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  1. Comment on Joy of sharing a creation replaced by a longing sadness in ~talk

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    I suppose having a residential IP is a best case scenario. what's would be difference between using Tailscale compared to running a Wireguard or Shadowsocks server on a residential IP?

    I suppose having a residential IP is a best case scenario. what's would be difference between using Tailscale compared to running a Wireguard or Shadowsocks server on a residential IP?

    1 vote

  2. Comment on Joy of sharing a creation replaced by a longing sadness in ~talk

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    AAA i've giggled undignifiedly at watching you guys play this map and the others. i didn't know this is a thing! thank you for sharing it! this is awesome. My maps are me pushing my skills...

    AAA i've giggled undignifiedly at watching you guys play this map and the others. i didn't know this is a thing! thank you for sharing it! this is awesome.

    My maps are me pushing my skills forward. also now i see how little feedback i had on the previous maps, I never heard from anyone about weird JD! also i'm seeing the accidental brokenness of Burning Sands again and it's annoying

    And i have a giant smile hearing my name be recognized in the latest maps, you guys are awesome <3

    7 votes

  3. Comment on Joy of sharing a creation replaced by a longing sadness in ~talk

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    heh that's actually something i need to do for a future project, gotta ask a friend for help in a Discord server for collabing that requires phone number verification, and Discord has all Iran...

    heh that's actually something i need to do for a future project, gotta ask a friend for help in a Discord server for collabing that requires phone number verification, and Discord has all Iran numbers as invalid :)

    I already go at things with a cautious mindset and keep my expectations at a minimum. For you it was frustration, for me it's turned from frustration to sadness to annoyance.

    I'm sad you've also experienced this, i hope this is extremely rare.

    5 votes

  4. Comment on Joy of sharing a creation replaced by a longing sadness in ~talk

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    It would help in a way of having a VPN for a month that i'd know works in all services i want, but in the 1-2 hour that i scoured VPNs i found what works for where (and i'm expecting these ones to...

    It would help in a way of having a VPN for a month that i'd know works in all services i want, but in the 1-2 hour that i scoured VPNs i found what works for where (and i'm expecting these ones to work for quite a while) the only place having a dedicated server for myself would be used is for twitch, which i already didn't use and have given up.

    Thank you for the offer

    2 votes

  5. Comment on Joy of sharing a creation replaced by a longing sadness in ~talk

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    Thank you. I'm trying my damn hardest to not let my inner child die, Thank you so much.

    Thank you. I'm trying my damn hardest to not let my inner child die, Thank you so much.

    17 votes

  6. Joy of sharing a creation replaced by a longing sadness

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    So I recently put out a custom map for Beat Saber that I had started work on when the internet was cut for 14 days 20 days in Iran to pass the time. Gameplay video of the map, Odysseus from Epic...

    So I recently put out a custom map for Beat Saber that I had started work on when the internet was cut for 14 days 20 days in Iran to pass the time.

    Gameplay video of the map, Odysseus from Epic The Musical

    Everyone I sent it to enjoyed it a lot and I got the happiness that I needed.
    One of them recommended to send it over to some twitch streamers as well because some of them have a bot that lets you recommend maps.

    I've never used twitch, I found a steamer, made an account, sent it in the chat and had my chat at messages tts'd in the stream. It was absolutely lovely seeing their reaction and it had made my night.

    Then I noticed that my 'thank you!' messages didn't tts, huh weird. After watching them for a bit longer I thought maybe I'll send some other stuff I've made their way too. Aaand it didn't send, the chat message sent but the bot response didn't come, a bunch of testing later I found i was shadow banned.

    A bit more searching and I found that VPNs are the cause. So changed from TOR to Express and tried again, no dice.
    Made a new account with Express and tried and success! But only for 4 messages total, then shadow banned again.

    I got a friend's dedicated v2ray server and tried with a new account and my messages were sent again. So I went to a bigger streamer who was also doing the map requests and sent my map... Only to see I'm shadow banned again.

    At this point the joy I had felt from seeing others enjoy what I made was gone, replaced by a familiar sadness, the same type of sadness I had gotten when the internet was cut and essentially a one way communication not too long ago.

