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  1. Comment on Horizon Zero Dawn: Complete Edition - PC features trailer in ~games

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    Same boat here. Been an Xbox guy my whole video game playing life and, while I don’t have anything against PlayStation itself, the girlfriend just won’t let spend the cash on another console lol I...

    Same boat here. Been an Xbox guy my whole video game playing life and, while I don’t have anything against PlayStation itself, the girlfriend just won’t let spend the cash on another console lol

    I had held out hope that Horizon would come to Xbox like Hellblade Senuas Sacrifice did, but am glad it’s coming to PC so I can play it there

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  2. Comment on Intel insider claims it finally lost Apple because Skylake QA 'was abnormally bad' in ~tech

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    I'd wager probably a combination. Their only competition has been AMD and AMD had, for a long time, focused on being the "budget" alternative with CPUs/GPUs that were good but not the same level...

    I'd wager probably a combination. Their only competition has been AMD and AMD had, for a long time, focused on being the "budget" alternative with CPUs/GPUs that were good but not the same level of Intel but you paid half the price.

    Lately, it seems like AMD is really pushing their quality to match Intel and Intel seems like it's struggling to keep their advantage

    That being said, my opinion is that of a purely enthusiast PC builder so I could be very wrong here

    7 votes
  3. Comment on I just became a US citizen today in ~talk

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    Hello fellow Texan! https://www.votetexas.gov/register-to-vote/ Here's the link for registering to vote in Texas. I don't believe they have an online option yet. Or at least I don't see one on...

    Hello fellow Texan!

    https://www.votetexas.gov/register-to-vote/

    Here's the link for registering to vote in Texas. I don't believe they have an online option yet. Or at least I don't see one on this web page. You can get the application online but it still requires mailing to the Registrar

    4 votes
  4. Comment on What are the things that make you happy? in ~talk

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    I appreciate what you've told me because "anhedonia"....based on what you've told me and a quick Google search....feels like it might be what I've been feeling for the last several years but...

    I appreciate what you've told me because "anhedonia"....based on what you've told me and a quick Google search....feels like it might be what I've been feeling for the last several years but just...didn't have a word or name for it. Depression felt like overkill because I didn't feel depressed. I didn't feel sad. I just didn't feel happy. It was more a feeling of wanting to get away from everyone. Family get togethers? Pass. Date/movie with the girlfriend? Hell, even sex with the girlfriend? I'd rather play video games. But those don't even make me happy so much as they're useful for distracting me and keeping my mind occupied with something else

    I do think there are some other issues, emotional and mental, that are contributing and I know I need to address them before I'll find any long term improvement. Things with the girlfriend are stagnant in a multitude of ways. I live with my dad, which was originally supposed to be a temporary arrangement, that has extended to almost 5 years due to various reasons and now, appears to be going even longer now that my dad approached me about buying his house because he wants to get a place with his girlfriend but wants to keep the house in the family.

    The one area of my life that's going well is my work life but even that is having repercussions I didn't expect. The more I advance, the more money I make, the less I want certain things. Whereas things like marriage and kids were endgoals, now, I question if those are what I truly want to be devoting my time and finances to.

    5 votes
  5. Comment on What are the things that make you happy? in ~talk

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    I rightly don’t know anymore. I’m in this weird place where I don’t necessarily feel unhappy but nothing really makes me feel happy either. The closest I could think of would be going to a...

    I rightly don’t know anymore.

    I’m in this weird place where I don’t necessarily feel unhappy but nothing really makes me feel happy either.

    The closest I could think of would be going to a professional baseball game.

    6 votes
  6. Comment on Protests over death of George Floyd disrupt Minneapolis, and beyond in ~news

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    Don’t try to deflect. You ever listen to a child cry on the phone because his daddy is hurting his mommy? You ever hear the screams and crying? You ever hear someone get slapped so hard you can...

    Don’t try to deflect.

    You ever listen to a child cry on the phone because his daddy is hurting his mommy? You ever hear the screams and crying? You ever hear someone get slapped so hard you can hear it through the phone?

    I have. I still hear them.

    Who responds to that?

    Are you actually advocating that nothing be done for it? You actually think a man like that is going to let his wife seek out help that doesn’t involve police?

    Part of the reason domestic violence is such a problem is that the abused doesn’t feel like they have anywhere to go. Don’t blame the police for every shortcoming in society. There’s a lot more that can be done, across the board, for domestic violence victims but you’re blaming police for aspects they have no control over.

    As such, it’s clear to me that your bias and hatred against police, and my bias for, will not allow us to find any sort of common ground. This will be my last response to you on this topic.

