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  1. Comment on How my life changed with ADHD medication in ~life

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    I honestly have no idea whether or not the Adderall does anything anymore. I don't have the best memory, and I don't really pay attention to myself well enough to notice gradual change. I've been...

    I honestly have no idea whether or not the Adderall does anything anymore. I don't have the best memory, and I don't really pay attention to myself well enough to notice gradual change. I've been on 30mg for probably 2 years now after trying basically every other add medication to no effect. At this point, if I told my psych I don't think the Adderall is doing anything for me, there isn't really anything else I could try, as far as I know. It took me a good couple months to get to Adderall.

    Having a doctor/money isn't the issue; I've got good insurance and I regularly see my psych. If there's anything my Adderall has changed about me, it's really hard for me to see it. Everything pales in comparison to those first few days on the meds. After that wore off, I basically felt no different from before I started taking the meds. If they do have an effect, it must be pretty miniscule at this point. I have considered going off the Adderall to see if I can tell the difference then, but I'm not in a good position in my life to play with my brain like that right now. Mainly, I just wanted to see if anyone in this thread had a similar experience in the hopes they'd share their resolution with me. I'm at a bit of an impasse to this end. Thank you, though

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  2. Comment on How my life changed with ADHD medication in ~life

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    That's awesome to hear! Always nice hearing success stories from fellow dopamine starved comrades. I started Adderall after running the whole gamut of them and it was the only thing that actually...

    That's awesome to hear! Always nice hearing success stories from fellow dopamine starved comrades. I started Adderall after running the whole gamut of them and it was the only thing that actually did something for me. Just like you described, for the first three days I felt truly alive. No doubts, no executive dysfunction, every little task was no longer a Sisyphean effort.

    Then after about 3 days, it reigned itself wayyy in. Truth be told, most days I can't tell if the improvements I've made are due to the medication, or if I've just bolstered my mental fortitude a little as I've gotten older and now have my fiance to keep me accountable. At this point, though, I'm too afraid to test that theory by weaning myself off the meds. Who knows if what little effect they may or may not be having is load-bearing, lol. I've never stopped thinking about those first few days, though. Makes me wonder if that was the literal methamphetamine doing what methamphetamine seems to do best, or if that was truly myself free of the mental shackles placed on me. It's hard to put into words just how depressing that experience was for me.

    Sorry to trauma dump - I rarely get the opportunity to have talks like this with people. Thank you for sharing your experience. It gives me hope

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  3. Comment on Will Microsoft want to introduce a subscription fee to their Windows OS in the future? in ~tech

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    It is a pretty wild claim, for sure. It just lines up with how popular subscription based services are getting these days. Just gives me some pause

    It is a pretty wild claim, for sure. It just lines up with how popular subscription based services are getting these days. Just gives me some pause

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  4. Comment on Will Microsoft want to introduce a subscription fee to their Windows OS in the future? in ~tech

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    Wow, that may actually push me to learn Linux. The enshittification enshittifies more and more each day

    Wow, that may actually push me to learn Linux. The enshittification enshittifies more and more each day

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  5. Comment on Valve's next game may have just leaked / Deadlock appears to be a multiplayer hero shooter that combines elements of Overwatch, Valorant, and Dota 2 in ~games

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    Adding MOBA features hardly differentiates it from any class-based team shooter, IMO. They don't play differently enough to not feel the same to me. Valorant is just CSGO and Overwatch is just...

    Adding MOBA features hardly differentiates it from any class-based team shooter, IMO. They don't play differently enough to not feel the same to me. Valorant is just CSGO and Overwatch is just TF2. This new game would just be... Battleborn?

  6. Comment on Valve's next game may have just leaked / Deadlock appears to be a multiplayer hero shooter that combines elements of Overwatch, Valorant, and Dota 2 in ~games

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    Yeesh. Here I was hoping their next project would be something, I dunno, not derivative? Adding more clutter to an already oversaturated genre? But most importantly, I'd hoped it'd be something I...

    Yeesh. Here I was hoping their next project would be something, I dunno, not derivative? Adding more clutter to an already oversaturated genre? But most importantly, I'd hoped it'd be something I would have had even the slightest desire to play. Hope that's not the only thing they have cooking

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  7. Comment on One Punch Man Season 3 in production in ~anime

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    And just like that, my hopes have been thoroughly dashed

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    And just like that, my hopes have been thoroughly dashed

    5 votes

  8. Comment on What have you been listening to this week? in ~music

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    Nice! That's also a pretty relevant album for you.

    Nice! That's also a pretty relevant album for you.

    3 votes

  9. Comment on Gen Z and millennials proudly wear ‘lab-grown’ diamonds, oblivious to the fact they’re made from burning coal in China and India in ~enviro

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    I definitely caught that vibe reading through it, even without digging deeper into names. They started droning on about how the verisimilitude of lab grown diamonds is a direct analogue for the...

