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    1. indie rock musician james bay taught me a lot about deception.

      ESKEETIT ESKEETIT ESKEETIT ESKEEEETIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT i like to save this wiine for special occasions because shit's a german specialty that i like to share with people but i only really talk to...

      ESKEETIT

      ESKEETIT

      ESKEETIT

      ESKEEEETIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT

      i like to save this wiine for special occasions because shit's a german specialty that i like to share with people but i only really talk to one other person in this whole fuuuuucking state so i spent it all on me.

      out here wildin rn

      i aint posted a new piece in a week(ish) so im doing two

      but i post "qulaity" so im okay riiiiiight?

      dont @ me if u aint catch tha links

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytVww5r4Nk0

      https://i.imgur.com/LKIwWHa.png

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2p09lM19FpU this here song issssss

      BIG MOOD

      IMMA PLAY DEPRESSING
      MUSIC TIL YOU
      COME AND
      HOLD ME

      WENT AND BUILT A COFFIN
      BUT I KEEP ON DRILL-
      ING HOLES TO
      BREATHE

      IN HOPES I'LL SEE A PIGEON
      WITH A NOTE THAT YOU
      WROTE ON IT'S
      FEET

      SAYING THAT YOU'RE SORRY
      WE FUCKED UP AND
      YOU'LL COME HOME
      TO ME

      -.

      DOPAMINE
      UNKNOWN TO ME
      BLACK AND WHITE
      A KEATON SCENE

      THERMOS FULL
      OF KEROSENE
      XANNY ON
      DELIVERY

      "DADDY WILL YOU
      CARE FOR ME?"
      I TRIED YOU WERE
      NOT THERE FOR ME

      SAW MY GRANDAD
      BARELY BREATHE AND
      THEN YOU TURNED
      ABANDONED ME

      -.

      SORDID SCENES IN
      SPOILED DREAMS WHEN
      I THINK THAT YOU'VE
      COME ON BACK

      BRAIN AT REST I
      FEEL MY FISTS
      AS THEY POUND HARD
      AGAINST THE BED

      FUCK A LABEL
      DON'T CARE IF
      IT'S ABUSE, I
      WANT IT BACK

      ASKED ME IF
      I'LL MISS YOU
      HOLY FUCK I GUESS
      I GOT IT BAD.

      -.-.-.-.-.-.-.

      FROM WALKIN' HOME
      AND TALKIN' LOADS
      TO NO MORE CALLS
      LIVING ALONE

      TO TEETH AND CLAWS
      AND FRACTURED BONES
      TO TOTALED CARS
      AND BROKEN HOMES

      LET IT GO
      LET IT GO
      DON'T HOLD BACK THE RIVER
      LET IT FLOW

      #DRAINGANG

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CgvdbbuMQ_k

      haha i'm really okay

      3 votes
    2. unawake no escape . i whisper secrets to sedate .

      FUCCCCCCCCCCCC IT WE DRUNK AGAIN WE OUT HERE GEN Z PAINN VIBIN *#BIGMOOD* dont @ me if u aint catch tha links https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShI6axFfqj4 https://i.imgur.com/LKIwWHa.png...

      FUCCCCCCCCCCCC IT WE DRUNK AGAIN

      WE OUT HERE GEN Z PAINN VIBIN

      *#BIGMOOD*

      dont @ me if u aint catch tha links

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShI6axFfqj4

      https://i.imgur.com/LKIwWHa.png

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DjhJ_Sv0MlI

      ich schlaf'
      auf einem Bett
      das ich aus Stein
      gemacht hab'

      ich schließe
      fest die augen
      aber finde keine
      Schaffe

      einfach nur
      das Mädel das
      hat mich früher
      verlassen

      dann klebt mein arm
      in der erde ein
      um mich zu
      begraben

      -.

      ich hab an
      sie gelacht und
      sie sieht mich
      an mit Hass

      ich hämmert auf'm
      Nachttisch
      bis ich wurde
      aufgewacht

      dann fragte ich
      an Gott warum
      ich denke immer
      krass

      Hände in die
      Taschen, lauf'
      alleine auf'm
      Strass

      ich möchte kein mehr
      Weihnachten,
      ob sie nicht an
      mir sagt:

      -.

      Schätzi, guten
      Morgen und
      mich küsste auf'm
      Hals

      Ja ich
      möchte Kaffee
      ja ich lieb' dich
      ebenfalls

      "Liebe macht das
      Heim" hat sie auf
      unserem Wand
      gemalt

      lustig, dass sie
      nicht mehr ruft
      mich an oder
      mich halt

      -.
      ?
      i dreamed
      of you
      with angered eyes,
      a gaze that
      filled with hate

      i felt my arm
      beat on my dresser
      'til i did awake

      a soft and shaky
      soul succumbed to rub
      against the grate

      life has been for nothing since february eighth.\

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KvlGMCVGkQA

      6 votes
    3. Haiku is not Senryu!

      Today I had to leave a social site group dedicated to original Haiku poetry from its members. I enjoy the format and structure, and find hard not to get whiskers flying when people violate either...

      Today I had to leave a social site group dedicated to original Haiku poetry from its members. I enjoy the format and structure, and find hard not to get whiskers flying when people violate either or both. Everyone in the group was posting maligned content. Haiku is strictly about nature. Insult to injury was their improper use of structure. The first two lines are a fluid combination of thought. The third is a separate observation tied to the first two. Everyone was making all three lines what would be a single sentence if punctuation was included, like this:

      land gives way to sea’s
      constant struggle where they clash
      yet life strives to be

      This is a Hailku, as I have come to understand based on teachings and learned poets:

      milky morning fog
      smothers inner forest realm
      doe rests peacefully

      Many were posting what they must have thought was Haiku, but was in fact Senryu (theme based on human feelings and condition) :

      moonlight shimmers bright
      across the pond’s smooth stillness
      a peace flows through me

      Granted, there is still international debate over the rules and intent of the Japanese art of Haiku. Most American poets agree with the 5-7-5 English language syllable count, the last line distant but related by theme to the first two lines, and that they be strictly about nature.

      So look, we've all heard of Grammar Nazis, relating to nitpicking and over-zealous protection of grammatical structure in written content. In this case, I'm addressing the simplest structured form of modern poetry in use. Three freakin' lines. Seriously, shouldn't Haiku be composed correctly, like any other form of structured poetry?

      10 votes
    4. National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) is only two months away!

      Each November hundreds of thousands of writers attempt a 50,000-word novel in thirty days. Results vary, but it's a ton of concentrated writing and storytelling practice and always a blast,...

      Each November hundreds of thousands of writers attempt a 50,000-word novel in thirty days. Results vary, but it's a ton of concentrated writing and storytelling practice and always a blast, especially if you're in a region with meet-ups. More information at nanowrimo.org.

      Is anyone here participating? This will be my fourth year (after a good ten-year break) and my third as a Municipal Liaison (regional coordinator) setting up events in coffee shops and libraries. Are you already planning what you'll write, or just letting inspiration strike on the first? Any great tales from years past?

      15 votes
    5. dripdripdrip

      tu sais qui c'est alright so the fuck is up with you people!? did y'all see my last post up here got like eighteen votes? that's crazy! that's one of the best-received things i've posted on...

      tu sais qui c'est

      alright so the fuck is up with you people!? did y'all see my last post up here got like eighteen votes?

      that's crazy! that's one of the best-received things i've posted on tildes, just, overall lmao.

      glad to see my sober stuff can be decent competition to my drunk stuff.

      on that, i pretty much don't drink on my own anymore (i mean some wine with dinner blah blah) but like drink ya feel?

      if i'm at a kickback i'm always down to get fucked up, but coming out of this sober week i kinda restructured how i'm using stuff now.

      like i used to try using kratom to get high p often and discovered that that's a shite idea. i just got all wirey and had stomach aches lol.

      however just a little bit (~0.75g) in some tea is small enough to avoid any side effects and big enough to work as a solid mood regulator.

      much to my discontent this just isn't the kinda thing you take recreationally (the whole reason i picked it up to begin with), but it does definitely boost your mood up like 30x, boost your self confidence, and even help you get some good sleep (if you're sipping red vein varieties.)

      i was feeling like a lazy piece of shit (y'know as usual), sipped my tea, and ended up knee-deep in this udemy course for electron apps (building desktop apps like skype or something), made a solid breakfast, wrote this here ditty, and played like 3 hours of risk of rain. (gotta be lazy somewhere i guess.)

      anyway this isn't a blog.

      i had a weird concept for this piece and i'm not sure if it came through at all lmao. this was done in maybe 30 minutes.

      let me know if you can guess what the piece is describing.

      cheers,

      bishop.


      <poem>

      drip
      drip

      there's water on the
      floor, so don't

      slip
      slip

      shake your head,
      try to catch a

      grip
      grip

      drowning in your
      dreams, your legs

      kick
      kick

      bags under your
      eyes, you're looking

      sick
      sick

      .

      try to move your
      hand but you cant

      feel
      it

      she wants to cuddle
      up in your bed

      but
      it's

      made of steel and
      you can't seem to

      budge
      it

      staring up in-
      to a funnel

      what's
      this?


      oh the autumn sounds
      raining patters on the ground
      i wake up with a jolt
      on every time you come around

      and you never text to
      let me know before the fact
      i'm second guessing every minute
      tryna find out when you're at

      now we're laying back,
      looking straight into your eyes
      wonder if the next thing you say
      will be a goodbye

      your silence is a lie
      your crying leaves me mortified
      let me go, let me go,
      fuck, got water in my eyes.


      drip
      drip

      drip drip

      drip

      drip

      d..
      .

      .

      drip
      drip

      drip
      drip

      there's water on the
      floor, so don't

      slip
      slip

      shake your head,
      try to catch a

      grip
      grip

      drowning in your
      dreams, your legs

      kick
      kick

      bags under your
      eyes, you're looking

      sick
      sick

      .

      try to move your
      hand but you cant

      feel
      it

      she wants to cuddle
      up in your bed

      but
      it's

      made of steel and
      you can't seem to

      budge
      it

      staring up in-
      to a funnel

      what's
      this?


