until I moved into a place with a little more privacy since I dont want my housemates noticing names changing on letters and deliveries. But I've gotten a taste now and I dont feel as intimidated by that side of things anymore and that's with only a crumb of validation.

    All in all, I kinda got used to being in a bit of a rutt so this week has kinda snapped me out of it and I'm starting to get back into bodyweight exercises and intermittant fasting. It's crazy how much more willing you are to take care of yourself when you already feel good. Also I think bc I'm been lowkey obsessing over my progress I didn't notice how big of a change there's actually been. Like, last year I lost 20kg and if I didn't have one of those scales that log and make a graph for me then i wouldnt have beleived it. Gradual changes are easy to miss and all it took was a little reality check to make me go back through some old pictures and realise how far I've actually come this last year.

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  5. Comment on What did you learn in 2021? in ~talk

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    I've been casually dipping my toes in voice training (mtf) and holy hell is it complicated! You know how flying a helicopter is hard because all of the inputs mix together, you cant just control...

    I've been casually dipping my toes in voice training (mtf) and holy hell is it complicated! You know how flying a helicopter is hard because all of the inputs mix together, you cant just control one aspect without compensating for the others changing. I cant remember if helicopters have 3 or 4 inputs but the voice is absolutely crazy.

    Looking back on my notes there's 8 individual levers to pull, maybe more depending on what actually counts. In order of how far into my progress I started caring about them: pitch, resonance, vocal weight, mouth space, nasality, tone clarity, false fold constriction/retraction, intonation, and then a few like vocal fry/strain/adduction

    Honestly it's been quite fun but really overwhelming. Luckily I found a discord server full of voice nerds so I wasnt forced to learn the terminology before actually learning the subject. I could just shadow a few community lessons/ear training sessions to pick up the core stuff, and if I was having trouble figuring something out I could just post a voice clip and ask why it sounds buzzy or harsh (vocal weight usually)

    I'm at the point now where I can get to a passable voice configuration without a drill/prompt, but still need to work on a few things here and there. Very happy with the progress considering I've only been to a handful of community lessons and had no 1:1 sessions, that said, the confidence aspect is turning out to be the hardest part about anything transition related and I haven't been able to hit my 'personal best' configuration with other people that often. On the discord server they call it the nervous noodle which is strangely validating. You can record the best voice clips when practicing by yourself, but the second you're put on the spot or don't feel comfortable totally commiting to the voice - it all falls apart and you wind up in the equivalent of the uncanny valley

    Sidenote, it's kind of cool to learn the variables and then try to notice them in shows/movies. Especially the whole "pitch is irrelevant for gender perception, it's all about the resonance" thing because you'll be watching a tv show like New Girl and be like "oh wow I never noticed zooey deschanel's pitch being so low before" and then realise how silly it is that you keep fixating on that variable with your voice. With a more extreme example being Shohreh Aghdashloo (from the expanse)

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  6. Comment on Integrating using light in ~tech

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    I knew this rung a bell, I went on a binge of Ben Krasnow's (applied science) stuff recently and he has a video about this that you might find interesting.

    I knew this rung a bell, I went on a binge of Ben Krasnow's (applied science) stuff recently and he has a video about this that you might find interesting.

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  7. Comment on <deleted topic> in ~tech

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    News globe website thing. Think google maps/earth but instead of it showing a bunch of shops and streetview, it would show news stories from different countries. It wouldn't even need to be fully...

    News globe website thing. Think google maps/earth but instead of it showing a bunch of shops and streetview, it would show news stories from different countries. It wouldn't even need to be fully featured as a directory/way to consume the content or anything, just a higher level view of the big events would suffice for a curious visitor.

    Time slider on the bottom (i looked into this part and made a 2d thing in mapbox a year or two back) so you can scrub through some more historic stuff, although that starts to become a lot of work with the scraping and whatnot.

    I've had this idea bouncing around in my head for 5-6 years at this point just silently hoping someone will beat me to it so i can just play around with it. But every now and then when i get a motivation burst I try to work on a different peice of the puzzle, which most recently was trying to see if I could write a parser to "pull out locations" from articles based on a huge dataset but all I could manage was a super slow false positive machine c: My next attempt at this is probably going to follow the basic idea of; go through text and identify proper nouns > google each noun and see what the internet says. So I'm keeping my eye out for api's and idly looking into the whole natural language programming side of things.

