Moments of Pride

Well, I thought up the phrase "Sorry, that's too hetero for me to getero." Pls don't steal.

Not sure what the dimensions of this are, but I'd encourage straight people to get out of their comfort zone and (I'm going to say it) do gay culture stuff.

A friend of mine from college was textiles major at art school who made all manors of dresses on top of other outlandishly amazing gay scene inspired clothing. I found myself asking him the other day for photos of that time he asked me to put on sparkly assless chaps, a pink g-string and to Nair my entire body as part of a Drag/Burning Man themed runway event.

I'm the kind of guy who shops at a TJMax equivalent, and despite being very left leaning, has always felt comfortable dressing conservatively. It was totally out of my realm of experience, but was a ton of fun.

I've started exercising a lot more, and it's made it so that I have to swap out and wash my Apple Watch bands, otherwise they get gross from sweat.

I decided I'd buy several different designs and rotate between them, matching them to different outfits and whatnot.

And then I thought, you know, why not grab a rainbow one to throw into the shuffle for a little bit of accessorized pride?

Funny enough, right after putting through the order, I came on the site and saw this topic. Normally I wouldn't be lauding "consumer pride" in myself, but it felt serendipitous enough that I felt obligated to share.

Once it arrives, I'll occasionally wear a little rainbow on my wrist, and that feels exactly like a tiny little moment of pride.

I feel a lot more... secure? in identifying as demisexual, more so than I was when I last posted about my experience with asexuality on Tildes a few months ago. I do feel a little weird about the whole thing because going from being firmly touch and sex-averse for a decade, to a few weeks of embarrasingly high libido, comes with a lot of baggage unpacking. I know, I know, there's nothing wrong with adjusting labels as needed and sexuality isn't so rigid that these things don't change over time. But it's difficult not being reminded of the tired old "you just haven't met the right person yet" saying, because in my case I suppose it ended up correct?

Anyways, that's all well and good, but what was really elating was talking to my girlfriend about it and learning that after some of our experiences she also identified pretty strongly with the label. That was another big fear of mine (fueled by way too many internet stories about relationship issues re: incompatible sex drive). We both started this relationship without having clear ideas on where either of our sexualities really lay; we just knew we liked each other romantically and we weren't interested in sex. I'm still not convinced I "need" it and maybe things will change in the far future but for now I'm really, really content.