      </poem>

      (p.s. fuck yeah canada.)

      5 votes
    6. seriously tho stop touching venus fly traps it hurts them.

      post-mortem: holy actual beans dudes this is my most popular post by far! what'd you cats like about it so much? i swear to god my brain and body work in tandom to make sure i never actually do...

      post-mortem: holy actual beans dudes this is my most popular post by far! what'd you cats like about it so much?

      i swear to god my brain and body work in tandom to make sure i never actually do anything productive.

      i came to starbucks exclusively to work on some backend stuff for a project i've got, and i've spent the last hour sipping coffee, watching Joji music videos, and writing this lmao.

      i wish there was something like cocaine that wasn't, well, cocaine, that you could take and then you'd be like "hey maybe i should clean my room. hey it's a nice day out i should take a walk. ya know if i get work done now, i can actually take a break without feeling like lazy trash later on!"

      actually

      that sounds like weed.

      i need to move to a legal state lmao.

      but in order to do that i gotta get better at programming so i can actually get a car (ya fucked up, bishop) and get a new place.

      catch-22's are like so literally my favorite thing (:

      anyway this isn't even the poem lmao i'm just sober ranting at the internet.

      esskeetiiiiiit

      <poem>

      there's this
      black hole lingers
      'round every corner.

      obscure sounds
      dark haze,
      and no borders

      it looms near,
      strikes fear
      when it's closer

      heart runs,
      hands shake,
      i get colder.

      /

      sometimes
      i get close
      take a peek in

      low growl
      sounds loud
      gotta feed it

      audrey
      she's hungry
      when you're bleeding

      jumped in-
      to my blood
      i'm her beacon

      /

      now i can't shake
      this damned desire, god
      i think i gotta call her

      am i safer when she's
      gone? she's in my dreams
      do i still love her?

      my best friend is
      mad, the shit i do
      only appalls her.

      the pit, it's in my
      stomach, god i
      feel it getting stronger.

      /

      audrey

      audrey

      keep the peace, please.

      audrey

      audrey

      play my heart strings.

      you told me to

      obey you baby,

      you control me.

      audrey

      lay me

      to rest in peace

      </poem>

      bishop

      (p.s. i noticed that there always seems to be a vote on my post like the second after i post my poetry shit. whoever you are you're cute af and i love you ok)

      19 votes
    7. jetpack like spy kids

      my head is aching, day four in sobriety. is it the drugs or every- thing that runs about my dreams all the people in my night- mares never let me sleep. my angry father, my old lover, or my...

      my head is aching,
      day four in sobriety.
      is it the drugs or every-
      thing that runs about my dreams
      all the people in my night-
      mares never let me sleep.
      my angry father, my old
      lover, or my mother's screams.

      i go to bed at noon
      and i wake up at three.
      no power left, make some coffee
      just whatever's cheap.
      folgers tastes like cigarettes,
      a cup of apathy.
      wanna sleep inside a noose
      on a dramatic tree.*

      eyes on gucci cus
      they're catching bags
      they're getting dark, like the
      stones came, painted them black
      i wanna move to where the dems are at.
      to the palm trees and the medicine.

      i fantasize about a booked flight,
      goodbyes, and a packed bag.
      fresh check, laptop,
      in my backpack
      new friends, new home,
      and a black lab.
      but that's all in the clouds
      and my drugs are a jetpack.

      but now i'm sober
      and i'm jetlagged.
      and now she's back
      turning my dreams bad
      woke up, aching head,
      and a hurting back.
      dig in my closet
      for a white bag.

      if i'm lucky it's a heart attack.


      • this line isn't mine, wish it was though, i love how self-aware it is when it comes to the hyperdramatic bullshit i always write. would love to write some more stuff in this style.

      oddly enough, it's from a game grumps episode of super mario galaxy lmao

      maybe adding that and fixing the meter in these. i feel like the meter in my sober stuff is really jumpy - i can hear the different parts in my head but i don't think im piecing them together well.

      4 votes
    8. Analyzing a drunken mind.

      have i ever done post-drunken poetry before? i've got to be breaking some sort of rule with the amount i've been spamming this site over the last four hours. I'm gonna go make breakfast and take a...

      have i ever done post-drunken poetry before?

      i've got to be breaking some sort of rule with the amount i've been spamming this site over the last four hours.

      I'm gonna go make breakfast and take a few days away to compensate.

      sorry. thanks for listening.

      much love


      i woke up after
      three hours of sleep
      took a look around my room
      and everything was tinted green
      had a sobering reminder about
      why i shouldn't drink
      i get caught up in the moment
      and try too hard not to think.

      i'd do anything to go numb,
      i'm afraid of that side of me.
      it's hard, i hate myself
      when in the middle of sobriety.
      the room is tinted yellow as
      the sunlight slips in quietly
      i'm at a fork in the road,
      man, i gotta choose carefully.

      to the left a road of headaches,
      heartache, a masochistic fantasy
      take everything the hard way.
      drunken, spinning memories
      thinking of the good days,
      accepting they're behind you
      and your options won't change.
      you're numb but somehow bitter
      life is shorter, and it starts to fade.

      off right a path of effort and torment,
      pushing through the years of shit
      that you drink just to forget.
      the subtle kisses on your forehead
      are bullets of a war chest
      you're naked and afraid and
      your perspective's all distorted
      tryna shake your obsession with the morbid
      it's been about a year since you last felt worth it.

      and say you choose the better
      of the two, here's the evil thing.
      the second road is always there,
      quiet, calm, and glistening.
      internal scars and all the
      hurt will start to dissipate
      just share another secret,
      close your eyes, and disintegrate

      you're still quite young,
      there's time to do the right thing.
      maybe depression in aesthetic
      isn't really worth you dying
      and you won't find steady love
      by telling everyone you're crying
      that just attracts the broken, you
      need something solid and inspiring
      to all of you who noticed,
      heard my wishes and my wailing

      i'll switch to water, hope
      that better starts prevailing

      3 votes
    9. solitude

      idgaf we going two in one day. ban me if my shit's annoying, just give me my posts first. 's all i ask. i know a lot of the shit i write is blunt. i know a lot of it is too straight-forward for...

      idgaf we going two in one day. ban me if my shit's annoying, just give me my posts first. 's all i ask.

      i know a lot of the shit i write is blunt.

      i know a lot of it is too straight-forward for people to be comfortable with.

      i honestly don't care.

      i don't write for them.

      i write for my sanity.

      i want my words to be your drug.

      more drunken poetry.

      god bless those who support. you keep me here. i'm glad you enjoy my works and i hope, at the very least, i help you find catharsis or explore a morbid curiosity into the lives of the damned.

      i am here for you. i am an example.


      from dust we're built,
      and to ash we fall
      wanna get so high, that
      i can't move at all.
      turns out her secret
      was xan all along
      i need some harder shit
      just to push me along

      never thought that love
      was really a drug
      that was just some dumb
      shit they'd say in the songs
      but now it's done, you're
      gone, and i'm having withdrawals
      i'm getting into drugs and
      i'm carving my arms

      and you couldn't give a fuck,
      you never call
      guess all of those years
      didn't matter at all
      all the shit we went through
      can suffer the fall
      so why am i even here,
      or breathing at all.

      had me in a trance, girl
      i was under your spell
      every command, on
      my knees i knelt
      really suicidal, that's the
      hand i was dealt.
      kiss me on my scars, i
      think it's sexy as hell

      the only thing that turns
      me on - facades of real love
      so if you're tryna lure me
      in, give me a real hug.
      pull me close, give a kiss,
      that's the best drugs
      need you to take the
      breath out of my lungs

      fuck. i want to die.

      "i'd still blow my brains out just for you"

      9 votes
    10. High Flight

      Oh! I have slipped the surly bonds of earth, And danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings; Sunward I've climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth Of sun-split clouds, — and done a hundred things...

      Oh! I have slipped the surly bonds of earth,
      And danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings;
      Sunward I've climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth
      Of sun-split clouds, — and done a hundred things
      You have not dreamed of — Wheeled and soared and swung
      High in the sunlit silence. Hov'ring there
      I've chased the shouting wind along, and flung
      My eager craft through footless halls of air...
      Up, up the long, delirious, burning blue
      I've topped the wind-swept heights with easy grace
      Where never lark or ever eagle flew —
      And, while with silent lifting mind I've trod
      The high untrespassed sanctity of space,
      Put out my hand, and touched the face of God.
      ---By John Gillespie Magee Jr

      6 votes
    11. I have a friend with a secret.

      hey you, reading the text sample on the homepage. open this. read the whole thing. god i remember why i write when im drunk. i'm back #bishop babyyyyyyyyyy i've got a little friend with an even...

      hey you, reading the text sample on the homepage. open this. read the whole thing.

      god i remember why i write when im drunk. i'm back
      #bishop babyyyyyyyyyy

      i've got a little friend
      with an even smaller secret
      she entrusted it in me
      and i don't know if i can keep it.
      i've got a little friend
      who told me a little secret
      it's the best i've ever heard
      my god i wish i could relive it


      she asked me
      do you trust me?
      as rain poured down on the window

      .

      i replied honey
      would you hurt me?
      'course not, i didn't think so.

      .

      and we laid back
      here it fades black
      a few things i can't tell you.

      .

      you'd be angry
      try to stop me
      don't wanna know what things came to

      .

      but we laid there
      sipping night air
      as the rain fell, room was candlelit

      .

      she felt a little-bittle afraid.
      are you okay?
      i promise you i can handle it.

