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  1. Comment on What is something that you learned/were taught wrong? in ~talk

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    I think you've put into words some things I've been internalizing and unable to articulate since I was 12...13 years old. When I first began questioning my self worth and coming to the conclusion...

    I think you've put into words some things I've been internalizing and unable to articulate since I was 12...13 years old. When I first began questioning my self worth and coming to the conclusion that myself wasn't worth much.

    It's never truly gone away and I've only somewhat been able to keep such thoughts and feelings at bay. On a good day, I never think about it.

    On a bad day, or most days, to be honest, it's there all the time. No matter what I'm doing, where I'm going, who I'm with.

    Case in point, my job. I'm a 911 dispatcher. In less than 2 years, 2 3/4 if you count my training time, I've gone from bottom of the barrel rookie to becoming a training officer, member of the Tactical Dispatch team, nominated for Dispatcher of the Year, and was asked if I would consider interviewing for a recently open supervisor position.

    But I regularly denigrate myself to my boss and coworkers. Part of it is my sense of humor. I'm very self deprecating. Always have been and, objectively, I acknowledge it's a byproduct of my raising. But I often just genuinely feel like I'm terrible at my job. The evidence says otherwise. But I genuinely believe it and every little mistake is magnified when viewed through my "own worst enemy" lens.

    I didn't want to be a training officer because I didn't feel like I was experienced or good enough to do it. I told them I wouldn't consider interviewing for the supervisor position unless I was literally the last option available for the same reasons.

    I regularly turn down invites to go out with friends and begrudgingly go out to dinner with my girlfriend. Not because I don't want to be out with her. I just don't want to be out at all.

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  2. Comment on Would anyone like to learn Spanish with me? in ~talk

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    There are dozens of us! Literally dozens!

    There are dozens of us! Literally dozens!

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  3. Comment on Would anyone like to learn Spanish with me? in ~talk

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    Is Duolingo a good resource for learning another language? I’m in a profession where being fluent in Spanish would be hugely beneficial.

    Is Duolingo a good resource for learning another language?

    I’m in a profession where being fluent in Spanish would be hugely beneficial.

    3 votes
  4. Comment on Recommend classic games you feel everyone should play at least once in ~games

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    I'm not sure if it really qualifies as "classic" in the spirit of the question but the original Mass Effect Trilogy, I feel, is a must play series. The first one has some combat mechanics that...

    I'm not sure if it really qualifies as "classic" in the spirit of the question but the original Mass Effect Trilogy, I feel, is a must play series.

    The first one has some combat mechanics that take a bit to get used to but they get tightened up in the second and third games.

    But the real meat, the real quality, of the games, is the superb story telling and character development.

    Most of the characters you meet will change as a result of their interactions with you. Some in small ways, others in larger ways. But the world genuinely feels alive and reactive to your actions as Commander Shepard.

    And BioWare did such a fantastic job of making those characters feel alive, with their own hopes, dreams, fears etc. Most of them anyway. Some of the characters are pretty static but with as much depth and detail as BioWare went into many of the other characters, the static, unchanging feel of those characters feels intentional, not lazy. As it BioWare is acknowledging that some people are just stubborn and set in the their ways.

    My girlfriend once asked me why I kept playing the games, even though I pretty much play them the exact same way every time(I've already done a few playthroughs exploring different endings). I told her that it was the same reason she reads Harry Potter over and over again. The story doesn't change but it feels like going back to visit old friends.

    Same with BioWares other title, Dragon Age. Particularly Dragon Age Origins and Dragon Age 2. I wasn't as crazy about Inquisition.

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  5. Comment on Tom Brady to leave New England Patriots after 20 years and six NFL titles in ~sports

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    The rest of the NFL rejoices

    The rest of the NFL rejoices

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  6. Comment on What did you do this weekend? in ~talk

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    As little as possible. I’ve actually been off for 10 days now and did absolutely nothing of note....well nothing of note for myself. My best friend and his wife welcomed their first child, a son,...

    As little as possible.

    I’ve actually been off for 10 days now and did absolutely nothing of note....well nothing of note for myself.

    My best friend and his wife welcomed their first child, a son, on the first day of my “vacation”. I spent some time here and there running them food either at the hospital or once they made it home.

    Dabbled in some video games I had put off or hadn’t played in ages. Star Trek Online, Star Citizen, Ori and the Blind Forest.

    A few chores around the house just to feel somewhat productive.

    Hurt myself(twice) playing softball. Pulled my hamstring on the first Sunday of my vacation, thought it was healed enough to at least jog for the next weeks games and managed to hurt myself a little more there with a slightly strained calf on the other leg....

    3 votes
  7. Comment on Super Tuesday: who did you end up voting for and why? in ~talk

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    I never put it past anyone in this country anymore

    I never put it past anyone in this country anymore

    2 votes
  8. Comment on Super Tuesday: who did you end up voting for and why? in ~talk

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    It’s hard to judge. The support feels like it’s there, at least among the people I personally know, but I have to wonder if Texas Democrats maybe feel like they blew their proverbial load trying...