    Recently I've been thinking about ways to randomly generate a co-ordinate inside of specified country. Having 100s of stories in a single stack in the center of mass seems a bit counter intuitive for the 'broad overview' feel of the site, and if the randomized pins are a different colour then it would simply be inaccurate instead of misleading. Perhaps a traffic light system of sorts where it starts out roughly placed, and viewers can drag and drop them to form a more accurate consensus (but again that becomes a lot of work, very fast)

    I'm convinced that it'd be a cute little website but also a very disproportionate amount of work for the somewhat specific version I have in my head. I'm happy even if it never comes to fruition though because it's been a good source of personal challenges where there's no proper ways to do it, so it doesn't matter how hacky my implementation is as long as I'm learning and making progress.

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  8. Comment on What's something you wish made a comeback? in ~talk

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    bringing back the related videos sidebar as an option on youtube. All the algos are trying to forcefeed you the newest content they have which strikes me as insane. Surely with all that content...

    bringing back the related videos sidebar as an option on youtube. All the algos are trying to forcefeed you the newest content they have which strikes me as insane. Surely with all that content being uploaded and interacted with on a daily basis, they could afford better search options. I feel like everything is so very perpetually urgent now and finding a new rabit hole/channel is increasingly rare.

    I had this idea for a youtube rewind that'd be more than just a fluff marketing peice. We all know there's bajillions of stats, tags and whatnot behind the scenes working up a profile on you, so i figured why not do a "wayback machine" styled recap of your year on youtube. Who you've been watching the most, what channels you're subbed to but haven't clicked on, videos that people with similar interest have been watching during that time, similar playlists to what you've been listening too...

    I honestly can't beleive they're stitting on all this data but the only thing you can realistically do is get alerts for new videos and scroll through the subscriptions feed.. I suppose if they made it too easy then their costs would skyrocket since they'd never be able to put older things onto slower storage mediums, but that can't be the reason their search/retroactive experience is so horrendous.

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  9. Comment on Built a satirical social network (ShlinkedIn)—would love to pick y'alls brains about social media and this project! in ~tech

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    Not sure if I'm just missing something but I made the mistake of not using a 10 minute mail and I cant find a way to stop the emails for every single interaction.

    Not sure if I'm just missing something but I made the mistake of not using a 10 minute mail and I cant find a way to stop the emails for every single interaction.

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  10. Comment on Humpback whale gulps and spits out Cape Cod lobsterman in ~science

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    There's a joke here somewhere about this dude now being considered ambergris and his farts being high-end perfume. My smoothbrain has shutdown for the night so all you get is this ikea joke that...

    There's a joke here somewhere about this dude now being considered ambergris and his farts being high-end perfume. My smoothbrain has shutdown for the night so all you get is this ikea joke that you have to assemble yourself.

    What a story though! I've always had an irrational fear of those whirlpooly feeding videos whenever they get shared on reddit, but I can't imagine actually going through that. Glad it was a short endevour and he came out unscathed though or it'd feel a whole lot less fantastical of a story

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  11. Comment on Best way to consume YouTube without the algorithmic results? in ~tech

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    While I can't help you find a solution, I figured I should post some nuances I've noticed in youtube that you might not have ran into before. There is a soft-cap of 1k subscriptions on the native...

    While I can't help you find a solution, I figured I should post some nuances I've noticed in youtube that you might not have ran into before.

    There is a soft-cap of 1k subscriptions on the native youtube UI, and even the 'export your subscriptions' list only lists a seemingly random thousand. Some channels that I'm subscribed to, like 'applied science' will display correctly on their channel yet wont show up on any page other than https://www.youtube.com/feed/channels. I think it's because that's the only place where the subs are paginated? either way after you hold 'end' and get to the bottom you can export that list (someone on tildes wrote a script i can find later).

    The second tidbit is that the "relevant" search filter option is really counter intuitive sometimes. If you are struggling to find what you you are looking for, try switching to upload date or view count. If you suddenly start getting 0 views then you know you are MILES off the mark. Searching for "electric skateboard 175mm" gets you a vaguely related search result page since it's actually just dropping the last search term without telling you. Then when you click another filter option it goes to 1 result because it was actually a bad search term, but interestingly enough when you click back to the 'relevant' filter it shows a different ( and better??) page of generic results than if you didn't switch in the first place..