      .

      she laid back, she said alright
      i hope that you're right
      don't wanna send you scrambling

      .

      then she got close,
      told me a secret
      my god i felt outstanding


      i've got a little friend
      with an even smaller secret
      she entrusted it in me
      and i don't know if i can keep it.
      i've got a little friend
      who told me a little secret
      it's the best i've ever heard
      my god i wish i could relive it

      (oh my god)

      i've got a little friend
      with an even smaller secret
      she trusted me with it, by-
      god i can barely believe it
      i've got a little friend
      with an itty-bitty secret
      god i never knew that
      i would come to need it


      then she made me promise
      that i wouldn't go and spread
      the word about my findings

      .

      said she'd be upset with me
      and told me all these nasty things
      about what she would do to me

      .

      i gotta tan baby with
      a little white secret
      ......can you believe it

      ....
      ....
      ..my god i can't believe it

      .

      .

      WHISPERS IN THE DARK

      WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE A PLAYGROUND

      NOW YOU WENT AND GOT IT BAD

      WENT POKEMON AND WHITED OUT

      YOU GOT A GOOD FRIEND

      SHE GAVE YOU A SECRET

      I'VE NEVER MET SOMEBODY WEAKER

      HOW THE HELL COULDN'T YOU KEEP IT


      i've got a little friend
      with an even smaller secret
      she entrusted it in me
      and i don't know if i can keep it.
      i've got a little friend
      who told me a little secret
      it's the best i've ever heard
      my god i wish i could relive it

      .

      i dont know why i even try to write sober lmao.i cant wait to move to a legal state and just stay crossfaded 24/7.

      imagine the shit i'll come up with.

      making my own music. putting my heart in the lyivs, actually being able to record.

      you lot might actually be able to hear one of these "peoms" put to music

      14 votes
    12. Scourge (a Codex short story)

      I've seen the occasional poetry thread, but I thought I would post some more traditional writing. This short story is background lore for my ongoing web serial, Codex, which takes place a thousand...

      I've seen the occasional poetry thread, but I thought I would post some more traditional writing. This short story is background lore for my ongoing web serial, Codex, which takes place a thousand years after these events.


      The research team looked like ants in the scry-screen, crawling around the laboratory as they completed the ritual’s final steps. When the spell was powered on, it let out a brief flash of brilliant orange light that made Tarrel wince and shade his eyes. The ants milled about as if their hill had just been kicked over, swarming this way and that, huddling over the piece of enchanted metal.

      Tarrel stood up and left the viewing room. Renna looked up as he entered the laboratory and waved him over, a broad smile on her face. She held out her hand, offering him a bracelet made from some shiny metal; it looked like two flat chains had been woven together into a thin, knotted band. “Is that the eternium?” Tarrel asked. “Why a bracelet, and not a sword or spear?”

      Renna stepped away from the five other people as an argument developed over one of the experimental readings. “It’s a gift.” She gave him an impish grin. “You’re allowed to enjoy the fruits of your labor, you know.”

      The eternium was slick against his skin, as if it had been greased, and it had a mirror-perfect reflective surface that threw the bright overhead lights back into his eyes. He angled it away from him and stared at the gleaming metal, trying to dredge up the appropriate emotion, as if he could summon it into being by sheer willpower.

      Logically, it should have been easy -- he had all the pieces: a beautiful girlfriend (if occasionally annoying), a prestigious research position, and a talent for magic that made most other wizards look like fumbling idiots. And of course, he was a Raal, entitled to all the benefits that came with higher civilization: immortality (or a very long life anyway), near-absolute freedom to do as he pleased (as long as that didn’t impinge on others’ freedoms), safety (from physical harm). Any non-Raal would kill to be where he was, and it was a safe bet that most Raal who knew him were at least a little envious of his status. But happiness, like an improperly drawn ritual, refused to manifest… and all Tarrel could feel was a bleak sense of anticlimactic fatigue as he looked into the shiny mirrored surface.

      Renna moved closer and touched his arm. “Hey. What is it?”

      He forced a smile onto his face and slid the bracelet onto his wrist. “Nothing.” The rest of the team was gathered around an Aether screen. Part of Tarrel wanted to join them, plunge back into the soothing distraction of work, but all at once he couldn’t stand the thought of doing so. He turned back to Renna, forcing the words through numb lips. “Let’s go out together.”

      They could have taken a teleportation circle or a flier, but Tarrel wanted to walk so they strolled the floating streets of Ur-Dormoth together. It was nighttime, but the walkways were all lit with bright white mage-bulbs. Aircraft hummed overhead, like gigantic wingless insects, disappearing into the night as they left the city.

      “Ever been to a mite city?” Tarrel asked as they walked.

      “No.”

      “I have,” Tarrel said. He brooded for a moment, staring out at Ur-Dormoth, sprawled across the clouds like a tangled pile of glittering lace. “They’re cramped, and squalid, and they stink of death. It’s like being in a corpse.”

      Renna shrugged, seemingly unconcerned by the fate of however many millions of less fortunate people lived on the land below them. “Why do you bring it up?”

      “I don’t know,” Tarrel said. “Have you ever wanted something and really worked for it, only to find that once you had it, you didn’t want it anymore?”

      “I’m not sure I understand,” Renna said. “Why would you work for something you don’t want?”

      Tarrel sighed. “Never mind.”

      They went to the Eyrie, where Tarrel tried to look interested in the menu before giving up and ordering at random. The food arrived a few minutes later, looking decadent and delicious: creamy soup, flower-shaped pastries, a platter of fried onions. Tarrel ate mechanically, doing his best to appear as if he was enjoying it, but all he could think about was the emptiness he felt inside.

      “How’s the food?” Renna asked.

      Tarrel glanced at the pale white soup he was eating and tried to decide what to say. “It’s good.”

      Renna leaned back in her chair. “I knew you would like it.”

      “How long do you think it’ll be before we can start mass-producing the eternium?”

      Renna blinked, caught off guard by the sudden change in topic. “A few more weeks? Once we do, the applications are immense.” Her eyes were practically glowing with excitement. “What would it be like to live in a tower taller than the highest mountain?”

      Tarrel stirred his soup, wishing he could share her energetic happiness. “That’s a long way to fall.”

      Renna chuckled, a delicate sound like tinkling crystal chimes, and tossed her sleek white hair over her shoulder. “I’m sure they’ll have protective enchantments. It would be quite the scandal, to be the architect responsible for the first death in centuries.”

      “They don’t let you Merge,” Tarrel said, only half paying attention to the conversation.

      “What?”

      “Murder. If it’s deliberate, your thread is cut. No children.” Tarrel made a snipping motion with his free hand. “But if they think you meant to kill, then it’s a life for a life.”

      Renna stared at him. “How do you even know that?”

      Tarrel shrugged, already losing interest in the topic. “Memory spell.”

      “I’ve never heard of such a thing.”

      “It’s too difficult to cast for most people,” Tarrel said. Though that would change, if he ever got the framework functioning.

      “What’s the framework?” Renna asked.

      Tarrel realized he had spoken out loud. “Just a project I’ve been working on. You speak a command, and the framework casts the appropriate spell for you. All the power of a ritual, none of the difficulty.”

      “That seems pretty useful. How’s it going?”

      Tarrel blinked, not sure if he had heard her correctly. “Useful?” His lips twisted. “Nobody else seems to think it would be.”

      “Are you serious? The applications for research alone would be immense. Imagine never having to cast another scrying spell.”

      “They said it would be too inconvenient, or that the magic would lack power, or any of a hundred other excuses.”

      Renna reached across the table and put her hand on his. “It sounds amazing to me.” Tarrel met her eyes, searching for any hint of insincerity, but all he found was honest admiration. “Can I see it?”

      Tarrel shifted in his seat and looked away. “I, uh, sort of abandoned it. Nobody seemed to want it and I ran into some thorny problems, so it seemed like I was just wasting my time.”

      “Well take it out of storage! Don’t worry about them, once they see what it can do they’ll all change their mind. Your legacy would be etched in the stone of history, right up there with Elmar the Great and the Risen Kings.”

      Renna frowned and held up a hand to forestall his reply. “One moment. Someone’s trying to talk to me on the Way.”

      Tarrel watched, but Renna’s expression gave away little. Half a minute passed before she finished. “What was it?” Tarrel asked.

      “The research lab.” Renna’s face twisted in disgust. “Apparently they decided to run another batch of eternium, but someone messed up one of the protective spells.”

      “Oh,” Tarrel said. He knew he ought to say something more, but somehow he couldn’t bring himself to care about the fate of the researchers. If they couldn’t even cast a simple set of wards, they deserved what they got.

      “They’ll be fine,” Renna said, apparently mistaking his silence for concern. “At least as long as nobody screws up their healing magic too.” She hesitated, then stood up. “I’m sorry to cut this short, but I really ought to be there.”

      “It’s fine,” Tarrel said. “I’ll head back to my house. Maybe work on the framework some.”

      Renna smiled. “I still want to see it.”

      She walked over to the teleportation circle in the corner and activated it, vanishing with a soft pop. Tarrel was left in the deserted restaurant -- or not quite deserted. There was a man, washing the tables with a cloth. Tarrel watched him as he worked his way across the room, until he was near enough to talk to.

      “Why do you do that?” Tarrel asked.

      The man looked up. He had a rough, honest face. “Why not?”

      “You could let the golems do it. Or, if you wanted to make sure it was done properly, you could use magic. Why do it by hand?”

      “Sure. The golems would probably do it better than me, and a spell could do it faster and better. But that’s not the point. Haven’t you ever found pleasure in work?”

      Tarrel was on the point of saying no when he reconsidered, remembering all the times he had thrown himself head-on into inventing a new ritual or improving an old. “I suppose so. But my work isn’t something a golem can do and, when I’m done, I have something at the end.”

      The man chuckled. “And when I’m done wiping a table, I have a clean table.”

      “Only until someone comes in here and dirties it again,” Tarrel pointed out. He paused, struck by a sudden thought. Was that the problem, the reason for the hollowness all his achievements seemed to have? Even as one of the brightest researchers of the century, his name would inevitably be forgotten, in a hundred years, or a thousand, or ten thousand. But if he was able to create a new paradigm for magic… then he would be remembered.

      “If I’m still around, I’ll get to enjoy cleaning it again. If I’m not, well, like you said: the golems can do it better anyways.”