    It’s hard to judge. The support feels like it’s there, at least among the people I personally know, but I have to wonder if Texas Democrats maybe feel like they blew their proverbial load trying to get Beto elected in 2018 and are wary of putting too much effort and support into any Democratic candidate in a state that Trump won by 9 points in 2016.

    I also wonder if moderate/conservative Texas Democrats are buying too much in the “Don’t California my Texas” narrative and, as a result, have come to view Sanders as too liberal for their tastes. Biden offers them a choice that says “I’m still a Democrat but Biden won’t California my Texas”

    3 votes
  9. Comment on Super Tuesday: who did you end up voting for and why? in ~talk

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    I voted for Sanders. Same as 2016. I wouldn’t have minded Warren but she clearly isn’t generating support and Biden is just.....he’s not the worst candidate(I give that to Bloomberg) but he...

    I voted for Sanders. Same as 2016.

    I wouldn’t have minded Warren but she clearly isn’t generating support and Biden is just.....he’s not the worst candidate(I give that to Bloomberg) but he doesn’t inspire anything. He’s running off name recognition and being Not Bernie.

    As another user here remarked, I want to live in a world reminiscent of Starfleet and the Federation of United Planets. Bernies vision is closest to that.

    But with Texas(my home state) being called for Biden, and Biden winning most of the Super Tuesday states, I fear the Democratic establishment got exactly what it wanted tonight. A big enough turnaround for Biden to justify throwing their full support behind him instead of Bernie.

    13 votes
  10. Comment on What is/was your favorite console, and why? in ~games

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    Can’t say I have a favorite console. I have fond memories of playing Nintendo NES with my dad before he swore off video games entirely calling them “idiot boxes” to this day. Ive played, or owned,...

    Can’t say I have a favorite console. I have fond memories of playing Nintendo NES with my dad before he swore off video games entirely calling them “idiot boxes” to this day.

    Ive played, or owned, most of the consoles, at one point or another, going back to the NES. Sega, N64, PlayStation, Xbox.....fond memories from each for various reasons. But my parents were anti gaming so I was always a console generation behind. Playstation 2 comes out? I’m lucky to have a PlayStation. Xbox comes out, our Christmas was a used GameCube. If I had to pick absolutely one, it’d probably be the Xbox One X.

    It was the first console I was able to buy on my own, on release date, because I wanted it. Every other console was a gift or used because I wasn’t able to afford new.

    But the One X was my mini accomplishment. It was my reward for working my way into a decent paying job, saving up, and getting my credit fixed.

    8 votes
  11. Comment on Four-day workweek's appeal goes global as bosses seek to boost profits and morale in ~life

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    I work overnight 12hr shifts as a 911 dispatcher. I just recently did 6 months working 8am-4pm, Monday through Friday, after spending my first 2 years on 12s, and I hated it. I chose the shift,...

    I work overnight 12hr shifts as a 911 dispatcher.

    I just recently did 6 months working 8am-4pm, Monday through Friday, after spending my first 2 years on 12s, and I hated it. I chose the shift, wanted to see what working that sort of “9-5” type schedule felt like but come Wednesday, I was dragging.

    I didn’t realize how much I’d grown accustomed to shift work and how valuable the extra days off were.

    Now I work 4 days one week for 3 days off and 2.5 days the next for 4 days off. Much happier with this

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  12. Comment on Blizzard's long history of manic pixie nightmare girls and fear of women in ~games

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    See I didn't start playing WoW until well into Legion, shortly after the 7.3.5 patch, I think. So BfA, for all its shortcomings, was my first true experience with World of Warcraft, at least in...

    See I didn't start playing WoW until well into Legion, shortly after the 7.3.5 patch, I think. So BfA, for all its shortcomings, was my first true experience with World of Warcraft, at least in the sense of being there from the beginning of an expansion to the end. I don't hate it as much as many players do simply because I don't have much to compare it to but some of it just......is down right frustrating.

    I consider myself a lore nerd, first and foremost, of any game I play. For me to truly enjoy it, I have to know what's going on. Who the major players are, what their motivations are, so on and so forth.

    With WoW.....it's hard to enjoy that aspect. The sheer amount of lore should excite me, and in many areas it does, but the inconsistencies and the laziness of BfA really made it difficult. So many of the events in the game required massive stretches of the lore and characters just completely ignoring what was going on.

    When the first images of Teldrassil burning started leaking, I desperately hoped it was inside job. I desperately hoped Genn Greymane set the torch to Teldrassil in a set up. Or that he'd attack Sylvanas again in his quest for revenge against the Banshee Queen. Anything that would make the Horde/Alliance conflict actually morally grey.

    But no.....we got another Horde aggression expansion despite the Hordes leaders being among the most peaceful and honorable characters the game has. They just go along with Sylvanas because "muH WaRChieF" when it makes zero sense otherwise

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  13. Comment on Blizzard's long history of manic pixie nightmare girls and fear of women in ~games

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    Yea a lot of fans called BFA “MOP 2.0”. The similarities were extensive, down to Lor’themar quoting Taran Zhu. Frustrating because it felt like they completely disregarded any previous character...