    The "relevant" filter will not only inject a bunch of 'algo' results, but i've noticed for some search terms like "electric skateboard" the list will be broken up into dozens of little segments of varying relevance. It goes normal results>learn while you're at home>people also watched> people also searched > then back to normal results for the rest of the infinite scroll. So I've been going out of my way to use the other filter options whenever looking for new content since you're more likely to get what you asked for.

    This became a lowkey ramble so I apologise if this is just noise with regards to the thread, it was somewhat cathartic to write for whatever reason though haha

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  12. Comment on So ... The Expanse in ~tv

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    I've thought this for a while. It's a good enough show for me to watch, but I actually had to ask a friend several times "does it get better" and clarify I didn't mean the space parts but instead...

    I've thought this for a while. It's a good enough show for me to watch, but I actually had to ask a friend several times "does it get better" and clarify I didn't mean the space parts but instead the writing and acting. Amos is the only character that I seem to remember having any amount of depth and character development. Going from a brute to compassionate isn't the most original thing in the world but it was paced right and fits just fine.

    Everyone else is acting like they're on a stage show. I mean I honestly dont understand why the main character is always so melodramatic about everything. At this point that's the only thing I can remember about the show, and the other moments where I actually laughed to myself and started enjoying the show like I would 'How I Met Your Mother' if it suddenly had great prodcution value. I had completely forgotten about the romance stuff with naomi, but it did jog loose a faint memory of that weird doublecross thing she did that completely undermined any character development just for the sake of plot:tm:

    I remember saying to a friend on discord that it'd probably make a better book and he pointed out how it was a book first. I can't say I'm surprised because the pacing alone was enough to make me consider stopping at season 3. It feels like the season ends and a new one begins halfway through each season, and stuff the goddamn epstein drive bit really threw me for a loop (that one has gotta be at least a full chapter in the book right?).

    Is there a word for when you don't like or dislike something, because the expanse is a good show. better than most in some regards, but worse than others in ways I wish I could stomach. The last season I watched was the narrative deadend which was the alien planet. I kept waiting for something to happen the entire time, surely it can't all be filler and faux-sususpensful situations right? nope, it was just as unsatisfying a revalation as all the wierd hush hush secrecy in the first season.

    I apologize if nothing im referencing makes any sense, It's been a long time since I've watched it and I honstly dont want refresh my memory by looking for youtube clips. But yeah, it's strange how for such a big show they've managed to only have one character grow even slightly. I started watching for the "its an accurate show about space" but that fades VERY quickly if you care about anything more than that (also isnt 'gravity' in the rosenante wrong for an engine on the back)

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  13. Comment on Yahoo Answers will shut down and delete its archives on May 4 in ~tech

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    I hadn't heard of archiveteam before so I went to the website to check them out and was treated to an old but relevant quote on their homepage. Internet Atrocity! GeoCities' Demise Erases Web...

    I hadn't heard of archiveteam before so I went to the website to check them out and was treated to an old but relevant quote on their homepage.

    "[Yahoo!] found the way to destroy the most massive amount of history in the shortest amount of time with absolutely no recourse"

    Internet Atrocity! GeoCities' Demise Erases Web History
    By Dan Fletcher, TIME Magazine, Monday, Nov. 09, 2009

    It seems like Yahoo! fits the bill for a serial killer at this point.

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  14. Comment on Tildes Community Valheim Server - April 2021 Update in ~games

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    I've got access to a friends sliced up dedicated server. We have a bunch of idle gameservers running in docker containers just gathering dust (including a valheim instance that hasnt progressed...

    I've got access to a friends sliced up dedicated server. We have a bunch of idle gameservers running in docker containers just gathering dust (including a valheim instance that hasnt progressed past the elder), it's a fairly beefey server so I think we've got room for a few more.

    We did have some really bad but sporadic issues with desync, although I figure that's more likely to be valheim being valheim more than the server being underpowered. Also it's surprisingly set and forget since just restarting the container will update the server if there is one, which really makes me think of this as a gameserver life support more than anything.

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  15. Comment on Recommend a piece of fiction that gives a specific feeling, regardless of genre or medium in ~talk

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    I really enjoyed the tv show Utopia, and to a lesser extent Fargo, but I also cannot really describe the feeling they have in common. They're excessively normal worlds turning upsidedown slowly,...

    I really enjoyed the tv show Utopia, and to a lesser extent Fargo, but I also cannot really describe the feeling they have in common. They're excessively normal worlds turning upsidedown slowly, not too much action, but it gets brutal. The pacing is like they have nothing to prove, not afraid of being slow and letting you stew in the world with the characters for a little bit. In Utopia's case there was also the psychological aspect of siding with the emotional or logical side of the arguments. I wish I knew of more stories where you really don't know who you agree with, not being able to tell who the good or bad guys actually are is a confusing feeling.