      Tarrel blinked, startled by the man’s voice. “Uh, right,” he said. He stood up. “I need to go.”

      He took the teleporter back to his house and went down to his private laboratory. White mage-bulbs flared on as he entered the spacious room, illuminating the Aether screen set into one wall and the stone floor, still etched with an old circle. He cleared it, resetting the solid granite slab to its original, perfectly smooth, state.

      Tarrel spent the rest of the night hunched over the Aether’s display, tweaking and changing the framework. Every so often, he would stand up and etch it into the granite floor with an eye-searing burst of brilliant orange light. Each time, the spell failed in a new, unexpected way, and Tarrel was sent back to the Aether to try to find the source of the problem.

      The days merged into weeks, which flowed into months. Tarrel enchanted himself with restorative spells so he didn’t have to eat or sleep. Such behavior was considered unhealthy by most people, but it wasn’t the first time Tarrel had lost himself to the grip of work, and he no longer cared if his friends whispered behind his back or shook his head when he wasn’t looking. Like Renna had said, they would change their mind soon enough.

      Renna knew enough to recognize the signs of Tarrel’s obsession, but she didn’t stop coming over to visit him. The door chimed regularly at noon every third day. They sat on one of Tarrel’s couches for ten or twenty minutes, talking until Tarrel could no longer keep himself away from the laboratory and made his excuses. For him, the time seemed one long hazy blur, interspersed only by slight, inching progress as obstacle after obstacle rose up to meet him and was defeated.

      Eight months later, Tarrel stood before the granite slab and powered up the latest spell. “Fire,” he said, envisioning the unlit torch in the corner igniting. He didn’t really expect anything to happen and was thus shocked when it erupted into orange flame. His hands trembled with excitement as he stood up and approached the crackling brand. Magic! By talking! At last, it was working.

      “Freeze,” Tarrel said. A chill swept over him as the torch’s flames guttered out. Water condensed on the blackened stump, then froze solid into a glittering sheen. A smile spread across his face and something warm and… happy rose inside him, like winter ice cracking and melting as summer approached. Renna’s words came back to him: Your legacy would be etched in the stone of history and he threw his head back, laughing.

      Further experimentation revealed that the framework had exceeded his wildest expectations. He refined the spell, reducing the energy it consumed and increasing its potency until at last, it was fit for use in a globalization ritual. Everyone in the world, if they had the basic training necessary to use magic at all, could now access the framework.

      Tarrel reached into the Way, calling for Renna. She responded at once, as if she had been waiting for him. What is it?

      Come to my house, Tarrel sent back. I have something to show you.

      He severed the telepathic link and stood up, unable to stop grinning. The eternium bracelet gleamed in the corner of the laboratory where he had tossed it and he went over and picked it up, turning it over in his hands. General Yenja had been excited about the eternium project. What would she think of the framework? But that was a matter for another time -- right now, he wanted to see Renna’s face when she saw what he had built. Tarrel slipped the bracelet onto his wrist and hurried up the stairs. Behind him, the mage-bulbs blinked out and the laboratory plunged into darkness.

      Renna knocked on the door several minutes later. Tarrel glanced at it. “Open the door,” he said.

      It swung aside, revealing a harried-looking Renna. “What is it?” she asked as she came inside.

      Tarrel grinned and pointed at a glass of water sitting on the table. “Watch this,” he said. “Freeze the water in that cup.”

      The surface of the water turned frosty and opaque, spreading downwards with a deep cracking sound. All at once, the glass shattered, spraying shards and chips everywhere. Tarrel jerked, surprised, then broke out into a laugh. “Sorry,” he said. “I should have been more specific in my wording.”

      Renna touched the solid cylinder of ice, setting it off into a lazy spin. It twirled across the table until Tarrel caught it with one hand. “How do you like it?” he said.

      “Impressive. Can I try?”

      “Sure. I put it in the Way, so you should be able to access it just by thinking about it.”

      Renna gestured at the ice in Tarrel’s hand. “Melt.”

      Nothing happened and Tarrel chuckled. “It takes some getting used to. Try starting to cast the spell normally, then use the framework.”

      “Melt.”

      This time, the frozen water turned warm and started to dissolve, gushing all over Tarrel’s hands. He tossed it back onto the table before it could soak his clothes. “Freeze.”

      Nothing happened and he gave Renna a rueful smile. “My mana cache is empty. I didn't even notice but I've been using the same one for all my research.”

      “Here.” Renna withdrew a fat diamond pendant from beneath her shirt and held it out to him. “Take mine.”

      “No,” Tarrel said. “I have a better idea.”

      He reached out with his mind, drawing on the inert mana present all around and concentrating a small amount of it, refining it into the potent stuff that was normally used for spells. Only a drop, just enough to kickstart the spell he had in mind. “Refine one nex’s worth of mana. Put it into my cache, then cast two copies of this spell, using mana from the cache.”

      It was the longest framework-boosted spell he had cast, but it went off without so much as a tug of mental effort. A thin trickle of mana pulsed through him, then died off as the spell became self-sustaining.

      “Did you just -- ”

      “That’s right,” Tarrel said. “I just revolutionized the mana collection industry.”

      Renna frowned. “Maybe you ought to slow down.”

      “Slow down? Why? I feel great.”

      “That’s because you’re using those invigoration spells.” Renna looked around. “Do you feel that?”

      It was an tingle, like an electric wind brushing over Tarrel’s skin. He reached into his pocket and pulled out the diamond cache, shielding his eyes as it began to glow an intense white. “Behold,” he said. “The future of the Raal.”

      Renna stared at the diamond. “That doesn’t look right. Your new spell -- ”

      “Not a new spell -- a new paradigm. For centuries, we have cast magic in essentially the same way. Spells have gotten better, thanks in large part to the tireless efforts of researchers like you, but it’s time for something different. Instead of engaging in a mental wrestling match, we shall simply give an order as if the magic is a servant.”

      “Your refinement spell has a -- ”

      Tarrel slammed his fist on the table. “Shut up!” The framework turned his order from wish into reality and he felt a sudden spike of shame. Using magic on a fellow Raal? What was he doing? But she wouldn’t see. He continued in a calmer voice. “It’s people like you who delayed this project by almost fifteen years. All that time, wasted.”

      He felt the pulse of magic as Renna broke through the framework’s silencing spell. “Listen to me,” she said. The urgency in her tone gave Tarrel pause. “That diamond is about to overload. It’s the same mistake you made with the ice.”

      Tarrel glanced at the incandescent diamond cube, mentally going over the wording he had used with the super-refinement spell. The same mistake he had made with the ice? The air around him felt… thin and weak, while the space around the cube seemed to shimmer and warp. What was going on? And then he got it.

      He stared at Renna, horrified. “Quick. Give me your cache.”

      He began the transfer spell, reverting to the more familiar mental casting in the moment of crisis. It was still incomplete when the cube exploded with a chiming sound that reverberated through his bones. Pain stabbed up Tarrel’s hand and he screamed, flailing around and spraying blood from his two missing fingers. Threads of orange refined mana flickered all around him like a hazy fog and the room dissolved into panic as the magic ran wild.

      Renna’s hair stood straight up. She had time for a single terrified scream before lightning discharged from her body. Bolts radiated out in every direction, crackling and splitting the air apart, disintegrating her body into hot black flakes. Some of them landed on Tarrel’s face and he stumbled back, staring at the black scorch marks on the floor.

      Tarrel’s weight vanished all at once and he floated off the ground, crashing into the ceiling before gravity reasserted itself and threw him back to the floor. The awful ringing of the broken cube continued to echo through the room, growing in strength instead of fading. It tore through his head as he wrapped his ruined hand in his shirt and sprinted for the door -- only to have the space in front of him warp and elongate. The door receded away, until it was like he was looking down a long corridor.

      The first rips began to appear, fuelled by the still-continuing refinement spell as it pumped refined mana into the shards of the diamond cube. It was as if reality was a sheet of glass, fracturing and splitting. Black cracks shot through the room as the chiming hammered through Tarrel’s body. They began to glow, dim white at first, then growing in strength. They pulsed. Flickered. And as Tarrel’s hand reached for the door handle, they exploded.

      Pure, white light surged out into the city, spilling from the research laboratory where Tarrel had conducted his fatal experiments. People screamed and fled. Some tried to cast spells, only to have their magic go awry in a wash of strange effects. Teleportation spells transported heads without their bodies. Flight enchantments sent their users hurtling into buildings. Wards imploded, crushing that which they were meant to protect.

      Ur-Dormoth was just one city out of hundreds, but the Way, a global telepathic link which united all Raal, was irreversibly tainted. Less than a year passed before Tarrel’s name was forgotten, but in the end he got his wish: an eternal, undying legacy -- in the form of a vast, magical wasteland sprawling across a quarter of the continent.

      7 votes
    13. serre-moi /// sehr moi

      cool to see i'm not the only person writing poetry on here anymore. shoutout to @precise and @zoec for sharing their works recently. def looking forward to more in the future. bishop. do you think...

      cool to see i'm not the only person writing poetry on here anymore. shoutout to @precise and @zoec for sharing their works recently. def looking forward to more in the future.

      bishop.


      do you think i'm pretty?
      do you think of me at all?
      i've been laying here and shrinking
      oh my god i'm feeling small
      every bit of stock that i had
      in myself, i auctioned off
      invested it in you, hoping
      you'd return my calls.

      mama i just need a hug
      baby need a little love
      miss how every day you'd tell me
      "baby you look cute as fuck"
      now you're gone i'm feeling rough
      wonder if i'm good enough
      used to be so confident
      now i'm into hella drugs
      every time i look into the mirror
      i start pouring up
      yeah she was your better half
      you're the worse, and quartered up.
      your nose is too big, hair thin
      need a tummy tuck
      need someone to show you love
      warm kisses and tummy rubs

      you were my rock and now i sniff rocks.
      we had a ball, and now i pop bars.
      suicidal thoughts, and crashed cars.
      i'm not good enough for any heart.
      catch a bag, catch a nose job.
      dark eyes, need to nod off.
      5'6 never get tall.
      take my brain with a sawed-off.

      god i wish somebody told me
      that the world was gonna roll me
      up into a piece of paper
      light my ass on fire - smoking.
      laying in the dark and dosing
      tryna keep my eyes from closing
      took you to my favorite cities
      love was in St. Louis, growing.
      boy you're getting kinda fat,
      acne's bad, already know it.
      chipped a tooth back in the crash
      people cannot help but notice
      looking down at my whole world eroded
      can't seem to control it
      guess this is the life i've chosen
      getting high and never coping

      mama i just need a hug
      baby need a little love
      girl what happened to the old
      days of us not giving up
      you gave me euphoria
      fuck, i never needed drugs
      i know we had some hard times
      i guess i didn't love enough
      i know that we would argue, we
      would yell, and i would wanna cry
      but at least i had someone
      to hold and didn't wanna die
      hope you have a better life,
      peacing out for now cus i'm
      gonna take a couple drugs and
      pray to god i die tonight

      6 votes
    14. The World is Ending

      They know Of their inevitable demise Those less fortunate They despise The politics that are destroying their lives Inquisition, conquest It was all a political contest War torn, occupied...