    Yea a lot of fans called BFA “MOP 2.0”. The similarities were extensive, down to Lor’themar quoting Taran Zhu.

    Frustrating because it felt like they completely disregarded any previous character development for Sylvanas in favor of turning her into a mustache twirling villain instead of one with depth and nuance

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  14. Comment on What did you do this week? in ~talk

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    Finally got caught up on Netflix's The Witcher, Picard, and Knightfall. School work and trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up Trying to find time to have a serious conversation...

    Finally got caught up on Netflix's The Witcher, Picard, and Knightfall.

    School work and trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up

    Trying to find time to have a serious conversation with my girlfriend about her work habits.

    2 votes
  15. Comment on Blizzard's long history of manic pixie nightmare girls and fear of women in ~games

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    It's a shame that Blizzards "face of the franchise" characters like Sylvanas have had their stories brutalized and their physical attributes sexualized to the degree that they have been. At least,...

    It's a shame that Blizzards "face of the franchise" characters like Sylvanas have had their stories brutalized and their physical attributes sexualized to the degree that they have been.

    At least, in my experience with World of Warcraft, there's a wealth of smaller, lesser known female characters who have had strong personas and stories.

    First one that springs to my mind is Lady Liadrin. She's been around since Burning Crusade and has gone from Priestess of the Light to bad ass Paladin leading the Blood Knights, the Blood Elves Paladin strike force, for lack of a better phrase for them. At least in game, she hasn't been sexualized either. She wears normal plate armor and a simple Blood Knight tabard

    And then theres some smaller female characters like Thaylssra of the Nightborne, Mayla Highmountain, Queen Talanji....in fact, there were some players who complaining that the game was becoming too feminine with multiple faction leaders being female.

    5 votes
  16. Comment on What is your favorite opening scene in a movie? in ~movies

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    I haven't. I actually didn't know they existed. I'll be checking them out though. I enjoy the Prequel trilogy but I'm definitely curious to see how these edited versions hold up

    I haven't. I actually didn't know they existed. I'll be checking them out though. I enjoy the Prequel trilogy but I'm definitely curious to see how these edited versions hold up

    2 votes
  17. Comment on What is your favorite opening scene in a movie? in ~movies

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    I know Star Wars isn’t exactly held up as a gold standard of film making in terms of cinematic quality but....... The opening scene to Revenge of the Sith is up there for me. It really only lasts...

    I know Star Wars isn’t exactly held up as a gold standard of film making in terms of cinematic quality but.......

    The opening scene to Revenge of the Sith is up there for me. It really only lasts a minute or so but it’s one of the best scenes in all of the Star Wars films. The music(For all the faults of the films, John Williams nails each film and Star Wars wouldn’t be what it was without him), the CGI, the viewing perspective

    Another great opening scene is more geek fan service but the opening to Bumblebee.

    After the travesty of the Bayformers films, the opening to Bumblebee is just pure fun, a legitimate live action version of the original Transformers cartoon. I’d love an entire film, just of that.

    Also, obligatory nod to Saving Private Ryan. That D-Day scene is easily one of the most intense in all of cinema and my 5th grade teacher suffered the wrath of multiple parents for showing it to us when we covered World War 2.

    Oh hell, and Jaws. The opening scene to Jaws just sets the tone for the whole film. It’s scary without revealing anything about what’s under the water.

    5 votes
  18. Comment on The Jesus Rolls (Big Lebowski spinoff) - Official trailer in ~movies

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    I’m a big fan of this films predecessor, The Big Lebowski, but I chalk this The Jesus Rolls up to another spinoff we really didn’t want or need. I’ll get around to seeing it but I don’t have my...

    I’m a big fan of this films predecessor, The Big Lebowski, but I chalk this The Jesus Rolls up to another spinoff we really didn’t want or need.

    I’ll get around to seeing it but I don’t have my hopes up that’ll come anywhere close to the Jeff Bridges masterpiece

    6 votes
  19. Comment on Trump acquitted of two impeachment charges in near party-line vote in ~news

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    Once again, disappointed but not surprised. We knew there was almost zero chance the GOP would conduct a fair trial. McConnell and Graham and the others have been vocal from the beginning that the...

    Once again, disappointed but not surprised.

    We knew there was almost zero chance the GOP would conduct a fair trial. McConnell and Graham and the others have been vocal from the beginning that the impeachment would lead to nothing but an acquittal.

    All Americans can do now is hope the Democrats put forth a worthy candidate and vote in November. Sanders is my pick but I don’t know if the Dems have the courage to actually back him for once.

    17 votes
  20. Comment on As a 28-year-old Latino, I'm shocked my new novel, Memoirs of a Middle-Aged White Lady, has been so poorly received in ~books

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    Think Papi ever got to the bottom of it? Sorry, couldn't resist...Yankee fan here

    Think Papi ever got to the bottom of it?

    Sorry, couldn't resist...Yankee fan here

    1 vote