    While writing that, I also had this youtube channel ringing around in my head so I figured I should mention "The Minute Hour". It's been a while since I've actually watched their stuff but me and some friends got big into it a while ago. This nice grill was the first one I instinctively went back to watch (even though most are just audio tw: mental health+), so maybe it would be a good introduction. Mostly they are absurd skits centering around mental health usually, but the way they go off the rails never gets needlessly "edgy" while gets more than unsettling at times.

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    It feels like they're just describing the 'bubble up' feature that was floated a little while ago (having trouble finding a link), but yeah I think something like ~popular would be neat either...

    If there was an additional option to display all groups, similar to reddit's /r/all, I think that would do what you want?

    It feels like they're just describing the 'bubble up' feature that was floated a little while ago (having trouble finding a link), but yeah I think something like ~popular would be neat either way. You subscribe to it and then whenever a post gets an elevated level of engangement relative to its topic, it gets put in ~popular.

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  17. Comment on Draw an iceberg and see how it will float in ~science

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    Took me a minute to figure out how to get the iceberg flipping to happen because i kept drawing them horizontal already... If you want some rotation then you'll wanna draw something vertical, like...

    Took me a minute to figure out how to get the iceberg flipping to happen because i kept drawing them horizontal already... If you want some rotation then you'll wanna draw something vertical, like a teardrop or really anything long and thin for exagerated effects

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  18. Comment on New 2021 GPS accuracy issue impacting some Garmin, Suunto, other GPS devices in ~tech

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    I suppose this must be the issue that plagued the 'Straight line through Norway' guy and his path.

    I suppose this must be the issue that plagued the 'Straight line through Norway' guy and his path.

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  19. Comment on <deleted topic> in ~life

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    I get you, something like this is nuanced and weird so there's no one way to slice it. It's fairly common but to different degrees, and honestly I think that's how most groups are formed. Weird...

    I get you, something like this is nuanced and weird so there's no one way to slice it. It's fairly common but to different degrees, and honestly I think that's how most groups are formed. Weird subgroups that broke off from a larger server/community because it just wasn't for them anymore. There's a discord for a swedish indie games company and i know for a fact that it has had dozens of different eras and different circles of friends, all ultimately making their own server and mostly being active there.

    I'm not sure if it was your experience but for me the hacking scene always attracted a certain edgy type, but whatever the reason the community just had a tendency towards toxic behaviour and might have fell into a positive feedback loop with it. All it takes is a few public incidents and you'll have driven away everyone who is appalled by it and it'll just be laughter next time. Okay, that's a bit of an exaggeration since its a slow insidious burn, but that's how it goes usually.

    Sometimes you can change the tide but other times it's just impossible to fix something toxic without harming yourself in exchange. I'll happily tell you to block them and never look back, but I know how easy it is to just keep giving people benefit of the doubt without realising. I'd taken months of verbal abuse shit from my ex before I finally blocked her, and even then I left other platforms open "just in case". You'll feel bad and conflicted no matter what you do, but if you're doing it for them then it takes forever and a day to actually get over it. Although it's not the exact same thing, you do need to allow yourself to be selfish and the option to cut contact entirely without feeling like a shitty person.

    Also at the risk of sounding like a cliche, but i think this is one of those character building moments. Or at least a moment where you've noticeably grown out of something, that sort of thing. As time goes on you'll experience bits of drama that'll give you flashbacks to this because now you've got this red flag defined.

    tldr?
    If you genuinely don't respect that group anymore then answer from that frame of mind, not because you hope they'll work really hard to change if you accept their invitation back.

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  20. Comment on YouTube Terms of Service updated with the “right to monetize” in ~tech

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    ah, that's really cool! Yeah losing videos in the noise is a bit annoying, although since using fraidyc.at/ I've been relaxing quite a bit about that too. I'll have to give freetube a go and see...

    ah, that's really cool! Yeah losing videos in the noise is a bit annoying, although since using fraidyc.at/ I've been relaxing quite a bit about that too. I'll have to give freetube a go and see how it compares, because right now the only channels I'm following with fraidycat are the 'meaty' but infrequent videos.

    Going through and categorizing everything is daunting though but needs doing eventually

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