      They know
      Of their inevitable demise
      Those less fortunate
      They despise
      The politics that are destroying their lives
      Inquisition, conquest
      It was all a political contest
      War torn, occupied
      Exploited for all they had
      Abandoned, left for dead
      No political discourse, fragmented
      Left to wither, to their demise
      All at the whim of some rich guys

      They are neck deep
      The desires of the ivory tower
      Are now the problems of those with no power
      Mass consumption, transportation
      All at the cost of their civilization
      They scramble, they climb
      The pleas for help are heard loud and wide
      No answer
      The problem is not mine
      Engulfed, they weep

      A man in his chair
      On a balcony, willfully blind
      Overlooking all this despair
      A storm builds on the horizon
      It is close, provokes fear
      Storms have come before
      They have never gotten so near
      Perhaps if he had listened
      He shed a tear

      10 votes
    15. A prayer

      A very short poem in 28 words, originally written on the fly for personal reasons, and shown to another audience. Revised for metrical harmony. O night and secret morning, come to me Invade this...

      A very short poem in 28 words, originally written on the fly for personal reasons, and shown to another audience. Revised for metrical harmony.


      O night and secret morning, come to me
      Invade this body, use my strange desire
      To reenact the birth of midday sun
      Contained in cold, recurring, starless nights

      6 votes
    16. weary///deplteted.

      hello. so all of my works have been on here thus far. either existing as posts on tildes if it's something new, or on my desktop if it's a piece from earlier in the year. i've not gotten the...

      hello.

      so all of my works have been on here thus far. either existing as posts on tildes if it's something new, or on my desktop if it's a piece from earlier in the year.

      i've not gotten the chance to head into a studio yet, thought i'm curious. would anyone care to hear any of these pieces put to music?

      if so, which one? i imagine myself being on limited funds for the first few months once i get the fuck out of texas - furnishing a new apartment from the ground up is gonna be money, so i'm limited on how much studio time i'll be able to get but it's definitely going to be a priority.

      also - what'd you have for breakfast?

      -bishop


      how can creativity
      be so void of itself
      writing poetry is grabbing
      beats from off the shelf
      finding other words to
      talk about the shit you felt
      and repeating endlessly
      that you want to kill yourself
      you turned into a druggie
      after mommy up and left
      you did the best you could
      and now you're feeling all depressed
      no money, think you're ugly
      and you're wanting to regress
      dreaming of the days you'd
      lay your head upon her chest

      it's the same shit.
      ain't shit changed
      in the last 90 days
      with your lame quips.
      hit the drain switch.
      catch a liquor wave
      write about wanting a grave
      in a krater.
      baby face it -
      your mind is going numb
      because you're never number one
      in your focus.
      but you chose it.
      saw the flags, you were blind.
      joy in second to the grind
      man it's hopeless.

      hope we find some other shit now.
      find some new words to write down.
      otherwise i'm going down.
      otherwise i'm going down.

      crawl into a corner, fade
      into obscurity
      never did i think my love
      would be the death of me
      conflicted, wanting peace,
      but i also want to scream
      wicca bloody sacrifice
      when you show on my screen
      tired of this fucking state
      i really wanna leave
      head out to the west
      spend all my money on some weed
      maybe in stay in Texas
      do some harder shit for free
      they say be yourself but
      even i'm tired of me.

      and i'm solo.
      friends don't understand
      family do what they can
      but they don't know
      i feel so alone.
      try to play it safe
      but the xan's a call away
      i could go numb.
      is it good though?
      maybe shit's laced,
      put me in a better place
      never come home.
      am i done now?
      have i said all i can say?
      will these ever go your way?
      i feel dumb now.

      hope we find some other shit now.
      find some new words to write down.
      otherwise i'm going down.
      otherwise i'm going down.

      doing it again, i keep
      on repeating myself
      telling everyone that every-
      day's like i'm in hell
      never new ideas, why
      am i always compelled
      to write all of these poems
      that are copies of themselves
      is this all cathartic,
      or at all good for my health?
      nowhere else to turn, i
      guess i'm feeling overwhelmed
      maybe i should call it quits
      and keep it to myself
      and pray to god that i
      will not see november twelfth.

      9 votes
    17. Grey

      Grey sky not so high crushing my soul it is full dark thoughts, cynicism seeing all these whataboutisms. Grey scale looking like the silver screen can’t inhale makes me wanna scream no voice,...

      Grey sky
      not so high
      crushing my soul
      it is full
      dark thoughts, cynicism
      seeing all these whataboutisms.

      Grey scale
      looking like the silver screen
      can’t inhale
      makes me wanna scream
      no voice, representation
      guess they’re all on vacation.

      Grey paper
      thrown to the stoop
      next to the phone book
      a tattering of what was
      accountability
      reduced to tabloid scoops,
      fake news.

      Grey matter
      on the wall
      in its place after all
      silence, finally silence
      no more dealing with all the violence
      the vitriol, all that was left
      control, I finally have control.

      11 votes
    18. teagritty.

      howdy there. had a good day today, landed a new contract! but of course i can't close out the week on a happy post, where's the fun in that? so i put some drugs in my tea and wrote a thing....

      howdy there. had a good day today, landed a new contract! but of course i can't close out the week on a happy post, where's the fun in that?

      so i put some drugs in my tea and wrote a thing.

      jouissez.


      manny couldn't stand in his corner
      for his last fight
      wilbur turned around, downwind
      on his last flight
      osipova sat down, and rolled
      off her tights
      big sigh
      tongue-tied
      tryna get their words right
      don't cry big guy
      i know you'll be alright
      life builds character out
      of all the bad times
      why do my characters
      always end up bad guys
      even james evans is
      falling in some bad times

      had a pet, but she
      left and took it with
      every time he close his eyes,
      her visions dance around his head
      doesn't want to sleep, so
      he's turning to the cigarettes
      kinda hard to cuddle up
      next to a slilhouette
      he craved depth, but
      he had nowhere to lay his head
      so he grabbed a shovel, headed
      out and dug a grave instead
      no more confidence, put
      some holes in his esophagus
      crossed his arms and fell back
      into his own sarcophagus

      blind optimists start
      to make his stomach sick
      you say he'll be fine,
      how are you so sure of it

      (beat.)

      how are you so sure of it

      times are hard, sui-
      cide epidemic
      one heated moment,
      rash decisions
      one year feeling this shit
      i can't live with
      remember when you made
      me liberated

      used to be a loverboy
      now i'm all jaded
      look at myself in the mirror
      and i hate it
      wonder if i'm thought about
      well, or i'm hated
      tryna forget, get
      numb in this krater
      wondering now if
      you were a sadist
      otherwise how could you
      lie to their faces?
      tell em that you'd be
      there when they need it?
      i'm not the only body
      you left bleeding

      he craved depth, but
      he had nowhere to lay his head
      so he grabbed a shovel, headed
      out and dug a grave instead
      no more confidence, put
      some holes in his esophagus
      crossed his arms and fell back
      into his own sarcophagus
      "FUK LUV" blood-etched,
      tatted on his chest
      eyes closed, smile wide, now
      that he can get some rest.
      high hopes that there's
      life in the next.
      what he wouldn't give,
      just to start over again.

      10 votes
    19. lunadontlovegood.

      i mean come on how often do i write something upbeat eh? bishop. esskeetit. takin off rocketship falling in a krater look around supernova feeling upgraded on the moon turned into rocks i'm...

      i mean come on how often do i write something upbeat eh?


      bishop.

      esskeetit.

      takin off
      rocketship
      falling in a krater
      look around
      supernova
      feeling upgraded
      on the moon
      turned into rocks
      i'm integrated
      i'm goin up never
      coming home don't
      lose your patience
      takin off
      rocketship
      falling in a krater
      look around
      supernova
      feeling upgraded
      on the moon
      turned into rocks
      i'm integrated
      i'm goin up never
      coming home don't
      lose your patience

      baby mama trauma
      got me all
      dilapidated
      only ever feel
      myself when i
      get sedated
      on some tony
      robbins shit my
      giant awakened
      hope we're
      witnessing another
      legend in the making

      keep the dream alive
      i'll make a home
      out of chicago
      get a new girl
      some better friends
      and pop some bottles
      tryna climb this
      fucking mountain and
      i cannot let go
      thank god i
      got my heart broken
      by that model.

      you called me a snake
      and then you took my
      heart to battle
      grab my neck and threw
      my body down
      into the gravel
      buried me, in
      the dirt found
      oil and fossils
      didn't think i'd
      build a rocket and
      then have a blastoff

      takin off
      rocketship
      falling in a krater
      look around
      supernova
      feeling upgraded
      on the moon
      turned into rocks
      i'm integrated
      i'm goin up never
      coming home don't
      lose your patience
      takin off
      rocketship
      falling in a krater
      look around
      supernova
      feeling upgraded
      on the moon
      turned into rocks
      i'm integrated
      i'm goin up never
      coming home don't
      lose your patience

      7 votes
    20. Pretty Terrible Story About Death or Something

      I don’t know about you, but I’d always been taught one of 2 things about death. Either You die and that’s that, nothing else happens and you slowly turn to unthinking dust or You die and get...