    It's a pain. these sites don't load without VPNs, I had already spent a whole hour trying different VPNs to get the 7mb map to upload to the site (and experienced like 30 errors in the process), then had to try out a bunch more to get the file to upload in Discord (with a bunch of VPNs I can only send messages, files don't upload), and then I experienced the happiness that came from seeing a live reaction and wanting to experience it more, only to have it wiped away.

    I want to start work on the next project, i have so much in my mind that i want to put out into the world, but it takes time to switch back to the mentality of "I'm making this for myself and others may never see it" that I had to adopt to get back to creating.

    Edit: seems a whole week has been removed from my memory, the outage wasn't two weeks

    49 votes

  7. Comment on Telegram CEO vows to fight for app amid Russia pressure in ~tech

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    Iranians have a giant network of proxies for telegram, if the restrictions continue it wont be hard to bypass them for the Russians, just annoying. I am still sad that they might have to, having...

    Iranians have a giant network of proxies for telegram, if the restrictions continue it wont be hard to bypass them for the Russians, just annoying.
    I am still sad that they might have to, having easy access to something for a long while and then having it taken away will be either saddening or angering depending on the person

    4 votes

  8. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    VPN crackdown is insane right now. There are massive groups in Telegram trying to find ways of staying connected, some groups providing VPN configurations have 1.2M people atm Stories i heard...
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    VPN crackdown is insane right now.
    There are massive groups in Telegram trying to find ways of staying connected, some groups providing VPN configurations have 1.2M people atm

    Stories i heard about what happened in Neyshabur

    A three year old girl each day standing near the door every day for a week for her mom to "return from a vacation"
    Killed Sunday in broad daylight afternoon on Sunday 11 Jan

    A friends group separated by tear gas at the protests on Jan 8, with tear gasses burning their skin, they each went home at different times relieved to see each other. One friend didn't come, they hoped she went to her own home, they couldn't call or check up on any way. Multiple days later a neighbor brought them the news. She was shot in the middle of the forehead that night.
    On the funeral the mourners were attacked, they tried to take the dead girls phone from her parents. She broke the phone on her gravestone before they could take it. The people crushed the basijies at the funeral.

    An elderly man who goes to see what the sounds are, shot dead at his front door within moments of opening it.

    A healthcare worker getting of the bus and getting shot in the heart 10 Jan afternoon, before protests

    In hospitals where they were treating the wounded, a woman coming for her own teenage son's wounds (also from protests) and screaming at everyone to help her son instead of the Terrorists. Calling the forces upon the hospital when they didn't. They took the healing supplies only returning them when it was one of them that needed healing. No morphine for the Terrorists, only for themselves

    A person who's home was in the center of the city where protests were happening was giving them refuge on Jan 9.
    They had a girl come crying her heart out. Wailing about his brothers death. He had his final breaths in her hands.
    After calming down she went back out and wanted to avenge him.
    The next morning there was a gun shot Infront of this person's home. Their son was killed Infront of their home and the killers were laughing while leaving.

    A university classmate who has had people die around her, blood splatting on her. Now two weeks later giving exams and trying to keep it together until the end of exams before breaking down.

    And me personally, i've been spending hours and hours trying to connect to the internet, barely managing to focus on studying

    AND MY WEBSITE IS DOWN I HAD RENEWED IT LAST MONTH WHY IS A SERVER IN GERMANY DOWN ANd it doesn't matter anyway...

    I'll give one good news aswell, i managed to upload my Beatsaber map yesterday (its a little 3d art project if you will), now trying to get a video of it on youtube x)

    16 votes

  9. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    Thank you Apple! inviting them wouldn't have helped much, internet is more open but blocked at the same time, one or two VPN are working and we still need them to access anything other than...

    Thank you Apple! inviting them wouldn't have helped much, internet is more open but blocked at the same time, one or two VPN are working and we still need them to access anything other than google. it's still a good idea tho, thanks for the offer, thank you.