    I definitely caught that vibe reading through it, even without digging deeper into names. They started droning on about how the verisimilitude of lab grown diamonds is a direct analogue for the foundation of a relationship and my first thought was "oh, it's just diamond mining companies huffing copium". You put it much more eloquently though haha

    7 votes

  10. Comment on Anime is going digital. Fans are wary. in ~anime

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    I've softened up a bit on 3DCG anime. Used to hate it as my only experience with it had been godawful time/money-saving 3D renders in 2D anime. But two shows had impressed me: Beastars and...

    I've softened up a bit on 3DCG anime. Used to hate it as my only experience with it had been godawful time/money-saving 3D renders in 2D anime. But two shows had impressed me: Beastars and Dorehedoro. Highly recommend these two, especially Dorohedoro. Such a strange series.

    12 votes

  11. Comment on What do you do when you feel like nothing? in ~talk

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    Think you may just be depressed, friend. I experience that same thing all the time. I never know what to do really, when it happens. Sometimes playing a game outside my comfort zone or forcing...

    Think you may just be depressed, friend. I experience that same thing all the time. I never know what to do really, when it happens. Sometimes playing a game outside my comfort zone or forcing myself to learn/play a song on guitar helps me push through it, but sometimes nothing really helps the general anhedonia. In cases like that, I've learned that it's okay for me to have done basically nothing all day; I'll watch youtube videos all day or even take a nap. I don't think it's so bad to have a day full of nothing. Maybe your brain needs it.

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  12. Comment on What games have you been playing, and what's your opinion on them? in ~games

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    I've been enjoying the hell outta that cute little game, too. I love that zybellium and perk points are very finite resources, and you really have to lean into a certain niche if you want to go...

    I've been enjoying the hell outta that cute little game, too. I love that zybellium and perk points are very finite resources, and you really have to lean into a certain niche if you want to go far. You can absolutely make a bad build if you spend zybellium on the wrong thing or take a perk point that doesn't benefit you. Still can't get past compression tier 8 lol

    3 votes

  13. Comment on Mark Zuckerberg is building a top-secret compound in Hawai'i in ~life

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    Nah it was more that the rich person in question building bunkers grew up in a country wherein they are the majority. Absence of conflict/personal growth seem like it would make the person in...

    Nah it was more that the rich person in question building bunkers grew up in a country wherein they are the majority. Absence of conflict/personal growth seem like it would make the person in question create conflict or create aggressors

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  14. Comment on Mark Zuckerberg is building a top-secret compound in Hawai'i in ~life

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    I suppose I should ditch the racial tinge and just say that mainly I believe that when you live in a vacuum/bubble as the ultra rich do, they seem to create conflict possibly as a means to cope...

    I suppose I should ditch the racial tinge and just say that mainly I believe that when you live in a vacuum/bubble as the ultra rich do, they seem to create conflict possibly as a means to cope with ennui and paranoia bunkers seems to be the outlet

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  15. Comment on Mark Zuckerberg is building a top-secret compound in Hawai'i in ~life

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    Maybe experiencing actual prejudice and attacks on their selves prevent the manifestation of baseless paranoia? That's my running theory

    Maybe experiencing actual prejudice and attacks on their selves prevent the manifestation of baseless paranoia? That's my running theory

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  16. Comment on New job quandary in ~life

  17. Comment on New job quandary in ~life

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    Felt like I'd update you. Just sent HR my job rejection email. To have been lied to the way I was honestly makes me sick. My hair is important to me and I'm sure there are plenty of other...

    Felt like I'd update you. Just sent HR my job rejection email. To have been lied to the way I was honestly makes me sick. My hair is important to me and I'm sure there are plenty of other positions where nobody will give a damn about my long hair. Thank you for your cynicism; it made me realize I need to value myself sometimes.

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  18. Comment on New job quandary in ~life

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    No compensation whatsoever. Just drafted up my job decline email. Got told on two occasions that my hair was okay, and then suddenly it wasn't. I didn't grow my hair our for 4 years just because I...

    No compensation whatsoever. Just drafted up my job decline email. Got told on two occasions that my hair was okay, and then suddenly it wasn't. I didn't grow my hair our for 4 years just because I thought it would be funny. Shit's important to me. I can only hope I'll be able to find another opportunity

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  19. Comment on New job quandary in ~life

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    Duly noted! Much appreciated :)

    Duly noted! Much appreciated :)

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  20. Comment on New job quandary in ~life

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    I'll definitely look into some nearby community colleges and see if they're offering cert courses. Maybe talk to an advisor or something if I settle on one. Not too sure how it all works haha....

    I'll definitely look into some nearby community colleges and see if they're offering cert courses. Maybe talk to an advisor or something if I settle on one. Not too sure how it all works haha. Thank you!

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