      I don’t know about you, but I’d always been taught one of 2 things about death. Either
      You die and that’s that, nothing else happens and you slowly turn to unthinking dust or
      You die and get transported to some mystical outside realm, either a heaven, hell, or purgatory where your immortal soul spends an infinite amount of time

      Now, these aren’t nearly the only interpretations in this wide world, but if you grew up as a middle class white kid in suburban America, this is likely all you heard.

      It took until my 30th year for one of these to be the official accepted scientific theory on the afterlife. Finally, after all these years, science had an answer for what happened after death, and it was-

      Well

      Actually, it’s not really what happens after, per se. No, this perception could not occur after death. There simply was no way any living thing could continue to perceive after death, either any way of defining life we have would be thrown out the window. Instead, this was an explanation for those pernicious near-death experiences that pop up every now and again. Rather than being dead and having moved on, these were all visions people have in the moments prior to death.

      Essentially, the afterlife was all a dream put on by the brain in a vain attempt to keep itself happy and alive.

      This led to a thought. What was the limits of these dreams? Would they continue forever? Would the occupant of the dream believe they could still die in the dream, or would they be an immortal thought, a ghost of firing neurons? Is the brain capable of nesting time ad infinitum, or is the clock speed of the brain too slow for that?

      All signs seemed to point towards the brain giving the occupant infinite joy. Citing coma patients who believed they lived millenia in only a few weeks, the majour scientists of the day claimed a way to cheat death. After all, the only limiting factor here was how fast a bolt of electricity could move across, and since that was basically light speed, time didn’t really matter.

      It didn’t really matter.

      This of course led to a massive increase in suicides throughout the globe. It seemed the main limiting factor for many was whether suicide may lead to a unpleasant scenario. Even those who hadn’t, prior to the discovery, had a single suicidal thought cross their mind jumped at the chance of eternal joy. It wasn’t until much later any sense came into people.

      See, it seems most people are born without a fear of the infinite. I won’t assume, of course, but would you truly find an infinite heaven scary? I would. Infinite time leads to infinite scenarios leads to infinite amounts of both joy and pain. Any amount of fun, after a sufficiently long time, gets boring.

      So, the world was whipped into a global frenzy of life. Wars ended as neither side could really justify it anymore. People finally began to help each other.

      And then, just as quickly as this afterlife frenzy started, it was announced the initial findings were incorrect. Perhaps a decimal slipped, so the official story was death was finite and there was no afterlife.

      That was the official story, of course. The unofficial story…

      Well,

      Imagine you’re trying to do infinite things in two seconds. If you could split your time infinitely, you could complete all infinite things in two seconds. But all the same, everything would be done in two seconds.

      Imagine now you’re trying to do those infinite things in two seconds again, but you have to work against your hands slowly disappearing. Much more difficult, and now you’re less likely to complete those infinite things, but a more finite set. If you think this whole scenario is ridiculous, it’s all based off an account by a Survivor.

      The Survivors were a test group who were used to poke and prod at their afterlives until it could be fully explored. They’re who first discovered the effects of cell death on the afterlife.

      As a body dies, the cells begin to die at a rate of 10 millimeters every second. The initial researchers thought this irrelevant, as the speed of the brain was too fast for it too matter. What they didn’t factor in was that he brain is one of the first parts of the body to die. Sure, electricity moving across perfectly kempt brain cells moved near light speed, but add in broken highways of neurons and suddenly it grew much, much slower.

      The first Survivor to discover this recounted the sky slowly darkening and a void suddenly appearing on the horizon. They were lucky, as the test was ended prior to any majour brain damage. One less so had their memories scanned to reveal their perfect paradise being reduced to a one by one meter square and their representation writhing on the floor in apparent pain. They were not recovered.

      Of course, the researchers were horrified. Only weeks prior had they stressed how painless death should now be, and here was a gauntlet thrown at their feet. So they did the only sensible thing: Lie to prevent a mass hysteria ending in the death of all humans.

      And so it’s seemed to work. Just remember, if you see an empty horizon, this is the explanation:
      Death has always been with us.
      Nobody cheats Death.
      Death will always win in a cosmic tug of war.
      And, most importantly, It’s already too late It's already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late
      It’s already too late

      6 votes
    21. at night the sandman sends me pretty things in unconsenting dreams.

      so i know nobody asks for my shit poetry lmao. i just wanna take a second to thank tildes for being a place for me to get shit off my chest. i wrote a comment on another site earlier today about...

      so i know nobody asks for my shit poetry lmao.

      i just wanna take a second to thank tildes for being a place for me to get shit off my chest.

      i wrote a comment on another site earlier today about catharsis, artistic expression, and depression. and it really made me appreciate the little community we've got going here.

      i have a feeling it's the same 5-6 people who upvote my posts whenever they come through, and i love you six to hell and back.

      i doubt i'd even get that kinda traction anywhere else.

      thank you for the support.

      thank you for letting me vent.

      much love.

      bishop.


      it's 3:11 like
      the band you like
      remember dancing
      under flashing lights
      ripped off your bra
      threw it up high
      heading home, arm in arm
      what a night
      i couldn't see it i
      guess i was blind
      fetish for pain meant
      you loved a fight
      you came the loudest
      when you held the knife
      and drove deep into
      my chest that night.

      you held me close
      and kissed me soft
      sat in your lap
      and gently rocked
      empathic smile and
      a lying tongue
      you made a promise
      that we'd still talk.
      behind your back you
      held a loaded gun
      pulled the trigger took
      off in a run
      into his arms
      into the sun
      things are getting dark
      in our garage.

      dysthymia
      is in my blood
      and i cant end
      it soon enough
      but i just do not
      have the guts
      yet.
      water my tongue
      with shitty rum
      and pray that i
      will find the one
      and she'll still love
      me when i'm drunk
      and
      dysthymia
      i'm getting high
      and i don't really
      wanna die
      it's just i never
      feel alive
      man
      dripping knife
      a sacrifice
      mr. sandman
      please be nice
      i don't wanna
      see her face
      now

      it's 3:11 and
      i'm home alone
      asking questions
      that nobody knows
      should i buy
      some xans
      buy
      some coke
      would i be upset
      if i overdose
      it's been some months
      and still here i am
      hooded sweater, scarred
      arms, kicking cans
      a black sheep,
      a lost lamb
      still in the kiln -
      shell of a man

      dysthymia
      is in my blood
      and i cant end
      it soon enough
      but i just do not
      have the guts
      yet.
      water my tongue
      with shitty rum
      and pray that i
      will find the one
      and she'll still love
      me when i'm drunk
      and
      dysthymia
      i'm getting high
      and i don't really
      wanna die
      it's just i never
      feel alive
      man
      dripping knife
      a sacrifice
      mr. sandman
      please be nice
      i don't wanna
      see her face
      now

      13 votes
    22. Alone

      There's no more sound, not anymore. Just the thudding of my own heart, deafening in the silence. Erratic, the bassline pounds out, slowing. Stopping. Just like everything else. Behind the visor, I...

      There's no more sound, not anymore.

      Just the thudding of my own heart, deafening in the silence.

      Erratic, the bassline pounds out, slowing. Stopping.

      Just like everything else.

      Behind the visor, I raise my eyes, and see the warships, the victors.

      Alone in this dark space, as fragments of what had been my planet race past, I breathe my last.

      I close my eyes, conceding defeat.

      They had dropped out the sky, and killed and maimed.

      They destroyed our way of life, our beliefs, and all the knowledge we had in a day.

      Then the raped our planet, stealing her life and resources.

      Every crop failed, or was stolen.

      The water was siphoned up and into the sky.

      They drained our oceans, leaving nothing but rotting carcasses and a new desert.

      Our forests were pulped and taken away.

      The barren roads of our world were lined with the dead, dying and confused creatures. Some predators survived for a time, hunting... But then they took them as well.

      Everything was taken, leaving nothing but sand and us.

      I was sent, a final desperate weapon, against our enemies...

      Sabateur.

      Desperate plans rarely work.

      Instead, I found myself suspended in the vaccuum of the world... As the world was ripped apart for her final resources.

      They harvested, as I lay in this lonely space, my air running out, unable to do anything.

      There was no one left to save.

      Tears fell from my closed eyes, as I waited for the last moment.


      I know the story is a bit cliche, but it came when I was exploring Elegy for a Dead World, looking to get my creative side going a bit.

      I find tiny stories like this helpful to set a mood, or get out of one, especially when my writing is blocked.

      I'm hoping to see some inspired short stories, so you guys can serve as my selfish want of inspiration, or some critique of how terribly I've used this meme.

      8 votes
    23. Ramona.

      admittedly i got really high a few days ago and watched Scott Pilgrim vs The World for the first time and i haven't been able to get the whole ramona flowers archetype out of my mind so here we...

      admittedly i got really high a few days ago and watched Scott Pilgrim vs The World for the first time and i haven't been able to get the whole ramona flowers archetype out of my mind so here we are.

      comme d'hab - l'enjoi


      Oh Ramona
      Black tie, pink hair
      converse
      geeked on the soda
      high heels
      tight dress
      choker
      got my focus
      Don't have
      insta, if
      you did
      you'd blow up
      that's all hype shit
      you don't
      vibe with
      though, yeah?

      Oh Ramona,
      spinnin for some days
      life on the skates
      out of control, yeah.
      (beat)
      caught in the waves
      getting thrown every way
      drowned and washed up
      (beat)
      tryin to see
      better life on the beach
      getting tired
      (beat)
      praying that you'll
      come and save me,
      drop me a line, girl.