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  7. Comment on TV Tuesdays Free Talk in ~tv

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    I didn’t watch it until I was an adult. Just a couple years ago, in fact. If you have a free weekend, I’d definitely recommend giving it a try. Episodes are short, standard 23 minutes, and you’ll...

    I didn’t watch it until I was an adult. Just a couple years ago, in fact.

    If you have a free weekend, I’d definitely recommend giving it a try. Episodes are short, standard 23 minutes, and you’ll know pretty quick if it’s something you’ll enjoy

    The animation holds up pretty well, although I’d recommend watching it in 1080p if you can. Looks significantly better than 720p

    And the themes do cover some serious ground. Simple themes easily explained to a child and more adult themes like death and loss and the ravages of war

    2 votes
  8. Comment on TV Tuesdays Free Talk in ~tv

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    Been doing a rewatch of Avatar: The Last Airbender That show was ahead of it's time and still relevant. Iroh is love, Iroh is life. I do occasionally find myself annoyed with Aang but it's easy to...

    Been doing a rewatch of Avatar: The Last Airbender

    That show was ahead of it's time and still relevant. Iroh is love, Iroh is life. I do occasionally find myself annoyed with Aang but it's easy to forget that he's just a child. The dialogue was/is surprisingly mature in a lot of places.

    Just all around fantastic. Even as a 32 year old, incredibly enjoyable

    3 votes
  9. Comment on Protests over death of George Floyd disrupt Minneapolis, and beyond in ~news

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    None of those jobs deal with the possibility of intentionally being ambushed in a patrol car, getting shot making a traffic stop....but I wouldn’t say policing is respected anymore. A random...

    None of those jobs deal with the possibility of intentionally being ambushed in a patrol car, getting shot making a traffic stop....but I wouldn’t say policing is respected anymore. A random sampling of 1500 people in 2018 may be numerically significant but I don’t see comment threads on the internet calling for the execution of truck drivers and their families like I’ve seen on Reddit. And yes, I know Reddit is a cesspool. But as the son of a police officer with 25 years on the street, it’s still highly concerning.

    Those are interesting studies and I’d be curious to see them expanded across the country to see if their results with body cams are inherent across PDs. My own PD places great emphasis on their use and it’s beat into the officers heads that they’re for citizen and officer safety and are never turned off for any interactions.

    Abolish the police? Definitely can’t agree there. In a country of 331 million people? I’m all for eliminating a lot of the laws that make petty, non violent crime a thing and cutting the flow that make a for profit prison industry a thing but who responds to the man beating his wife? Who responds to someone robbing a bank? Who responds to the uncle with pictures of his niece in the bathroom? These are calls my department has taken recently.

    For whatever evil you think of police, they do good in a lot of ways that never gets recognized.

    6 votes
  10. Comment on Protests over death of George Floyd disrupt Minneapolis, and beyond in ~news

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    I respectfully disagree. I think it would be more beneficial to have a civilian third party that controls and approves spending so a department can't spend their budgets on new toys they'll never...

    I respectfully disagree.

    I think it would be more beneficial to have a civilian third party that controls and approves spending so a department can't spend their budgets on new toys they'll never use.

    Defunding them is just going to result in even fewer good officers because who wants to be in a profession where you're hated, called "pig", and risk your life every day for 40k a year because of the actions of a relative few?

    Less money means less body cams, less qualified officers, less training....

    I'm curious, and I don't mean this facetiously, but how would recommend policing be done in the US? Based on your verbiage("Brutalize people, becauses that's their primary function""our money needs to be spent on things that positively affect our communities"), it's obvious you have a very low opinion of police officers and the job they do. So I'm genuinely curious what changes you would make to improve the situation?

    6 votes
  11. Comment on Protests over death of George Floyd disrupt Minneapolis, and beyond in ~news

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    Don't know if I'd go that far. I know big departments make it seem like PD's are just flush with cash but it's not true for a lot of places. My department, for example, has been massively...

    Don't know if I'd go that far.

    I know big departments make it seem like PD's are just flush with cash but it's not true for a lot of places.

    My department, for example, has been massively shortstaffed for most of the time of my employment. I work for a city with 80k residents and I've had nights with just four officers and a supervisor.

    I know of another agency, just up the road, that lost their roof to a hail storm several years ago. They moved the Dispatchers to a portable until repairs to that section of the building were made. It took them months to get the repairs done, up to code, and for the dispatchers to move back into the main building.

    My dispatch console? Still running Windows 7 on outdated hardware because "there's not enough money in the budget" to get our computers upgraded to the current Windows OS and current hardware. We keep getting told we'll get new ones but they've been saying that since I was hired 3 years ago.

