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Hobby update: I had my first live show!
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The myth of the productive commute
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In Iceland, well diggers seek to tap a volcano’s magma
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Cosmic concrete developed from space dust and astronaut blood
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The dark side of chess: Payoffs, points and twelve-year-old Grandmasters
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Why Monero
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Lawyers from top accounting firms do brief stints in the US Treasury Department, with the expectation of big raises when they return
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What's something that you feel is unfairly criticized?
What's something that you feel is unfairly criticized? What are the common criticisms against it? Why do you feel that those are unfair? Also, given the nature of the question, it's likely that...
What's something that you feel is unfairly criticized?
What are the common criticisms against it?
Why do you feel that those are unfair?Also, given the nature of the question, it's likely that some people will surface opinions you might disagree with. Please remember the principle of charity when responding!
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Rocket: A Web Framework for Rust
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Florida carpenter ant
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A deeper look into how YouTube’s recommendation system works
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SpaceX Inspiration4 astronauts safely return to Earth
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Bricks and the Industrial Revolution
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The first baby in history to be conceived with the help of polygenic testing
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Gov. Gavin Newsom abolishes most single-family zoning in California
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TV stations are launching multicast networks as an opportunity to reach cord cutters
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For the past year Vladislav and Vitalij Kusnetshik have been hiding out in Sweden's Minsk embassy to avoid persecution by Belarus authorities
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Our next trip to integer partitions
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Australia to acquire nuclear submarines through new security alliance
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A pint a day (30 Nov 1996)
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Study confirms superior sound of a Stradivari is due to the varnish
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California Honeydrops - Soul Tub Medley (2013)
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Weekly coronavirus-related chat, questions, and minor updates - week of September 13
This thread is posted weekly, and is intended as a place for more-casual discussion of the coronavirus and questions/updates that may not warrant their own dedicated topics. Tell us about what the...
This thread is posted weekly, and is intended as a place for more-casual discussion of the coronavirus and questions/updates that may not warrant their own dedicated topics. Tell us about what the situation is like where you live!
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Netflix hit with $5M suit over “sexism” of ‘Queen’s Gambit’ line about Soviet chess legend
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The animation of Final Fantasy I
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What did you do this week?
As part of a weekly series, these topics are a place for users to casually discuss the things they did — or didn't do — during their week. Did you accomplish any goals? Suffer a failure? Do...
As part of a weekly series, these topics are a place for users to casually discuss the things they did — or didn't do — during their week. Did you accomplish any goals? Suffer a failure? Do nothing at all? Tell us about it!
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Presenting: Space Huggers - A run and gun roguelike in 13KB of JavaScript
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Abu Nein feat. Henric de la Cour – Black Light (2021)
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Google, Apple remove Alexei Navalny app from stores as Russian elections begin
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Fossil fuel firms sue governments across the world for £13bn/$18bn as climate policies threaten profits
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Dubai has built the world's deepest pool
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Alt-F4 #47 - Calculating and optimizing recipe solutions in Factorio
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Feint - Starseed (ft. Leah Rye) (Rameses B Remix) (2021)
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The Shivas - My Baby Don't (2021)
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1 in every 500 US residents have died of Covid-19
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In the past five years, violent gangs from Sweden have increased their presence in Spain, drawn in by the warm weather and high quality of life
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What programming/technical projects have you been working on?
This is a recurring post to discuss programming or other technical projects that we've been working on. Tell us about one of your recent projects, either at work or personal projects. What's...
This is a recurring post to discuss programming or other technical projects that we've been working on. Tell us about one of your recent projects, either at work or personal projects. What's interesting about it? Are you having trouble with anything?
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Spot at Kidd Creek Mine
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Scientists present plan to cool the world through geoengineering whiter clouds
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Gavin Newsom signs bills aimed at creating more affordable housing in California
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Prisoners serving life sentences in Denmark are to be banned from entering new romantic relationships
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The accidental music of subways
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Anonymous leaks gigabytes of data from alt-right web host Epik
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What have you been watching / reading this week? (Anime/Manga)
What have you been watching and reading this week? You don't need to give us a whole essay if you don't want to, but please write something! Feel free to talk about something you saw that was...
What have you been watching and reading this week? You don't need to give us a whole essay if you don't want to, but please write something! Feel free to talk about something you saw that was cool, something that was bad, ask for recommendations, or anything else you can think of.