      Seven evil exes lurking
      in and out of Texas
      searching for the
      next to come and
      make me
      high.
      Two fits of depression,
      dragon-chasing some regression
      and you come and tell
      me it'll be all-
      right.
      Love you with a passion,
      till you burn me down to ashes
      drive away and leave my
      house alight with
      fire.
      they want you to join em,
      'Mona begging you be stoic,
      i can give you love and
      you'll keep me a-
      live.

      Oh Ramona,
      Blue eyes, white lies
      sharks lie
      deep in the waters.
      High hopes,
      good dope,
      cutthroat,
      raise my dosage.
      So far, this
      de-
      pression,
      magnum opus.
      You're my 1-Up
      new lifeline
      my hope,
      love.

      Oh Ramona,


      Bishop

      8 votes
    24. bourbon throat burn.

      it's unfinished because i cant finish ayytjomgm but i have to post something i would rather do coke than go to bed have these visions of you dancing in my head i don't really want to die go numb...

      it's unfinished because i cant finish ayytjomgm but i have to post something

      i would rather do coke
      than go to bed
      have these visions of you
      dancing in my head
      i don't really want to die
      go numb instead
      reminiscing on our home
      in DTX
      now i'm all alone, vibing
      on some emo shit
      now i'm lost and i'm drowning
      in these emoceans
      everybody looking at me, saying
      i'm full of shit
      maybe that's why i phase out
      and stay quiet
      people always asking me
      how'm i doing?
      they're just lucky i got plans
      i haven't gone through with
      i don't really wanna be on
      suicidal shit
      but fantasizing about dying
      helps me get through it.

      .....

      6 votes
    25. Do any of you have blogs?

      If you do, link them in this thread! A bit of writing's always fun, (and selfishly, I've got a new RSS reader to break-in,) and Tildes is built around the transfer of ideas, so why not share?

      28 votes
    26. sixtysevenhundred.

      on some goth shit meditating in the graveyard tarring up my lungs while i'm walking down the boulevard sad little white boy crying, thinks his life's hard you don't know pain, there's a genocide...

      on some goth shit
      meditating in the graveyard
      tarring up my lungs while
      i'm walking down the boulevard
      sad little white boy
      crying, thinks his life's hard
      you don't know pain,
      there's a genocide in Myanmar
      people get their throats slit
      believing in the "wrong" god
      you had a girl make you high
      and you fell hard
      families are dying
      and you want to be a rockstar
      so why you taking drugs?
      what you trying to get numb for?

      i just want a life that
      might be worth waking up for
      share my music with my
      friends and maybe do an encore
      invite some people over, get
      some liquor that forever pours
      their lessons or their lesions,
      ask them all about their open sores
      sixtysevenhundred people
      either shot or burned alive
      you're dreaming of a good girl
      that you could probably call a wife
      this is how real loss looks
      this is real strife
      you drew a bath of henny
      and you want to take a deep dive

      on some goth shit
      looking out through your red eyes
      shades always on like
      a blanket to hide behind
      bleeding out, wounded
      at the first try at real life
      how does this shit balance,
      do you think you deserve to cry?
      praying for a goddess, "i
      pray you'll come and cleanse me"
      a nation full of people
      down the barrel of a cleansing
      Jekyll and I'm hiding in
      and out of all my draining
      should i even feel like this?
      there's no way it's the same thing.

      10 votes
    27. [writing challenge]: say nothing.

      hey everyone! i was sitting down to write some today, and i kept coming up with lines and lyrics that were great, but for absolute vapid-type songs (gucci gang type stuff hahaha). i thought it...

      hey everyone!

      i was sitting down to write some today, and i kept coming up with lines and lyrics that were great, but for absolute vapid-type songs (gucci gang type stuff hahaha).

      i thought it would make for a fun challenge. whether you want to write a short story, a poem, maybe a little stageplay script - what's the largest amount of words you can use to express absolutely nothing?

      whether it be something like the lyrics for lil pump's "D Rose" or something like the internet-famous article "The Rumor Come Out: Does Bruno Mars is Gay?"

      how long of a piece of writing can you make, whilst saying absolutely nothing?

      6 votes
    28. merely players

      this world is so full of energy constantly amazed by the shit i see in front of me all my wishes all my demons parade in circles surrounding me it's just the vibe that i keep it's just the air...

      this world is so full of energy
      constantly amazed by
      the shit i see in front of me
      all my wishes all my demons
      parade in circles surrounding me
      it's just the vibe that i keep
      it's just the air that i breathe
      i guess it's masochistic tendencies
      i don't want your positivity
      if you have to force it into me
      i let it hit me gracefully
      got nothing against smiling.

      it's great, don't need to say it.
      good day, when the chardonnay hits
      good friends, gonna make your sides split
      good laughs, gonna bust a lung with
      but don't, need to make it seem like
      i don't, have times when i cry
      i don't, wanna force out a vibe
      of hope, when it just don't feel right
      Sono, l'atarassia
      Voi sie-te i Pagliacci
      Why act, like the world is ending
      on days, when you find you're frowning

      this world is so full of sappy shit
      Everyone subsists off
      forced happiness, false positives
      bloody nails digging for
      every causative, we're at odds to live
      with the negative - shit's definitive
      that's why 1 in 5 on anxiety medicine
      sadness the civil sin,
      at all costs repent against
      grin through chagrin it's sheepskin
      insomniac meds for sleeping
      forget that though, my heart's leaping
      I swear to god
      every morning, open eyes
      birds chirping, and i'm in awe
      don't give a nod at my
      curtain facade and try defraud
      ridi, ridi, Pagliaccio,
      e ognun,

      .

      applaudirà


      bishop

      5 votes
    29. la donna è mobile.

      i had a dream, i saw my body as i stood watching outside of it an open door i had a guest, a little blondie baphomet she crept quiet up to my bed laid her hands upon my chest through groggy eyes i...

      i had a dream,
      i saw my body
      as i stood watching
      outside of it
      an open door
      i had a guest,
      a little blondie
      baphomet
      she crept quiet
      up to my bed
      laid her hands
      upon my chest
      through groggy eyes
      i saw an angel.
      took her hand,
      she made me promises.

      i sold my soul
      and said lets glo
      she passed a blunt
      said i dont know
      she insists
      i took a hit
      i felt a burning
      at my lips
      i let a cough
      the fuck is this?
      opened my eyes
      it was a kiss
      a little smirk
      she bit my lip
      she drew a knife
      she slit my wrist

      she cut her own
      said it's a pact
      now we're enslaved
      the bond intact
      the blood'll flow
      beyond the cracks
      and trickle down
      and leave a path
      and when we're old
      we can look back
      say what a life
      and have a laugh
      i'll be your wife,
      the better half
      you'll die, i'll write
      your epitaph

      i had a dream,
      i saw her body
      bleeding through a
      wedding dress
      she smiled still
      her face was pale
      she fed me love,
      i starved depressed
      an angel or
      a siren who would
      sing to me in
      soft caress
      i never thought
      she'd be my death,
      my little blondie
      baphomet

      bishop.

      6 votes
    30. the perks of being alive.

      ten months, three kings. fuck. things you should know if you're gonna fuck with drugs. [reddit link] relevant shit: "Legends" x Juice WRLD "THE BLACKEST BALLOON" x Denzel Curry let's get to the...

      ten months, three kings.

      fuck.

      things you should know if you're gonna fuck with drugs. [reddit link]

      relevant shit:

      "Legends" x Juice WRLD
      "THE BLACKEST BALLOON" x Denzel Curry

      let's get to the piece


      death always seemed imminent
      every track he wrote it in
      real goth shit he'd represent
      drugs never put him on the fence
      geeked off coke, asleep off xans
      ate a couple shrooms he was diving in
      two hydros and two oxys blend
      had a full pill bottle in his hands
      nobody knew he would get so bent
      nobody knew it was laced with fent
      a message from postmortem breath
      everybody stop, get off your shit
      message rang, got left on sent
      looks like nobody's listening
      the saddest case that you could present
      never heard a peep about this shit again

      just pop another pill
      while the house is on fire
      just a warm blanket baby boy,
      you're gonna be fine.
      tryna look around,
      but you can't focus your eyes
      end up staring down the bottle
      tryna see what's inside
      looks like you found the
      perks of being alive.

      next gunned down midsummer
      cut across by two gunners
      reached their hands in
      to grab his things
      then bolted off and
      let shots ring
      they caught his neck
      boy couldn't breathe
      blood poured onto the
      beamer seats
      right as this boy began to preach
      a brand new message bent on peace
      a brand new face for the world to see
      his eyes saw love in the future
      tryna inspire life out of the dead sea
      20 years old, brought to his knees

      just pop another pill
      while the house is on fire
      just a warm blanket baby boy,
      you're gonna be fine.
      tryna look around,
      but you can't focus your eyes
      end up staring down the bottle
      tryna see what's inside
      looks like you found the
      perks of being alive.

      blue slides on both feet,
      just a college kid who loved weed
      found himself in a new scene
      little more fame, little more green
      then he started touring
      got hooked off the purp drink
      off the cocaine and promethazine
      found a swimming pool
      poured in the lean
      tried to swim out
      wouldn't let him leave
      pulled him to the deep
      wouldn't let him breathe
      cinderella, he had a queen
      ended, toxic, but they were teamed
      now four months later - it's the final scene.

      just pop another pill
      while the house is on fire
      just a warm blanket baby boy,
      you're gonna be fine.
      tryna look around,
      but you can't focus your eyes
      end up staring down the bottle
      tryna see what's inside
      looks like you found the
      perks of being alive.


      "Star Shopping" x Lil Peep

      "Snow" x XXXTentacion

      "Self Care" x Mac Miller

      rest in power my guys.

      8 votes
    31. Out Here

      Space. Mankind’s last great mystery. Our modern day ‘Wild West’. What a privilege to be born during this golden age of space exploration, to have the chance to strike out and see a universe so...

      Space. Mankind’s last great mystery. Our modern day ‘Wild West’. What a privilege to be born during this golden age of space exploration, to have the chance to strike out and see a universe so full of absolutely nothing.