    Our building? A renovated office building that has issues with mold, sagging ceilings, creaky floors etc

    So while I don't disagree changes need to be made across the board, I'd wager most police departments across the country simply can't afford to lose out on any money.

    I think @cfabbro is more on the right track. Mandatory civilian investigations for all officer involved shootings/incidents. Not internal affairs like many PDs do but outside, civilian investigations.

    14 votes
  12. Comment on Protests over death of George Floyd disrupt Minneapolis, and beyond in ~news

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    As someone that works in law enforcement(911 dispatcher) for a suburb city in the DFW Metroplex and has multiple family members who are police officers....... All I can do is shake my head....

    As someone that works in law enforcement(911 dispatcher) for a suburb city in the DFW Metroplex and has multiple family members who are police officers.......

    All I can do is shake my head.

    Kaepernick tried protesting peacefully and it got him nowhere except blacklisted from the NFL.

    And now here we are.

    Another black man dead for no reason and another black mark on what is supposed to be a noble profession. Fortunately, the officers I work with, at least to my face, seem just as disgusted of Chauvin and his officers did and I have seen numerous agencies across the country condemn Chauvins actions.

    So I sincerely hope police officers and departments across the country see this as a call to action and finally start outing the bad apples and stop worrying about that "thin blue line" that's been nothing but divisive since whoever thought it up.

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  13. Comment on What's something you've learned about yourself recently? in ~talk

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    Yea I won’t be making any rash decisions any time soon But it’s given me a lot to think about.

    Yea I won’t be making any rash decisions any time soon

    But it’s given me a lot to think about.

    6 votes
  14. Comment on Assassin’s Creed Valhalla: Cinematic world premiere trailer in ~games

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    It kinda feels like they’ve been turned into historical fiction action RPGs only loosely connected to the Assassins Creed mythology And I’m ok with it too. I played Origins and genuinely enjoyed...

    It kinda feels like they’ve been turned into historical fiction action RPGs only loosely connected to the Assassins Creed mythology

    And I’m ok with it too.

    I played Origins and genuinely enjoyed the ancient Egyptian setting. I skipped Odyssey for no reason than my current backlog is too long for another RPG. But I may not skip this one.

    3 votes
  15. Comment on AMC Theatres refuses to play Universal films in wake of 'Trolls World Tour' in ~movies

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    Can second this An AMC opened up about 5 mins down the road from my house about 12-14 years ago and its been my go to for solo movie outings since high school But when I’m going with my friends,...

    Can second this

    An AMC opened up about 5 mins down the road from my house about 12-14 years ago and its been my go to for solo movie outings since high school

    But when I’m going with my friends, or date night, we always go to Alamo.

    The food is excellent and their emphasis on “no talking, no cell phones” keeps the audience quiet. You never have to worry about someone’s loud, obnoxious kids.

    And Alamo also routinely does showings of older movies and “theme nights”. So it’s a great place to see something like Jaws on the big screen if, like me, you were too young to see it during it’s heyday

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  16. Comment on What's something you've learned about yourself recently? in ~talk

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    Recently, due to the COVID-19 pandemic, I spent about a month away from my significant other and it has me.....questioning....my commitment to the relationship. Not in a "I want to see other...

    Recently, due to the COVID-19 pandemic, I spent about a month away from my significant other and it has me.....questioning....my commitment to the relationship. Not in a "I want to see other people" kind of way but just.....I want to be alone. I don't know if I want to be in this relationship anymore.

    For some background, we've been together for 11 years. We had plans, for marriage and kids, that were always out of reach due to finances. I watched my mother and father divorce, due to various contributing factors but money was arguably the biggest, and I have refused to marry or have kids until I was in a strong enough financial position to do so.

    It took some years but within the last couple, it's become more of a possibility. And for the last couple years, I've grown increasingly disillusioned with my relationship and I think I've been harboring a resentment to having kids. To getting married. It was starting to feel more and more like I no longer wanted those things because I wanted them but because she did and we were at the age where "it's what you're supposed to do". Its like....the closer we got to those goals, the less I actually wanted them because it also meant I was closer to other goals I had never thought possible

    I've been struggling with these feelings for the better part of a year now and it's completely frozen my emotional state with regards to my relationship.

    But to get more to the point, she went to go stay out with my brother and sister in law in a nearby town about an hour's drive from me. My brother and sister in law were expecting their second child and my brother was going through the fire academy to become a firefighter for a local FD. Given his work environment, and mine, it was decided that it would be safest for an expectant mother, already with a 3 year old, to be isolated as much as possible and my girlfriend would go out there to be an extra set of hands for said 3 year old, who is quite rambunctious, and to help my SIL when my other nephew decided to escape his wretched prison. My brother would stay at my dads which was much closer to his training academy anyway.