    2 votes

  10. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    I know right :] Thank you for the kind words, y'all stay safe aswell ok? And just enjoy life

    I know right :]
    Thank you for the kind words, y'all stay safe aswell ok? And just enjoy life

    5 votes

  11. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    Thank you, i'm trying to download it right now (with 30kbps), never heard of it before. And thank you for the kind words. i can't think of much else i can do, so i'm glad this did something,...

    Thank you, i'm trying to download it right now (with 30kbps), never heard of it before.
    And thank you for the kind words. i can't think of much else i can do, so i'm glad this did something, however small

    5 votes

  12. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    I'm gonna write down as much as I remember from the days Currently I've managed to snag a VPN that uses google.com as the SNI, cities near the capital and capital are completely disconnected right...
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    I'm gonna write down as much as I remember from the days
    Currently I've managed to snag a VPN that uses google.com as the SNI, cities near the capital and capital are completely disconnected right now and they're getting redirected to an IP 217.218.86.27, I'm in another city for university right now. I have EXAMS and no one that I've talked to has managed to study, here's to hoping I don't fail anything this semester :)

    On Jan 8 we all had heard the Shah's call for protests and my family was waiting to see if anyone would do that chant from home, a few people did, it started with one woman chanting her heart out from her balcony and others joined in.
    After a while we decided to go out and check out if anythings happening outside since internet was cut. The entire city was in the streets, the protesters where pouring fuel under cameras and setting them alight.
    We returned home.

    The next day afternoon we went for a walk and it was a ghost town, the busiest streets were now empty, if the night before hadn't shown how big things are this time, seeing the city like that did.
    That night before going out I was on the roof top, I was hearing bullets, machine guns, I saw big flashes of light lighting up the clouds from different sides of the city every 10 minutes or so, and I still don't know what they were.
    After a while we went out, close by or home for safety, and there were so many people, there were groups of protesters coming from different sides, but none of them had a goal, it was just chanting and moving to random places.
    The moment we saw flared bullets (the bullets that have a red flare thing behind them) in the sky and heard the sound of guns we ran, I hoped it was all shooting in the air to instill fear, but alas it wasn't.
    We returned home and saw that the electricity's cut off, with great sadness and little battery I read story books that night

    The next morning and night i personally didn't go out cause our apartment had a pipe burst on the fourth floor and we were fixing it, so none of our 4 floors went out.

    The next days I really don't remember much.
    Phone lines and land lines and sms and every way of communication was cut. People were talking in app reviews in internal app markets, until they cut it off. They were talking in game apps that allow short messages to opponents, until it got cut. In so many places, until they all got cut.
    Over the days phone calls opened up, then much later sms.

    There is a cemetery close ish to my home, I was passing by in the afternoon and I saw hundreds of people there, there was no slave left for standing, there were people crying and people chanting the same slogans that we had in protests. There's also news of them taking 1 billion tomans for returning the bodies of the dead people.

    university guys who I talk to (intern doctors) told me about the state of hospitals, in a city of 200k population there were people who were shot, beaten up, stabbed, and afterwards whipped while they were bleeding. And then let go and brought to the hospital. They were out of space the first night, the guys weren't at the hospital anymore on the second or third day, for their own sake

    A day when phones were open I was talking to friends and there was news that the government guys are knocking down doors and taking satellite dishes. my downstairs neighbor had a friend in the city that they had knocked down their door, and was staying with them for a little.

    One day I called some friends and we went to each other's houses (all before 2pm, didn't dare be in streets much those days), and we hit a problem of not having internet for a lot of things, I luckily have tons of backups on different hard drives and we ended up playing Split Fiction while talking

    On Jan 15 my family decided to go visit my grandmother in a smaller city. With no internet we couldn't check the weather and wouldn't you know, the streets are ice and the car kept slipping, was a dangerous way but we made it.
    On the night I called a friend who's still in Karaj and I got the news that Tehran has been emptied, the previous night Trump had said that something will happen in 24 hours, so millions had gotten out of Tehran.
    Nothing happened.
    People returned over the next few days, but they had all hoped

    While we were at my grandma's news websites said that by next week we will have fixed the internet! The next week came and what they think is the internet was actually just google.com and chatgpt.com. I spent a lot of hours seeing the titles of the news, trying to get the contents of them using chatgpt. My sadness only increased at receiving this one way communication. It was something but....