      There is nothing out here, there’s a reason it’s often referred to as a void. Okay, yes, the more astute members of you will point out space isn’t truly empty, planets and nebulas, and even us, the humans and our crafts. But for the sake of the scale upon which we view it, its empty.

      Just look at me, stuck out here, stranded, in dark space. For those of you still catching up on your terminology, that’s what we call the space in between galaxies. Yes, those galaxies, the big ones that contain untold numbers of stars. No, I don’t know how I got out here. If I did, I would have done something to reverse it.

      All I can tell you is that I’m out here with a busted ship that only has enough power for life support and basic functions. Ugh, I bet you the caravan has already made it to Port Dalle, and Swiv’s drinking that blasted sludge he wouldn’t shut up about. They’re probably raising a ruckus at the bar, starting brawls and revelries alike.

      And here I am, alone. Well, I have Ping. That’s what I call that eternal pinging. If you listen closely, you can hear it, every few seconds ever so faintly. Ping, ping. I can’t tell if the universe has given me company or is taunting me. My headache leans towards taunting.

      Ping.

      I tried turning it off, I really did. But I can’t figure out where it’s coming from. It’s almost as if the entire ship resonates with the noise. It’s not a big ship, kinda, cozy. I think that’s the word. I have to duck down to pass through the doors. The bed’s a few inches too short. But I make do, plenty of room in the storage closet if I push the tools to the side. Well, I might have jettisoned them. But, hear me out! It’s not like I’d be able to use them anyway.

      ‘What are you doing on that blasted ship if you can’t fix it?’ You may ask. Well, I’ll tell you. It wasn’t supposed to break. I was only supposed to be here to press the on and off buttons.

      Ping.

      They just didn’t include any for that blasted noise. Maybe it’s coming from behind this service panel here, it seems to be louder in the bridge, if you could call this glassed in closet a bridge.

      Bang. Ow.

      Note to self: pulling on random panels is a bad idea.

      Ping.

      Yeah yeah, keep on pinging, you stupid pinging, thing, a-lator.

      Ping.

      That was not a request for you to ping more frequently!

      Ping.

      ...

      What did I do to deserve this? All I ever did was try to lead a semi-normal life. As normal a life being some intergalactic space trucker, shipper, can be. I payed taxes, obeyed the law mostly, didn’t cheat. I mean, I’m not a bad person. I didn’t do anything wrong! Or did I?

      I mean, there are several possibilities. Maybe one of the times a delivery was late it costed someone more then a few extra minutes of paperwork. Maybe I inadvertently stood in the wrong spot, ruining some poor tourists prized photo. Maybe I-

      Ping.

      Maybe I’m dead, and this is my eternal torture.

      Maybe, just maybe, there isn’t such a thing as fate or karma or metaphysical legacies. Maybe, this is just some freak thing that occurred because I was in the wrong place at the wrong time? How’s that sound? Must be hard imagining not having someone to blame for all the things that go wrong, huh? Well, I’ve been stuck here for who knows how long. No one’s coming. And there’s nothing wrong with the ship except some inexplicable power loss.

      Ping.

      Maybe whatever’s making that noise is the cause?

      Ping.

      Pong.

      How do you like dem apples, huh?... Well, I guess you like them. Seeing as you haven’t immediately thrown them back at me. Maybe this’ll keep me entertained for awhile, huh?

      Out here, you take whatever you can get to pass the time. There is literally nothing.

      I even look out at nothing. I mean, sure, I see some of the Milky Way nearby, as well as light clusters that are the other galaxies. But I’m so far off the beaten path that the ship’s computers don’t even register any gravitational pull, and they’re tuned for the center of the Milky Way to set a universal constant for direction. Uh, simple speak, the big thing at the center of our galaxy? That’s down.

      There’s some velocity. So the ship will drift for millions of years, preserved in the inky cold of this wonderful frontier, until it get’s close enough to, something, so it's pulled in and crashes or burns. What? It’s not like anyone will find it anytime soon.

      I suppose you can’t really see the futility of existence yet. Me? My days are numbered, and I’ve already run out of gum.

      Ping.

      Pong.

      Where was I? Right, existence. It’s a funny thing really. Out here, with nothing to do or see, you start to question if anything was really real. Everything turns into this far off dream, the distant past of another person. Here and now, its just you, and the void. Well, that, and the flimsy metal contraption keeping you safe from said void, but even that’s debatable.

      Isolation was the worst punishment we were able to come up with for criminals, after all.

      Eh. I’m waiting my time. You don’t want to hear a condemned man ramble on, or maybe you do, you sicko, you. You want stories, you want to hear the high flying adventures of traveling this wasteland. Tales of explorations and intrigue. Maybe even a little romance mixed in.

      There really aren’t any. Space is, well, space. Big, and-

      Ping.

      -empty, and boring. As for the people, well, the Captain Buck and his intrepid crew all work for the military. The only civilians that do this are either, criminals, insane, or desperate. And any combination of those.

      So there it is. The reality of this grand fantasy you’ve always held in your head-

      Ping.

      -laid bare at your very feet. Not very palatable, huh? Makes me think of that paste you get fed out here. Chemically infused with all the calories and nutrients you need to live. Tastes like they blended cardboard and water into sludge and called it food.

      That’s not even the worst example. There was this one time... one time that...

      Ping.

      Ah, thank you Ping. There was this one time a station had a rodent infestation. Nasty stuff. You know what they did with the buggers? (Not the Editor, Editor’s Note: Not actual bugs.) Used them for meat! You had rodent steaks, and ground rodent. Didn’t stay at that station for long.

      Oh, look. A red light is blinking. Must be time to party.

      Ping.

      Ping agrees it’s time to party. Where’d I put the people to party with? Oh yeah. They’re all back in inhabited space. C’est la vie.

      Vie la c’est? Why are you asking me?

      You know? I’ve done all the talking up until now. I think it’s your turn to tell me a little abut yourselves.

      Yeah?

      Really?

      No.

      Ping.

      Ping doesn’t believe it either. He’s even making this slight hissing noise. Just like a cat. Maybe Ping’s a cat that goes ping? Or a ping that cats?

      Having trouble understanding that one? Do what I do. Don’t.

      Stuff doesn’t have to make sense. I mean, does it make sense for some random guy to be stuck literally nowhere? No, it doesn’t. He should be back home wondering what dinner will consist of. Well, truthfully, I’d probably be stuck with the nutrient paste still.

      Ping.

      I agree Ping, that paste is a travesty and insult to the human palate. At least include something that gives it some flavor. Maybe lemon juice? And some water, and sugar. You know what? Take the nutrient paste out all together and give us lemon, water, and sugar. We had a name for that back home.... I can’t seem to...

      Ping.

      Oh, right! Lemonade. Life’s gift you didn’t ask for. Well, would you look at that? There some ice dust outside. Almost like some rock had a gas bubble inside and it leaked. There you have it folks, the lemonade for today; ice dust!

      You know, I’m getting kinda sleepy and light headed. I have been up for quite some time now. Why? Well, you and Ping are such good listeners, I couldn’t just walk away. No, it was my responsibility to entertain at the expense of my own health. I hope I did a good job, I don’t like to disappoint people. Only peaches disappoint, you expect them to be all flavorful, and they tase like the fruit has been soaking in water.

      Well, guess this is it for now. Nature calls, and I don’t think I’ll be awake for much longer without really going off my rocker.

      Ping.

      Yeah, good night Ping.

      Ping.

      ...

      Ping.

      7 votes
    32. slope.

      bishop. i want to go to colorado by the fire with a bottle of champagne with a little marijuana and a pillow tired of looking out the window every tree a weeping willow done with dying in this...

      bishop.


      i want to go to colorado
      by the fire with a bottle
      of champagne with a little
      marijuana and a pillow
      tired of looking out the window
      every tree a weeping willow
      done with dying in this riddle
      i just wanna live a little and

      i might wanna try skiing
      down the slopes but
      i don't wanna fall
      grab a friend and
      hit the snow just
      try to vibe it off
      can't feel my face
      i'm feeling better
      bad shit can't recall
      snowball fights
      my heart is racing
      til the night falls

      been sober dreaming of chicago
      off the loop we're eating tacos
      you made a ring out of a napkin
      and proposed on south financial
      my cheeks on rubies oh like marco
      to the hotel that we called home
      slept on each other on the green line
      highland park right by the water

      i might wanna try skiing
      down the slopes but
      i don't wanna fall
      memories got
      me all dark, just
      try to vibe it off
      can't feel my face
      i'm feeling better
      bad shit can't recall
      snowball fights
      my heart is racing
      til the night falls

      10 votes
    33. we will travel to mars

      we will travel to mars and devour the stars run fingers through wild dusty meteor scars in the dunes of faraway moons till the tunes of their soundless bassoons become ours when we sight the next...

      we will travel to mars and devour the stars
      run fingers through wild dusty meteor scars in the dunes
      of faraway moons till the tunes of their soundless bassoons become ours
      when we sight the next staggering flight
      from every direction bends infinite light in an arc
      you and i will embark to each spark till it's dark and together sail into the night

      10 votes
    34. 100‐Word Writing Challenge № 2: “I can see [them], but [they] cannot see me.”

      We now have the opportunity to continue our 100-word writing prompt fun :) @Kat, the initiator of this writing club, nominated me as her successor as this round's topic keeper (or if we allow some...

      We now have the opportunity to continue our 100-word writing prompt fun :)

      @Kat, the initiator of this writing club, nominated me as her successor as this round's topic keeper (or if we allow some fantasy, the "queen of stories", as in the Decameron). I'm very happy, honoured, nervous ... and so eager to read your contributions!

      As a reminder of the rules, let us make the written piece exactly 100 words. Next weekend, I'll pass the garland to one of the writers, and they'll become the monarch of stories, bring to us a new topic.

      This week's prompt is in the title:

      I can see [them], but [they] cannot see me.

      Here the pronoun they, in the brackets, is a generic one. It can be anyone, anything, or ... let us know :)

      11 votes