If you want to, feel free to find the thing you're talking about and link to its pages on Anilist, MAL, or any other database you use!
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The rise and ruin of Couchsurfing.com
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World's coldest BBQ festival | Hokkaido, Japan
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What happened to the Antarctic Snow Cruiser?
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What creative projects have you been working on?
This topic is part of a series. It is meant to be a place for users to discuss creative projects they have been working on. Projects can be personal, professional, physical, digital, or even just...
This topic is part of a series. It is meant to be a place for users to discuss creative projects they have been working on.
Projects can be personal, professional, physical, digital, or even just ideas.
If you have any creative projects that you have been working on or want to eventually work on, this is a place for discussing those.
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I'm miserable
Sorry if this comes out as a stream of possibly unrelated thoughts. I hope it makes sense anyway. If it doesn’t, or does it poorly, then I’m probably already insane. I’ve been lying to everyone...
Sorry if this comes out as a stream of possibly unrelated thoughts. I hope it makes sense anyway. If it doesn’t, or does it poorly, then I’m probably already insane.
I’ve been lying to everyone about my situation with regard to university. I didn’t use to be a blatant liar like I am now, but things have gone out of control. I think the last time I actually showed up for an exam was more than a year ago, maybe two. Since then, I’ve been faking going to exams, only to tell my parents and friends I had failed later.
Despite being in my twenties I’m acting like a child who doesn’t want to go to school, or doesn’t want to take responsibilities in general. There was a time when I genuinely liked what I’m studying at university, but I don’t know if it still holds true now. It’s been a long time since my first year at university and I feel like I’ve lost direction (I should have graduated years ago). Actually, I don’t know what I like anymore, because I don’t have strong opinions on anything. I’m in a loop of denial of my own situation and pleasure-seeking behavior (doom-scrolling, porn, etc.).
I’ve been thinking about suicide for years, but the fact that I don’t act on it makes me think I’m yet another attention seeking person who’s just pretending to be sick in order to avoid responsibilities. It’s difficult to understand what’s truly going on in my head. It’s very possible I’m lying to myself. Suicide is scary, especially because I have no access to methods that are simultaneously quick, painless and lethal. Though it’s possible that I didn’t research enough. Sometimes I think that If I had a gun, I would have already killed myself. The reality is that survival instinct is very strong, and so is the suffering of those left behind.
I often think about life as a big scam: you don’t ask to be born, someone else decides that for you. But what if I realize I don’t want to live any more later in life? I’m literally stuck here because killing myself would make other people suffer. Ironically, it would make the very same people who put me here suffer. It’s absurd that suicide is regarded as selfish, when the only selfish act I see here is giving birth to someone who may not want to live. You grow up surrounded by love and stuff to ease your journey into adulthood, only to realize life’s been a joke all along.
Maybe I’m just an undisciplined whiner: I’m unable to stop eating junk food, procrastinating, or watching (problematic) porn, among other things. There are short virtuously-lived periods during which I sleep and eat well, exercise and read regularly, interrupted by long, dark times during which I’m the worst, letting go of everything. Then there’s a whole bunch of regrets that keep cropping up in my mind (and which happens to increase over time), causing me distress in totally unrelated situations, for example when trying to focus on studying.
I should also mention that I feel like I’m losing my sense of morality lately. Since I started blatantly lying about my situation it seems like a line has been crossed, and the more I go on with life, the more moral lines get crossed. I also have the feeling that there’s no going back from this, similar to the mantra “once an addict, always an addict”, or the opening of Pandora’s box, so to speak. I feel stupid trying to convey some meaning with such poor examples, but I hope you get it. To be really honest, I’ve never been that virtuous, since I have a fair record of bad things I regret having done, especially in my high school years. It’s possible that I’m just noticing it more now.
Yeah, I know: I should see a therapist (am doing), practice meditation (kinda did, want to retry that), yada yada yada.
Again, maybe I’m just whining. After all, I don’t live in a poor third world country. I don’t have any chronic disease (that I know of). I didn’t have a miserable childhood. I consider myself privileged, if you ask me. Maybe I am the result of contemporary society: if I were a peasant in the Middle Ages, I wouldn’t even have the time to dwell on such things. Granted, I would be unhappy in other (probably worse) ways.
Maybe it’s just that being a loser is easier.
Wish you happiness.
22 votes