    They are called terrorists by the government, however many people aren't government or any of the groups were calling them terrorists, everywhere, in sms', even internal kids tv channels.

    I managed to take my mind off of things a day by going sledding, was the first time in aaalot of years that we had this much snow anywhere in the country.

    Over there it's a city where almost everyone knows everyone else, on the day of protests there weren't many casualties, but the day after when people returned to work the next day they were taken, the people themselves estimated 450 people are missing.
    In the city it seems like there's a... Something under a public park, all the houses around it are for sale, the families there can't sleep because of the screams of torture at night

    And then there's the stories of them going to hospitals and shooting people in the head while they were hospitalized. I've heard there's a picture of a man shot in the forehead while he still had the ECG leads on his chest. Tear gasses in hospitals, taking the phones of hospital staff by force. Nightmarish stuff.

    We returned back to Karaj after a week, nothing had changed much, the need to know the news kept gnawing at you and never let you focus on anything.
    Playing Beat saber I couldn't ever focus for too long, just going through the list of songs I had immense feeling of sadness that I may never get anything newer. I was sad at the albums I hadn't downloaded. The movies I hadn't. At the series I could no longer follow.
    The sadness stayed with me wherever, whenever.
    Every few nights they would put up a news of "internet will be connected tomorrow" and the next day delete them, no one believed them, comments were always negative and depressing, they were about our life. Of not being able to support a life no matter how many jobs or professions, and now we can't have the small escape either? Let alone the people who made their living money online.

    Then I got news that my university doesn't have the infrastructure to do online exams, so we have to come physically for exams. NO ONE HAS STUDIED but we gotta give the end of semester exams.

    The next day I was gonna study on the bus to dormitory but then they connected the internet for a short while...
    Don't think anyone can study. Other universities have delayed their exams by another two weeks, mine hasn't

    Edit: typos

    25 votes

  13. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    <3 I already know that he's not one we should be looking at for help. The EU took 20 says to get out of 'holiday festive' mode from what i see, i don't blame them, i hope they do something but...

    <3

    I already know that he's not one we should be looking at for help.

    The EU took 20 says to get out of 'holiday festive' mode from what i see, i don't blame them, i hope they do something but feel like they wont.

    Staying safe is very deeply ingrained in me and my family, i know saying that is the most that you can do there and i appreciate it very very much, stay safe aswell ok? Wherever you are

    I look forward to the day i can post about and talk about fun and exciting things without this storm cloud above me
    (Edited to remove some words)

    8 votes

  14. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    They are giant. Every where in the country was protests, and even with the high high chance of death there are still some protests in big cities.

    They are giant. Every where in the country was protests, and even with the high high chance of death there are still some protests in big cities.

    8 votes

  15. Comment on Iran’s supreme leader signals harsher crackdown as protest movement swells in ~society

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    Hello hello! The government currently is trickling the internet connectivity, I got like a few mins of connection. Personally I'm doing... I've been on the verge of crying for two weeks. I was...
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    Hello hello! The government currently is trickling the internet connectivity, I got like a few mins of connection.
    Personally I'm doing... I've been on the verge of crying for two weeks.
    I was kinda caught up? Was extremely cautious and ran as soon as the sounds of bullets came. Listening from the roof of my house it sounded like a battle field one night.
    I can't express how.. happy? Sad happy? I am that you remembered me, thank you, thank you <3
    From the state of cemeteries just around me, and talks I've had with friends from here and there, 20k is absolutely a better guess (a city miyaneh with 100k population has had 450 people disappear, in some places of it the house prices have dropped astronomically low because of the screams at night, of the captured people)