    For a month, I was pretty much by myself

    And it....was....glorious.

    Never before had I been alone to such an extent. I grew up with 5 brothers and sisters between two households(Mother/Stepfather, Father/Stepmother) so alone....what even was that? And when I grew up(legally, anyway, mentally and emotionally is another story), and moved out, I always had roommates.

    I've never had my own place or my own space. This was the closest I had ever been.

    And I think I've realized that's what I've been wanting. Or at least...haven't experienced and thus, feel a certain, growing regret over it. I feel like I'm approaching a certain crossroads in my life where I'm going to have a make a decision over the sort of life I'm wanting for myself and I'm not sure anymore that the whole "marriage and kids" is the one I'm going to choose.

    What shocked me the most was that, when she asked me if I missed her, I had to lie and say yes. Because I didn't. We talked nearly every day so it wasn't like we were completely cut off but didn't see each other except for one Sunday night. But I didn't miss her. At all. I was enjoying being alone too much. Just being responsible and accountable only to myself. Not having to argue with her about what to eat for dinner. Not having to do so much damn laundry. Not having her coffee cups left on my computer desk to grow mold because she refuses to take them to the sink. Being able to play on my Xbox or my PC and never having to contend with her for the TV......

    I realize this is pretty much the epitome of "first world emotional problems". I've got a good woman who loves me dearly and I'm not happy with it. All things considered, I'm in a much better place than a lot of people right now and I'm not happy and I feel like absolute scum for it.

    And I do apologize for rambling.......this was a little more of a dump than I initially intended

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  17. Comment on What are the most worthwhile DLCs you've played? in ~games

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    Mass Effect 3: Citadel It was the “goodbye” we didn’t get in the base game and you can tell the developers took it as their final love letter to the characters. You go on missions with various...

    Mass Effect 3: Citadel

    It was the “goodbye” we didn’t get in the base game and you can tell the developers took it as their final love letter to the characters.

    You go on missions with various squad mates from all three games to uncover this dastardly plot against Shepard but along the way, you have fun. You can go into an Arena mode with different squad mates, go to a bar and dance(albeit as part of a mission), and it all culminates in a legit house party where Grunt, after you bail him out of Citadel jail, has entirely too much fun being the door bouncer, memories are had and even a couple one night stands can occur.

    You can play it fairly early on but it’s definitely meant to played right before you start the final mission.

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  18. Comment on How can I tell a woman that I'd rather wait to get to know them before having sex? in ~talk

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    That’s a reflection of their insecurities, not you. If they can’t respect that your desire to wait has nothing to do with them and simply your wish to get to know them first, then they are...

    That’s a reflection of their insecurities, not you.

    If they can’t respect that your desire to wait has nothing to do with them and simply your wish to get to know them first, then they are obviously not compatible with you.

    There is nothing wrong with being upfront and wanting sex. There is also nothing wrong with wanting to take it slow and get to know someone first

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  19. Comment on What is something that you learned/were taught wrong? in ~talk

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    I think you've put into words some things I've been internalizing and unable to articulate since I was 12...13 years old. When I first began questioning my self worth and coming to the conclusion...

    I think you've put into words some things I've been internalizing and unable to articulate since I was 12...13 years old. When I first began questioning my self worth and coming to the conclusion that myself wasn't worth much.

    It's never truly gone away and I've only somewhat been able to keep such thoughts and feelings at bay. On a good day, I never think about it.

    On a bad day, or most days, to be honest, it's there all the time. No matter what I'm doing, where I'm going, who I'm with.

    Case in point, my job. I'm a 911 dispatcher. In less than 2 years, 2 3/4 if you count my training time, I've gone from bottom of the barrel rookie to becoming a training officer, member of the Tactical Dispatch team, nominated for Dispatcher of the Year, and was asked if I would consider interviewing for a recently open supervisor position.

    But I regularly denigrate myself to my boss and coworkers. Part of it is my sense of humor. I'm very self deprecating. Always have been and, objectively, I acknowledge it's a byproduct of my raising. But I often just genuinely feel like I'm terrible at my job. The evidence says otherwise. But I genuinely believe it and every little mistake is magnified when viewed through my "own worst enemy" lens.

    I didn't want to be a training officer because I didn't feel like I was experienced or good enough to do it. I told them I wouldn't consider interviewing for the supervisor position unless I was literally the last option available for the same reasons.

    I regularly turn down invites to go out with friends and begrudgingly go out to dinner with my girlfriend. Not because I don't want to be out with her. I just don't want to be out at all.

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  20. Comment on Would anyone like to learn Spanish with me? in ~talk

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    There are dozens of us! Literally dozens!

    There are dozens of us! Literally dozens!

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