    Editing to say more things on my mind:
    On the first days of protests we had a day off electricity being cut and half a day off water being cut.
    Having things that supposed to be always there be pulled because you have an opinion is... I don't want anyone to experience this. Ever.
    Also the government is playing with people's hopes, every single night there's "news" of "internet will be fixed tomorrow" but this is the first time I've had international access, I genuinely don't know if this stays or goes but at the same time I know this will go, that they are too inhumane to let this stay, it feels like it's just trickling it so people are less discontent.
    In the comments of news websites people are talking with each other, all intranet messaging apps were blocked and still kinda are, people used app reviews to talk to each other (myket), news websites (zoomit) to just talk, as limited as it may be.
    From there i know a lot of people have had some time off internet being connected and they've used it to search Instagram, and have gotten depressed at what they've seen,I just want to talk with friends but the services I use for that (telegram discord) are filtered still, and none of my VPNs work even now.
    Over the past few days they had google.com and for whatever reason chatgpt.com open, I've been using chatgpt web search to at least check some places, once again I really really do not wish for anyone to be stuck in this one way communication that we've been stuck in.
    DNS servers! ah god DNS servers are a pain, all the normal ones are cut and for a ton of people they have no access to even intranet sites unless they manually set one that works (shecan.ir) which they don't know how.
    also for some reason 192.168.1.1 as a DNS works everywhere?? still haven't figured that one out.
    I miss Jetlag, still can't watch UK ep 4 and 5, and every other series I was following.
    GOOGLE COLAB WHY HAVE YOU SANCTIONED US?! WE COULD'VE HAD ACCESS since all sites ending in *google.com open
    I feel I must apologize for this ranty comment I know this isn't tildes etique, I have a lot of things to say and barely any site loads, with these speeds rn text only is the best, sorry.

    Edit at 2:50pm : still connected, i'm afraid to hope
    Edit at 3:10pm : got in to discord, have cried. Y'all are the best for being so worried. Thank you
    Edit at 3:40pm : might really be connected for a while now, till the next thing happens.
    Edit at 5:20pm : after the feels i sat and just stared into the distance for a while, then slept. I don't have the deep sadness anymore, but still a long way from feeling normal
    (Edited again to remove some words)

    31 votes

  16. Comment on I am kinda curious about the demographics of Tildes in ~talk

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    20M from Iran. Studying nursing and do quite a bit of programming, with an interest in 3d arts

    20M from Iran. Studying nursing and do quite a bit of programming, with an interest in 3d arts

    2 votes

  17. Comment on Two visions for the future of AR smart glasses in ~tech

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    Yeah AR glasses use a waveguide and a projector, the waveguide breaking light in a way it looks like it's 2 meters away

    Yeah AR glasses use a waveguide and a projector, the waveguide breaking light in a way it looks like it's 2 meters away

  18. Comment on Iran's president says capital must move from Tehran over ecological concerns in ~enviro

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    Indeed it does mean "no more water, time to GTFO" which will bring problems of mass-displacement when the time comes aswell. One another side of this many-sided-coin, we have the situation not...

    Indeed it does mean "no more water, time to GTFO" which will bring problems of mass-displacement when the time comes aswell.

    One another side of this many-sided-coin, we have the situation not sinking in for some people and i still constantly see small wastes of water, leaving a tap on while brushing their teeth, leaving the hose on until water is essentially overflowing out the garden, etc.
    I'm Gen Z and growing up i remember seeing TV ads and Posters around teaching how to decrease water usage, sadly the culture for low water usage never really developed in some places.

    16 votes

  20. Comment on Iran's president says capital must move from Tehran over ecological concerns in ~enviro

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    As an Iranian, i simply don't see any good future ahead. Adding to the water problem we haven't had any rain in many cities and it really doesn't feel like we've had any fall season yet! Winter's...

    As an Iranian, i simply don't see any good future ahead.
    Adding to the water problem we haven't had any rain in many cities and it really doesn't feel like we've had any fall season yet! Winter's not that far off and i'm just newly seeing tree leafs yellowing :(

    Oh yeah and we got a forest fire that went on for like 20 days or so.

    So i do what i can do, keep studing and try to find a job in another country, keep myself away from the news and enjoy small things in life. Sadly it's... selfish, but with nothing i can do i will enjoy life until it breaks down.

    38 votes